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Riley by dad2u
“ What happened Riley? You
haven't wet the bed since you were Leah's age. Are you
feeling ok? Did you have too much to drink, or forget to
use the potty before you went to bed ? "
"No mom,
I didn't forget to use the toilet, " I snapped, upset
that she would use the word potty, while referring to my
bathroom habits.
Mom apologised for the mix up,
explaining that she was so used to reminding Leah, that
it slipped her mind, she was talking to me this time.
" Just go wash up, honey. I'll take care of your
laundry before your sister finds out. She's been waking
up dry every morning, for the past week."
Riley
was shocked by her mother’s admission. She couldn’t
understand why now of all times, she had to be the one
who woke up wet. She removed her soaked nightgown and
panties, while her mother stripped the sheets.
Fortunately,
the mattress protector had remained in
place all these years. Her eyes filled with tears as she
headed towards the bathroom, to shower. The day had
barely started, but for her, it was already ruined.
Throughout the day, Riley's
mother would remind her
girls to use the potty. Riley knew that these daytime
reminders were mostly for her sisters benefit, but she
followed them too, helping to set a good example for her
sister. After 6pm, her mother's discreet
half hour
reminders were specifically intended for Riley. Her
mother knew that Leah would potty before her bath, and
again, an hour later, just before her bedtime, when she
brushed her teeth. This was apparently often enough for
Leah, since she didn't have a single accident for a
week. Over the following week, Riley found herself
waking up to a wet bed every morning, while her sister
remained dry. Riley's mother would leave a change of
sheets in her room
every morning, and her daughter
would wipe down the plastic mattress protector with
disinfectant and remake her bed. Riley's contribution
helped, but she knew that her mother was left to contend
with the laundry. Riley hated
having to bring her
mother the stained sheets and pajamas every morning,
knowing that she must be disappointed, in her oldest
daughter. Everything took a turn for the worse one
morning when Riley and her mother were having
breakfast and looking through sale flyers that came in
the mail. One full page ad featured a nighttime diaper
in sizes to fit teens or preteen girls.
"Maybe
these could help you Riley, Until we can get an
appointment for you to see a Urologist." Her mother
handed her the ad.
Riley was shocked by her
mother's suggestion that she should wear a diaper at
night, and tried her best to dissuade her from doing
this. She knew that her mom had seen the mention of less
laundry every morning, and had already made
up her
mind.
"Your sister has been wearing a diaper to
bed for her accidents, so why should I treat you any
differently ? ”
"You can’t be serious mom, Leah
is five, I'm twelve. ” Riley just couldn’t believe what
her mom was suggesting.
"I'm well aware of the
difference in ages, but after seeing the ad, I'm sure
you now understand that bedwetting isn't just limited to
younger children. They make diapers in larger sizes,
because there are people even older than you, who are
dealing with the same problem."
"You or I have
been padding your sister up at night for awhile now, and
she is finally ready to start wearing panties to bed.
You however, have recently started wetting quite
heavily, honey. Even if it wasn't a nightly occurrence,
like it has been this past week, we really don't
have any way of predicting when it will happen now, do
we ? As a mother, I think that the best way to deal with
this for now, would be to pad you up at bedtime, and
hope that you
don't need to use them."
Riley
was smart enough to understand, that everything her mom
explained was true, but at her age, she was desperately
hoping that it wouldn't have to come to this. The ad
listed the stores in our area that sold the product and
her mother saw that their local department store, was
mentioned. When her mom asked the girl to follow her to
her mother's room, Riley thought that she was being
given a chance to plead her case in private. She only
realized her mistake, when her mother had her pull her
pants down and hold her shirt up, while she measured her
daughter's waist and hip sizes, with a seamstress tape.
Riley wasn't sure why her mother had to measure her, as
they both knew
that she wore a dress size 2.
"Diaper sizing is different honey. It is based on waist,
and sometimes, hip measurements, in inches. Let's just
try to make this little problem easier for everyone. I'm
sure you don't like waking up in a cold wet bed every
morning,
and I would rather use the time that I
spend on extra laundry, doing things with my girls."
With that said, the topic was dropped when they
heard Leah was awake, and ready to have breakfast with
her family. Over the course of the morning, Riley had
been able to put the morning's discussion out of mind,
and was enjoying herself, playing board games with
her sister. When it was time for lunch, the girls were
asked to get ready, as they were going out for lunch,
since mom had a few items she needed to pick up anyway.
Riley got really nervous when she saw her mother park
outside of the store that carried the diapers, her
mother wanted her to wear. She asked her girls to wait
in the car since she wouldn't be long. They were also
asked to decide
on where to have lunch, since the
shopping center had quite a few restaurants to choose
from. When Riley saw her mother return with a small
package, she knew from the size that it couldn't be her
diapers, and she relaxed enough to
enjoy having
lunch with her family. The rest of the afternoon was
uneventful, as the girls played together and their mom
cleaned the carpeting, now that she had remembered to
pick up carpet spray and bags for the vacuum cleaner.
That evening after dinner, Leah was given her bath,
while Riley cleaned up the kitchen and did the dishes.
Riley joined her mother and sister in the living room,
where they all relaxed watching a movie together, before
Leah was
whisked off to bed. Riley gave her sister a
hug and a kiss, but remained behind, knowing that her
mother would spend some quiet time with her girls each
night as they drifted off to sleep. When Riley's mother
returned to the
living room, she had her coat,
purse, and keys, with her.
" I will be back
shortly. The store shouldn't be too busy at this time of
night, so it's unlikely that anyone we know, will see me
buying your diapers. look in on your sister please,
after you take your shower. She was fast asleep,
when
I left her room."
And with that, she was out the
door. How could she expect her twelve year old daughter
to start wearing diapers to bed ? I just sat there,
dreading my mother’s return. When I eventually heard the
car, pull up, it was just
before my usual bedtime. I
had already showered and was in my pajamas when mom
walked in, carrying three bags of the diapers that we
saw advertised, earlier. I took exception to the picture
of a girl on the front of the bag.
I remember
thinking to myself that she probably wouldn't be smiling
if she was the one being diapered. Mom placed one bag on
top of the bureau, and hid the other two bags in my
closet. She opened the top bureau drawer where I kept
my panties, intending to move them to the lowest
drawer. When she saw that most of them were stained, she
kept a few of the better ones for daytime and tossed the
rest into the wastebasket. My mother knew that I
wouldn't be wearing
any at night, until I no longer
needed diapers.
" But the top drawer has always
been my underwear drawer." I whined
" It still is
sweetie. But for now, it will be hiding your 'nighttime
undies' safely out of your sister's reach."
I
just sat there on my bed, watching in disbelief. With
everything else going on at the moment, it completely
slipped my mind that my little sister was a nosy parker,
and had a bad habit of snooping through drawers and
closets,
even though she has been punished for it on
numerous occasions. I was thankful that my mother had
the presence of mind, to keep my secret safe.
“
I have to check on Leah and grab the rest of the
packages, that are still in the car. It might take me
awhile, so it would be a big help to me if you would
remove the pajamas that you have on and fold them
neatly, before
putting them back in the drawer. For
now at least, you won't be needing them, with your
diapers."
Leah and I already knew the rules
regarding pajamas. Years back, when I was around Leah's
age and needed diapers at night, I wasn't allowed to
cover them with pajamas, either. Through the years, this
made it easier for mom,
if she had to change us
during the night. It did't bother us at five years of
age. We wore pajamas after our evening bath right up
until bedtime. Then we were taken to brush our teeth,
use the potty, and wash our hands.
We would say our
goodnights to everyone, before being taken to our
bedrooms. It was only then, that we were stripped of our
jammies and diapered for the night. Any friends or
family who were visiting, never had the chance to see us
in diapers.
"If the panties you have on are
stained, they need to go in the wastebasket with the
others. You still have a few for the daytime."
With that taken care of, her mother grabbed a single
diaper from the drawer and handed it to me.
"
When you have finished everything else, I would like you
to unfold your diaper and have it ready, while you wait
for me on your bed."
This last request was
deliberate on her mothers part. She already knew from
her daughters actions, that she was quite emotional
right now. In hindsight, telling her eldest daughter
ahead of time, that she was putting her back in
diapers, probably wasn't the best way to handle this
situation. Hoping that a little time alone in her room,
naked and vulnerable, with the diaper in plain sight,
might help her to accept the inevitable.
Riley
immediately noticed that this diaper was smooth to the
touch, as it had a plastic outer layer, different than
the ones that her sister wore, which had a woven fabric
layer covering the plastic barrier. Even folded, it was
obvious to Riley that it was much larger than her
sister's diapers. In spite of that, and her mother
carefully taking her measurements earlier, she still
couldn't bring herself to accept that it could possibly
fit. Frustrated,
she threw the diaper on the bed and
removed her pajamas as her mother requested. Hoping to
stay on her good side, she carefully folded her jammies,
before placing them back in the drawer. When Riley saw
that the panties she was
wearing, were also badly
stained, she knew that her favorite pair would be
joining the others, in the wastebasket. Having completed
everything that her mother had asked of her, Riley sat
on her bed and quietly glared at the
offensive
garment. Remembering that she was asked to unfold the
diaper, Riley saw this as her chance to prove to herself
that it wouldn't fit. The diaper was folded lengthwise
into thirds, and Riley was starting to get nervous
after seeing the length, and she hadn't even unfolded
the wings yet. By the time she had the diaper opened and
was smoothing out the creases, any hope that she held on
to, that it wouldn't fit, was quickly fading. Unable to
deal
with the uncertainty any longer, Riley grabbed
the diaper and stood up. Her hands were shaking as she
spread her legs, and held the juvenile garment in place.
The moment she saw that the front and back of the diaper
actually
extended a few inches above her waist, she
realized that this diaper not only fit her, it even
allowed room for growth, and for Riley, that was just
throwing salt on the wound.
" IT'S NOT FAIR, " I
said, louder than I intended, as I threw myself on the
bed and cried. "My little sister gets to wear her
panties to bed, but I have to sleep in a diaper."
I didn't know at the time, that mom had purposely
left the remaining packages, outside of my room, when
she carried the diapers in, earlier. This gave her the
chance, to quietly listen, from the hallway, as I
unfolded the diaper,
and expressed my disappointment,
the moment I realized that the diapers would fit
perfectly. She knew then, that I had resigned myself to
the fact I would be wearing one to bed every night.
When mom walked in with the supplies, I was
stretched out on the bed, naked, and quietly sobbing
into my pillow. Ignoring me for a moment, mom placed the
changing pad alongside me, then grabbed the unfolded
diaper that I had thrown
on the floor.
"Come
on sweetheart, lets just get this overwith, and then we
can talk, if you'd like. " My mother gently reminded me
as she pointed to the pad "
Although I was upset
with everything that was happening, I knew better than
to test my mother's patience. I tried my hardest to keep
my emotions in check, but I started crying even harder
when I realized that I was about to be diapered on the
same changing pad that until recently, I had been
diapering my sister on.
"Why did everything have
to be so different this evening ? " I asked myself
Tonight, my sister dressed herself for bed, while I
was the one getting diapered. At the very least, I had
hoped that being older now, mom would teach me how to
put my own diapers on,
even though I was convinced,
that wasn't going to happen. Leah had asked our mom on
several occasions if she could help with fastening her
own diaper tapes, but the answer was always the same.
With nothing to lose, I found the courage to ask mom if
she would allow me to deal with my diapers on my own,
pointing out my age and the experience I had gained from
diapering my sister.
"I'm sorry sweetie, but if
mommy feels that either of her girls need to be in
diapers, then mommy is the only one who can put them on
or take them off."
Fortunately, mom understood
that I was having a hard time comming to terms with
this, and realized that now would be the perfect time to
show some compassion.
"I am hoping that this is
just a temporary setback, Riley. I need to check you
during the night to keep track of the wettings and
changes, without having to wake you. We may need that
information for the doctors, later.
"If we don't
notice any improvement when you turn thirteen, in a few
months, then I will show you how to get yourself ready
for bed."
" I know this is hard for you Riley,
but all you need to do is follow mommy's instructions,
and we'll get this overwith quickly. You don't have to
watch if you don't want to. You can close your eyes
honey, or just look away"
I was asked to roll
onto my tummy, while mom powdered my thighs, bottom, and
even my back, hoping that it might help me to relax. She
then had me roll on my back and bend my knees so that my
feet were flat on the bed, which I did.
I even helped
by lifting my feet, so mom could spread them apart. From
the position I was in, it was fairly obvious what was
comming next. Without waiting to be asked, I put my arms
out to my side for support, and lifted my bottom,
so
that mom could slide the diaper in place.
“
That's my Big girl ! ”
" Now that you are
familiar with the routine, is this the kind of
cooperation that I can expect from you every night, when
it's time to get you ready for bed ?" My mother asked.
" Yes mommy." I replied, choking back the tears. "
I heard the rustle of the plastic as the diaper was
positioned under me, and I was asked to lower my bottom.
I knew that it would be too embarrassing to
watch myself being diapered, like my sister used to do,
so counting the tiny stars that I had on my ceiling,
provided the distraction I needed.
I was asked to
straighten my legs but keep them spread, as mom powdered
my front side. To my knowledge, tonight was the first
time in years that mom had seen me naked. She couldn't
help but notice the light growth of dark curly hair, a
painful reminder that I was quickly maturing, despite
this recent need to be heavily padded at bedtime. Mom
hoped that I would be out of diapers before the hair was
long enough to require trimming, to prevent irritation
to my skin, by holding moisture and promoting bacterial
growth. Not wanting to delay the procedure any longer,
my diaper was securely taped up. I couldn't help but
notice that the diaper was snug around my waist and
thighs as mom sat me up and inspected her work.
Satisfied with the fit, she told me that we were done.
I was able to notice the bulk, now that the diapers
were securely taped and mom had helped me to stand. I
found it uncomfortable to keep my legs together. This
diaper was much thicker than the ones my sister used to
wear. I assumed that was because it had to deal with the
heavier nighttime wetting, of adolescence. She kept an
eye on me, while I took this opportunity to feel around
my bottom. I wasn't sure that I could get used to this
bulky infantile garment that I was expected wear to bed
every night. Satisfied that I wasn't trying to remove my
diaper, she went about folding the changing pad, and
placed my diapering supplies on the top of the dresser.
I was already nearing my breaking point, but when I told
my mom how akward it was to walk, and the awful noise it
made with every step I took, her response only pushed me
closer to the edge.
"The bulk and the noise
shouldn't matter at all, Riley. You're not competing in
floor exercises, You'll be sound asleep in your bed for
the night, ."
Mom's sarcastic remark, referring
to my love of gymnastics, was the final straw, and I
couldn't hold back any longer.
" I AM NOT going
to wear diapers, mom. Take it off of me, RIGHT NOW. " I
demanded.
When she calmly informed me that it
would be staying on, I decided to just do it myself. I
managed to tear one tape before mom quickly grabbed my
arm and pulled me onto the bed. I was over her lap
before I knew it. Spankings were something that mom
rarely handed out, but whenever we got one, we always
hoped that it would be our last. I can't say that this
spanking was any different then the few others I
received over the years. Tonight, because of the highly
emotional state I was in, everything was blown out of
proportion. I remember kicking my feet and crying before
the spanking even started, and it was just after the
second smack to the back of my thighs when the spanking
stopped. I was still crying in anticipation of the next
one, but it never came. Instead, I felt my mother's hand
pat the seat of my diaper a few times, before tugging on
the waistband to have a peek. I knew what had happened
The moment she squeezed my crotch. I was so embarrassed
that I had actually wet and soiled myself, over a little
spanking. I closed my eyes and sobbed as mom took my
hand and led me to the bathroom. Mom removed my diaper
and cleaned me up with the hand held shower. I didn't
even care when she took this opportunity to lay me out
on towel and shave my muff and any stray hairs on my
backside, knowing that I was too ashamed to object to
anything. When she was finished, I was cleaned, shaved,
and diapered without any cooperation on my part. Mom
took me by the hand and led me to my room. I was given
time to settle down while she put my supplies away and
disposed of my diaper in the trash, knowing that I
wasn't about to tamper with my diaper after what I had
just been through. When she returned, she set a chair
beside my bed and invited me to sit in her lap while I
calmed down.
"I know tonight was hard for you
Riley, but you knew better than to try and remove your
diaper. You were so cooperative when I was getting you
diapered. "
I told mom that I didn't like seeing
myself in the diaper I was wearing. "I know that I need
them, but why couldn't I at least wear a nightgown or
long shirt over them ?
Part of working through
this issue is accepting that you have a problem, and
dealing with it responsibly. There is no need for you to
hide your diaper under a nightgown when you and I are
the only ones who know you are wearing one.
I have to
see when you need to be changed, and you need to get
comfortable with wearing them, since they are
essentially your 'nighttime underwear' for however long
you need them. I know you don't like having to wear
diapers, I'm sure that any girl your age wouldn't. I
think it's more important for you to sleep comfortably
through the night and wake up to a dry bed. We both know
that wearing a diaper is the only way that is going to
happen. You will wake up well rested, and won't have to
be changing sheets, wiping the mattress protector, or
risking your sister finding out. Mom wanted to be able
to change me during the night if she needed to, and
didn't want to risk waking me, trying
to remove a
nightgown, if it happened to get wet. She promised me
that if my diapers didn't have any leaks over the next
five nights, I could try wearing a short T-shirt, since
I didn't like wearing a bra to bed. I felt better,
knowing that Mom was now willing to make these little
concessions for me, as long as I was willing to to do my
part, by cooperating.
"Now, regarding Leah,
she doesn't know about your accidents, for a few
reasons. Obviously I wouldn't want to cause you any
embarrassment, but my other concern is that Leah might
start having 'accidents' if she found out that her
Big Sister and role model, was having accidents and
needed to start wearing diapers. I'm not trying to make
you feel badly, I know that you really can't help this,
but you know how your sister likes to copy you. "
I told mom that I understand her concerns, and she
promised to get a storage box to hide my changing
supplies and a lockset for my closet door.
" You
should put a bathrobe on in the morning, before you come
to breakfast, just in case your sister should wake up
early. Remember, you need to stay in your diaper, until
mommy takes it off. I will remove your diaper in the
bathroom, and dispose of it, before you shower each
morning. I have decided that starting tomorrow, both of
my girls will have a new schedule.
" After
dinner, I will give Leah her bath, then she can watch tv
with you and mommy, until I put her to bed at 8:00. I
have decided to extend your bedtime to 10:00 and my
reason for doing that is simple. In spite of the wetting
accidents and the diapers you'll be wearing to bed,
I don't want either of us to forget that mommy's Big
Girl is only a few months away from becomming a
teenager. It's only fair that you have the same
privileges as other girls
your age." I hugged mommy.
I felt closer to her, at that moment, than I have in
a long time. I knew that having to cope with two
children still wetting at night, was a struggle for her.
Now with Leah's recent progress, and my promise to deal
with my own
nighttime problem responsibly, we should
all be happier. I sat next to my mother on the couch and
she started the movie that she had chosen. The Rugrats
movie was always one of my favorites, as a child. I
hadn't seen it in ages,
dismissing it as a kid's
movie that I was now too old to watch. Tonight though,
snuggling with mommy and wearing a diaper that she just
put me in, somehow made it all seem right. We were about
halfway through the movie when I
started to get
antsy. Mom pulled me into her lap, insisting that I sit
still. I couldn't help blushing when I admitted my need
to pee, hoping that she would pause the movie and take
me to the bathroom.
"You're wearing a diaper,
honey. That's what it's for. After the earlier accident,
you shouldn't have that much in you. We need to learn
how much these diapers can hold, and you'll be a lot
more comfortable, if you just use
it now. "
That wasn't the answer I wanted to hear, nor was her
lack of confidence, that I just might wake up dry. I
couldn't blame her though. I haven't awakened to a dry
bed for a week now. I tried my best to ignore my growing
need, but
I couldn't stop fidgeting. Mom finally had
enough, and paused the movie, giving me hope, that I
could use the potty. The moment I stood up, she latched
on to me and unleashed a barrage of tickles. We were
both laughing hysterically
and having fun. When mom
finally eased up on the tickle torture, I was completely
out of breath from laughing so hard. On the positive
side, I noticed that the distraction seemed to have
taken my mind off my bladder. I was now
content
enough to quietly snuggle on my mother's lap and finish
the movie. It wasn't until the movie had ended and I
went to stand up, that I realized something was wrong.
When my hand went to my crotch, everything made sense.
I wasn't even aware that I had wet myself, but I'm
sure it happened when mom was tickling me. Mom noticed
my confusion and knew that I was on the verge of crying.
She held me tightly as I worked through my emotions.
"There is no need for you to be upset, honey. You
only did what mommy wanted you to do. Whenever you are
wearing a diaper, mommy expects you to use it if you
need to."
After I started to calm down. Mom
walked me to the bathroom and had me brush my teeth and
wash my hands. She caught me staring at the potty as I
turned to leave the bathroom.
"Don't worry
Riley, I still expect my Big Girl to use the potty,
whenever she isn't padded."
Walking towards my
bedroom I noticed that my diaper was starting to cool,
now that it had sagged and wasn't close to my body. I
tried tugging it up, but it wouldn't stay in place,
while I was walking.
"Stop playing with your
diaper, Riley! Does mommy need to put mittens on your
hands like we used to do with your sister ? " Mom
teased, and we both laughed.
I actually
remembered Leah doing that during the night if she woke
up wet. She would tear the uncomfortable diaper off,
then fall back asleep. The following morning, she would
awaken to a thoroughly soaked bed. Once mom found that
they had special mittens to stop children from
tampering with clothing, bandages, or diapers, she
bought some. Mom or I would put them on Leah's little
hands every night, right before we got her padded up.
After about four months,
that habit was broken and
Leah never needed to wear them again.
After that,
mom would threaten to put me in mittens, whenever she
saw me touching my diaper. We both knew that my mother
was only kidding. She understood that wet diapers could
become itchy, or tend to slide down while walking,
often requiring the occasional scratch or tug. Mom had
already made sure that I knew there would be
consequences if I was again caught, trying to remove my
diapers. She emphasized, that at my age, tamper proof
mittens
wouldn't be my only punishment. Her obvious
reference to the spanking I got earlier, was all I
needed to hear !
"I'm pretty sure that they
carried mittens in Big Girl sizes too mom teased, as she
checked my diaper ! Mom decided that my diaper was wet
enough to be changed, so when we reached my bedroom, mom
had me stand while she spread out the changing pad and
got everything ready.
"All set whenever you are,
honey. "
Surprisingly, I was ready. My diaper was
cooling, and I was having a hard time staying awake. I
knew what was comming and I went through the motions
without having to be asked. Mom was pleased. This
evening was just as hard on her
but that was all
behind us now. I felt closer to my mother than I had in
ages. After the last tape was in place, I smiled and
closed my eyes.
The next morning, I woke up
earlier than usual, and was elated to find that I had a
dry bed. It wasn't until I sat up, that I realized why.
There was no denying that I had soaked myself during the
night, but my diaper managed to
hold it all. It was
nice to wake up in a warm, dry bed again. Although I
would never admit to it, putting me in diapers at night,
was probably for the best. I peeked out of my room and
saw that Leah's door was closed, so I decided
to
head to the kitchen to find my mother. I saw her at the
table when I walked in, and she waved me over. Opening
my robe, she saw for herself that I had wet quite
heavily, during the night.
" Riley, you really
gave this diaper a workout, and that was the new diaper
That I put you in at bedtime. I didn't have you use the
potty when you brushed your teeth because you had
already emptied your bladder when I tickled you. I'll
have to check you during the night from now on. I think
it might be a good idea to get you some booster pads and
a few pairs of plastic panties, just to be safe.
I take Leah to the bathroom every night, before she goes
to bed. I usually have her brush her teeth, then sit her
on the potty, until she has finished. I have her wash
her hands when she's done. I don't mind doing the same
for you,
before I get you diapered for bed. And with
your bedtime at 10pm now, maybe your diaper won't be as
wet by the morning. I liked that idea !
I was
glad to see that mom was so understanding this morning.
I wanted to tell her, that waking to a wet diaper wasn't
nearly as bad as waking up in a cold wet bed, but my
pride wouldn't let me admit to that.
" Let's head
to the bathroom and get you out of this diaper, then you
can shower. " Mom followed me with a wastebasket sized
bag.
I thoroughly enjoyed my long shower. It
allowed me to retrace the conversation that I just had
with my mother... Did she really offer to bathe me and
diaper me earlier in the evening ? Would I have to use
my diaper, like last
night, if I was wearing one, at
the time ? I had to admit that despite the initial
embarrassment, I never felt closer to my mother. Was I
going to become Leah's replacement, now that she no
longer needed diapers? I had so many
questions, that
I couldn't bring myself to ask. I decided to just put
everything aside for now, and to enjoy the day. I
figured that mom would just take charge of me herself,
If I didn't make a decision on my own.
After I
showered and got dressed, I headed to the kitchen for
breakfast. When I saw Leah wearing just a T-shirt and
panties, I decided to have some fun with her.
"
Oh, is today 'No Pants Day' ? I thought it was next
Friday! "
My sister couldn't stop giggling !
" No Riley, these are the clothes I slept in last
night! I don't need to wear diapers anymore, I'm A Big
Girl, just like you ! " ... Out of the mouths of babes.
I saw the look of panic on my mothers face as
she tried to anticipate my reaction. Mom didn't need to
worry. I was genuinely proud of my little sister's
accomplishment, and knew that eventually, I would
achieve my goal too.
Hopefully it won't be too far
in the future, and certainly without fanfare ! The
moment I picked Leah up and Hugged her, my mother knew
she could relax. This was Leah's victory, and I wanted
her to enjoy it. I spent a large
part of the day
with her, hanging out and talking. I learned that most
of her friends at kindergarten also managed to stop
wetting at night and that a few others only had
occasional accidents. That was her motivation. I felt
much
better knowing that mom encouraged her to stay
dry, but never punished her if she didn't. By now, I was
wondering if mom was going to miss their nighttime
diapering ritual, and looked to me, to fill that void.
To be honest, I was
starting to love the attention.
Mom was very patient and caring, my first night in
diapers. All I need to do right now is hold myself
together, and see what my mother has planned for
tonight. I needed to get my mind off of diapers, for
now. I thought that taking my sister to the park would
be a perfect distraction. Leah always loved it when I
would push her on the swings. The park was actually
rather busy today, and we were both looking around for
familiar faces. Leah was the first to spot a friend
from school, with her mother. The girls got adjacent
swings and we pushed them for at least a half an hour. I
knew that her daughter, jen, really liked my sister, and
that Leah
had never missed a sleepover at their
home. Jane also mentioned that Jen was an only child, so
aside from seeing her friends during the short time they
had at school, weekend sleepovers were the only real
chance they had to bond.
I knew that origionally
there were five girls, and all the parents agreed that
regardless of which house they were staying at,
including ours, everyone wore a pull-up at night. As the
school year progressed, some of the girls
started to
attain nighttime bladder control and began to refuse
wearing pull-ups. Three of the moms also started to
reject the idea, feeling that wearing a pull-up that
they didn't need, would either cause them embarrassment,
or allow them to get lazy and regress in their training.
Jen and my sister, were the last two of the group to
stay dry at night, and neither of them received any
invites to the other homes. I had tears in my eyes as I
spoke to Jane. I told her that as of Last night, Leah
had gone a week straight without an accident, and was
wearing panties to bed now. Jane told me that Leah had
called Jen this morning with the good news. Jane told me
that her daughter has also been doing well lately, and
that Jane attributed her daughter's progress to the
friendship that Jen and Leah have, and how she stood by
Jen, when the others abandoned her.
"I learned
that without the pressure she felt from the other three
girls, Jen feels better about herself, and know's that
her time is also comming ! More important, She knows
that Leah, yourself, and your mother will always be
there for her."
Knowing that Jane was a kind
compassionate person, I almost wanted to open up to her
about own recent issues, but I couldn't risk the others
overhearing.
Dinner was wonderful. Leah was given
the chance to choose the meal as a reward for her
nighttime accomplishment. No one was surprised by her
choice, as we all favored KFC ! Mom especially, since
she wouldn't need to cook tonight.
Nearing the end
of dinner, I asked mom, if she would like me to give
Leah her bath. My sister made the decision before mom
even had a chance to answer. It was a resounding Yes !
After I had helped clear the table, and placed what
little food that was left, in the 'fridge, it was time
for my sister's bath. I grabbed her little hand and we
headed to the bathroom. I ran the water, remembering to
add the bubbles, while Leah sat on the potty. I knew the
routine
well because it was the same for me, when I
was her age. When I helped her to sit down in the tub, I
lost her in the bubbles. Maybe I overdid them a bit. I
was out of practice, but Leah didn't seem to mind! I
grabbed the sponge and
went to work, trying to
imagine what It would be like, If I was the one in the
tub, and mom was bathing me. I imagined that I would
feel very insecure. I decided to talk to Leah about
school, her friends, and what makes her happy.
"
Being out of diapers finally ! " She wasted no time
letting me know.
I could certainly understand
that. It's a right of passage that every child wants to
attain. Well, almost every child. I have been conflicted
since last night. I knew that I should be upset with my
accidents, but I can't stop
thinking about how
patient and understanding, my mother has been regarding
this setback in my life. Ever since I turned eleven, our
relationship has been estranged. I would never want to
be in the same room with mom, and I'm sure
that she
felt the same. Now I need her more than ever, and after
last night, I think she needs me too. Getting back to
the task at hand, I rinsed my sister off, only to notice
the pink glow that she had. I may have overdone the
scrubbing, but she never complained. After drying her
off, I lotioned her body well, then handed her a clean
shirt and panties. She gave me a Hug and a kiss ! Mom
noticed her healthy glow, and joked. " She hasn't looked
that pink
since birth!" At least I wasn't accused of
parboiling my little sister! Leah insisted that I watch
tv with them, and I did. This Was her day, and she
wanted us to be together ! That night, we both tucked
her into bed, with a kiss.
This was the moment
that I struggled with all day. Mom suggested that we
talk in the kitchen, to give my sister a chance to fall
asleep. She actually pulled a chair right alongside
hers, explaining that it might be easier for me to
talk, if we weren't staring at each other. This is why I
have been so conflicted. Mom has been so attentive to
these little details lately, that I trust her to help me
through this. I tried to apologise for the way I have
been for
the past year and a half, but mom cut me
off. She explained that I had been going through
puberty, and for some people it can be a rough time.
Fluctuating hormone levels can cause pre teens or
teenagers to become moody. Mom also
found out
through searching, that incidents of bedwetting have
been reported, during this time of change, in a girl's
body. Mom explained to me that testing, might give us
some answers, but neither of us wanted to persue that
route
this quickly, since there didn't appear to be
any other issues. If we both agreed that padding me up
for bed, and giving it some time was the best choice for
now, than why do I feel like a failure? After waking to
wet bedding,
for seven straight mornings, any fight
that I had in me, was gone. I needed mom for answers. My
first question to her was why am I having such a hard
time dealing with the wet beds, when it never seemed to
bother my sister?
Mom explained that the obvious
difference was that Leah was a little girl dealing with
a problem that's quite common among younger children.
Many of her friends went through it the same time she
did, and that may have made it a
little easier for
her. This was when I brought up the conversation that I
had with her mother, at the park. My mother knew about
the other three girls in the group, from sleepovers at
our home, but she didn't know that they shunned
Leah
and Jen, once they were the only ones who still had
wetting accidents at night.
"I guess that
explains why the invitations stopped." Mom said,
quietly.
Mom was glad that I was able to tell her
everything that Jane and I had covered. She knew that
Leah and Jen had each other, and two supportive parents,
and all I had right now was mom.
" "You are much
older than your sister, Riley. While there are many
others your age and older, with similar issues, it's a
topic that most adolescents would rather not share with
each other, and that can make people feel isolated.
To sum it up, your conflict is that you are a Big Girl
dealing with an issue that people mistakingly believe
only happens with younger children, but I don't think
this needs to dominate your life."
" What do you
mean I asked ? "
"You are allowing a little
nighttime issue to undermine the confidence and
determination of my beautiful, caring, pre-teen
daughter, and I have a suggestion that might stop that
from happening.
"From 8pm at night, after your
sister is asleep, I would like you to let mommy care for
you until your 10pm bedtime. I will bathe you and get
you diapered, then you can decide how we spend the
evening. This will be little Riley's
time. Our
conversations will be between a mother and child. Our
games or tv will be age appropiate. When you fall asleep
every night, I want only happy thoughts going through
that mind of yours! At 8am when you awake, you will
come down for breakfast, then shower. From that point
on, I will expect to see my 'soon to be' teenage
daughter. You will be there as a big sister to leah, and
you will have chores and responsibilities appropiate for
your age.
If you have anything that we need to
discuss, regarding your nighttime problem, it will be
done privately, and as adults. As you can see, I want to
maintain a clear line between the little side and your
adolescent side.
I would like you to try this for a
week before we make any decisions.
" Remember, I
just helped one of my little angels, out of diapers. Now
I need to get my other angel to spread her wings ! "
Over the following months, I had come to appreciate
our nightly ritual and actually looked forward to what
has become our mother/daughter bonding time. There has
been a notable improvement in my nightly issues. The
evening baths that
mommy would give me, after my
sister was asleep, continued. The biggest difference now
was that I was put in a pull-up after my bath, instead
of my diaper. For the rest of the evening, I could use
the potty or wet the pullup, if I
was feeling
naughty, mommy used to joke! Either way, It was making
sure that my bladder was empty when I was diapered for
bed at 9:45. Mom would check me periodically throughout
the night, and kept track of my progress, noting the
times when I would initially wet. It wasn't long before
mommy was finding me dry, five hours later. That was
halfway through my 10 hour sleep ! Despite a small
wetting accident, sometime during the early morning
hours, the full
bladder that I awoke to, was better
then any alarm clock, at waking me up! As I continued to
progress, I found my adult side becomming more
predominant now. I had confidence in myself, and my self
esteem soared. Mom and I still had
our nightly time
together but the conversations and movies were now more
adult. I was quickly becomming physically and
emotionally ready to leave my diapers behind. I looked
forward to the day when I could once again become,
A
Big Girl, just like Leah !
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