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Joe’s
Story
by Les Lea
Part 1
Mrs Griffiths
was getting both annoyed and worried.
Annoyed because,
as far as she could see, her eleven year-old son Joseph
spent far too much time masturbating, and worried what
effect this could have on his two young sisters, nine
year-old Mary and the youngest Susan who was seven, and,
more importantly, God didn’t approve, so she was also
worried about her son’s salvation.
Joe’s pyjama
bottoms would be stained with the evidence that every
night he’d erupted more times than his mother could
imagine. He’d found the pleasure of
playing with himself when he was nine but it was only
recently that the act occupied his thoughts all the
time. However, it was at night when the pleasure was
increased and the thoughts of Amy Wright and her friend
Daphne, along with his best friend Syed ran through his
head. He thought it was just a natural part of growing
up and had no guilt at all about what he did or where
his nightly activities took him or the mess deposited in
his PJs.
Joe’s mum was a
guilt-ridden, lapsed Catholic, who remembered stories
the priest and nuns revealed regarding the evils of such
an act so was desperate that her child should not suffer
such grievous consequences. She panicked over the
thought that somehow, Joe’s night-time inclinations
would corrupt or in some way defile her sweet, innocent
young daughters - she was desperate for an answer to her
fears. She was worried even more with the imminent
arrival of the school summer holidays that, with so much
time on his hands, he would be spending it all on such a
risky and depraved act.
She sought
advice from her priest, Father John.
Over the past
few months she had reacquainted herself with her faith
and had begun to visit the church more and more often
looking for her own salvation. She had taken her two
daughters, who went willingly, but Joe was like his
father, he didn’t have time for “all that religious
stuff”. All her old fears and superstitions came
flooding back as she knelt in prayer and asked for God’s
good grace and guidance.
#
Father John was
an old priest in a young priest’s body. He was a
firebrand, clinging to the old doctrines and beliefs of
hundreds of years of Catholic teaching and thought that
modern thinking was the way to ruin. A firm belief in
God, Jesus, Mary and the Holy Roman Catholic Church,
together with regular readings of the Bible, were all
that was needed for a wonderful, peaceful and
deferential world. A religion failed if it didn’t garner
respect, induce fear and damn all things it regarded as
progressive/evil - to this priest there was no
difference between the two. Father John’s code was
simple: do not tolerate evil in any of its many guises -
for the salvation of all its living things, use any and
every means to banish it from this mortal world. Yes,
for a thirty year-old man Father John was pretty
hard-core in his devotion to the church’s ancient
doctrines.
#
As her son
wouldn’t go to confession, or even enter the church, Mrs
Griffiths confided her worries to Father John who
initially suggested that perhaps, before the boy retired
to bed, his mother should insist he wear something more
appropriate than just his loose PJs. To prevent the easy
access to his ‘sin’ the Father suggested perhaps to
cover the offending article more substantially, thus
helping him avoid this evil act and the resulting
hell-fire he would most certainly face.
Joe was
oblivious to the dealings that were going on back home.
He planned a fantastic summer break with his mates;
camping, soccer tournaments, swimming, skateboarding…
all the out-doorsy things that a healthy, eleven
year-old should be doing, especially in the forthcoming
promised hot spell.
However, two
weeks before school broke up he was surprised to find
that his mother had laid a rubber sheet over his
mattress and insisted that he wear pull-ups to sleep in.
Confused and surprised by such action he wanted to know
the reason why.
She held up as
evidence his overly stained pyjama bottoms and gungy
underpants as proof that he needed help in controlling
his emissions – nocturnal and otherwise. She lambasted
him for bringing his filthy, self-pleasuring ways into
her God-fearing home and that he was damned if he didn’t
immediately stop. He had felt no guilt until his mother
had pointed out the incriminatory evidence and with all
the gusto that she could remember of the priests
invective on the evils of self-gratification, scared the
young lad reluctantly into wearing the proscribed item.
Echoing the
priest’s sentiments she declared that his actions were
wicked, against God and that he needed as much of the
Good Lord’s protection as he could muster if he wasn’t
going to burn in hell. The Lord (Father John) had shown
her the way regarding the usefulness of pull-ups for
protection so that would be the solution. She worried
that not only was he heading to perdition but that his
bed was tinged with evil and she was sure that something
even more heinous would occur whilst he slept if he
didn’t stop.
Scared by his
mother’s forceful condemnation and knowing that if he
didn’t comply his entire summer plans would end up with
being grounded, Joe unwillingly did as he was told. He
felt trapped but his mother watched and made sure he put
on the pull-ups before he went to bed. She inferred that
there would be trouble if he took them off and that God
was watching and would see if he transgressed and didn’t
keep to his promise of no self-gratification.
The strangest
thing transpired on that first night whilst reluctantly
wearing his holy divined protection, to his absolute
horror, something worse did happen.
#
His mother had
indeed put the fear of God into her son and sweet dreams
of his friends were now a scary mixture of screaming
burning figures and tormenting demons. He was mortified
when his mother came in to wake him for school to find
he was soaked through. Her accusing look and declaration
that God sees everything and punishes those who flout
his laws was enough to frighten and temporarily make him
believe that the Lord had punished him for masturbating.
The mess he’d made was copious, the pull-ups not able to
contain all he pissed, consequently his bedding and
everything in the room appeared drenched in the smell of
urine. Mercifully, it was only thanks to
his mother’s foresight in putting down a rubber
over-sheet that his mattress was not completely ruined.
She intended
saving her son as she had done the mattress.
However, her
weeping son was so intimidated by what had happened he
had no response to his mother’s demands that from now on
he would wear a nappy and plastic pants to bed to
protect all concerned. She was adamant that she needed
to shield his innocent little sisters from his
perverted, moist desires and that the extra padding
would at least mean they could sleep safe. No amount of
protestation was allowed and he was completely cowed by
his mother saying that she would get Father John to talk
to him if he needed ‘guidance’. The threat was the last
thing he wanted, he was scared of the priest, the power
he wielded over his mother and desperate not to have
anything to do with the man.
#
So, for two
weeks leading to the summer break, every morning, before
he was allowed to go to school, his nappy was checked
for any residue of his secretive and unholy ways.
Surprisingly, she didn’t seem perturbed if his nappy was
wet as long as it wasn’t slick with his boy juice. He
was made to stand naked whilst his mother, tentatively
searched for proof of her son’s disgusting habits before
he was allowed to go to the bathroom. Joe was told that
if she found anything he would be punished and that he’d
be made to wear his nappy all the time and that included
to school.
He just couldn’t
help the fact that, especially at night, his hand always
gravitated to his crotch. However, now the thick glossy
bulge and crinkle as he moved was a reminder of his
promise to his mother, he couldn’t get a grip or play
with himself anyway. It was hard - literally and
figuratively - not to relieve himself even with all the
padding. However, he didn’t want to cause his mother any
further upset so, whilst he could, he refrained from his
nightly vocation.
He made up for
it at school, whilst a bunch of kids pissed and shit in
cubicles all around, he spent a great deal of time in
the toilet pulling himself off. The distractions didn’t
seem to make much difference especially as he was
thinking of Amy and Syed and the thoughts of them helped
him gain quick release. His seed caught in the school’s
toilet paper and flushed away.
#
Joe’s mother,
Bernadette Corrigan had married Stanley Joseph Griffiths
because he’d gotten her pregnant. This seventeen
year-old good, meek catholic girl was guilty of sin and
just couldn’t face her priest. Her guilt spread because,
thanks to her atheist husband, she wasn’t bringing up
their children in the faith. When the local priest
recently passed away and the young, vibrant Father John
had taken over she saw her chance of reconnecting,
perhaps even being forgiven. Above everything else she
wanted to find her faith again, to love and be loved by
the Holy Roman Catholic church and promised to do
whatever it took to regain admission. She knew that once
she fulfilled her obligations to God, she would be
absolved of her sin and all would be well.
She
surreptitiously started attending mass and began to take
her daughters along with her. They seemed to like the
singing and religious setting and weren’t of an age
where they could make up their own minds. Joe was
different, he’d been dragged to one mass and was bored,
would rather have been out with his mates playing soccer
and laughed inwardly at every damnation and pious piece
of the bible the new priest uttered.
No matter how
much his mother pleaded with him he didn’t go again.
His dad had told
his wife to let the boy be before he went to the
off-shore oil rig that was his place of work. Six weeks
on and two weeks off was his normal working
configuration so he was rarely at home but his well-paid
job kept his family at a relatively good standard of
living. However, it also meant that he wasn’t always
around when something major happened.
#
Joe was like a
chip off the old block and, like his father, loved
sport, was very easy going but didn’t suffer fools and
pomposity. When his father was home they spent a great
deal of time together and Joe loved and looked up to his
father. The family went camping, his dad’s favourite way
to relax, and whilst Joe enjoyed it, his mother and
little sisters just endured it. He hated it when his
father went away but realised that it was his job and so
it was something that just had to be put up with. It was
always a huge deal when he came home because the family
laughed a lot and did more things than when they were
just with their mother.
#
On the last day
of school Joe arrived home from a five-a-side game of
soccer to find Father John and his mother in deep
conversation. The Father was all smiles as Joe walked
through the door and got up to shake his hand and
explain that his mother had volunteered him to help out
with a group of kids from church.
“Ah Joseph, your
mother has said that she would be happy for you to help
out the Cub Scouts camping trip. I’m afraid I am one
volunteer down and she very kindly suggested…”
“I don’t think
so.” Joe stood there with his arms folded, all four foot
eleven inch of him, in his dirty soccer kit of shirt and
shorts. “I have made my own arrangements for…”
His mother now
interrupted - embarrassed at her son interrupting Father
John.
“Joe, it will be
good for you. You’ll be helping the Father… and young
people who…”
She almost
apologised for making the suggestion but was
enthusiastic that it would benefit his moral turpitude.
“I don’t care.
Why the hell would I want to go on a Cub Scout camping
trip?”
With a look of
loathing on his face the last piece of the sentence was
directed at the priest.
“I’m not even a
Catholic?”
“Come, come
young man.”
Ignoring the dig
the priest tried to be jovial, accommodating,
enthusiastic and positive.
“The Lord has
time and love for every one of his flock whether they
know it or not. Your mother… and the Lord… have given
you this opportunity…”
“Well the Lord
can go fuck himself because I’m not…”
The speed at
which the young priest reacted was stunning, so much so
that Joe had no idea what was happening until it was too
late. He grabbed Joe by the arm and yanked him over his
knee. With one hand securely holding him in place he set
about spanking the boy with a great deal of vigour.
Joe’s screams were of protest and shock as his bare legs
kicked out and he squirmed uselessly in an attempt to
escape.
#
His thin nylon
shorts were no protection to the firm hand that was
raining blows on his upturned bottom - the man was
brutal and determined in his discipline. Mrs Griffiths
just stood there as the priest continued his spanking
until her son could hold back the tears no longer and
screamed for it to stop. She didn’t intervene knowing
that the priest’s action was justified and what her
disobedient son was sorely in need of. The punishment
continued long after the fight had left Joe and he’d
stopped trying to avoid each pain inducing slap.
“I will not have
the Lord’s name taken in vain,” The firm hand continued
to descend. “Nor will I have such a vile and disgusting
word spoken in front of your mother and innocent
sisters.”
The hand slowed
but still delivered hefty smacks to his throbbing
bottom. His father had never spanked him yet this priest
thought nothing about laying into him, if he hadn’t been
in so much pain and crying he may well have protested
such an injustice… but who would he protest to? His
mother seemed to have sanctioned the attack.
#
There was
another problem now as well because as the firm hand
delivered each painful whack, his full bladder had
leaked and he’d well and truly pissed himself. The
priest’s trouser leg was soaked as the sobbing youth was
dragged from his vulnerable position; the front of his
white shorts ran yellow with the evidence of just what
had occurred. The look of disgrace on his mother’s face
said it all and the red blush of shame filled his other
cheeks as he scrambled, tearfully off to his bedroom.
He could hear
the conversation continue downstairs and knew he was in
trouble. Swearing was a huge no-no in the house,
especially in front of his sisters. Even not very
offensive words like ‘hell’ and ‘damn’ were frowned upon
so the f-word carried with it great weight and as such,
the punishment would match its seriousness.
He knew that had he used the word towards a
teacher at school then he could have been suspended but,
soothing his very sore bottom, he wasn’t sure if it
applied to a priest. However, his mother thought it did.
#
After a while he
heard the priest leave and the footsteps of his mother
climbing the stairs. He was still hurting from the
severe spanking but dreaded that his mother might have
brought the hairbrush with which, in the past, she’d
threatened to use as punishment. He was in no position
to defy her? Look where it had already got him; a
fiercely red bottom, embarrassment that his young
sisters had witnessed his humiliation and that he’d
pissed himself. With his mother on the warpath he wasn’t
sure if it could get any worse. It did.
Bernadette
Griffiths may have been a small woman but when she was
roused and determined there was very little that could
control her. She made her son strip out of his
piss-stained soccer outfit and once naked bend over the
edge of his bed before delivering six more swats with
the hairbrush to his already inflamed posterior. The
screams, sorrys and pleading fell on deaf but zealous
ears as she served several more reminders of his action
to his very sore bottom.
“I’ve a good
mind to call your father and tell him what a despicable
and disrespectful person you’ve become.”
She spoke in a
tone that meant she intended to be taken seriously. She
knew he idolised his father and her husband idolised his
son, what would be the consequences of him knowing what
had happened?
“You have
embarrassed the family, upset your sisters and brought
shame on yourself by using foul words and selfish
actions… behaving like a spoilt little brat… not to
mention abusing an upstanding member of this community.”
The words of his
mother just rushed out but as Joe was still bent over
the bed, his naked bum trembling under her denunciation
he was unable to do anything but try and stifle his
tears by crying into his pillow.
#
It was the first
time he’d ever had to suffer a spanking and he didn’t
like it at all. The priest had hurt him and now his
mother had delivered a punishment she’d only ever
threatened before. His bum stung and his mind spun not
knowing what to make of it all. There was one thing for
certain, he was in big trouble and from her actions he
could tell she wasn’t going to be placated by a simple
apology to her, his sisters or the priest.
“What would your
father think…” she continued calling into question her
son’s relationship with his father, “swearing at a
priest AND being back in nappies acting like a big
baby?”
She knew that
Joe would want to keep that part of his current
situation secret but the threat was there. If his father
should know his sporty son was now a big baby and back
wearing a nappy because he had no control over his body
and constantly messed himself, he’d be mortified. Joe
groaned at the thought that such a revelation would
have. He didn’t know that his father would probably have
approved of him swearing at the priest because, for his
own reasons, he hated the deluded, and in his opinion,
perverted lot of them. All Joe now felt was total guilt,
fear, sorrow and abject humiliation.
#
She sent her
quivering and bawling son off to the bathroom to clean
up but insisted that he hurry and get back to her in
five minutes. He didn’t much feel like getting up but
the implied threat made him gingerly walk to the shower
as fast as his sore bottom allowed. His bum glowed and
he tried to avoid touching it but it was unavoidable
when he had to towel himself dry. Once back in the
bedroom his mother was still there with the hairbrush
and he guessed he was in for more punishment.
He was correct.
She delivered
another half dozen well-aimed thwacks to his already
crimson butt, then, to Joe’s surprise, fastened him into
a nappy. It was only 6.30 and way too soon for bed but
once he was secured and a pair of thick cream-coloured
plastic pants pulled over it, his mother indicated that
bed was where he should be heading. No explanation, no
meal, no TV, no phone, no nothing… she was determined
that her son was going to change his ways and make
himself one of God’s Christian soldiers.
#
A feeling of
religious zeal was taking over his mother and he was too
young and too alone to fight it. He cringed as his thick
fabric padding hardly dulled the rustle of the plastic
guard that now held him tightly. His bum throbbed, his
eyes ached from so much crying, he felt completely
dejected and what’s more, the one thing that could have
helped him relax and get over everything, was no longer
an option.
As his mother
silenced any protests; she told him if he so much as
moved from the bed at any point in the night he would
get an even worse spanking than he’d already received.
That was enough to scare him immediately into submission
but what he didn’t know was that the following morning
he would be on the bus with a bunch of cub scouts and
heading for a two-week stay at a campsite in the Lakes.
Although the
nappy was for protection Mrs Griffiths couldn’t help but
think how cute her son now looked. He’d been growing up
and adopting certain independent ways that she didn’t
particularly like but now, as he cried himself to sleep
wearing nothing but a nappy and plastic pants, she
realised that he was still her sweet little baby boy and
wanted him back. Perhaps by keeping him under rigid
discipline she could regain control over him, the
nappies seemed a good way of reinforcing that vision.
Joe could see
the sun still shining behind the curtains and hear kids
playing in the road but he was shattered, had no fight
left and worried just what he could do to put things
right. Oddly enough exhaustion overtook his thoughts and
he fell asleep almost immediately.
#
Where ever
Father John had worked he had gained a huge following.
His was tall, young, good-looking (he had the body and
aura of a rugby-playing superstar) and spoke with the
authority of a man who believed in the power of every
word he uttered. The church hierarchy loved having this
enthusiastic holy firebrand and was even more delighted
with the effect he had on parishioners. The churches
were full when he preached, the children’s Sunday
Schools were packed to overflowing and he’d turned
around the finances of his local church in just a few
months. Father John wasn’t a fool; he knew what he was
doing and was aware of his charisma but channelled it
into the areas where he thought it was needed. Bishops
had suggested he take a more high profile district but
he liked to be at grassroots, where he thought he could
do more good and, in his opinion, where the word of God
was needed most. He gave up what little free time he had
to promote and run youth groups, mother’s meeting,
scouts and guides organisations where there simply
wasn’t anything for the locals. This was why he was
behind the wheel of a thirty-seat bus, picking up the
boys from St Cuthbert cub scouts group.
#
Joe had slept
badly. He worried constantly about his current situation
and was scared that his mother was correct and he was
damned for swearing at a man of God. He was afraid that
his father would reject him once he knew he was back in
a nappy and he hoped that at all costs his mother hadn’t
told him yet. He hadn’t dared move
from his bed and for thirteen hours he’d lay there in
his warm rubberised pit, sweating uncomfortably but
frightened of doing anything, even venturing to the
toilet. He’d wet himself and was painfully aware that at
any moment he’d also shit himself if someone didn’t come
and say he could get up.
At 7.30 his
mother entered his room carrying the nasty and painful
hairbrush. She ordered him to get up. He was about to
tell her he was wet but she just waved the brush
threateningly and that alone made him stay silent. She
could tell he was wet, the nappy had expanded and his
plastic pants looked a bit bloated but she was expecting
that after last night’s scolding and punishment.
However, now she expected nothing except that her son
would obey all she was about to say and agree to her
decisions.
#
Joe stood
nervous, ashamed and wet as his mother began to undo his
plastic pants.
“I spoke to your
father,” she lied, “and he agrees with me about what we
should do about your terrible behaviour.”
Joe wanted to
speak but that look on his mother’s face meant she
wasn’t asking for comments.
She released his
soaked nappy and even without close inspection it could
clearly be seen that Joe had spunked up into them.
A grimace came
onto his mother’s face. “Well it appears that a night
time nappy isn’t enough to stop you committing sin and
pleasuring yourself.”
“But mum, I
didn’t… I haven’t… I…”
His mother just
held the evidence up to his face. The glistening streaks
giving lie to his protestations of innocence, whilst the
smell of his own urine was overpowering.
“OK young man,
you’ve had enough warnings,” she pointed to the
bathroom. “Go to the toilet, take a shower and be back
here in five minutes.”
Joe was lost for
words but saw the brush wavering in his mother’s hand
and thought better than to start an argument. He quickly
ran to the bathroom, his fading purple bottom a symbol
of what he had endured the day before.
#
He rushed his
shit and the shower was cold. He grabbed the towel and
ran back to his waiting mother as he still dried himself
as quickly as possible. Stacked on
his bed were a pile of nappies, powder and a tub of
Vaseline. His mother indicated that he should lie back
over the bed, with his feet on the floor whilst she took
charge. Thankfully the temperature of the shower had
ensured that his penis shrank to its minimum. She rubbed
Vaseline thickly around his groin, sprinkled loads of
powder over the area and then had him lift up his bottom
to place a folded fabric nappy under him. Joe screwed up
his eyes, desperate to block out what was about to
happen. This shouldn’t be happening to an eleven
year-old, who’s the captain of his soccer team and won
first prize in the inter-schools swimming gala. She
fitted a couple of soaker pads before pulling it between
his legs and pinning the generous protection tightly
into place.
Joe was on the
verge of tears. He hated this but remembered she had
warned that if there were further night-time ‘accidents’
he’d be put in nappies permanently. Tears formed in his
eyes at the ignominy of what was happening. How could
she do this to him? The unfortunate
thing was he had a nagging voice at the back of his head
that said it was ‘all his own fault’; he swore, he liked
to masturbate, he had been warned. He wondered what his
father said when he found out.
“What did… (sob)
dad say about…?” and indicated the thick nappy that now
held him securely.
Mrs Griffiths
knew she had the upper hand and that her son was in no
position or mental state to cause any problems to her so
offered an olive branch.
“I didn’t tell
him.”
Tears of relief
ran down Joe’s cheeks and at that moment he was, despite
everything else, grateful to his mother for keeping
their secret and sparing him that embarrassment. He had
no idea that no such conversation between his parents
had taken place on any of these important topics.
“This is between
you and me but…” she wouldn’t tolerate any nonsense from
her son on this point, “to ensure you are aware of just
how wicked your words and actions are… you will be
wearing protection like this, all the time, for the
foreseeable future.”
Joe winced at
what was happening and desperately searched for a way to
avoid this punishment. His father wasn’t due home for
another month so he hoped that everything would be back
to normal by then.
#
She pulled the
thick heavy plastic pants over the fresh nappy and was
pleased at the sight of the enormous tight and glossy
bulge that replaced what she saw as her son’s sin-laden
genitals… she was sure this would prevent any further
degenerate indulgences.
“There, that’s
better.”
She said with a
certain amount of pride as her son shuffled awkwardly in
the bulk and she grabbed a t-shirt and shorts from his
drawer and sorted out a pair of trainers.
“Put these on
and then you’re ready.”
Joe struggled to
pull the shorts she’d chosen over the huge clump of
fabric but didn’t dare voice his disapproval he was in
far too much trouble to argue over clothes as well. He
took comfort in the fact that it was his favourite
t-shirt (bearing the logo of his favourite soccer team),
so it wasn’t all bad. They went down stairs for
breakfast. Joe slowly negotiating each step as he
descended, the bulkiness something he wasn’t sure he
could get used to. He didn’t mind wearing shorts, he
spent most of his day wearing his soccer kit, but the
shorts his mother had chosen were very short and
revealing. Still, now wasn’t a good time to complain.
Joe noticed the
backpack he used when they went camping was loaded, with
his sleeping bag and a blanket tightly wound and
strapped under the top flap, waiting at the front door.
He didn’t quite grasp its significance until halfway
through his cereal when there was a loud ‘beep-beep’
from the road outside.
#
His mother
smiled, kissed him on the head and guided him to the
door and opened it. The bus with Father John at the
wheel was waiting with what looked like a company of cub
scouts all watching him walk forlornly down his pathway.
So here he was,
out in public and wearing a huge nappy under his shorts.
He was sure that everyone would be able to tell, and
indeed, part of his mother’s plan was to embarrass her
son and hopefully curtail some of the independent and
immoral attitude he seemed on pursuing. With a final
brush of his hair away from his forehead she kissed him
goodbye but warned him to do exactly as the good Father
told him. If she heard back that he’d been disrespectful
in any way there would be the kind of trouble only the
Bible could prophesy. With the threat left ringing in
his head her final words only added further humiliation.
“Father John
knows about the nappies and why you are to wear and use
them from now on. He is in charge of
checking and changing you when needed… you do nothing
without his express permission. If I hear anything to
the contrary I promise you’ll not be able to sit down
for a week. Do I make myself clear?”
She made sure he
was completely aware of her instructions before she
patted his padded bottom and sent him on his way.
Joe was
frustrated, distraught, upset and angry but it was all
futile. As far as he knew both his parents had agreed to
this punishment so the decision had been made and he
could do nothing about it.
His fate was
absolute and he had no one there to support him so he
trundled, defeated, with his backpack to the bus. One of
the priests’ other helpers, an older scout by the name
of Terry appeared, all cheerful smiles and bonhomie, and
offered to put it in the bus’s storage area for him. He
nodded and almost hypnotically boarded the bus to the
contented smile of the driver and the cheers of his
excited passengers. His bulging shorts didn’t exactly
hide the fact he was wearing protection and the sly pat
on his padded bottom from the priest as he pointed to
the empty seat directly behind him made him cringe.
None of this was helped by the rustle of
his protection as he flopped down into the empty space…
it only added to the sorry indignity.
The noisy group
set off to pick up the last few members of their party
and then it was off to the Lakes. Ten minutes later and
they’d picked up the last three members of the party,
three elder scouts who were designated as Father John’s
helpers. Joe began to wonder what exactly his part in
all this was.
###
Part 2
The older
scouts, who looked about eighteen, were well-groomed and
rather smart in their tan uniform of shirt and shorts
with bright green and blue neckers. They obviously took
pride in their appearance and position very seriously,
each one making a wonderful role-model for the screaming
kids. The motley collection of much younger cubs, all
aged under ten, were in their green uniform of shirt and
shorts with blue and yellow neckers.
Father John sat
behind the steering wheel, still wearing his
‘dog-collar’ smiling and chatting to any boy that
ventured forward. He knew each boy by name and even
though they probably shouldn’t have spoken to the
driver, he was never short with them, acknowledging
their excitement at going on the trip and sending them
back to their seats with a cheery word and a smile.
Joe was fuming
at the indignity and injustice of it all as he sat
wriggling uncomfortably, only vaguely aware that his
nappy was making a rustling noise. He was utterly
depressed. He could feel the priest occasionally check
on him in the rear view mirror but tried to shut out
what else was happening around him. He huddled in his
shorts and t-shirt glad at least he looked ‘different’,
he wasn’t wearing a stupid uniform and didn’t want to be
thought of as belonging to this
‘stupid’ load of ‘dumbass’ kids. At least his anger took
his mind off the fact he was wearing a nappy.
#
He was still
bothered that his mother had not allowed him to plead
his innocence about the glistening streaks she’d found
in his night time defence. He was so tightly bound in
all the fabric and plastic he couldn’t even feel his
dick. He’d kept his promise and hadn’t touched himself,
his mother had scared him enough for him not to even
think about doing so, but, nonetheless, his nappy told a
different story. He was annoyed that even without
rubbing anything his body had betrayed him and deposited
the lie.
He thought about
his own plans and wondered how she would explain to Syed
and the rest why he wasn’t around. Would she tell them
that he was doing ‘missionary’ work for the church (he
allowed himself a wry chuckle at the thought), something
he knew they’d find hard to believe, or spin them some
story about sickly aunts or the death of a grandparent?
He frowned as he comprehended he had no control at all
in whatever his mother decided to say by way of
explanation for his sudden disappearance and bowed his
head in despair.
Suddenly he was
shocked - he fumbled with the tell-tale inflated bulge
in his shorts and the even more revealing edge of
plastic just visible down his left pant leg. Even his
shorts were now trying to humiliate him. He tried to
cover up his shame but it was useless and a tremor of
inevitability ran through his body. However, whenever
the priest’s and his eyes locked in the mirror, he could
see the man smile his cheerful and inspiring smile, as
if he expected the unhappy lad to be pleased about the
trip.
#
Eventually he
looked around at the kids as they noisily chatted at a
volume any rock band would have been proud to produce.
Like the senior scouts, some of the boys had arms full
of achievement badges sewn onto their shirts and were
eagerly discussing with their friends other badges they
hoped to attain whilst on this trip. They all spoke
highly of Father John, who they were at pains to
explain, offered encouragement and advice to everyone.
No doubt, Joe thought, they believed in the All Mighty
and the priest but he knew better… or so he hoped.
Terry, the
oldest of the scouts and who seemed to be second in
command, sat next to Joe for a few moments to try and
get him involved. Joe was in no mood to join in but
Terry pleasantly explained a little about what was going
on and what he could expect when they arrived at their
destination. Terry was everything that Joe imagined
himself to be; confident, tall, good-looking and very
clearly a healthy young man that even wearing his
scout’s uniform could not be denied. Even so, Joe
continued to squirm uncomfortably knowing that the lead
scout could see he was thickly protected.
To start with,
Terry explained, the older scouts, a couple of whom were
already leaders of their own cub packs or community
groups, were there to supervise and keep the youngsters
entertained, which he pointed out to a very indifferent
Joe, would also look good on any future CV. His patience
and assured attitude with the screaming horde reflected
the same relaxed and understanding approach as the
priest. He went on to tell him that the campsite
regularly hosted visits from groups such as theirs and
was well equipped to cater to a bunch of ‘high-octane’
kids. Terry explained a great deal of other stuff but
Joe wasn’t really interested. He sat grumpily hugging
himself and wishing he was playing soccer with his mates
or, in his current situation, dead.
#
He didn’t really
want to participate in any of the singing or games the
scouts organised to keep the cubs entertained during the
journey. He was eleven damn it and past all this
childish stuff, why wouldn’t these bloody people let him
get on with his own life? Of course none of this was
said out loud but it was a constant soundtrack in his
head. However, the sheer volume and fervour of the kids
to have a good time was infectious and he found himself
almost unconsciously being dragged into the general
melee. However, a small nervous looking boy wondered
down the aisle from the back of the bus to the priest
and whispered something in his ear.
“Yes
Todd, in a few minutes we’ll stop. Do you think you’ll
be able to hold out until then?”
The priest
quietly replied but as Joe was close he could hear their
conversation. The boy had said he needed a wee.
The boy shook
his head and looked really quite upset.
“OK, you sit
with Joey here,” he nodded to the now empty seat next to
Joe, “and we’ll get you sorted soon.”
Todd must have
only been about six or seven years old and Joe hadn’t
noticed him at all until he’d wandered forward, he
looked so sad and Joe could have empathised if he wasn’t
so unhappy himself.
The boy plonked
himself down and a slight crinkle could be heard as he
did so.
Father John
began the introductions. “Joey this is Todd, he’s the
youngest member on this trip and a new edition to the
church’s Beaver Patrol. Todd this is Joey.”
Joe hated being
called Joey. Only his two young sisters called him that
and he forgave them because they were just babies as far
as he was concerned. He wanted desperately to correct
the priest as he babbled on but knew it could be
regarded as back-chat and he’d get into more trouble. He
stayed silent.
“You two have
something in common,” the animated priest continued.
“This is the first time at camp for both of you… and
neither knows any of the others very well.”
He paused and
looked in the mirror to see if there was any reaction.
Joe looked apathetic about the entire situation, whilst
young Todd looked over at the grown-up boy sitting next
to him hopeful of some kind words. Todd’s big blue eyes
and blond hair made him look like a big toddler, which
wasn’t helped by the obviously new Beaver kit he was
wearing, which sort of dwarfed the boy. His relatively
baggy shorts came down to his knees exposing his slight
slim legs, whilst his shirt, bereft of any badges,
looked like it had only been unwrapped that morning. It
was all creased and new so evidently his parents hoped
he’d grow into it over the coming year or so.
Joe tried to
ignore the little fellow but a small hand reached across
and took his as if searching for reassurance. Joe knew
that action as his sisters often sought comfort from
their big brother in a similar way if they were scared
or going somewhere new or had to meet new people.
Despite his own misgivings, he couldn’t let Todd stay
distressed so gave it a supportive squeeze. The boy
smiled and huddled closer to Joe who didn’t really know
where to put himself.
#
A few minutes
later they pulled into a service station.
The boys piled out of the bus and headed straight
for the washrooms, games and candy stores… except Joe,
Todd and four other boys; Bobby, Graham, Benny and Tommy
were required to wait on the bus. Father John asked them
all if they were wet. Joe shrugged in embarrassment,
whilst Todd nodded and so did two of the other cubs. It
was only then that Joe became aware that he wasn’t the
only one on the bus wearing protection.
Father John was very sympathetic.
“OK, you two,”
he indicated Benny and Tommy who were still dry, “you
can go.”
“Thanks Father,”
they chorused before running off excitedly to join the
others.
The priest
continued. “We’ll give them all a couple of minutes then
Terry and I will sort you boys out and get you into
something drier.”
The priest
noticed young Todd grip Joe’s hand tightly.
“Todd you don’t
have to be scared. Terry’s a nice…” but Todd’s eyes
filled up and he started to cry whilst clinging harder
onto Joe.
“Well Joey,” the
priest said as if he’d made a decision, “it looks like
you’re the one Todd trusts”.
The priest
confided in Joe.
“This is the
first time Todd has ever been away from home without his
mummy or daddy with him. So, Joey… I’m relying on you.
I’m sure this wouldn’t be the first time you’ve had to
look after someone as young as him… and… er… you’ll need
to change his nappy.”
The priest
looked at him as if he was both questioning his
abilities and throwing down a challenge.
Joe shuddered at
the idea but didn’t know exactly how much his mother had
told Father John. If he denied that he’d ever changed a
nappy before and she’d already said he used to change
Susan, he would be caught in a lie and that would mean
only one thing… punishment. He’d already experienced the
swift and effective punishment at the priest’s hand and
was in no hurry to relive that particular pain or
embarrassment again. Also, if he refused to do something
that he actually could do, no doubt that would also mean
a similar fate.
All these
thoughts zipped through his mind as he just shrugged his
shoulders and said he’d looked after his little sister
when she was a toddler so…
“Good, good, I’m
sure Todd will be a lot happier knowing you’re the one
who’ll be taking care of him.”
So, Joe was
going to be responsible for the little Beaver, his heart
sank, he just didn’t want to be involved in any of this
dumb camp crap.
#
The priest sent
them to the back of the bus where Terry had prepared a
changing mat and all the supplies organised for the wet
cubs.
However, just
before Joe turned to follow the others Father John
stopped him.
“Sorry Joey,”
the priest held up his hand. “Your mother was insistent
that I make sure you’re, well, not lying.”
Joe looked at
the formidable man and wondered what he meant.
“I need to
check.”
A shudder ran
down Joe’s spine as he realised just what it was he was
going to do, and then, almost in the same moment, knew
that this was going to be a regular occurrence and one
he had no power to resist so had better get used to.
He sighed
heavily as the priest ran a finger up his shorts leg and
under the protection to make sure all was well.
After a few seconds of inspection, which to his
credit Father John did with the least amount of fuss or
embarrassment for Joe, he nodded that he was dry and
they filed down the aisle to the back of the bus.
#
On the back
seat, Terry had just finished with Bobby, an eight
year-old who didn’t seem in the least bit put out by
being changed in public. In fact, as Terry sprinkled on
the baby powder, there was a look of absolute joy on his
face as the disposable was taped snuggly into place.
Before he was allowed to pull up his own shorts a thin
pair of clear plastic pants was rustled up his legs as
the process was completed.
Terry patted his
well-padded bottom as he waddled with a huge grin on his
face back to his seat. Graham was next, and again Terry,
who was planning a career in care, and was well on his
way to another diploma, had the boy cleaned, wiped,
powdered and in a new disposable in seconds. The
compassionate scout looked unbelievably striking even
standing in what some might think of as a juvenile
uniform; his shorts and shirt all appeared well-pressed
and in pristine condition even after the boy’s soggy
nappies had been so capably removed.
The seven
year-old seemed relieved to be out of his wet stuff and
into something dry. His very crinkly plastic pants
didn’t appear so noisy once his shorts were in place. He
shyly thanked Terry and again the finished article had
his padded bottom gently tapped as he went off and sat
next to Bobby. It was then the nervous youngster’s turn.
#
Joe noticed that
Terry had changed the other boys with speed and
efficiency and at the same time made it appear no big
deal to his wet charges. There was no embarrassment, no
silly jokes about wet or stinky pants, no making the
boys feel anything but that it was the most natural
thing to be done. He saw he had a lot to live up to.
The other cubs
were returning to the bus but, as Father John had closed
the door to give the boys a bit of privacy, could only
noisily queue up waiting to be allowed back.
Terry vacated
the area but remained nearby in case he was needed.
Meanwhile, Joe helped an uneasy Todd lay out on the
plastic changing mat, then slowly unzipped the boy’s
shorts and pulled them down. He was wearing the cutest
little pair of cartoon plastic pants but it was easy to
see that the disposable underneath was very wet indeed.
Like a toddler, Todd was sucking on his thumb but now
the procedure was underway appeared relaxed and content
with what was about to happen.
Obviously this
wasn’t something new to Todd and no doubt, to his
parent’s distress, their growing boy still needed his
protection. Joe took his time wiping the boy clean,
making sure his damp little cock and tiny ball sack were
clean and dry; he even tickled him as he did so.
A brief feeling
of envy zoomed through his mind as he thought that at
least Todd was lucky, his genitals hadn’t gotten him
into trouble yet.
Unaware of what
was going through Joe’s head, and for the first time
since he boarded the bus, Todd smiled and playfully
kicked his legs in the air. As he continued the process
Joe repeated to the now happy little Beaver about all
the things Terry had mentioned there was to do at camp
and what they might get up to once they arrived.
He nonchalantly
plonked the wet disposable into the plastic bag that
Terry had put the others in and began to powder Todd.
Unfortunately, he squeezed the container a little bit
too hard and the young boy was engulfed in a huge cloud,
which left his entire lower body covered in the sweet
smelling stuff.
Joe froze.
#
Suddenly
everyone else was engulfed in fits of laughter and even
a whiter than white Todd was giggling at what happened.
Joe didn’t dare look directly at the priest but out of
the corner of his eye he saw both him and Terry doubled
up with mirth. Another shiver ran through his body but
this time not one of dread but one of relief.
He rubbed what
he could into Todd and got him into a fresh disposable,
pulled up those colourful cartoon pants, which he’d told
Todd looked fantastic (the comment brought a huge smile
to the boy’s face), and finally had him struggle into
his oversized shorts. Joe fastened the belt tightly and
walked him back to his seat at the front of the bus.
Meanwhile, in a matter of seconds, Terry had the back
seats cleared of any evidence as to what had taken
place. The powder wiped up, the nappies removed and the
supplies back in the bag which he placed in the overhead
shelf.
The priest
opened the door and the crowd of raucous kids ran to
their seats, perhaps wondering what the lovely sweetish
smell was but otherwise none the wiser as to what had
just taken place. Once everyone was back on board, the
scouts counted their flock and confirmed the number to
Father John before he closed the door, put the bus into
gear and slowly drove off the forecourt of the service
station.
#
The mood of the
cubs had not lessened, and now that they were on the
final leg of the journey, their excitement seemed to
grow, as did the noise. Even Todd, sitting next to Joe,
appeared happier and was actually joining in some of the
songs and games that were being organised by Malcolm,
one of the other scouts. There was a lot of laughter and
shouting but it was only after about five minutes of
being back on the road that Joe realised he desperately
needed a pee. He felt stupid that he hadn’t taken
advantage of the stop but would have appeared silly if
he asked for the bus to stop again so soon.
No. He was
convinced he could last; it couldn’t be that much
further to the campsite. In fact, he’d just seen a sign
that said ‘Lakes 45 miles’.
“Well that isn’t
far,” he said quietly to himself and uncomfortably
settled back in his seat. Despite the noise all around
him and constant nudges from a newly excitable Todd, he
dozed lightly.
#
He woke up just
as a sign sped past proclaiming only another 39 miles to
the Lakes.
Joe wished he’d
been napping longer but it had only been a relatively
short time. However, he was suddenly aware of a warm
feeling in his nappy. “Oh God” he thought because he was
still pissing himself even though he was awake but
couldn’t stem the flow. He screwed up his eyes and
desperately wanted to stop but his full and straining
bladder hadn’t run its course, so the stream continued.
He couldn’t believe he was conscious and still pissing
his pants but the warm area grew as the soaker pads did
their job. The warmth engulfed his groin and slowly
started to inch its way up the back.
#
Joe writhed a
little in his seat, the expansion in his shorts was
getting quite noticeable and the plastic that had only
just been visible down his pant leg became very obvious
indeed. Joe groaned at such a disaster but
desperately didn’t want anyone else to notice so tried
to feign sleep even more. That wasn’t going to happen as
a new game which had recently been started filtered down
his side of the bus from the back and now he and Todd
had to respond with an answer. He hadn’t really grasped
what the game was all about but other kids had been
calling out names of cars so, cajoled by Todd, who
seemed to be thoroughly engrossed and enjoying the game,
he did as well.
“Erm… Red
Nissan,” Todd squeaked first and the bus laughed at his
cute high-pitched reply.
“No, one that
nobody’s said yet,” One of the cubs piped up trying to
be helpful.
At that moment a
people carrier pulled in front of the bus and the priest
had to apply the brakes to avoid hitting him. Thankfully
there was some room to manoeuvre and the car zoomed off.
“Green
Mitsubishi,” Joe shouted at the car as it pulled out in
front of a lorry ahead.
“We have a
winner.” An older voice announced from the rear of the
bus.
The crowd
cheered as that was the secret name of a car written on
a card that Drew, one of the other scouts, held up to
confirm Joe’s success.
Immediately Drew
came down the aisle and patted both Joe and Todd on the
back in congratulations (apparently they’d become a team
just by sitting next to one and other) and gave them
their prize for guessing correctly - a huge bag of
candy.
Todd was very
pleased that they’d won and couldn’t wait to share the
candy. Joe was just glad that he didn’t have to get up
and take a bow as then everyone would have seen his
bulging shorts. He told Todd that he could have all the
candy to himself but Todd being Todd, and thinking of
the scouting pledge to always think of others,
immediately got up and offered them around the bus.
“Father,” he
whispered to the driver, “would you like a piece?”
“That’s very
kind of you Todd… Joey… perhaps you can save me a piece
for later.”
“Sure Father.”
So the happy
youngster went off down the aisle offering his bag to
everyone else. Todd was warmly thanked as each boy dug
deep and fished out a piece, whilst Joe wriggled
uncomfortably under the occasional watchful gaze of the
priest.
#
Eventually, Todd
returned to his seat with an empty bag, he hadn’t been
able to save any for Father John, or himself for that
matter, but despite that, he was glad of his little act
of kindness. He shrugged as Joe looked and raised his
eyebrows in surprise.
“What happened,
didn’t you go first?” Joe enquired.
“Never thought,”
the youngster shrugged back, “never mind, er, sorry
Father, it’s all gone.”
“Bless you my
son - that was a very nice thing to do.” He left his
praise at that whilst he concentrated on the road ahead,
which was suddenly getting much busier.
Meanwhile, the
contented little boy snuggled up against his ‘hero’. One
of his small hands was resting on the front of Joe’s
abnormally bulging shorts. However, the soaked and
embarrassed lad decided it was better not to draw
attention to the fact and left the wayward hand where it
was. Now he was no longer desperate to go to the toilet,
in one way at least, he was probably as content as his
small team mate.
###
Part 3
After another
hour or so the bus eventually pulled up at the edge of
the lake. The kids took in their first view and it had
to be said it was quite spectacular.
There were half
a dozen wooden cabins and another three wooden and
concrete buildings set in a semi-circle around a huge
grassy area that led down to the lake’s edge. Two
jetties ran out thirty feet into the water and moored
alongside were several little boats. Set slightly back
from the lake was a barbeque and an outdoor eating area
but attached was a covered kitchen with seating in case
the weather was unpleasant. Next door was a large
building that could be used for anything but looked like
it was the centre point of the place as it had a
noticeboard screwed to the heavy main door. The other
large building, with a white flag pole, complete with
rather worse-for-wear flag drooping down, was like an
admin block and store room, it also had the name of the
camp written in large letters above the door – LAKE
CAMBRIA. A long list of affiliated company names and
their logos, including the Scouts, were written in gold
lettering underneath. Set back behind that was the huge
shower and toilet block, one side for males, the other
for females. There were no females on this scouting
expedition so they were free to use the entire building.
#
It was early
afternoon, the sun was bright, the place looked
fantastic and the entire bus load of kids yelled their
approval as Father John opened the door to let them out.
They had already been given their instructions and each
of the four scouts had six cubs per cabin. They
collected their sleeping bags, cases or backpacks and
immediately went to their assigned cabin, all of which
were colour-coded.
Terry, who,
judging by the array of badges and medals on his shirt,
seemed to be the most senior scout was given the ‘BLUE’
cabin (there were coloured flags on each of the cabin
doors) and that was where Joe, Todd and the four other
‘nappy’ wearers would be housed. Once they’d carried
their luggage and sleeping bags into their allotted
‘colour’ the boys scrambled to choose their own little
cot, there were ten to each cabin.
Joe, was adamant
he was not going to be part of all this so chose the one
in the furthest corner away from the door, however,
young Todd quickly claimed the one next to him. Terry,
like the rest of the scouts, had the bed nearest the
entrance, whilst the other boys formed their own little
group in the central area. Each bed had a little chest
of drawers by its side to store their belongings and the
boys began to busily stow their stuff before they
started on the day’s programme of events.
#
As Joe unloaded
his rucksack he was amazed to find that his mother had
only packed a few items and these were not what he was
expecting; any chance of independence was dashed as he
sorted through his possessions. Half a dozen pristine
white t-shirts lay on top of several squares of equally
white terry cloth that were obviously his nappies for
the time he was there. His heart sank, also included
were a large pack of pads, several pairs of plastic and
rubber pants of various thicknesses (some white but
mainly a dull opaque cream colour) and an assortment of
creams, wipes and baby powder. There were
a couple of towels, some toiletries and unbelievably
she’d even packed a small teddy bear. The only sort of
grown up piece of clothing was his favourite pair of
swimming trunks – the pale blue Speedos he wore in
competition at school. He felt so depressed he could
have cried but that would have just made the point that
his mum thought of him as a… as a… well, he had no idea
what she thought but this was a terrible kick in the
teeth to his self-esteem.
The other
members of BLUE cabin were all very excited but they had
been given their instructions whilst Terry supervised.
He helped each lad if they needed it and told them that
the sooner they finished the quicker they could enjoy
camp. Benny was almost nine years-old, as was Tommy his
cousin. They both had travelled in nappies (for
security) but had not needed changing when the other’s
had been on the bus. Now Terry checked them and they
were still dry, as were Bobby and Graham and Todd. So
that was one thing that they had over Joe, who was
sitting on the edge of his bed feeling distinctly
uncomfortable.
He watched as
the other kids put away their clothes and became envious
of the ones who, though still wore protection
themselves, had boxer shorts or briefs if they wanted
them. Alas, his mother had made it perfectly clear he
wasn’t going to be allowed such luxuries so he sat
despondently on his bed wishing once again that he was
dead.
#
The cool
clamminess was having an effect in his shorts and the
fact that he’d slyly peed a little bit more had filled
him with both pleasure and guilt - and the nappy to
saturation level. His protection now looked like it was
desperate to explode out of his shorts, the zip hardly
containing the mass behind it. More plastic was visible
and the bulge made his slim figure appear somewhat
misshapen. It wasn’t a good look.
However, he had
to face up to the fact he needed to tell the priest.
This was something he wasn’t looking forward to. He was,
with every good reason, scared of this man of God who
had been so brutal only the day before. His bottom was
still tender and, if it had been in the least bit
possible, would have had nothing at all to do with him.
However, his
mother had given him definite instructions as he’d left
that morning - he did nothing without consulting Father
John and that included changing his nappy. Despite his
desire to rebel at the very thought of this ‘rule’, he
knew if both his parents had agreed to such punishment
he’d better not cause trouble for fear of something
worse (although what could be worse Joe had no idea).
#
Resentfully, he
wandered around the camp until he found the priest who
was busy unloading provisions into the canteen area.
There were three other young men who were helping him.
Perhaps in their late twenties early thirties, who must
have been at the camp already as he didn’t recognise
them and they hadn’t travelled on the bus.
“Ahh Joey, nice
place isn’t it,” he was friendly but carried on
effortlessly lifting a huge box into the kitchen.
The priest had
been friendly and smiling since Joe unceremoniously
boarded the bus, but he didn’t trust the man - he knew
what he was really like if you got on his wrong side.
“Mmmm,” was the
only way he could respond, he had no idea how to bring
up what he needed to say. He didn’t want to appear
desperate but the fact was he needed some attention.
The priest knew
what the problem was, it was obvious even to the
untrained eye that those bloated shorts required some
attention but he wanted Joe to know he had to ask.
“Yes Joey… do
you want something?” The priest continued with his
unloading.
“Mmmm, er, mmmm,
I’m, er wet.” He whispered when there was no one else
around.
“So you need
changing?” The busy priest enquired.
Joe reluctantly
nodded.
“OK, but aren’t
you going to ask me properly?”
He wished the
stupid priest wasn’t making such a song and dance over
this but he supposed it was another thing he’d have to
get used to.
“Please would
you change my nappy… please?” He whispered with a huge
degree of embarrassment and anger at having to go to
these ridiculous lengths.
“Nearly, but
Joey, that’s not how you talk to me is it?” The priest
had stopped his unloading and stood waiting for Joe to
comply with the correct address. Joe wasn’t sure what
else was needed.
“Everyone here
calls me Father, so…”
He was eleven
years old and not grown up enough to feel he could defy
authority, even if he despised that authority and all it
stood for. He had to remember that both his parents had
decided this was to happen so he couldn’t fight anyone
because the consequences could mean more of the same…
for longer. It was difficult not to speak
his mind or feel incensed - he was between a rock and a
hard place and he hated it.
Joe wondered if
he just got on and changed himself what would happen. He
didn’t want to be wearing a nappy at all but if he had
to, why not see to it on his own and in private. The
problem was, he was bursting out of the little shorts he
was wearing, even the zip appeared to have given up
trying to keep everything in, so something needed
sorting out fast. He then remembered his mother’s threat
– if he didn’t check with the priest on everything – she
would make sure he couldn’t sit down for a week.
Now he knew she would deliver a severe spanking
made him think twice about this course of action. What
would be worse would be if Father John disciplined him
in front of everyone??? No, he couldn’t take that chance
he had to do as he’d been told and suffer the least
severe of the consequences – embarrassment.
Joe was getting
grumpier and wondered if this was worth it but he had no
option. He needed something more comfortable and
certainly drier in his shorts and this man was the only
one who could do something about it. In fact, the
wetness of the fabric was now causing the entire thing
to bunch up and irritate his skin.
However, his
need had overtaken his resistance.
“Please…
Father,” he bit his lip, “can you please, please, please
change my soaked nappy?”
The previously
confident eleven year-old voice breaking slightly to
reveal a nervous and timid younger voice underneath… the
priest nodded, smiled and led him back to his cabin.
#
In the BLUE
cabin Terry had been busy. He’d laid out all his cub’s
sleeping bags and blankets and, more importantly, added
the required waterproof sheets to the beds of those who
were in danger of wetting. This was why all the cubs
that had a ‘problem’ were put in the same room, so that
there would be less embarrassment for all concerned.
Those who wet could be changed in relative privacy and
the rest of the pack need not be bothered. Not that it
was something that needed to be hid away; it was just
done to keep those who needed such attention together
with a degree of confidentiality.
On the empty bed
in the far corner opposite Joe, Terry had set up a
changing area; a rubber protective cover, a towel, and
various cartons of wipes, powder and similar
necessities. Behind this, and like in all the other
cabins, there was a small basic washroom of sink and
toilet.
Meanwhile, all
the other boys had left and were exploring their new
home so it was just Father John, Terry and Joe.
“Excuse me
Father, but do you still want me to help?” Terry
wondered and who, to Joe at least, in build and attitude
appeared to be a younger version of the priest. However,
he was now keen to join the rest of the lads down by the
lake.
“Well Joey,
Terry is as qualified as I am but it’s up to you if
you’d rather he changes you.”
The name ‘Joey’
still rankled him so before he answered.
“Er, can you
stop calling me Joey, it’s so childish, my name’s Joe… I
prefer Joe… or Joseph?
He shook with
nerves as he thought about possibly releasing the holy
man’s temper but he’d gained some of his belligerence
back so the previous weak voice had slightly more power
behind it.
The priest,
though still smiling, looked him up and down as if he
was weighing things up.
“Sorry buddy,
the boys already call you Joey” he sounded like he was
going to apologise, “and ‘Joey’ is a nice friendly
name…”
Joe wanted to
scream at the dumb priest that the only reason they
called him that was because he called him that. He
really did have to stifle his bubbling outburst of
righteous indignation because he knew what would happen
otherwise.
“…and we’re all
friends here. OK Joey?”
The way he said
it meant that was the end of that particular
conversation, well at least, that’s how Joe read it.
Besides, he was standing in front of the priest and
aware of just how childlike his tiny bulging shorts made
him look. It wasn’t a good time to start complaining
about being called something he thought sounded too
babyish, especially as he was just about to get his
nappy changed.
Shrewdly he
decided not to draw attention to the obvious
contradiction… and thankfully, neither did the priest.
#
“Terry
will be seeing to the other boys here in this cabin,”
Father John continued, “so, who do you want, him or me,
changing you because you have to know… you will not be
allowed to change yourself.”
That was going
to be Joe’s next request… so that option went out the
window.
His mother’s
rules applied just as much here as they did at home so
there was no escaping his sentence. He was to have no
freedom. His every move not only had to be sanctioned by
the priest, but now the scouts, he was trapped and going
to be treated as an incontinent tot. However, he didn’t
mind Terry. He’d seemed genuine and affable on the bus,
and in truth, he was scared at the prospect of the
priest being that intimate with him, or finding
something that made him angry.
He made a
decision.
“I suppose,
seeing as he’s doing the others, it should be Terry.”
Joe looked up at
the proud scout.
“Is that OK with
you?”
“Of course,” he
guided Joe over to the changing area.
Once the
decision had been made as to exactly who would be doing
what the priest nodded and left them in privacy.
“I’ve already
checked the items your mother sent and as you’ll be
wearing fabric not disposable nappies most of the
time….” Terry was affable and very self-assured, “you’ll
be responsible for their upkeep – washing, drying and
such. I’ll show you where the laundry is later”
Joe hadn’t
thought about that. Another level of embarrassment he
thought as he began to unzip his shorts and lay out on
the towel.
“Now we’re
alone… er… can’t I do this myself? You don’t have to…”
but Joe’s whisper was cut short by the formidable scout…
his features hardened slightly.
“I’ve been
entrusted with a job, a job you have asked me to do.
There are rules and there are obligations, we can’t just
decide which we want to follow and which we want to
ignore.”
#
Joe wished he’d
never said anything as he thought a lecture was on its
way. Reluctantly he pulled off his shorts and saw that
his plastic pants had leaked so the seat had a large
dark damp patch. He cringed because he knew that others
would have noticed and wondered if that’s what the rest
of the pack was now gossiping about. He groaned in
frustration, anger and self-pity as Terry removed his
leaky plastic pants and unpinned his heavy nappy.
“Here, we do as
the Father says… and God’s bidding.”
The scout gently
smiled and proceeded about his business as if that was
the most ordinary thing in the world. Joe was about to
argue when Terry continued.
“You’ve heard
the saying ‘The Devil finds work for idle hands’?
Well, according to your mother; the Devil has
been finding you far too often and she thinks you might
benefit from spending time in a more moral and
structured environment.”
The last bit of
what the scout said was lost as it became clear that
more than just the priest knew about his ‘excessive’
masturbation. He got that his mother thought this
stupid, thick barrier would prevent him from playing
with himself but she must know that even when it did,
things happen. Joe could have murdered his mother at
that moment because of, as he saw it, such betrayal -
why did she have to tell anyone?
He was naked,
having his nappy changed by a ‘grown up juvenile’ (that
was his low opinion of the scouting movement) and was
seething with resentment but could do nothing about it.
His anger lasted just a moment before something more
compelling filled his body - self-pity, and he sobbed in
humiliation.
Although Terry
had set out what he knew, sadly it had come across to
Joe as something spiteful but that wasn’t how the scout
had meant it. His tone was supposed to be understanding
and sympathetic not accusatory. He actually did feel for
the poor kid but knew he had a duty to God, the priest
and Joey’s mother to try and help her son.
#
Terry was his
efficient self, wiping and cleaning Joe up in moments.
The redness on his naked bottom was the final fading
glow from his spanking and not from any nappy rash but
the scout still spread the protecting cream thoroughly
over everything. Powder was liberally sprinkled and
rubbed in, which despite himself Joe quite enjoyed. His
fresh nappy was folded in a different way to how his
mother did it, a soaker pad inserted, pulled firmly
between his legs and all pinned tightly into place so
expertly that Joe didn’t have time to feel overly
self-conscious. As the plastic pants he’d been wearing
were found to be cracked and causing the leak, Terry fed
his feet into a newer but thicker pair of rubber pants.
Just as they were finally pulled into place Father John
returned with some fresh clothes.
Joe quickly
wiped away the tears and acted like he was OK despite
the fact that he was only wearing his rather bulky,
though thankfully dry, protection. A quick look down
only confirmed that he was wearing clothing that a
toddler would have been ashamed to be seen in. Thanks to
the smooth, glassy surface of his thick rubber pants
hiding the nappy they still loudly proclaimed the wearer
to be a pant-wetter. He hated it but he had no choice.
He not only felt ridiculous and vulnerable but at a huge
disadvantage, his protection rustling with the slightest
movement. His mother had really made sure he was aware
of his punishment at all times.
#
“Here, wear
these.” The priest passed the items to Joe.
Who looked at
them and seemed shocked.
“You want me to
wear a cub’s uniform?” He said with a look of utter
disgust.
“Yes, that’s the
only spare clothing we have,” he explained to the
disgruntled lad who watched despondently as Terry placed
his wet and only pair of shorts in a plastic bag with
his soaked nappy, t-shirt and the other used
disposables.
“And besides, I
think everyone regards you as one of the boys,” the
priest enthused, “so I think you’ll fit in really well.”
Apart from the
fact he didn’t want to wear a uniform, or fit in, he
also didn’t like what it inferred:
‘One of the boys’ - it was like he was trying to make
him feel like a little kid.
“Aren’t I too
old to be a cub?” He checked out the second-hand plain
green shirt and shorts. “At my age shouldn’t I be a
scout at least?”
Suddenly he
realised he was debating that he should be wearing the
scout’s uniform instead of arguing against the entire
situation. But before he could get his thoughts into
some kind of perspective Father John was on his case.
“Sorry but if
you’d joined the scouts maybe, however, you haven’t
attained the respect that uniform gives to those who
wear it, so no.”
The priest
wasn’t playing any games with him, he was being very
matter-of-fact.
“As I said,
these are the only spare clothes we have so,” he was
right in Joe’s face, “you can either wear them like the
rest of the boys or walk around as you are… your
choice.”
#
A thick nappy
covered by cream coloured rubber pants wasn’t going to
be a good look around camp so the choice was clear.
He should have
known the nasty priest wouldn’t be sympathetic to his
suggestions. After all it was his fault he was on this
damn trip in the first place. He wanted to scream abuse
at the bloody vicar but caught himself just in time,
remembering what happened last time he swore.
Dejectedly he
pulled the shorts over his protection, the slipperiness
of the rubber helping the cotton fabric slide into
place. It was an effort to fasten the buttons on his fly
as he had to keep shoving the shiny bulk back behind
them, a zip might have been easier. Without all this
padding the shorts would have been acceptable but now
packed so tightly, they left little to the imagination
and revealed almost as much as his previous shorts. The
shirt only came down to the top of his shorts and, like
Todd’s, had no badges or emblems.
#
Terry packed up
the stuff and took it away leaving just Joe and Father
John in the cabin together. Once he was dressed he spoke
to the priest about why he was there. He expected some
vindictive reply but thought he had nothing to lose, or
at least he hoped he didn’t.
“You told mum I
was here to help out because you were a volunteer down
but…”
He spread his
hands as if appealing for further information.
A sort of smile
spread across the priest’s face and he sat down next to
the cute new cub that, albeit unwillingly, had just
become part of the pack.
“To be honest
Joey, it was a bit of a ruse…”
“You mean you
lied?” A suspicious Joe shook his head.
“Well, a lie is
a bit strong. You see, your mother wanted you to spend
some time with us, in the church’s company, away from
your friends who she saw as a bad influence.”
Joe was getting
a little agitated but said nothing as he fidgeted around
in his thick nappy.
“Now I’m not
saying they are, but your mother, she just wants what’s
best for you… and wanted you to experience a slightly
different type of influence. I suggested you join us and
be part of our camping trip… as a way of… getting to
know us.”
#
Joe was stunned
at the deceit.
“We thought it
might be more acceptable if you volunteered to come and
help us out, a sort of act of Christian charity but,
well, you changed all that…”
Joe’s anger had
just been turned in on itself because he now realised
that it was his own petulant outburst and foul language
that had sealed his fate. Suddenly his body was wracked
by a spasm that just overwhelmed him and his eyes filled
up once again because he felt utterly defeated.
“But, but, why
am I being punished like this.”
He pleaded as he
looked down at his juvenile outfit and thick nappy.
“Joe, you need
to understand. The idea for you to come on this trip was
as a treat. It was… and is… supposed to be fun for you.
The trip isn’t meant to be a punishment your mother even
said you liked to go camping. We want you to have as
much fun as everyone else but… the nappy is to help
remind you.”
The priest got
serious but the malicious words and cruel opinion Joe
expected just weren’t there.
“Joey, your
mother worries you masturbate far too much and that you
appear to enjoy this particular sin. The church is very
clear about self-abuse and although we are glad to have
you with us, we will not allow that type of un-Godliness
to occur or influence young minds. Do you understand?”
The tears welled
up even more as he realised it was true, he did like to
masturbate but, he never saw it as a sin… it was just…
fun. Why was his mother so concerned about something
that happened naturally?
#
The priest
continued to speak in an even tone.
“It isn’t
natural that you persist in this obvious grievous sin.”
Joe disagreed
but the steely eye of the priest and his inflexible
insistence that what he said was fact made it impossible
to argue. He felt the fight begin to drain under the
religious certainties Father John was expounding.
“You have made
no attempt to curtail your activities and she worries
that God will punish you if she doesn’t. So, together
with your defiance of our Lord… that is why you are to
wear the protection… not only for your own salvation
but, whilst you are with us, as protection to all the
other boys here.”
Joe couldn’t
believe what he was hearing. This was utter nonsense, he
wasn’t a threat but he hadn’t realised how worried his
mother had become or how sinful the act was.
Nevertheless, he HAD curtailed his night time
activities, he’d had to, but, even wrapped up in his
impregnable nappy she’d still found his slimy juice that
morning so, it should have been obvious it wasn’t his
fault.
However, how
could he express all this to a damn priest? What
possible insight could he have into the way an eleven
year-old boy’s body worked? What would he know about
self-denial?
#
He felt totally
alone and dejected but the priest adopted a friendlier
approach.
“Look, we’re all
here to have a great time. Don’t let what you wear be a
problem. Accept that’s the way it is and move on. You’re
not alone in having protection to help you, well, with
help getting your priorities right.”
No doubt there
were some religious tracts that explained and condemned
it but Joe was having trouble understanding why he
should wear a nappy.
“Look, some boys
need them because their bodies don’t receive a signal
when they need to go to the bathroom - others of a
certain age need them when that particular area gets too
many inappropriate signals.”
So the nappy was
a reminder, a barrier and protection so that others…
what...? The priest hoped Joey knew what was meant
without further explanation.
“There will be
plenty of things here for you to enjoy and… as it turns
out… your help is needed.”
Joe was dismayed
at what Father John implied. However, his sniffling had
started to abate as he listened.
“You have made a
friend. Young Todd thinks you are simply wonderful. He
dotes on your every word, he follows you around. In fact
I bet if I opened the door now he’d be standing outside
waiting for you. So, whether you want to or not, you are
going to be responsible for him.”
“But, I, I, I
don’t…” Joe stammered.
“Well Joey, this
is the thing,”
His tone got
gentler as the priest moved his face closer to Joe’s and
placed a reassuring hand on his shoulder.
“Here at a
Christian camp we do things for other people, sometimes,
whether we want to or not because it’s good to be
selfless, to think of other people’s needs.”
He stopped for a
breath and then continued.
“Do you think
that eighteen year-old’s like Terry, Andy, Malcolm or
Drew have nothing better to do than give up their spare
time so that others…?”
Joe tried to
zone out as he didn’t like the way this conversation was
going.
“… their
Christian values, their desire to help, their scouting
ethics…”
To Joe this was
just Catholic guilt ladled on heavily but it appeared to
be having some effect.
#
He couldn’t
quite tear his eyes away from the priest’s earnest but
surprisingly now gentle features, which were completely
at odds to how his expression had been when he tanned
his backside. What he said and how he expressed it made
him take notice. He may have desperately wanted to be
elsewhere but he realised he couldn’t ignore the man.
Joe was
squirming around in his new uniform. Not that it was
noticeable it just felt that way, and the strange thing
was, the nappy was offering some kind of comfort. Joe
wasn’t sure how this happened but he could feel its
tight, dry grip under his shorts and felt better as a
result – possibly the difference from a dry, snug nappy
to a soaked, droopy, irritating one.
“When was the
last time you did anything without thinking of yourself
first?” The priest both questioned and accused.
Put on the spot
Joe felt shamed and vulnerable – when had he done
anything for someone else?
Father John left
him with one final thought.
“While you are
here you will treat everyone with respect and listen and
do everything that the scouts tell you to do… they are
here for everyone’s safety. I don’t want your sinful
ways affecting the cubs and I don’t want to hear any
inappropriate language - if I do… well...”
Joe’s hand
involuntarily rubbed his padded bottom at what he
perceived to be an implied threat.
I’m putting you
on your best behaviour and I’m expecting you to live up
to that challenge. You’re a member of the cubs now so,
obey the scouts, obey me and obey the word of our Lord
and you won’t go wrong.”
The priest got
up, the conversation was over and Joe was being left to
think. As he opened the door a little head popped around
and said.
“Hey Joey, are
you coming to the lake, they’ve got a boat we can go
on?”
###
Part 4
Despite
everything, Joe was grateful to be out of his damp nappy
and into something so much more comfy. Terry had pinned
him in tightly but it didn’t feel as awkward as when his
mother had done it. The newer, thicker rubber pants were
also very snug and held everything in place. He was
thrown by how accommodating the priest had been in
answering his questions. He was expecting sarcasm and a
battle of some kind but it just didn’t happen.
Father John had
been correct; after Joey and Todd had been officially
introduced as new recruits the pack treated them like
their own, even if they were still novices. All the boys
were now dressed the same, which had been the priest’s
idea from the start. As far as he was concerned Joe had
to understand the good of all superseded the desires of
the individual, and that would be despite his nappy. He
wanted Joe to conform and accept his place as part of
this group and getting him to dress the same and giving
him some responsibility had been easier than he thought
it might. In fact, he was hopeful that Mrs Griffith’s
and his plan, to get him more involved with the church,
was coming together rather well, even though it was
still early days.
#
The afternoon
was full of discovery finding out what Lake Cambria had
to offer. Father John had not lied; this place was in a
beautiful location. The position of the camp made for
calm waters and a slightly more private area. It nestled
at the end of what looked like a narrow inlet shaded by
fir trees on either side that came almost all the way
down to the water’s edge. Pathways led off in all
direction, whilst the constant buzz of insects, warm sun
and gently lapping waves, made the entire scene idyllic.
However, just fifty yards out it opened up and gave
access to the rest of the more turbulent parts of the
lake. In the distance yachts, pleasure craft, tourist
boats and other water enthusiasts could be seen and the
occasional speedboat would zoom close to their camp. All
the cubs would wave and get very excited if anyone waved
back.
The cubs and
scouts occupied four of the cabins; the priest had one
to himself (PURPLE), whilst the three chef/volunteers
Joe had seen helping Father John unload the bus of
provisions shared the sixth (ORANGE). The camp may have
been in a secluded area but was far from a peaceful
retreat. The cubs made sure it was full of noisy
excitement, childish chatter and loads of laughter.
#
The scouts had
organised a programme of activities where the colour of
your cabin became the side you were on for any games
requiring teams. This saved the embarrassment of waiting
to be picked. The scouts were eager to share another
little fact; every team would gain points, which would
be totted up at the end of each day and the colour
(cabin) that had the most points at the end of the
entire trip, would win an unspecified prize. So, the
incentive was there for all the cubs in each cabin to
work together.
Joe was adamant
that he wasn’t going to play this silly game, even
though it was no different from the way his soccer team
played or his swimming competitions were organised. If
the rest of the kids were anything to go by he didn’t
want to be sucked into this religious set of losers and
become a ‘God-fearing’ cub.
He didn’t want
to be treated as a stupid little kid and yet, every time
he sat down or bent over, his protection could be seen
or the rustle heard by anyone nearby. Even after just a
couple of steps his heavy rubber pants would be briefly
visible. It was hard to take the high-ground of being
‘almost’ an adult when his nappy was showing. On top of
that it hadn’t taken some of the cubs long to point that
simple fact out if Joe got a bit clever and
condescending about being the eldest.
Joe did have a
problem. No matter how much he thought of himself as
separate from the rest of the cubs, that he was
different and didn’t really belong, he soon found his
resentment and inhibitions fading once he joined in with
the rest of the pack. The brooding and angry boy on the
bus had somehow been absorbed into the fun and
enthusiasm of a group of people he would have mocked
only hours earlier.
Occasionally, he
found himself thoroughly enjoying what was on offer and
having to remember that he wasn’t there to have fun. He
was there under duress and he wasn’t going to like any
of it, then moments later he would be back screaming and
joining in with the rest of the lads his mind simply
focused on fun.
Todd and Joe
were the only ones without badges on their sleeve, not
that Joe wanted any, but, unknown to them, almost
everything that was planned for the cubs led in some way
to gaining a badge of some sort.
#
That first
evening the meal was cooked by the three volunteer chefs
with help from two of the scouts, Malcom who was leader
of YELLOW cabin and Andy who led RED and of course
Father John was on hand to do his bit. It was simply
sausages, mashed potato and baked beans but the boys,
enticed by the tasty smell, lined up in the shape of
what appeared to be a very ravenous and noisy snake.
They sat at the
row of tables under the failing sun but it was still
gloriously warm. Despite the weather and the activities
they were all still wearing their uniforms. The cub code
liked the uniform to be worn as a complete item, not in
bits or with parts missing. Father John subscribed to
this, some might say, old fashioned way of dressing but
he wanted his boys to be smart at all times and a credit
to anyone who saw them.
Everyone was
famished from the afternoon’s activities but before
anyone could take even the slightest nibble Father John
had to say grace. It wasn’t something Joe ever did, his
mother had tried to introduce it but he just ignored
her. As the other kids didn’t mind, in fact appeared to
expect it (the church had trained them well) he could
feel their eyes on him as he slowly put down the fork
piled with beans that had been heading toward his hungry
mouth. Joe was resentful but went along with the others
as it would have seemed rude to just tuck in whilst
others waited to be served and thanks given. Peer
pressure can make you do a lot of things you wouldn’t do
under normal circumstances.
#
Todd never left
Joe’s side. He wanted to do everything there was to do
but with Joe within arm’s length and, despite the new
cub’s utter resentment to begin with regarding his
enforced responsibility, the little Beaver’s eagerness
was hard to shake and not appreciate his childish,
nervous steps into this new, slightly more grown up
world.
Father John
had offered to take Todd on this camping expedition to
help out his family. His mother was going into hospital
for a major operation and his father, through work and
attending to his wife, just couldn’t cope with their
only child as well. Todd hadn’t wanted to leave his
ailing mother, although he was never told just how sick
she was, but both parents had been keen on their little
boy enjoying the summer at camp. Normally, Todd would
have been too young to be involved with the cubs but
Father John being Father John had made it so that he
could be included. Now he had a ‘big brother’ to look up
to he seemed a lot happier and relaxed. The tears that
had accompanied the start of the journey were now lost
in the mists of time as he began to enjoy being with all
these bigger boys.
#
The meal was
simple and, simply delicious. Joe thought it had been
well worth putting up with a few prayers for such a good
meal after a fantastic day. Despite everything, Joe had
got involved in sailing, rowing, badminton and a host of
other games. It had been difficult to keep up the
pretence of irritation by it all when there was so much
to enjoy. Even when his protection bunched up and became
uncomfortable he was having far too much fun to let it
worry him. The only thing he hadn’t managed to do was go
swimming; he thought his ‘security’ would be too obvious
and prominent if he had to wear it under his Speedos.
However, after
the meal, he’d suggested and helped organise a
six-a-side soccer tournament involving each cabin in a
round-robin play off. The scouts were to be the
referees, and so there was no favouritism, a different
scout from the colours playing was put in charge.
Everyone seemed happy with the arrangements and while
the two teams played they were screamed on by the other
colours and Father John who was very animated.
The games were
short, just ten minutes each way, but the huge grassy
circle that the cabins were spread around made a
wonderful pitch as the boys careered around tackling and
showing off their skills. Joe was a good player, he was
centre-forward in the school team but some of the cubs
were of equal talent, which shocked him. The fact that
he was wearing exactly the same cub’s uniform as
everybody else didn’t seem to matter now as he tackled
with the best of them. He wasn’t going to let his bulky
nappy detract from how good a player he was and even
little Todd nervously played along.
The
mini-tournament was a great success (Andy’s REDs coming
out winners) and seemed to be enjoyed by everyone, which
gained a smile of appreciation from the priest who was
pleased with the way the newest recruit to the pack was
fitting in.
#
As the sun set a
huge fire was organised and, with a few twinkling stars
brightening up the purple dusk, the scouts brought out
instruments. Drew, leader of GREEN cabin, played guitar,
as did Malcolm and together they got everyone singing
along. Even Joe found he was having too much of a good
time to let his slowly dissipating rage spoil such a
splendid evening. Old songs were sung and the scouts
taught the cub’s new ones that they had been taught when
they were starting out themselves. It was all very jolly
with their rousing but unbroken voices travelling over
the water in the fresh night air.
There was a joke
telling contest, which although might have been
problematic, went off without as much as a naughty word.
The pack was having such a good time; their humour was
very silly, so no matter how stupid the joke was, the
rest of the cubs found it hilarious. Eventually the boys
all fell into little groups to discuss the events of the
day. Father John informed them that on the back of every
cabin door would be the list of chores for the following
day, which they would have to complete. However, no one
seemed upset at having to work as well as play; it all
tallied up eventually to gaining a new badge.
#
Later, under the
bright firelight, the boys drank cocoa, ate cookies and
chatted whilst Drew, a very knowledgeable and talented
individual, pointed out the names of stars and planets
as they came into view. A shooting star extracted a huge
cheer from the boys, whilst a sliver of the new moon
poked its head above the dark shadowy trees. The highly
reflective nature of the lake was only occasionally
disturbed by a leaping fish or a ripple caused by the
light breeze. Even as the slightly less raucous noise
carried on around him a sleepy Todd had curled up in
Joe’s lap, his head resting on his friend’s cushioned
bulge, contentedly snoozing.
Father John
noticed and softly suggested that Joey should take him
back to the cabin and get him ready for bed.
It was fairly early but the little Beaver was
tuckered out and woke up drowsily as he was gently
roused from the lovely dream he was having. Of course
once he was awake he didn’t want to leave and moaned a
little bit until Father John argued that it was time all
good Beavers were in bed. As he was being led away from
the campfire Todd reached for Joey’s hand and
immediately felt contented.
#
Once inside the
cabin Todd gave an enormous yawn and unsteadily made his
way to his cot. It hadn’t occurred to Joe that this
changing business was a strange thing to ask an eleven
year-old to do with someone he didn’t really know. He
thought it must be part of the programme of ‘events’
that these ‘church folk’ do, so gave it no more thought.
The older boy
helped Todd out of his clothes, folded them (as his
father had taught him so they were immediately ready the
next day) and placed them on top of the little chest of
draws. Before checking his nappy, he fished out his PJs,
a clean disposable and a new set of plastic pants.
Todd’s PJs were yellow, with a racing car motif and the
words ‘Vrrroooom’ all over them, his plastic pants were
an opaque yellow so matched them perfectly. The little
Beaver had wet himself; his nappy was cold and damp so
it hadn’t just happened. Joe thought he’d better check
with him to see if he needed to do anything else before
being cleaned up.
The tired Beaver
slowly shook his head as he lay all but naked on the
changing bed and Joe commenced his operation. His cute
plastic pants crinkled as they were removed but his
disposable was just as sodden as last time. It was
amazing how much a disposable could soak up. Mind you,
according to other wearers, they didn’t leave you
feeling particularly wet, which probably explained why
Todd hadn’t asked to be changed earlier.
Joe wondered how
such a little fellow could produce so much pee but
thankful that was all he’d deposited. Again he wiped the
boy thoroughly, rubbed in the anti-rash cream and
sprinkled on the powder but this time the lack of
giggles proved how sleepy the little tyke was, so was
able to be dressed in his night time protection without
any fuss.
Joe was happy
that Todd, suitably oiled and well-powdered, looked a
great deal more snug now he was in a dry disposable and,
as he threaded the boy’s legs into the smooth, yellow
plastic pants, noticed he was almost asleep. The cub
pulled the Beaver’s PJs into place and as he did so the
youngster softly moaned, hugged his friend tightly and
wriggled in contentment before being gently led to his
cot. The soft crinkle of the plastic sheet
over the mattress a reminder of his status as a possible
bed-wetter - the youngster didn’t complain.
#
However, just as
Joe was about to leave, Todd sat bolt upright (the loud
crinkling making it sound more dramatic than it actually
was) and exclaimed that he hadn’t said his prayers. He
quickly shuffled out of bed and onto his knees at the
side, put his hands together and was about to start his
prayer when he asked if Joey would join him.
Joe was taken
aback. He didn’t believe in all this religious mumbo
jumbo and was dead against doing anything that made it
appear he believed in God. The problem was, Todd’s sweet
little plea to pray for his mother to get well and his
huge weepy eyes meant that Joe had very little choice,
and, as there was no one else around, he did as
requested.
Kneeling
together at the side of the bed, Joe could see the boy’s
well-padded bottom and plastic pants peeking slightly
over the waistband - he tucked him in better. He wasn’t
aware that, as he knelt in prayer, his own protection
was just as visible to anyone who was looking.
He let Todd
thank the Lord for giving him a wonderful day in such a
beautiful place. He wanted the Father, the scouts and
all the cubs blessed before he asked God to make his
mother better. Joe thought that was the end and was
about to join him in a final ‘Amen’ but Todd had one
last thank you and he thanked God for giving him a big
brother who he loved. He reached out, and even though he
had his eyes closed as he said the prayer, he squeezed
the hand of the older boy he was so thankful for.
“Amen,” they
both quietly said as Todd slowly clambered noisily back
into his cot.
#
Once he was sure
Todd was settled he turned to leave and was surprised to
see Father John standing in the doorway. He hadn’t heard
the priest enter and was nervous about what had just
taken place. He needn’t have worried; he was smiling and
told Joe that he was pleased with the way the day had
progressed and thanked him for all his help and his
fantastic idea of the soccer tournament. He suggested
that the following afternoon, Joey should organise a
swimming contest and if he did, he could be out of his
nappy and wearing his swimming trunks for the entire
time he was in the water. On the proviso he’d be back in
his protection, as per his mother’s instructions, once
the water sports were over.
Joe was
surprised and excited at the idea and thanked the priest
but wondered why this change of attitude? There was no
obvious explanation other than he was ‘fitting in’ and
becoming part of the camp rather than aloof from it.
And, it had to be said, he was enjoying this camp more
than he’d ever done with his family. His father was
fantastic, full of ideas and adventures but his mother
and sisters just didn’t put any life into it at all and
so, any organised expeditions often fell a little flat.
However, Father
John did tell him that he needed to check his nappy as
he wanted the new cub to stay with the sleepy little
Beaver now he was in bed. Joe was upset at having to
retire so early and missing out on whatever else was
going on down by the water’s edge but quickly realised
that any argument might mean he’d be in his nappy all
the time and swimming would not be allowed.
The priest
wasn’t in his face or demanding, or ordering, or being
anything but a perfectly thoughtful priest. The nappy
check was just something that he knew had to be done. He
wasn’t making a big thing about it, he wasn’t being
vindictive. His nappy needed changing, so there was no
point in Joe making something out of it that wasn’t
there.
He made a quick
decision. Let the priest have his way tonight, don’t
fight him, just do as he says and work out how to defeat
him in the morning.
#
Although Terry
had been put in charge of Joey’s nappy changes, it was
obvious Father John was equally ready to do what needed
to be done. He pointed to the changing bed and indicated
to get ready. Joe shrugged off his shorts and shirt,
folded them neatly as he had done Todd’s clothes and
then lay out on the welcoming towel. The smell of powder
and lotion hung in the air as he shuffled down his
rubber pants, the father could tell that his nappy was
indeed soaked and that he needed a fresh one for the
night.
“When were you
going to ask to be changed?” The Father enquired with
raised eyebrows.
“I didn’t want
to put Terry out so I thought I’d wait until bed
time…so…”
“OK, that’s
thoughtful of you but you must understand that a wet
fabric nappy can give you a rash so, in future, let one
of us know right away so we can make you more
comfortable… OK bud?”
The new recruit,
who had an itch earlier, could see the wisdom of these
words so just nodded in agreement.
#
The priest was
as efficient as his Number Two and had Joey well wiped,
lotion applied, well powdered and tightly bound with the
required amount of pads in next to no time. He searched
in his draw for a different pair of plastic pants and
some PJs. However, that was something his mother hadn’t
packed so he would be sleeping only in a white t-shirt
and protection. The priest found a pair of thin white
plastic pants which, much to Joey’s despair, were very
crinkly as he pulled them up his legs. He desperately
wanted to complain but, thinking of his Speedos and the
lack of a nappy whilst he was swimming meant he kept his
thoughts to himself.
In the distance
the revelry was still going on down by the lake and Joe
wished he was there but the priest said that everyone
else would be going to bed shortly so he wouldn’t be
missing out on much anyway. He also thanked Joey for
being good to Todd and praying with him… it meant a lot
to the boy.
“Goodnight
Todd,” The priest whispered but there was no reply. Todd
was already fast asleep.
Joe tried to
climb into his bed without making a sound and disturbing
Todd, alas his crinkly pants and the noisy plastic sheet
meant that there was quite a resonance as he got
comfortable.
“Goodnight
Joey.”
“Er, yes, er,
g’night, er…” This was hard for Joe but he was still
thinking about his Speedos. “Father.”
“Goodnight
boys.” The priest silently closed the door behind him.
For a few
minutes Joe crinkled unhappily but soon the comfort of
wearing a dry nappy felt good. As always his hand
drifted towards his crotch and the smooth plastic
protection. Although the feeling was nice it was also a
reminder for him to not spend any further time exploring
an area which had got him into so much trouble. He
whipped his hand away as if he’d been burned, scared of
what might happen otherwise. It was bizarre - he didn’t
believe in God but now he couldn’t get out of his mind
that someone was constantly watching and judging him.
There was still
some laughter and the odd piece of music drifting in
through the open cabin window, together with the sound
of insects buzzing and the occasional hoot, screech or
yelp from the local wildlife. However, Joe didn’t hear
any of that, nor the other members of the BLUE team come
to bed, because he was simply worn out and quickly as
dead to the world as Todd.
#
During the night
Joe was vaguely aware of a body climbing into his bed.
Unconsciously he wrapped his arm around the figure and
hugged him tightly. He seemed to automatically know it
was Todd because he could feel the small warm body as it
fitted nicely into the crook of his hips. Another give
away to the identity of his visitor was their padding
rubbing up against each other as they huddled together.
As Joe moved from dozing to deep sleep his mind was
filled with dreams of his friends back home.
#
Syed was
suddenly wearing yellow PJs with racing cars all over
them and they were playing soccer on a beach. Joe was
wearing his usual kit, as were all the other team mates,
so it was only Syed who was dressed differently. For
some reason he was having a problem running around after
the ball and when someone suggested he would perhaps
play better if he lost the PJs he nervously said he
couldn’t do that. However, because his side were losing
they ganged up on him and stripped him out of his PJs
only to find him squirming in embarrassment as he sat on
the ground in a very thick nappy. He started to cry so
Joe, not wishing to see his friend in distress, picked
him up and hugged his weeping pal tightly. A surge of
emotion ripped through Joe’s body as he patted his best
friend in an attempt to make him feel better. He kept
saying it was all OK and not to worry, despite his team
mates chuckling at his friend’s soaked nappy. Meanwhile
his thick, crinkly plastic nappy rubbed against Joe’s
thin nylon shorts and not surprisingly he immediately
got a stiffy and...
#
He was snuggling
his best friend when he was roused from sleep to see
Terry standing over him.
“Joey, JOEY,” he
shook him from his slumber.
It was the small
figure of Todd, not Syed, who was squirming in his arms
as he also tried to wake up.
Terry didn’t
look pleased. “Joey let him go.”
Suddenly aware
he was still holding his little friend tightly he
released his grip.
Todd, with his
yellow plastic pants visible well above his slipped PJ
bottoms turned, gave him a quick peck on the cheek and
said; “Thanks for looking after me.”
“Time to get up
Joey. We have the female side of the shower block for
the next fifteen minutes before RED take it.” Terry
pulled back Joe’s blanket and revealed his open sleeping
bag which displayed his full glossy protection.
Joe wasn’t sure
what was going on but could see the other cubs in their
PJs getting up, gathering their toiletries and waiting
to be led to the washrooms by Terry. The scout, even in
his sleepwear of boxers and t-shirt looked amazing as he
helped Todd get his stuff together and also check if he
was wet - he was and would be attended to after the
morning ablutions.
#
Bobby, Graham,
Benny and Tommy had all slept in pull-ups but only Tommy
had wet during the night. The plastic sheet on Tommy’s
bed sparing him any leaking embarrassment but Joe heard
Terry whisper to him that it would be ‘thicker
disposable and plastic pants in future’. Tommy looked
ashamed at having had an accident so nodded sheepishly
to what the scout suggested. The little group didn’t
seem to mind that Terry checked each one and then sent
them off to the shower block as he returned to Joey.
“Sorry Joey but
the Father’s rule is ‘morning inspection’, so I’ll need
to check.”
Well, he’d
already checked the other boys to see if they would need
‘extra help’ the following night, so the instruction
wasn’t unexpected.
“’It’s OK, I’m
not wet, I think I can last a nigh…”
But he was
wrong. As Terry checked under the plastic pants it was
evident from his expression that he was indeed wet. He
pulled down the protection and unpinned the nappy. It
was damp but most damning of all were the streaks of
glistening ejaculate that were lying in the fabric’s
folds.
“I, I, I…” Joe
spluttered, “I never touched myself, honest, I never did
nothing. It’s not my fault. I, I, Oh Terry, please,
please, PLEASE don’t tell Father John.”
The evidence was
there and he couldn’t deny it. He sobbed, begging Terry
not to tell the priest but he knew the scout had high
principles and was second in command so the chances of
him not reporting his messed up nappy were nil.
###
Part 5
With Joe
having been put into night time nappies by his mother
before he came to Lake Cambria he’d somehow got into the
habit of wetting whilst he slept. It was something he’d
never done before his fear-induced accident on that
first night after his spanking but once she’d taken this
action of safeguarding her son, Joe’s bladder seemed to
take it as permission to relax and soak the fabric
wrapped around his groin. He hadn’t realised the horror
stories his mother told of this sinful act would
mentally trigger an unstoppable nightly flow. The warm
surge was weirdly satisfying but the guilt he felt was
more overpowering.
The second
time it happened at home he thought his mother would go
mad but she didn’t seem to care. The nappy had done what
she meant it to and the plastic protection had saved him
sleeping on a damp mattress, and besides, as far as Joe
could see she seemed more interested in the ‘evils’ of
another, more viscous, fluid.
Nevertheless,
Joe hadn’t given too much thought as to why his mother
was OK with his wet mornings. He presumed it was because
she thought the punishment was working (with God working
in one of his ‘mysterious ways’) and to a certain degree
that was true because he became terrified of letting his
hand slip under the covers.
He wasn’t
aware that she had developed her own scheme and now,
together with stopping his sinful ways, had an ulterior
motive.
#
Once she’d
taken the priest’s advice and made him wear a nappy to
bed to help curtail his nightly obsession, she realised
it was a possible way of gaining back control and making
her son a little bit more dependent on her. Early to bed
nights in the middle of summer, coupled with dire
warnings should he even think about getting out of bed
for any reason, was not only extra punishment but a real
trial on the boy’s bladder. She had expected (hoped)
he’d make a mess so that she could insist on more and
more ‘security’.
#
She had
control over her daughters; they did as she told them,
respected and listened to her words of advice. Joe was
like his father, an independent spirit and hated the
fact she was all but losing any influence over her son.
So, when he had a wet nappy, and she a hairbrush in her
hand, he was as meek and cooperative and obeyed her
commands. Once she saw how Joe cried and his attitude
subdued whilst the priest had administered swift (and
just) chastisement, she saw this as a possible way to
make her plan work. Proper physical discipline,
something she and her husband had never really indulged
in, was now back on the agenda. She was sure God would
approve of her attempt to rehabilitate her wayward son.
#
She enjoyed
the ritual of fitting him into his nappy; the anti-rash
cream being rubbed in, the baby powder sprinkled
liberally over his soon to be hidden penis, the pinning
of the entire thing together followed by the final,
babyish flourish, his leak-proof plastic pants – it was
all so satisfying. It brought back such happy memories
of her sweet little baby boy and her heart filled with
love at the thought of a return to that time. She didn’t
have this need to do the same with her daughters but her
son being made to behave like a toddler, a return to
innocence, well, he looked so sweet, so she was sure God
would endorse everything she was doing.
Nevertheless,
she realised that Joe himself might not like the idea,
as he’d proved when he exploded and swore in front of
the priest, he could and had rebelled. She was keen to
make him understand that even out of his home
environment she had the power to ensure he wore nappies.
His mother knew that he was scared of the priest and
hoped that would transfer to being totally acquiescent
when faced with the inevitable. Father John’s firm and
stern approach she was sure would hammer his current,
nappy dependent, situation home.
#
When she’d
packed his rucksack she wanted Joe totally reliant on
the help of others. That’s why she only gave him
nappies, plastic and rubber pants to wear. He would be
embarrassed but he’d have to accept help from others for
him to function properly within the camp. She also liked
the fact that he’d be sleeping in the same type of items
he slept in at home (like when he was a toddler) and
that involved a great deal of thick protection.
She wanted
him to become used to wearing such protection and regard
it as normal dress. Father John had told her that all
the boys would be treated the same as they had chores
and challenges they had to accomplish each day and that
Joe wearing a nappy wouldn’t make any difference so be
expected to fulfil the same effort as any other member
of the team.
What she
hoped for was the return of her toddler son, who would,
even at eleven years-old, need his mummy. A son who
loved her, depended on her to change his wet nappy and
comfort him when he was scared, like he used to when he
was a baby. Her expectations were high that Joe’s
wearing of thick protection would somehow drive him back
to her bosom. Her zest for getting back with the church
was equalled by her desire to take Joe back to his baby
status and to bring him up in the faith. So, whilst he
was away at camp she was busy organising his room to
welcome her little fellow back.
#
The priest
didn’t know of this side of her plan, he was only
interested in saving Joey’s soul, hopefully by bringing
him nearer to the church by making him appreciate that
church was fun and should be embraced. Mrs
Griffiths knew the Father was strict and wouldn’t take
any nonsense from her son so happily allowed him to go
camping on the firm understanding that his protection
stood for the entire time he was away.
She knew she
could rely on the strict priest to fulfil this because
he’d explained there were other boys who were a little
incontinent and needed ‘special attention’ so he would
be treated exactly the same. Mrs Griffiths wanted an
assurance that her rules for her son would be kept as
both a reminder of his sinful ways and as punishment for
his bad manners and swearing. The priest had agreed and
geared his bible classes to incorporate the evils of
such a sin.
#
Joe was
completely distraught over the discovery. Tears filled
his eyes as he couldn’t explain how his body could do
that to him but, the slimy nappy didn’t tell lies.
“OK Joey, it’s
OK, calm down, just calm down.” Terry tried to placate
the tearful cub.
Checking to make
sure the room was now empty he confided in Joey.
“Look, I know
these things happen and we have no control over them… so
don’t worry, I’m not going to tell the Father but you
need to be careful.”
Joe’s sobbing
began to abate as he realised that Terry was on his
side.
“I know this can
happen but Father John could inspect at any time so you
need to take more precautions, especially overnight.
Also, he probably would not take too kindly knowing Todd
slept with you… it probably didn’t help”
“But, but, Todd
climbed in with me during the night,” he was almost
whining, “I didn’t ask him, he just…”
“I know he
wasn’t with you when we all came to bed last night but
still... the Father…” He left the inference unsaid.
“But it was him
who told me to look after Todd,” Joe argued. “What was I
supposed to do, kick him out, let him cry himself to
sleep?”
Joe was getting
annoyed at his predicament but was stupidly taking it
out on Terry who was on his side.
“Sorry Terry,”
he said as he realised his voice was getting higher and
was becoming more than a little agitated.
It probably
didn’t help that his plastic pants were around his
ankles and the unpinned soggy nappy he was clutching was
hanging down between his legs.
“Look, don’t
worry. I’m sure we can sort something out but right now,
you need to get to the shower block and do whatever you
have to do before…” The eighteen year-old pointed to the
drooping nappy.
#
Joe let the
nappy fall to the floor, wrapped a towel around his hips
and set off to the shower block. Picking up his
toiletries Terry followed him and saw that they had less
than ten minutes to complete their washroom needs;
toilet, shower, dry off and get back to BLUE cabin
before it was the RED’s scheduled turn.
Five naked
pre-teen boys were trying desperately to enjoy the
lukewarm shower but were shivering in the fresh morning
air. Terry made sure they had all visited the toilets
and done their business, he didn’t really want to be
changing nappies or pull-ups all day if he could avoid
it. They had done their duty and were drying off as the
REDs arrived. Terry led the BLUEs, with towels wrapped
around their waists or covering their heads, back to the
cabin and made sure each was dry before getting them
ready for the day ahead.
#
“Right boys,”
Terry addressed them all. “Once we are decent we’re on
breakfast duty so… let’s get started.”
Bobby had the
nearest bed and was putting on a pair of pull-ups, but
Terry stopped him and insisted he rub cream in first,
then powder, then the pull-ups. Even though Bobby must
have done this a thousand times, so eager was he to get
started, he was cutting corners - though not on Terry’s
watch. Each boy was made to use the correct creams and
powder. Benny and Graham had changed to wearing
colourful briefs as they hoped they could manage during
the day, it was only at night (and on long journeys)
when they needed ‘help’ so it was just Tommy, Todd and
Joe who required the complete works.
#
With his usual
proficiency he had the cub and Beaver quickly installed
in their daytime protection. Tommy’s plastic pants were
see-thru and you could see his disposable with the cute
animal print underneath. Todd said how fantastic he
thought they looked before he was installed in his plain
white disposable. However, he had equally cute cartoon
plastic pants slipped over it so they both looked like
sweet toddlers. All the cubs put on their uniform and
waited patiently for Joey to be finished.
Terry told Joey
that he had special ‘dressing’ instructions that
involved a thick soaker pad. The problem with this was
it filled out his fabric nappy so much more than the
disposables the other boys were wearing.
However, this is what Joe’s mother had decreed, so that
was what had to happen. The look on his face told the
newest cub that he was really sorry to have to do it to
him but… orders being orders!
As the scout
wasn’t going to tell the priest about his nocturnal
emissions Joe thought it best not to argue. The immense
bunch of fabric splayed out his legs a bit and the
plastic pants crinkled as the final garment, his shorts
were added. His genitals felt like they were gripped and
protected by a piece of unyielding armour, though
surprisingly it didn’t feel uncomfortable. Each boy was
now ready in their cub uniforms and it wasn’t long
before the scout was in his pristine uniform and leading
them to the canteen area where they were to help the
cooks who were already busy preparing the day’s meals.
#
The main cooking
was done by three young volunteer chefs, again people
who owed much to the priest and were keen to help out in
any way they could to show their gratitude. The boys
helped set the tables, wash things up, fetched and
carried for the volunteers and took the food out to
where the rest of the pack were waiting to be served.
Joey was constantly aware of his tight padding and hoped
that no one else could tell.
Unfortunately,
this wasn’t to be the case as his shorts rode up over
the sleek cover and displayed his protection, not only
that but there was a slight crinkly noise with every
step. To the pack’s credit, no one made a big deal out
of it although there was a little bit of pointing and
the occasional snigger. In the end he gave up trying to
pull at his shorts to hide his discomfort and just put
up with the shiny plastic being visible for anyone who
wanted to take notice.
#
Again Father
John said grace and the noise rose as cereal and toast
were eaten, pots of marmalade and jam crashed together,
plates banged and clattered, drinks were slurped and the
boys excitedly chatted about the coming days
proceedings. After breakfast, and after the BLUE team
had performed their morning task, there was a compulsory
Bible class for an hour before anything else. Joe sat
grumpily next to Todd but all the other boys seemed to
be very attentive to the priest’s words.
Joe didn’t want
to be impressed but the tone the Father used and
responses he got back, together with the sheer enjoyment
the boys seemed to get from his words, was pretty
moving. At the end, they all said a communal prayer and
Father John asked them all to include Todd’s mother who
was sick in their individual prayers. He didn’t go in to
any detail but all the boys turned their attention
towards the little Beaver and nodded that they would.
Joe was quite taken with this show of support and felt
rather guilty at his lack of respect for the priest’s
concern.
#
After this the
entire pack were asked to give the Cubs oath and as one,
they stood up, raised the middle fingers on their right
hand and recited their pledge.
I promise that I will do my best
To do my duty to God and to Country
To help other people
And to keep the Cub Scout Law
This was
followed by the cubs promise.
Cubs Scouts always do their best,
Think of others before themselves
And do a good turn every day.
Even though
they didn’t know the pledge, both Todd and Joe felt a
strange shiver run through their bodies as the cubs
finished their response.
#
Before anything
else was arranged Terry took Joe to the laundry room and
gave him instructions on how it all worked. The machine
had several heat and timer dials and these were
explained how they were to be used depending on how
soiled the wash was. His previous day’s nappy, shorts
and t-shirt were still waiting for his attention and,
together with last night’s soiled nappy, and one or two
other contributions, there was quite a pile to be
cleaned. Terry set the timer and added the washing
liquid and told Joey that from now on, he was
responsible every morning to see to the wash. Once the
machine was underway he was informed that he should
return in twenty minutes to hang them out to dry in the
sun before he’d be allowed to take part in any of the
planned events.
There was a half
hour gap between Bible class and the start of the day’s
itinerary so Joe would have to work quickly if he didn’t
want to miss out on anything. Also, Terry informed him,
if anything wasn’t done on time, or to Father John’s
satisfaction, he’d not be allowed to join the others. He
was on a very tight timetable but, the scout informed
him with a knowing grin, one that would get easier once
he got into a daily rhythm.
#
With barely a
minute to spare, Joe had bright and clean nappies,
shorts, plastic pants, t-shirts, towels and assorted
other bits and pieces pegged out and flapping in the
morning breeze. He’d managed to complete his task and
was feeling pretty pleased with himself and that was
despite knowing the huge squares of terry towelling
hanging from the line were for his benefit and available
for all to see.
Unfortunately,
the zip on his own shorts had broken completely in the
wash and they were now useless to him. At first he was
pretty distressed at having nothing of his own to wear
but then remembered that they were pretty revealing
themselves so no great loss. He looked down at the
obvious bulge and shrugged because of the inevitability
that he’d be wearing green cub shorts for the next two
weeks.
Once the morning
duties were out of the way the entire pack went off on a
scavenger hunt in the surrounding forest led by Drew and
Terry. Malcolm and Andy were left to help organise lunch
with the volunteers and get a few other things ready for
the afternoon’s events, which was to include a fun
swimming gala.
#
The excitement
and passion of all the cubs for sheer pleasure was very
infectious. Joe found himself involved in games and
silly conversations that he thought he’d left behind in
his ‘childhood’. Along with the rest of the green-clad
pack he screamed and yelled with as much vigour as any
of the other cubs and there was no denying, he fit in
incredibly well despite his initial reluctance to do so.
Occasionally, a
scout would take a little group off who had a particular
interest in certain topics; understanding and helping
nature, problem solving, camping activities – the list
of how you could qualify for a badge appeared endless,
and to Joe, all equally bizarre. What he wasn’t aware of
was that as he’d effortlessly immersed himself into the
pack’s way of operating, he was also gaining credit for
what he did and whether he was bothered or not, he would
be gaining awards by the end of his stay.
#
After lunch,
bereft of his nappy and wearing his more acceptable
Speedos, he helped organise the swimming tournament and
came up with various suggestions for those of different
abilities. Strong swimmers were
encouraged to teach those who were perhaps a little
water shy, and those who were really scared of swimming,
he came up with a game of splashing that threatened no
one but gave confidence in the water.
He was in his
element.
Because of the
long hot afternoon and with everyone playing at the
water’s edge, it wasn’t only a relief from the heat but,
thanks to the amazing location, also something that
quite a few of the boys would remember for the rest of
their lives. Even Todd, wearing his padded swimmers,
learned a few basic strokes and how to float without
panicking; he was one happy little Beaver.
Joe was very
pleased to be out of his nappy and, strange as may seem,
very grateful to Father John for allowing it. The Gala,
as it became known, was a huge success and with the
scouts and Joe continually coming up with new games and
challenges, it became a regular event most afternoons.
However, as the priest had insisted, once they were done
and showered, for Joe it was back into his nappy until
he was next allowed to swim.
He loved being
in his Speedos and spending hours splashing, swimming
and diving with the others and, perhaps strange to say,
he didn’t object to being put back into his protection
once it came to an end. In fact, the fluffy dry bulk
felt really good against his skin, whilst the thick
tight rubber pants gave him a feeling of immense
security… although he wasn’t going to admit that to
anyone if he could help it.
#
In just a couple
of days everything had changed for Joe.
His reluctance
in wanting to be involved disappeared. Although he knew
the uncompromising man was in there somewhere, he hadn’t
seen that side of Father John since they’d been at Lake
Cambria. He was thoughtful, helpful and positive, whilst
the rest of the cubs seemed to adore him. As a result
his distrust for the priest evaporated as he saw him as
less of an enemy.
His opinion of
the other cubs and scouts changed from contempt to
respect. He no longer worried about his nappy, and quite
enjoyed the tender fuss that Terry gave to the operation
(as he did to everyone who needed it), which had helped
enormously with him coming to terms with his situation.
The initial embarrassment faded simply because, after
the first couple of times, as the scout didn’t make it
awkward, there was no reason to feel apprehensive.
Two weeks
earlier, when his mother had first made him wear
protection to sleep in he’d discovered dropping off a
problem. For the first few nights he found it so
restricting, uncomfortable and not in the least restful.
Eventually, like most things, he’d gotten used to it and
didn’t even think about the thickness between his legs
or his wet mornings. He could think of worse
punishments, his mum’s hairbrush for one, so he put up
with the way things were.
#
Now he’d even
got used to the crinkle every time he moved in bed, to
his surprise found sleeping in his night-time protection
no problem. This could be due to the fact that he was no
longer anxious, or maybe, he was just simply too
exhausted at the end of each extremely active day to
worry about it.
However, he was
a growing lad with an escalating sexuality and his body
was telling him certain things. Alas, the mass between
his legs and the glossy mound he furtively stroked every
night was making him feel more excited than normal.
Unfortunately, the firmness of the fit, together with
having his roommates around, drove him mad and made it
difficult to do anything about. Also, the constant
feeling that God was watching and disapproving of even
touching himself didn’t help. On a positive note he was
confident that under this difficult regime he could
continue with his enforced abstinence and do as his
mother demanded. Usually the last thing he remembered
before he fell asleep were his fingers tracing the
slippery outline of the thick nappy under his shiny
plastic pants.
#
It was really
quite amazing just how quickly Joey slipped into the
role of ‘new cub’. The camp was constantly alive with
fantastic things to do – games, challenges, sport,
nature walks, the lake, etc.; in fact, it was difficult
to keep up with it all.
Being slightly
older than the other cubs, and one who wore a thick
nappy, made sure he was noticed, though it didn’t
inhibit him in any way. He did his washing chores with
no complaints and on time (he definitely didn’t want to
be stopped from joining in now), the large terry
towelling squares and rubber pants wafting in the
morning breeze now just taken as normal.
Dressed in his
uniform he was one of the pack and if it hadn’t been for
his bulging protection, he’d look no different from any
of the other boys. Occasionally Joe would become aware
and look down at the soft but obvious lump in his shorts
and sigh, because he thought it made him look more like
a toddler and less of a boy. But then again that thought
only lasted a moment before he was dragged back into
another of the many excellent camp activities.
#
Morning
inspection meant that most of the ‘wetters’ had wet
during the night. Joe was no exception; both he and Todd
seemed to provide a flood for their nappies, whilst the
others found the strange surroundings at night
challenging. Whether it was a reluctance to get up out
of their warm cots and walk the few feet to the toilet
or they were scared of the dark was hard to say,
whatever the reason, plastic pants, damp pull-ups and
nappies were the first thing to greet the boys in BLUE.
Terry kept the
cabin ticking over nicely. The morning assembly of his
team to have their protection checked was always done in
the most amenable way. At this point decisions were made
if more protection was needed the following night or
not. No one was made to feel they’d done anything wrong,
or that they should be embarrassed and often, once their
PJs had been removed, the selection of colourful plastic
pants was another sight to behold. However, the downside
to this was it meant these vivid objects had to be added
to Joe’s morning laundry. Thankfully, with the rest of
the BLUEs wearing disposables and pull-ups his daily
wash wasn’t as bad as it could have been.
Once the morning
ablutions were over, Terry was methodical in getting his
team powdered and ready for the events ahead. The smell
of lotions, creams and powder pervaded the cabin but so
did the smell of urine. Thankfully, ever organised Terry
had made sure that the cabin got a good airing every day
and that there was a plug-in air-freshener to hide
whatever other odours remained. Terry looked after his
boys and they were very grateful for his encouragement,
attention and understanding.
#
Unexpectedly,
Joe began to love the fact that he could go for a pee
right where he stood and enjoy the warm glow around his
groin as he did so. It wasn’t something he would have
chosen to do but, as he had to wear his nappy he thought
he’d damn well use it for its purpose. He wasn’t keen on
shitting in it though, so he made sure that during his
morning routine at the shower block he did what he had
to do there.
There was only
Todd who messed himself and that was on the third night
when he’d had a particularly nasty dream. Both Terry and
Joe had heard him whimper and cry out in the night so
both were quickly by his side. Todd
was crying in terror about some un-named scary monster
and embarrassment at having messed; the smell adding to
the Beaver’s distress. Joe helped his young friend from
his cot and calmed him down. They were lucky that the
rest of the sleeping cubs had not been disturbed; only
the occasion crinkle from a suitably protected cot could
be heard over Todd’s sad whimpers.
He let Joe strip
him out of his yellow PJs and, in the half light of the
lantern that Terry held, slowly peeled down his plastic
pants to reveal the soiled and soggy nappy.
“Do you want me
to see to him?” Terry asked knowing that some people
would run a mile rather than do what Joey was about to
do.
“No, thank you
Terry, Todd’s my responsibility… I’ll see to him.” Joey
said with concern for his fretful little friend.
The scout nodded
his approval and let Joey get on with it.
#
Todd was too
embarrassed to speak but at least his whimpering had
begun to ease. Once Joey had released the tapes he
inched down the disposable and made sure he didn’t get
any of the mess on anything else. The nappy and plastic
pants had contained it all pretty well but with more
than a little trepidation he wiped up as much as he
could before pulling the offending object away.
Terry offered
more wipes and did what they could to clean him up
though Joey decided Todd needed to be much cleaner so
took him to the small washroom at the rear of the cabin.
Once sponged clean, well powdered and returned to a dry
disposable the youngster quickly settled down.
The small teddy
bear Joe’s mother had packed in the hope of releasing
some babyish memories in her son was slipped into Todd’s
bed so he wouldn’t be afraid or alone at night. The
young lad was so pleased to receive such a gift he
wasn’t in the least bit embarrassed to kiss Joey with
thanks and hug the bear tightly. Terry thought the teddy
had been a good solution and then helped settle the
youngest member of the team with soothing words and soft
reassurance.
###
Part 6
Father John
was very happy with the way his senior scout dealt with
the BLUE team and suitably impressed by the way Joey
had, despite their original differences, got involved.
In fact, the ‘problem’ boy was proving to be quite an
asset and had appeared to immerse himself in what the
cub scouts ethos was all about. The priest had been able
to find a few other second hand items in the lost
property box that, once washed, kept Joey suitably
attired, although his awkward protection was still
enforced.
However, after
only a few days an unexpected element happened in BLUE
cabin when each boy who had changed to wearing briefs
during the day began to want their protection back. Not
that they needed it, they just wanted to be the same as
Joey and he wore his all the time. This
act of support didn’t go unnoticed by Terry and the team
became even closer as a result. In fact, both Bobby and
Graham offered to help Joey with his washing chores and
eventually, between them, they all mucked in helping him
with this particular duty. Ever the initiator Joey made
the laundry room activities into a game as well. Pegging
out their colourful plastic pants, shorts, shirts,
towels in the colours of a rainbow, or all shades from
the palest to the deepest… it became a fun project to
play.
Joey didn’t seem
to be that aware of the effect he was having on the rest
of the pack.
Although the
scouts were definitely the leaders, his sense of fun,
initiative and adventure often meant that some of the
cubs would wait to see what Joey was doing before
volunteering for any activity, they wanted to be with
him. From only a few days before when he would have
killed not to be part of this boyish camp he’d become an
innovator and eager member of the pack.
Perhaps it was
going to come as a cruel surprise to his mother that the
hoped for return of her baby was going to be usurped by
a more confident and highly regarded young man.
#
The priest
thought he was doing Mrs Griffith’s bidding, getting
Joey involved but keeping him in his punishment. After
all, that was what started all this, the boy’s inability
to stop pleasuring himself and, as far as the Father,
and the reports from his second-in-command were
concerned, this side of the project appeared to be a
success. Whether he could get Joey to embrace Jesus and
the church remained to be seen but, and this was the
interesting part, the new cub sat and listened
attentively in bible class now.
#
Every day
blended far too quickly into the next with all the
organised games, fun hikes up into the forest
identifying shrubs and animals - it was nonstop
adventure. Afternoons were a mixture of water sport,
swimming and trips on the lake. The weather had been
fantastic and the camaraderie around the camp fire at
night had bonded all the boys into a very tight-knit
pack of cubs. Laughter never seemed to cease from
everyone, even the priest and it was the happiest time
Joe could ever remember having. He felt guilty that he
was enjoying this more than any of the camping trips
with his dad but the truth was; he was. Only once, about
a week in was there any major upset and that was when
little Todd had awoken from another nightmare calling
for his mommy.
#
It had been
strange because at the time BLUE were all asleep and Joe
himself was having a very pleasant, if peculiar, dream.
He was with four
of his mates but instead of skateboarding or playing
soccer in the park, they were rolling down hills,
chasing bubbles and flying a kite, not the type of thing
any eleven year-old would normally engage in. However,
they were the age they were now but dressed as little
kids; nappies obvious under their cartoon little
stretchy shorts or onesies. This wasn’t bothering them
at all as they charged around before being called by Amy
Wright, who, together with three friends, had made a
special picnic. The girls were also their real age but
equally dressed as party-going toddlers, with floral
party frocks and heavy protection clearly visible when
they sat down. None of this appeared to be out of the
ordinary for any of the kids as they happily sat in a
circle to begin their meal.
In the distance
they heard a cry of “Mommy”, which Joe thought was his
friend Richard calling to someone but, he could see a
sandwich tucked into his mouth so it couldn’t have been
him. The party was going well and they were all enjoying
what Amy had organised when they heard it again.
“MOMMY!”
Only this time
there seemed to be a scared and urgent edge to the word.
Despite not
wanting to leave the party, he was enjoying himself so
much, Joe galvanized himself but in so doing realised
he’d wet his nappy and at that same moment woke up from
this pleasurable, if perplexing, dream.
He found Todd
crying for his mommy in a very distressed state. Even
though he was soaked himself his first thought was to
comfort his little buddy and reached him moments before
Terry and the rest of the group, woken by the boy’s
frightened scream, came to help the troubled little
Beaver.
He was crying
inconsolably for his mommy and in between gulping in air
tried to tell Joey that he couldn’t find her. He was
sure something terrible had happened and it terrified
him that he was calling and she wasn’t responding. The
poor little fellow was in a terrible state and it took
Joey some considerable time and effort in helping to
calm him down. Words of reassurance came from every one
and only the promise from Terry that in the morning
they’d phone home so he could speak to his daddy helped
settle him.
#
Once he was a
lot less agitated and the other boys had returned to
their crinkly cots did Joey take Todd to the bathroom to
clean him up. The poor boy had made a terrible mess but
hadn’t been aware of it. Although Joey guessed what was
wrong, and despite his own wet discomfort, he set about
making it more agreeable for his little friend. It was
remarkable the complete trust that Todd had for Joey.
Even though he’d been terrified he trusted his friend to
make things better.
He put up no
resistance as his ‘big brother’ spoke to him all the way
through the process of being appeased and changed. Once
he was clean and tidy and wrapped in a fresh disposable
with new plastic pants he returned him to his bed which
Terry had cleaned up and prepared for him. His PJs were
soaked and his spare pair was already in the wash so he
ended up looking a smaller version of Joey. And like
his, the little tyke’s protection hung low though it
didn’t worry him as he clung to best friend as if his
life depended on it. He didn’t want to get into his own
bed; even with his teddy, he was scared of having
another dream.
“OK Todd,” Joe
was crouching down beside him, “you need to go to
sleep…”
“But I’m
scared.” There was no doubt that tears were not far away
and the sulky uncertainty in his voice made the six
year-old sound like he was two.
Joe looked up at
Terry for any guidance so the understanding scout
wondered if he slept with Joey… would he feel safer?
A slight nod
from the worried looking boy made the decision and, as
the two friends clambered noisily back into their
crinkly bed, their padded protection separating them,
they huddled together for comfort and support. Todd, who
must have been exhausted, fell asleep quickly, whilst
Joey didn’t because he was still in a little discomfort
from the soaked nappy as a result of his own wet dream.
Despite the priest telling him he had to change quickly
out of his wet fabric nappy, Joe was determined not to
wake his friend again and eventually, the small warm
body he hugged helped him to drop off despite the
growing irritation he felt next to his skin.
#
Early in the
morning Todd went to see the priest who’d put in a call
to his parents. Meanwhile, Terry inspected Joey and saw
the start of a severe nappy rash, which he was keen to
put an urgent stop to. Joey had to confess that he’d
slept in a soaked nappy because of the event the night
before but didn’t think the repercussions would be so
serious or itchy. Terry was most concerned and decided
that he needed extra creams and lotions applied before
any nappy and pads should be utilized. In fact, he
decided off his own bat that perhaps it was the fabric
nappy that was causing much of the problem and that he’d
try him in a disposable to see if that made things
healthier.
So, after
applying some very cool cream to the inflamed area,
which Joey found slightly embarrassing and at the same
time very soothing, he fitted him in to one of the other
boy’s disposables. It was one with the animal prints on
and although looked quite childish, Joe had to admit
that it was a relief not to scratch, whilst the texture
was also unbelievably soft and comfy next to his skin.
He liked these disposables and was not surprised that
the cubs who wore them wanted to sleep in them, they
felt wonderful.
They weren’t as
extreme as the one he normally wore and even with his
thick rubber pants in place; it didn’t bulge out half as
much as usual. The sweet animal print couldn’t be seen
behind the glossy protection but Joey was rather pleased
to be sporting such a top-of-the-range and comfy brand.
He was very grateful to the senior scout and thanked him
profusely for his concern, and for breaking his strict
‘nappy regime’.
#
A smiling Todd
arrived at the breakfast table telling everyone that his
mommy was OK and that her operation had been a success.
She was still in hospital but would be back home by the
time the camp ended in a week’s time. The news seemed to
boost the little guy’s appetite and he wolfed down his
breakfast like he hadn’t eaten for a month.
Since arriving
at the camp Father John had been nothing short of a
pillar of good humour and understanding. Joe, nor any of
the others, saw that dreaded angry side of the man that
he’d been so fearful of and he actually began to quite
like him. The priest was always around if anyone needed
to talk (confess) and appeared to be having as much fun
as everyone else – this was not what Joe had been
expecting and been anxious about on the journey to the
Lakes.
The hike around
the Lake Cambria planned after breakfast was a new
experience for Joe. Routinely, the thick protection
would chaff his legs and give him a bit of an
unintentional waddle, but now, with the new, lighter,
and he had to admit, far comfier disposable, there was a
great deal of relief as well as room in his shorts that
he really appreciated - it was almost like he was back
wearing briefs.
Terry explained
the circumstances to Father John as to why he’d changed
Joey’s ‘dress code’ and although the priest agreed that
with the nappy rash it was a wise move, he was uneasy
that Mrs Griffith’s rules were not being completely
adhered to. However, he noticed the freedom that lit up
Joey’s face as he scuttled about in his disposable and
thought that at least he was still well protected, so
that should be enough.
#
The second week
simply flew by.
Joe was now
wearing disposables and rubber pants so the morning wash
rarely involved his terry nappies though there was still
a colourful collection of other items to be hung out. He
didn’t miss the folds of thick fabric between his legs
but actually liked its soft disposable replacement, so
much so that often he simply forgot he was wearing them.
Going to bed in them had been a wonderful experience.
However, their softness and comfort turned him on even
more than usual and it took a great deal of willpower
not to succumb to his thoughts and self-gratification.
His fingers slid effortlessly over the much smaller
silky mound but now he could actually feel his throbbing
dick underneath. However, he’d made a promise to his
mother and to Terry (who he didn’t want to get into
trouble after all his understanding) so held back from
actually doing the deed. A couple of morning however,
Joe woke to find a slimy deposit in there with the
soaked up pee, but there was no bad consequence from the
scout at morning inspection – just a little shrug.
#
Joe had got on
with Terry from the beginning and thought he was a great
guy. The attention the scout gave to all the boys in
BLUE had been superb and each cub appreciated the
empathy and encouragement he offered. One night Joe had
one of his many dreams although this time it included
Terry.
They were both
swimming in the lake but when they got out each was
wearing thick protection; Joe’s was a glossy rubberised
green, whilst the scout’s was a shiny khaki. Because it
was so thick it was obvious what it was but neither
appeared to be in the least bit embarrassed by what they
wore. However, and Joe was surprised at this, they
huddled together, just the two of them, by a roaring
fire and rubbed against each other to help keep warm.
There was a very strong bond which ended with a sweet
kiss.
In the morning
Joe’s disposable was in a particularly wet and slimy
state and he was ashamed knowing what had caused such a
reaction in his nappy. Terry just shook his head when he
noticed but took his time wiping and cleaning up the new
recruit before slipping him into a fresh disposable.
There was no doubt about it, Terry thought, Joe looked
cute in a well-fitting disposable.
#
The weather had
been superb and everyone said what an incredible camp it
had been.
The final night,
was Talent Night, and each boy had to perform some kind
of entertainment. Some of the cubs were very nervous
about this so formed into little groups so they didn’t
have to perform solo. The scouts opened and closed the
show with some pretty talented guitar playing; whilst
Drew played and sang a song he’d composed about Lake
Cambria… it brought the ‘house’ down. There were a few
of the boys who told jokes that the crowds giggled and
shouted at them because they’d heard them all before but
it was done with so much laughter that no one really
minded.
Joey and Todd
were the surprise hit of the show when they did a
terrible double act. The idea was that Todd would be the
dummy and Joey the ventriloquist but as it progressed,
the dummy took over. They got the biggest reaction
because they came on the make shift stage dressed only
in huge nappies – the act was called Bedtime for Baby.
The idea was that baby (Todd) wouldn’t go to bed unless
his daddy (Joey) went to bed as well. There was a lot of
ridiculous confusion and silly mixed messages, which was
why daddy was in a nappy already, but the outcome was
daddy got sent to bed whilst baby stayed up.
That was the sum
total of the joke but because Todd kept forgetting his
words and ad-libbing a line he’d just thought up, Joey
had to think of a reply. It was a complete and utter
shambles and made no sense except the audience laughed
uproariously and shouted their approval at the final
scene. The priest stood shaking his head but with a huge
grin on his face, wondering what on earth it was all
about.
The end of camp
show was a huge success and the still excited boys made
their way back to their cabins re-living and commenting
on what had just taken place.
#
The following
morning after breakfast and bible class, the boys stayed
in the canteen area as Father John announced the awards.
Every boy had attained at least one new badge for their
mothers to sew onto their shirts and applause rang out
as each cub also received a small prize of a pocket
bible. Todd was happy, though couldn’t quite believe,
he’d also achieved some badges but in his excitement had
wet himself as he nervously waddled up to the priest to
receive his reward. Of course no one would have known,
thanks to Joey, Todd was always well protected, his
Disney print plastic pants kept any possible dribbles at
bay.
Joe was equally
surprised to find that such had been his contribution to
the camps success he had accomplished the right to wear
over half a dozen badges. He was stunned when a cheer
went up from all the other cubs when his name was
announced and he was particularly shy about going up and
receiving his awards. However, with Todd’s encouragement
he eventually made his way to Father John, who, with a
huge smile shook his hand and congratulated him in
glowing terms. Even the scouts were all clapping wildly
and it came as no surprise to the rest of the pack that
it was BLUE who won the overall team prize – Scouting
Annuals.
“I hope these
books will help inspire you cub scouts,” the priest had
calmed the applause so he could be heard, “and that you
boys will want to continue your excellent work by
eventually becoming scouts.”
There was more
noise of agreement from the sea of young and eager faces
spread out in front of him.
“You have all
done so incredibly well and are a fantastic example of
all that is best in today’s youth and more especially,
what is good about the scouting… and cub scouting
movement.
He spread his
hands out to include everyone but looked particularly at
Joey.
“You have all
proved what God had wanted from his flock all along – to
be friends, to help others and together achieve a great
deal. All you cubs have been fantastic - God Bless You
All”
The place
erupted in wild applause and general cheering that even
to the seasoned adults brought a gulp of emotion to
their throats.
#
Back in BLUE
cabin, as they packed up their belongings Todd shyly
admitted to Joey that he’d had an accident.
“Number ones or
number twos?”
Joey inquired
with a look that said ‘typical’ of my little Beaver on
his face.
Todd grinned,
“Number ones… sorry… I was so excited at getting a
badge… I… I…”
Joey smiled as
well.
“Well I’m not
surprised you have been pretty impressive for the entire
camp,” Joey led his charge to the changing area and
started to pull down the laughing Beaver’s shorts.
“I nearly wet as
well,” he confided to his little friend in a whisper.
“In fact, I probably need to change before the bus ride
home myself.”
As his wet
protection was replaced by wet wipes, powder and a clean
disposable the little voice asked if he’d like him to do
it.
“What,” Joey was
smiling at the very thought, “you want to change me?”
He slipped up
the special Disney plastic pants and patted the entire
padded area as an indication that he was finished.
“Maybe I’d get
another badge?” Todd wondered.
“Well, maybe but
for the moment let’s just get your things packed as we
don’t want to keep anyone waiting and besides… we’ve got
to get you home to your mommy and daddy.”
With the thought
now planted in Todd’s brain he quickly set about loading
his stuff in the case he’d brought. Meanwhile, Terry was
checking that all the boys were wearing enough
protection for the return trip and finally settled with
Joey.
“Well Joey,” he
looked proudly down at the boy who didn’t want to be
involved, “you certainly have made many friends here… I
hope you won’t forget us all as soon as you get home.”
Embarrassed by
the attention he just shrugged uncomfortably and got on
with the little packing he had to do. The priest had
already told him to keep the clothes and they now found
their way into his baggage. He piled the washed and
dried terry squares on top of everything but then
realised he needed to be changed for the trip.
“I think I’ll
need my protection for the trip back… I… erm…” He
offered a folded nappy to Terry.
“OK, I overheard
you say to Todd that you’re wet,” he raised his eyebrow
in question, “so do you want to wear what your mother
says or a disposable?”
The recent time
he’d spent in a disposable had been fantastic as, after
the bulk of the fabric nappy, he’d hardly realised he
had it on, that was until he wet. Despite the wet
mornings he’d found that, thanks to Terry’s
ministrations, the nappy rash had soon cleared up. There
was no doubt about it he was going to make one hell of a
carer.
However, Joe
realised he’d better return as he was sent or his mother
might keep him in a nappy out of anger if she thought
he’d disobeyed her instructions. For the first time in
two weeks the thought of his mother wielding a hairbrush
and receiving a severe spanking made him shiver in
trepidation. Now he knew that she wouldn’t hesitate in
using such severe discipline he decided that crossing
his mother would be a big mistake, no matter how grown
up he felt, especially as he believed his father had
sanctioned such action.
#
For the final
time Terry oiled, powdered and fitted Joey into his
thick protection. As he pulled up the now much used
glossy plastic pants he patted the padding to let him
know he’d finished. As Joey got to his feet Terry
affectionately stroked his bulging and well cushioned
bottom.
“You really have
dealt with everything incredibly well,” he said
approvingly, “I hope we might see you join the scouts?
Maybe?” He added hopefully.
Joey smiled
nervously and shrugged, “Maybe.”
He pulled up his
green shorts and again the bulge was so noticeable but
he thought he had no option if he was to stay on his
mother’s good side, although he hoped, by the time he
got home his punishment would be over. It was a long
journey home and he didn’t know if he’d last the
distance so at least felt safe wrapped in all his
protection. Now everyone on the bus knew about it there
was no point in pretending or being anxious about it so
the trip back was a damn sight more fun than going had
been.
#
Joe had had a
brilliant time, all the cubs, scouts and Todd all were
buzzing and reliving their exploits as Father John drove
them back to base. It was always sad when an exciting
and wonderful adventure comes to an end but Joey hadn’t
thought that way when he’d set off but he sure was glad
his mother had sent him after all.
The bus pulled
up outside Joe’s home and he got out amid a tremendous
amount of noise from the cubs wishing him well. In many
ways he was sad to leave them as he’d got to know and
like them all pretty well. Terry handed him his backpack
and the two shook hands. Father John had already said
his goodbyes on the bus and said that he hoped to see
him again soon, although he didn’t put any pressure on
Joe to make a date for that occurrence, for which he was
grateful.
#
Syed was out in
the street when the bus arrived back and was quite
astounded to see his mate Joe, wearing an obvious thick
nappy, a cub uniform, laughing and mixing with such
little kids. He even saw him ruffle the hair of a small
boy and give him a hug before he walked down his path,
the youngster seemed to be crying that Joe was leaving
him.
He wasn’t sure
if he should wave or even acknowledge the return of his
best friend but Syed shouted that he’d pop round later,
although he didn’t know if he’d been heard over all the
screams and ‘Goodbyes’ from the bus. Also he saw that
Joe’s mother had greeted him on the pathway with a huge
hug as she also patted his well-padded bottom.
#
The affection
with which he responded to his mother was interpreted by
her as confirmation that he sweet baby boy was back, she
had missed him and couldn’t wait to start looking after
him again. His room was ready – gone were the poster of
his sporting heroes, the sports car he and his dad had
coveted and his many sporting trophies. His bedding had
been changed; softer fluffier sheets and blanket with a
duvet cover that gave it all a more juvenile look. She’d
painted the walls a soft pastel shade of blue, with cute
complimentary pictures of animals scattered around the
walls. She’d arranged all his old stuffed toys to occupy
his bed and shelf space and a whole new wardrobe of
childish sleepwear to help him drop off with the new
early nights she’d planned for him. All his clothes had
been sorted and his drawers were now full of appropriate
clothing for a large toddler - nappies, disposable and
rubber pants were now in the place of his boxers and
briefs.
The final thing
was the hairbrush which she had hung behind the door so
that Joe would see it last thing at night and first
thing in the morning as a reminder of who was in charge.
His mother couldn’t have been more excited about the
future as she embraced her son and couldn’t wait to
continue with her, and of course God’s, good work in
reclaiming her son.
Some other news
that greeted Joe was that his father was not now going
to be around for some time as his company needed his
services overseas, so it would be several months before
he could return.
Joe’s camping
adventure may have been over but his mother was intent
on taking him on a different journey and one he probably
wasn’t going to like quite as much.
Just how far he
was willing to go on that journey, well, that remained
to be seen.
###
Part 7
The sun was
beating down. The desert stretched off into the distance
with barely a rock to break up the dirty yellow expanse.
He was suffering, not only from the heat but the cramps
in his stomach were getting more frequent and much more
painful.
Joe knew he
needed to take a crap but was too shy to just drop his
trousers and do it where he stood. He was needlessly
suffering because there was simply no one anywhere near.
In fact, there was hardly anything but the odd small
straggly succulent plant in sight and nothing to observe
anything he did – the vista was empty apart from him and
the sand.
However, he
struggled on, with the heat, his dry parched throat and
his bubbling bowels, desperately searching for some
shade to offer privacy whilst he did his business. His
stomach continued to offer nothing but misery because of
this enforced and totally unnecessary burden.
Eventually, as
he stumbled forward groaning in desperation, his
sun-blinded eyes caught sight of a huge shadowy figure
before him. The figure became more focused and he could
make out that it was a giant cactus offering a slight
shadow from the sun’s powerful, brain-deadening effect.
He dragged himself into what little shade there was and,
with the excitement of the anticipated relief, dragged
the buttons on his trousers open, pulled them and his
briefs down and squatted in complete surety that he
would not now be overlooked.
He closed his
eyes and squeezed.
He could feel
all the crap and pain leave him as he dumped load after
load in that wonderful ‘cool’ shade. There was plenty of
it and he didn’t open his eyes for a good couple of
minutes as he luxuriated in his bowel relief - even if
the smell was somewhat overpowering. At the same time a
jet of urine arced four feet away and formed a puddle
that was immediately swallowed up by the thirsty sand.
With a sigh he
felt he was done, one final squeeze, nothing, he was
empty and believed he could happily continue his
journey, his body suitably lightened and his mood so
much more elevated. He slowly opened his eyes and was
stunned to see he was surrounded by packs of wild
coyotes, vultures circled and masses of insects had
arranged themselves around him.
He was scared as
he struggled to pull up his clothes and also remove
himself from the unbearable smelly pile he’d just
deposited in the dust. The wind was
getting up and he could feel the buffeting affect as his
body was suddenly pounded by a huge gust that carried
his name.
JOEY
#
On that first
day back and seeing his new transformed bedroom Joe had
reacted angrily. Despite the happy return and welcoming
hug from his mum he was dismayed to find the changes and
couldn’t help but feel she was taking his punishment too
far.
He’d had an
outburst at the fact that the changes were done without
his permission or consultation; this was followed by a
spectacular tantrum over the loss of his posters,
trophies and computer. He was seething about the new
bedding and complained bitterly about the new duvet
cover, which was colourful cartoon dinosaurs - the pink
and blue sheets only adding to the rather childishness
of the entire look. Even the new mattress was still
covered in thick plastic which his mother insisted on
keeping “for protection.”
In fact,
everything was now “for protection”.
He was no longer
wearing nappies as a punishment but “for protection”.
His clothing was
now - “for protection”.
His bedding -
“for protection”.
His early nights
- “for protection”.
His restriction
to only playing in the house with his sisters - “for
protection”.
Whenever he’d
questioned his mom her answer was always - “…for your
protection darling.”
His television
had gone as well as his Xbox and all his video games;
his desk where they had been stacked was empty apart
from crayons and a pile of colouring books.
What was his
mother playing at?
#
He was even more
upset when he discovered that his father wouldn’t be
coming home for some time as he’d been sent by his
company to work in Saudi Arabia for several months. He’d
hoped that the man he held in such high regard would
rescue him from his mother’s complete ‘over protection’.
There was no denying that her personality had changed.
Whereas before she’d been fairly easy going and not in
the least domineering, she was now confident and sure in
her commands on how the household was going to run.
Mary and Susan
were even more meekly doing as they were told, they
spoke in soft whispers and certainly no arguments over,
well, anything. They were very young ladylike girls who
didn’t seem to find it necessary to scream and shout all
the time. In fact, even their play was done in a
dignified sort of way; the girls were very well-behaved
and quite mature.
For some reason
Mrs Griffiths approved of her daughters growing up but
was dead against it for her son. In fact, since she’d
put him in nappies to try and curtail his masturbatory
tendencies something inside her ‘snapped’ and a whole
new world of possibilities opened up. Gone was the weak,
easy-going, submissive and worried creature, in its
place was a decisive, intolerant and strong-willed
person who was determined to get what she wanted… and
she wanted her baby boy back. Her religious zeal and the
knowledge she was doing what was ‘right’ for her son
blinded her to any other argument. It had toughened her
stance on the subject and all she could imagine was him
being grateful and protected by his loving mummy. She
knew, no matter what others may have thought, she was
looking after her little boy, all
that was required of him was to acquiesce completely,
knowing it was for his own good and salvation.
Joe was not
happy and all the good things he’d gained from the
camping trip; the positive way he felt about himself,
meant nothing now his mother had taken charge.
He’d found out
the hard way to accept his mother’s words without
question because she’d decided, from the moment he
arrived back, his life was going to be organised and
planned by her.
#
His camp-induced
happy and thoughtful temperament changed in an instant
as his authoritarian mother enforced her rules. The
rebel in Joe returned and thought he could get away with
arguing his case. When his arguments failed and he
started shouting and screaming at his mum about the
injustice of it all, she acted.
Within seconds
he was flailing over her knee as she applied the
hairbrush; his shorts and nappy around his ankles,
whilst his bottom was hot and red. She was determined to
start as she intended to carry on and any form of
defiance would be swiftly and painfully dealt with. He
then had something more tangible to cry about as his
mother didn’t stop applying the brush until she had a
guarantee from her weeping son that he would do as he
was told, change his quarrelsome attitude and never
argue again. It took many swats to his purpling bottom
but eventually Joe knew he couldn’t win and capitulated
completely promising anything as long as the spanking
would stop.
#
Once she had
gained this commitment she immediately hugged him, told
him how much she loved having her baby back and soothed
his tears by organising a warm bubble bath. He was
shaking in fear and any insolence he thought he could
get away with had quickly been vanquished. He didn’t
want a bath because it was painful for his blistered
bottom but he didn’t dare complain. Once that was done
she dried him down and revealed the as yet unseen
extensive change to his wardrobe.
Whilst he’d been
away she had been busy with her sewing machine and
produced a large selection of new items of clothing for
her boy. All colourful, all quite juvenile, all waiting
for him to be suitably outfitted, from now on she would
supervise every aspect of his life and that included
what he wore. Ironically, the perceived childish cub’s
uniform he returned home in was now the most adult item
in his wardrobe.
This time his
wailing was of complete defeat.
#
She rubbed a
soothing lotion into his inflamed bottom but he cried
dejectedly, hating what was happening but being unable
to change things. More was to follow as she sprinkled
powder, wrapped a well-padded nappy around him and,
shoving his penis between his legs, pinned it into
place. She’d read that this would help prevent him from
getting aroused and also fill his nappy more evenly when
he wet, with less chance of leakage. She slipped a pair
of thick, noisy and colourful rubber pants over it
before feeding his arms and legs into a new footed
sleepsuit.
He wept
uncontrollably throughout the entire proceedings and
though he wanted to protest his sore bottom made sure he
was aware of the consequences should he try. Thankfully
the thick nappy cushioned his stinging cheeks as she
zipped the childish fleecy PJs up the back. His feet
were encased, his hands were held like mittens, and
although his movements were restricted he was warm and
snug. The bulge around his groin was very noticeable as
he waddled to his feet. He had hoped all this would be
over once he’d returned from camp, he had no idea this
was just the start.
#
Through his
tears Joe tried to make some sense of it all.
“Why do I still
have to wear a nappy,” he sniffled to his mother who was
busily making sure everything was tucked away nicely,
“am I still being punished?”
“Well, that’s
for protection and to keep my little boy safe.” She
gently chided.
“But mum, I’m
eleven, I don’t need a nappy I’m a big b…”
“Now tell me…”
she interrupted, “have you wet whilst you’ve been away?”
“Er… erm… er…”
She probably
already knew the truth so there was no point in denying
it.
“Hasn’t my
little baby been waking up wet… every morning,”
she emphasised the word every.
“Erm…” Joe knew
he didn’t have a spin on this.
“Have you even
been wetting during the day?”
Again there were
pangs of guilt as he remembered how much he’d liked the
warm glow when he’d just given in to his full bladder.
“Father John has
said that you were very grown up with the cubs but you
just couldn’t get through a night without wetting… is
that correct?”
“Er… yesss,” he
replied somewhat sheepishly.
“Well then,
that’s why you wear one now… and will be doing so until
you prove to me you can stay dry.”
Joe knew when he
was defeated. The threat of future spankings now at the
forefront of any decision he made, if indeed, he ever
made one again.
“Is that a
terrible demand?” His mother patted his cushioned
bottom.
“No, I suppose
not,” he whispered reluctantly.
#
His mother
seemed delighted with his response.
“Well there we
are... both on the same page. This is how it should be
Joey… let mummy look after you and do as she says… that
way we’ll all be better off.”
She had a huge
smile on her face as she inspected her handiwork and how
well it all fitted. His bulky groin was a major feature
and made Joe look like a cute toddler - she couldn’t
have been happier with the result.
Up at the lake
he’d gotten used to being called Joey so his mother
using it just slipped past him and didn’t enter his
thoughts - those were still on the surprising and cruel
paddling he’d just received at her hands. He was
completely chastised and could still feel the glow under
his nappy and didn’t dare question why he had to wear
what amounted to baby clothes.
He’d never
really been scared of his mother before but now he was
and she seemed intent on controlling every aspect of his
life. He had no one to complain to and hoped that his
dad would call soon so he could tell him what was going
on.
“You may think
that you’re all grown up, that your body is changing and
that you can do and say what you like. But, my sweet
baby must understand that mummy is here to guide and
look after him so will do anything to protect and keep
him safe… even if that means keeping him safe from
himself.”
He wasn’t sure
what she meant as it was all a bit un-nerving - he
didn’t like it but had no choice but to submit.
“Yes mum,” he
grudgingly murmured.
She looked at
him questioningly and with an air of disapproval, which
Joe caught almost immediately and rectified his mistake.
“Mummy.”
He saw from the
sudden smile on her face that it was the correct
response.
“Can I go and
watch TV now please?”
He was desperate
to try and get things back to normal, even if his bottom
was still smarting. He even didn’t mind wearing the new
babyish PJs just as long as no one else other than
family saw him waddling around.
“No sweetheart
I’m sorry but, it’s been a long day for you and, seeing
as you’re all ready for bed I think that’s where you
should be.”
Joe could have
screamed, even his younger sisters weren’t ready for bed
but his mother was gently patting his sore bottom,
hinting at possible consequences should he ‘act up’.
Although he was
well bolstered he didn’t want a repeat spanking.
It was not even
seven when she escorted her little boy over to his bed.
#
Like when all
this had started a month ago, he could hear his friends
noisily playing out in the street. The sun was coming in
through the windows so she pulled down the new blind;
black with silver stars and the moon, but it still left
a glow to the window frame.
As he was about
to climb awkwardly into bed his mother gently asked if
he hadn’t forgotten anything?
Worriedly, he
thought quickly and decided she must mean a kiss so he
pecked her on the cheek.
“Well that was
very nice honey but I think you need to thank God for
giving you such a wonderful time away and a loving
family to come home to… don’t you?”
Joe realised
immediately this wasn’t a question it was an order and,
as he’d done this with Todd back at the cabin, he
reluctantly did the same.
He knelt, bowed
his head and put his mittens together and hoped his
mother would let him say a silent prayer but that wasn’t
going to be the case.
She knelt down
beside him and gently patted his thick protection then
asked him to let her hear all the things he thanked God
for… but he didn’t know where to start.
“Er… er… thank
you God for… er…”
His mind wasn’t
working as quickly as he’d hoped but he took his lead
from what his mother had just mentioned.
“Giving me such
a fantastic time at camp and… er… erm… Bless… er…”
“Father John,”
his mother encouraged.
“Yes, Father
John, the scouts and all the cubs… erm… God Bless mum
and da… mummy and daddy, Mary and Susie and…”
This was harder
than he thought; surely there must be more to it than
that?
“That was very
nice sweetheart… but God wants to hear his children when
they say their prayers. So in future, no mumbling, speak
clearly and I’m sure he’ll listen to someone as cute as
you.”
#
She smiled and
urged him into bed with a push on his well-cushioned
bottom. His plastic sheet crinkled and his thick
protection rustled as he reluctantly crawled in. From
the window shelf she picked something up and adjusted
the blind. Once the room was relatively dark she
returned and tried to get him to take the dummy she’d
just remembered but he refused.
“C’mon sweetie,
this will help you relax,” she coaxed, “you could never
get to sleep when you were a baby without sucking on
your dum-dum… c’mon…”
He shook his
head and clamped his mouth closed; he wasn’t a baby and
he was damn sure he wasn’t going to be treated as one.
She got up and
collected the hairbrush that was hanging behind the door
as a reminder what would happen if he tried to defy her
and offered him one last chance.
With the look of
fear in his eyes he immediately shoved the thing in his
mouth and sucked wildly.
His mother
returned the hairbrush to its new position and wished
her son night-night.
She would decide
if he was going to be a baby or not, he was not going to
get a choice, she was in control.
#
Joey hated what
was happening and tried to remember how and why all this
started in the first place.
He’d only begun
wetting after he’d been spanked by the priest and later
by his mother, so as far as he was concerned, it was
their fault that he wet himself, he’d never had a
problem before those two events.
His mind was
racing trying to assign blame to anyone but himself but
unwillingly had to admit that at camp, where there was
no pressure or threat of a spanking, he still wet.
However, it had
to be their fault and not his and it was whilst he dealt
with this dilemma he absentmindedly reached for one of
his stuffed toys for comfort before falling asleep.
#
“JOEY”
“Wha.. whaaaa…
whatshhhup?” The dummy, now a permanent night time
fixture in his mouth causing him to slur.
“It’s OK honey,
it’s time to get up but,” she sniffed the air, “I think
my little sweet-pea has had a bit of an accident.”
He’d been home
three days and was getting used to his mother fussing
over him. At first he’d hated it and was resentful but
found being grumpy wasn’t getting him anywhere. The
morning inspection led to him being bathed and dressed
as she thought fit. Any reluctance to wear what she
proposed, which was all very childish, was met by a slap
to his bare bottom and the threat of the brush if he
didn’t stop ‘acting up’.
He was very
scared so didn’t dare resist her as she slipped him
first into a thick nappy, then plastic pants and then
some colourful cartoon outfit that she’d created and
thought made him look like her “little prince”.
His sisters were
the only company he was allowed to have and Syed and his
other friends had been politely but firmly turned away.
She didn’t feel the need to explain herself and merely
said he was ‘unavailable’.
Joe was grateful
that his friends didn’t get to see him dressed in such
stupid clothing and was relieved that he didn’t have to
play out in the streets looking the way he did. It
wasn’t like back at camp when in his dream all his
friends had been dressed as toddlers so they all looked
the same, this was real. However, his mother insisted
that he play with Mary and Susan and despite themselves
always ended up playing families with Joe as the baby.
Dressed as he was, often just in a t-shirt and
protection, it was difficult for them not to and as they
wore age appropriate clothes his depression deepened.
#
On that first
night back he dreamt about waterfalls and needless to
say he woke up soaked. On the second night he had a
terrible nightmare that also meant he woke up wet… and
now this.
This was by far
the worst. The sense of foreboding, danger and heat in
the desert, mixed with the feeling it was all so real,
left him soaked in sweat as well as everything else.
He’d never messed before but he could feel the distinct,
disgusting texture in his nappy as he struggled to get
up. It wasn’t just the squishy dampness but the
coarseness that covered a large area of his backside.
The smell was quite awful and he was crying – crying
like a little baby because he felt useless in not being
able to control something he’d had no problem with
before.
His mother’s
rule was that once he was in bed he wasn’t allowed to
get up until she came in to supervise and check his
nappy. If he was awake he had to stay there and play
with his stuffed toys or read or colour in but not get
out of bed “under any circumstances”.
As he lay there
trying to ignore the smell, he was sure that God wasn’t
listening to his prayers.
His mother was
gentle and understanding as she helped him to his feet,
guided him to the bathroom where she slowly unzipped his
PJs. Once he was free from them, she could see that his
rubber pants had managed to prevent any further spillage
so she knew that everything had been contained. She was
thankful the system appeared to be working - and
mentally noted that the particular brand of heavy pants
were an absolute godsend and necessity for such a messy
boy.
#
She cleaned him
up and got him ready for the day ahead. Joe was in a bit
of a daze not really responding to what she was doing as
he tried to find a reason why he’d just made such a
disaster in his nappy. At Lake Cambria he’d had plenty
of dreams, some fun and pleasurable, even if they were
often disconcerting, but nothing had made him do what
he’d just done.
He felt totally
dejected and that he’d become nothing more than a stupid
toddler who couldn’t control himself.
Another thing
Joe needed to learn was that if he didn’t try and fight
the situation; his mother was gentle, very loving and
hugged and kissed him constantly. At that moment he felt
incredibly vulnerable so was like putty in her hands.
She expertly tended to him with barely any comment apart
from soothing words to try and stop him sobbing.
“Don’t you worry
little sweet-pea, accidents happen and mummy will always
be here to clean your little bot-bot.”
She slid a cold
wet wipe over his buttocks.
“You’re mummy’s
sleepy little poo bear,” she smiled at her own joke,
“but she’ll make you all clean and smelling lovely
again.”
She continued
with this baby-talk for some time as she ensured that
Joe’s bits we made spotless and all he could do was hold
back the tears of resentment, whilst he allowed this
indignity and swallowed any pride he thought he had.
#
He sighed
knowing that there was no way his mother would ever let
him out of his protection now and this thought was
confirmed as she wrapped an even thicker nappy around
his waist, pointed his penis down between his legs,
pulled the fabric up tightly and fastened him in. He
didn’t like it but, after what he’d just done, and how
thoughtful and careful his mother had been in cleaning
him up, he didn’t really feel he could complain. A pair
of clear plastic pants was pulled up over it all with
the final thing - a tiny pair of shiny white nylon P.E.
shorts, which left no one in any doubt as to what he was
wearing underneath. A white t-shirt with the outline of
a bunny rabbit on the front and a pair of plastic
sandals completed his outfit.
For the past
month a nappy had been his underwear so he’d more or
less got used to having the thickness between his legs.
It had taken a bit of getting used to and even the
embarrassment of wearing them at camp had only lasted a
short while so it no longer bothered him. That is,
except for new people seeing him wearing it… or his dad
finding out he wet at night and had to wear one to bed.
The glass-like
pants were very obvious and were on view every time he
sat down bent over or played with his sisters. He dare
not say anything but was looking forward to speaking
with his father later in the afternoon.
#
Stanley
Griffiths had eventually been able to organise the Skype
link to a computer where he was stationed so they could
see and speak to each other. Although he hated being
away from his family for so long the oil company needed
him in Saudi Arabia for his expertise and, more
importantly, the money he’d earn was the incentive to at
least give it a go.
Joe was hoping
to get the opportunity to ask his dad to have a word
with his mother about all this babying. He wasn’t sure
how he might bring it up without confirming he was now
wearing nappies but hoped he’d get inspiration once they
got talking. However, just before the link his mother
let it be known that she planned on sending some
photographs of them all for his computer so he had an
updated reminder of his family back home. She’d sorted
through a few old shots and had taken a couple out in
the garden that day of Joe and the girls playing, as
well as some family shots. Joe thought they were boring,
as they showed him in tight shorts and a childish
t-shirt so asked if there weren’t better or alternative
ones.
She clicked on a
different folder to show some others she was sure his
father would be interested in seeing. There were a
couple of his sisters playing on their new bikes but the
ones that grabbed his attention were of him sleeping.
There he was in
his sleeper, the outline of his thick nappy bulging out
whilst he slept, sucking on his dummy and hugging a
teddy bear. His mother clicked on another file. There he
was again in the bathroom, his plastic pants around his
ankles and a dirty nappy hanging between his legs. There
were a host of similar shots that he never knew had been
taken. He was mortified and ultimately silenced.
“I’m sure your
daddy would love to see these… and proud to be the
father of such a cute son.”
She smiled a
smile that wouldn’t have fooled anybody.
“Something to
think about while he’s working all those miles away… I’m
sure he’d love to know what you’re all up to these days.
The girls learning to ride their bikes and your…”
She left it
unsaid but that didn’t prevent a cold shiver run down
Joe’s spine. The threat was there “Do as you’re told and
be ‘nice’.”
#
So, when it came
to it he just kept to general chit-chat about going to
the lake, how much they were missing him and hoped they
could go camping together when he got home… soon. The
link was short but emotional and all the children were
crying how much he was missed. Finally, she told her
husband about sending some new photographs in a file so,
even if the link wasn’t working, he’d have something to
remember them by. He looked grateful to his wife’s
thoughtfulness and blew them all a kiss.
She clicked on a
folder as they said their goodbyes but Joe was shaking
with worry in case the file included the humiliating
images. She hugged all the kids as the screen went blank
and to cheer them up suggested, as a treat, they could
go out for a meal. The girls got very excited but Joe
had realised too late that he’d wet himself out of sheer
nerves and shame once he thought about his dad seeing
those snapshots.
He also didn’t
grasp that this was going to be his first outing where
neighbours and friends could possibly see the way he was
dressed. There was just too much of everything else
going on in his head and that fact simply snuck by.
His mother
slipped her hand down the front of his shorts to check
he was wet before their trip to the restaurant. She
wasn’t embarrassed to do it, though Joey was stunned how
she knew. He’d forgotten that the clear plastic pants
revealed his yellowing nappy so it wasn’t any maternal
magic, she just saw what had happened.
“Oh Joey,” she
shrugged with a slightly forced sense of inevitability.
“I suppose all this excitement is getting a bit too much
for my sweet little boy.”
He could feel
the dampness spreading and felt silly to have wet for no
reason. His mother didn’t seem perturbed in the least
and whilst his sisters got themselves ready, she took
him to his room to change into something more
appropriate for going out.
#
As she whipped
off his soaked nappy Joe nervously asked, “Did dad… er…
daddy… get those photos of me?”
She continued to
wipe him down and rub lotion into his groin.
“What do you
think sweetie pie?”
She checked that
he was free of nappy rash and his spanked bottom showed
no signs of his past transgressions, all seemed well so
baby-powder was sprinkled all around and smoothed into
his skin.
“Er… I don’t
know… er… I hope…”
After once again
arranging his penis in a downward position, she pulled
up the well-padded nappy tightly and pinned it into
place. Then she produced a pair of cartoon plastic pants
and shuffled them up his legs.
“Aren’t these
cute?”
Joey was hardly
aware of the crinkle he was so worried about what his
dad had seen.
“Well don’t you
worry sweetheart… daddy has some nice photographs of
every one. No doubt he’s showing them to his workmates
as we speak... telling them how proud he is of you all”
This didn’t help
Joe, he still didn’t know and it sounded like she wasn’t
going to tell him but he was unsettled, what if that’s
exactly what his dad was doing now? He couldn’t get over
the idea of his father showing images of his eleven
year-old son in a soggy nappy or a dummy in his mouth.
There was an
ineffective rage seething in his stomach as the tears
formed once again and he cried for something he’d lost
and wasn’t convinced he’d ever get back.
His mother
hugged him close and told him not to cry, and promised
him that nothing would harm her little chap.
#
Suddenly the
idea of being seen in public kicked in and he struggled
slightly in his mother’s firm hold as he pleaded with
her to let him wear jeans, or even his cub uniform
shorts, over his padding. His protest fell on deaf ears
and just as he was making it difficult for her to dress
him, a solid slap on his naked bum made him realise just
how close he was to a visit from the hair brush.
His mind was in
such turmoil he hardly noticed the bright new yellow
jumper with a toy aeroplane on the front his mum had
fitted or the pale blue shorts with straps that crossed
at the back. They were juvenile indeed and because the
straps met at the back they appeared to pull the seat up
a bit and emphasise his padded bottom. Although he
wasn’t aware of it his shiny cartoon protection could
clearly be seen peeking out from the hem of his shorts.
However, even if he had known there was no way he could
argue with his mother he’d just have to suffer the
humiliation in silence.
###
Part 8
“Joey… Joey…
JOEEEEY.”
Joey could hear
his name being called out across the restaurant. He
desperately hoped it was another Joey being called but
he recognised the shout, he’d heard it often enough the
last couple of weeks.
His family had
just settled at their table when the owner of the
excited voice came running up and hugged Joey in a happy
embrace.
“Oh, er, hi
Todd.”
The youngster
held his friend tightly, unconsciously patting his
padded seat in greeting, whilst his family looked on in
amusement and wonder.
“And who is this
fine young man Joey?” his mother asked with a smile.
“Are you going to introduce us?”
“Erm… yes… er…
mum… er… mummy, this is Todd from camp. We shared a
cabin and erm... I… er…”
Ruffling Todd’s
hair said she was pleased to meet him. Then Joey
introduced his sisters who smiled at the enthusiastic
younger boy.
“Come and meet
my mummy and daddy,” Todd started pulling at Joey’s hand
but when he turned around his parents were already
standing right behind him.
#
“Mummy, daddy,”
he squealed excitedly, “this is Joey from camp, you
know, the one I told you about.”
His mother was
smiling but looked quite frail, whilst his father beamed
at his son with great affection.
“Off
course,” Todd’s mother said, “we’ve heard so much about
you… Todd has never stopped talking about how wonderful
you were to him at camp and,” she said looking over to
his mother and then back to Joey, “of course Father John
has nothing but praise for you.”
“Hello, I’m
Bernadette Griffiths,” she introduced herself and her
daughters to the visitors.
“Sarah
and Tom Watkins,” was the friendly response.
“I think Todd
likes my son.” Mrs Griffiths smiled as the six year-old
looked up to her son adoringly.
“Yes, well,”
Todd’s mother began, “I think he made a great impression
on our boy. Whilst they were away he really looked after
him and when he worried about me being in hospital,
Joey…” she looked over with emotion in her eyes, “calmed
and settled him down.”
#
It was only then
that Mrs Watkins realised that the cub her son so
admired for being his older friend was actually dressed
much like a toddler and obviously wearing a nappy. Todd
was wearing a pair of blue checked shorts and matching
shirt and looked more grown up than the older boy he was
still hugging. If Todd’s disposable and plastic pants
hadn’t crinkled no one would probably have known he was
wearing protection as, unlike Joey’s softly rustling
fortification, they didn’t show.
#
The adults spoke
for a while longer before Todd’s parents said they had
to leave but how wonderful it was to meet them all and
hoped to see them again some time.
Mrs Griffiths
handed them a card with her number and address and said
that she was sure that Joey would be happy if Todd
wanted to come around to play - they had a large and
safe garden she assured them.
“Oh yeah,” Todd
squealed in agreement to the suggestion, “Can I mummy,
can I?”
Although Sarah
wasn’t too sure she didn’t want to quash her son’s
enthusiasm.
“Yes, I’m sure
we can arrange something soon.”
She looked over
at a humiliated Joey.
“If that’s OK
with Joey… is it?”
There was a
definite understanding that Joey was not able to make
decisions of his own but she didn’t want to put the poor
boy on the spot.
Mrs Griffiths
looked at her son for an answer.
He wanted to say
no but knew his mother would use it as an excuse to
discipline him further and he certainly didn’t want that
to happen.
“Yes,” he nodded
with a forced smile.
Mrs Griffith’s
was quick to make sure it happened as she directed her
question towards Todd.
“Well we hope to
see you soon, perhaps tomorrow or the day after?”
The excitement
was obvious as the boy jumped up and down and hugged his
friend again as his mother took hold of his hand and
they left the restaurant.
“Well that was
nice meeting one of your little friends from cubs. He
seems a nice boy and I’m sure you two will have fun
playing together.”
Joey shrugged at
the inevitability of it and took his seat. It was only
then that he spotted the table behind him was occupied
by his soccer coach and three of his team mates. Unknown
to Joey they had noticed his shiny cartoon protection
when he bent down to chat to Todd. They were all
giggling; even coach was having difficulty in keeping a
straight face.
#
Joey’s face
flushed and he felt tears of embarrassment fill his
eyes.
“Mum, mum, er,
mummy can we go I’m, er, not hungry.” He was pleading
with her and dying of shame at the same time.
“What’s wrong
with you?” She said with a note of exasperation, “There
are others here that ARE hungry, now sit quietly and
check the menu.”
She’d already
opened it at the Children’s Meals section.
Joey wriggled
uncomfortably in his thick nappy and the crinkling
seemed to surround him louder than it had ever sounded
before. He saw one of the boys leave the table with a
touch of cockiness about the way he ambled over.
“Hello Joe, nice
shirt and pants,” said Tommy, one of his team mates, “my
baby brother has some just like them.”
He laughed out
loud and shook his head in disbelief, whilst Joey tried
to retreat deeper and deeper into his seat.
The joker went
back to his table which saw them all in stitches. Joe
burst into tears and at the same time his bladder gave
way uncontrollably wetting himself.
#
His mother was
aware of what just happened and got very irritated. She
stormed over to their table and through barely contained
anger ripped into them all.
“Mr Manning,”
the coach was trying his best to stifle the smile as
Joe’s mother approached.
“Yes Mrs
Griffiths, what can I do for you?”
He saw no
problem here as he remembered from past meetings that
she was a quiet, mousy type of woman who wouldn’t say
“boo” to a goose.
“Is this the way
you let your charges behave?”
Mr Manning was
surprised she had the nerve to even approach the table
and was just about to patronise her when she flew into a
rage.
“You may think
that bullying is something to be proud of… but I don’t.”
She raised her
voice a little louder.
“If this is the
way you set an example to the boys in your care you
should be ashamed of yourself.”
The smile was
slowly fading from the coach’s face and he tried to
stammer some sort of reply.
“I, er, what I
mean is, er, I…”
“That’s not good
enough… bullying is wrong and you should be
ashamed of yourself for allowing such a thing to take
place and even encouraging…”
She glared
around at the three boys who now sat guiltily looking
uncomfortable at this unprecedented onslaught at them,
and their teacher, and in public.
“… I’ve a good
mind to bring this appalling behaviour to the attention
of the board of governors at your school and see what
they find funny about such a blatant disregard for my
son’s feelings.”
Mr Manning was
suddenly aware of the entire restaurant looking at him
and the fury in Mrs Griffith’s eyes. This was serious
and he had to think of something quickly to defuse the
situation… but what?
“Er, my
apologies Mrs Griffiths, it’s just high spirits, the
boys didn’t mean anything by it. They…”
“It’s no good
apologising to me I’m not the injured person here. You
should be apologising to my son.”
“Well, yes of
course…” The coach was flushed and saw he had few
options. “I, er, we are terribly sorry for what has
happened. I, er, we…”
“It’s no good
telling ME, go over and tell HIM you’re sorry and that
this awful behaviour will NEVER happen again.”
Reluctantly, he
shamefully slid from the table and over to where Joe and
his sisters were still sitting looking surprised at what
was taking place.
“Sorry Joe,” the
coach shrugged knowing he had no alternative if he
didn’t want the entire restaurant to turn against him,
“we were only having fun but I, we, see we’ve gone too
far and, er, we apologise.”
With downcast
eyes the three team members whispered to their fellow
soccer playing friend.
“Sorry Joe.”
“Sorry Joe.”
“Sorry Joe.”
Before they had
chance to say anything further Mrs Griffiths was right
into the coach’s face.
“I never want to
hear of this kind of thing ever happening again… do you
understand?”
The coach
nodded.
“I will not sit
idly by and let my son be picked on by… anyone.”
She left the
threat hanging in the air as the coach and his boys
slunk unceremoniously out the door.
#
Joey and the
girls were stunned at what had taken place. They had
never seen their mother behave like that before and it
wasn’t just the warm glow from his recently wet nappy
that was flowing through Joe’s body. He’d been
embarrassed and yet she had taken on the bullies and
taught them a lesson. Oddly enough, the thing that had
embarrassed him just moments before, his childish
clothes, were now temporarily forgotten as he suddenly
had a new respect for his mother and felt rather proud
to be her son.
Perhaps
‘respect’ wasn’t the correct word, but she had certainly
shown herself in a new light and he felt a lot happier
now the threat had slunk off and his hunger had
returned. However, there was no denying that the
incident had turned all eyes towards them and Joey
couldn’t pretend his clothes would go un-noticed. What
he didn’t anticipate was the number of grown-ups who
were now smiling in his direction rather than laughing,
whether this was from sympathy or understanding wasn’t
clear. However, there were murmurings of admiration for
his mother as people passed the table.
#
The rest of the
meal passed off without further incident but when they
got home, although it was only five o’clock she said
that it was time Joey got ready for bed. Under her new
house rules her children had to be changed and ready for
bed an hour before their bedtime. Although they would be
allowed, once in their PJs, to watch TV until it was
time.
“Mummy,” he
tried his least confrontational voice. “Why do I have to
get ready so early, there’s no school…?”
“Well, two
things. You made getting ready to go out to the
restaurant difficult and I’ve told you I will not put up
with that sort of ‘acting up’. Secondly, in the
restaurant you behaved selfishly by wanting to leave
when your sisters and I were hungry... and out for a
nice meal”
“But, but… er…
the boys, they… er…”
“That’s no
excuse. I’ve told you over and over again that I will
not allow anything or anyone to harm my precious little
baby and yet you decided to be selfish and see us all
starve.”
#
Joey looked
completely chastened and somewhat ashamed.
“So, for the
time being your bedtime is six o’clock and will only go
back to seven when I think I can trust you to stop
considering only yourself.”
He’d just
experienced his mother demolishing one of his teachers
and thought it unwise to argue or give the slightest
inclination of doing anything but complete compliance.
He didn’t want to be getting ready for bed at four in
the afternoon so just nodded.
“OK then.”
She led him by
the hand up to his room, stripped him and noticed the
sodden nappy but didn’t say anything. She assumed that
he’d wet when there had been confrontation; she knew the
things that upset her baby but wasn’t going to blame him
for the consequences. Before she removed the soiled
nappy she commented on how strong the new plastic pants
were and how cute they looked with all the cartoon
characters running around on them. Joey just smiled and
nodded, he thought it much safer to be obliging and
cause as least fuss as possible.
Once she’d
completed the night time nappy ritual she went to the
draw and pulled out a soft pink and blue t-shirt with
dinosaurs that matched his duvet cover. It was made of
soft, stretchy cotton and as she slipped it over his
head it made him giggle as the velvety, smooth material
tickled his body. He was still giggling as she tickled
him some more and fastened the playful onesie between
his legs. He’d never looked more babyish as his bulky
protection was held firmly in place by his short,
stretchy outfit. His mother looked down at her son and
smiled.
“You are such an
adorable boy when you let mummy look after you.” She
cooed.
Before he had
chance to comment she slipped his dummy between his lips
and gently pulled him to his feet.
“OK sweetheart,
you can go down and watch TV for an hour but no arguing
with your sisters over what programmes, it’s Susan’s
choice tonight.”
#
The change from
how he used to dress a month ago to what he wore now
barely created a ripple in the way the house worked. He
was getting used to wearing what his mummy decided and
it never generated any negative comment from either Mary
or Susie, who thought it the most normal thing in the
world. They didn’t treat him any differently but noticed
that his attitude towards them had changed for the
better.
The snaps at his
crotch tugged his onesie up and seemed to make his nappy
look even huger yet it was very comfortable to wear.
Joe, dressed for bed and with his dum-dum hanging on a
ribbon pinned to his onesie, sat with his sisters who
were still in the same clothes they’d been out in and
watched around thirty minutes of cartoons before he got
restless.
He really wished
he still had his Xbox or his own TV but it was now all
gone. He wriggled around on the sofa until Mary reached
over and re-popped one of the popper studs that had come
undone on his onesie.
“There, that’s
better,” she sounded just like mummy, “can’t have you
not looking your best.”
Not many weeks
ago such fussing would have elicited a stream of abuse
and embarrassment, pushing her away and condemning her
for being ‘such a girl’, but now he just smiled his
thanks. She playfully rubbed the front of his bulky
nappy to get him to laugh but their attention was drawn
because Susan was giggling at some character’s on-screen
antics and that set both him and Mary off sniggering.
The situation got sillier and sillier so by the time
mummy came in the room, they were all in hysterics.
It had been a
long time since Mrs Griffiths had seen all her children
enjoying something so much together and that gladdened
her heart. This was what it had all been about, bringing
the family together like this. She felt affirmation in
the way she’d gone about getting her baby boy back,
things were so much nicer when he was a toddler, and a
tear of thankfulness slid down her right cheek as
another roar of giddy laughter echoed around the room.
#
She came and sat
on the sofa and all the children huddled around
appreciating the intimacy of a family at ease. They
snuggled together, Joey on her right, Mary and Susie on
the left. The warmth of the room and soft giggling at
the comedy antics on TV made the entire scene relaxing
and Joey found himself, even at that early hour,
completely stress-free now he was curled up tight
against his mummy.
From the age of
about nine he’d slowly pulled away from his mother’s
affection and thought it a bit stupid and childish to be
hugging his parents all the time, after all he was
growing up and boys simply didn’t hug. The thing was,
now he had no say in the matter, he realised just how
much he’d missed his mother’s affection and constant
attention. This was a revelation as he nestled closer
and was most content when she wrapped her arm around his
shoulders and pulled him close.
#
At mummy’s
suggestion (the two girls always called their parents
mummy and daddy) Mary went and collected the supper
treat she’d prepared for them all. When she returned
with the tray of drinks there was a surprise for Joey.
In front of his sisters, whilst they drank theirs from
tumblers, mummy made him suck the strawberry flavoured
milk from a baby’s bottle.
He didn’t want
to drink it that way and whined about being treated like
a baby but his mother insisted that was how it was going
to be so if he wanted the sweet flavoured drink (Joey’s
favourite) that’s how he had to drink it. Although he
was reluctant to give way, it was surprising just how
quickly he did. She pushed the nipple close to his lips
and smeared them with the milk. The sweet syrupy taste
had an immediate effect and he opened his lips to let
the entire nipple into his mouth.
She pulled him
onto her lap, cradled him in her arms and, much to the
amusement of Mary and Susan, gently rocked him as he
downed the entire tasty treat. He was just too tired to
object and if he had didn’t really like to think of the
alternative, a spanked bottom, so thought it best just
to go along with what mummy wanted. He loved the drink
anyway so, as his tummy filled up his eyes closed in
contentment though still nursed on the bottle.
When it came to
six o’clock Joey was all but asleep so his mummy checked
his nappy and was surprised to find him dry.
“Well done my
little prince,” she whispered in his ear, “but let’s get
you to bed so you can sleep properly.”
He wearily
whined that it was too early but the tiredness to his
voice meant mummy was correct as she led him shuffling
awkwardly up the stairs.
#
It had been a
strange day. His mother had blackmailed him into not
revealing anything to his daddy, he’d been picked on in
the restaurant but his mummy had sorted the situation
out, he’d soaked his nappy twice but been unaware he had
until after the event and now he was sleepy-eyed and in
bed by six.
Joey burrowed
down but before she pulled the cover over her little
baby she was transported back to when he was a two
year-old and wore something similar; his little podgy
bare legs kicking as he wriggled in his nappy to get
comfortable. The intense smell of baby powder, the soft
bedding and stuffed toys, the entire image electrified
her senses and left her blissfully happy with her
memories. She adored the fact that
this new onesie complemented the rest of his
surroundings and settled him with a kiss to his
forehead.
She smoothed the
front of his bulging nappy before tucking in the fleecy
blanket around him - his eyes fluttered tiredly as
cosiness surrounded him. Time no longer mattered; he was
in his bed, he was comfortable and his mummy was
whispering soothing words as she caressed his hair.
“Sleep well
sweetheart.
She passed him
his teddy, which he drowsily nuzzled, then slipped his
dum-dum between his lips, which produced a huge yawn
before his lips locked around it and began sucking
rhythmically before dropping off.
“Mummy’s very
proud of her little boy.” She purred, her words
pacifying his drowsy mind.
By six o five he
was fast asleep.
#
At six-ten the
phone rang and it was Todd’s mother arranging a play
date for the following morning. Apparently, after
leaving the restaurant, Todd was too excited and spoke
nonstop about her organising a time. He’d even refused
to get ready for bed until it had been arranged.
Once Bernadette
had agreed Sarah took the opportunity to explain that
Todd suffered from incontinence and that she’d provide
him with enough spares and hoped that wasn’t going to be
an inconvenience. Bernadette assured her that it would
be no problem because Joey had a similar problem.
On the other end
of the phone Sarah was relieved to think Joey wore a
nappy because of some problem and not because his mother
wanted him to remain a baby. She still had doubts;
although her husband had told her not to worry as Todd
cared little about that… all he wanted was to play with
his friend.
#
Bernadette
settled back down on the sofa with her daughters and
hugged them tightly.
“Tomorrow, that
little boy we met at the restaurant will be coming round
to play with Joey so I want you girls to make him feel
welcome, OK?”
“Yes mummy,”
they chorused.
“The weather
forecast says it’s going to be another lovely day so
shall we have a nice picnic in the garden?”
“Yeaaahhhh,”
they both excitedly responded.
She hugged them
again as they settled down to watch TV together.
#
Upstairs, Joey
was oblivious to any of this and wriggled
semi-consciously against his noisy plastic mattress
cover. His thick, softly rustling
nappy inhibited much feeling getting to his hidden penis
but he found the rocking sensation as he sucked on his
dummy a pleasant dreamy distraction.
In his head he
was floating over hills and canyons, whilst everything
was colourful and pleasant. Even though it was daylight
he could see and almost touch the stars above, whilst
the fluffy clouds swirled around stroking his baby-like
body. It didn’t matter because everything seemed
tranquil and soft and gentle and… warm.
It wasn’t yet
seven o’clock but Joey was blissfully flooding his nappy
with that warmth.
It was all so
perfect.
###
Part 9
Joe had woken
up at around five thirty and realised he was very damp.
He didn’t know he’d been lying in his soaked nappy for
nearly eleven hours but his groin was beginning to itch.
The padding was too thick to get much relief but he
tossed and turned (having had a night free from evil
dreams), in the hope of finding a more comfy
position. Despite the itch he was feeling relieved - he
thought it was brilliant that he hadn’t messed himself
again and that was a definite plus.
He found that
gently rubbing up against the slippery mattress offered
some reprieve, and though the rustling seemed noisy, he
assumed at that early hour no one else would be awake
and with the door closed only he’d be able to hear it.
Although he was desperate to scratch, the rhythm he
swiftly built up provided a respite from the irritation
and the pleasure of another bodily function took over.
It had been
quite some time since he last experienced that lovely
rush, he’d been far too encumbered and scared to try it,
but now, the tempo of his thrusting, together with the
tightness of his wet nappy, combined for a spectacular
release.
He clutched
tightly to his teddy bear and moaned as his nappy
received a huge amount of his boy splurge. He had to
stop himself from crying out loudly as his penis
throbbed and sent spurt after draining spurt into the
soggy material. The sensation was brilliant, far better
than any he’d ever had before and his entire body
vibrated in response.
His memory was
filled with the pleasure he’d just received and
completely forgot that it was this very act that had got
him into trouble in the first place. For the first time
in quite a while he felt he was back to being an eleven
year-old boy and not some toddler.
However, he was
spent and so totally exhausted fell asleep only to be
roused by his mother a couple of hours later who
detected that tell-tale smell once more.
Not of his
sticky explosion, but the fact that he’d dumped in his
nappy again.
#
“Has my little
petal gone poo-poos again?” She baby-talked as she
un-popped the onesie’s snaps between his legs.
He was still
slightly dozy but sure he’d only wet before… so how come
he’d now messed? He couldn’t remember having any dream
that might have caused such a thing and was both
surprised and disgusted that it had happened again.
“Well don’t you
worry your sweet little head as mummy will soon have you
all clean for your friend’s visit.”
He wasn’t
listening, far more concerned that he could have messed
his nappy twice and thankful she was not angry but keen
to get him all cleaned up.
She wriggled his
plastic pants down his legs to reveal the very soiled
nappy. It was quite discoloured with only the very edges
still white, thankfully, the smell wasn’t as noxious as
the night before.
#
Suddenly he
remembered that his nappy wasn’t only wet but coated
with the ‘sticky stuff’ his mother and priest had warned
him was a sin.
He guiltily
tried to cover his shame with his hands but she smiled
and just playfully slapped them away and unpinned each
side.
“Now don’t you
worry these accidents happen.”
She could see
the look of terror in his eyes but had no idea for what
reason so simply inserted his dum-dum back between his
quivering lips.
At least that
silenced his rising panic but barely helped the silent
tears that were falling.
There were words
of apology zooming around his head. Should he get in
first before she notices? Should he pretend…?
He was
overwhelmed with what had happened to him; the pee, the
poo, the ‘other’… he knew his mother would never let him
wear briefs again if he didn’t stop using his nappy.
She’d said that if he could prove he didn’t need it,
she’d let him wear proper boy’s underwear but…
“Don’t cry
sweetheart, there’s worse things than messing your
nappy.” She continued trying to keep her son’s spirits
high. “Mummy loves her little poo bear no matter what… ”
Joey closed his
eyes knowing that any second his slimy secret would be
discovered and he’d be in for another spanking. However,
his mother seemed more intent on keeping any mucky drips
from messing anything else so didn’t notice. Eventually
she cleaned him up with what dry bits were left of his
nappy before guiding him to the bathroom for a shower.
#
As she soaped
and sponged him under the warm jets he couldn’t
understand how he’d messed yet again. In fact, it
worried him that on several occasions now he’d wet and
had no idea he was doing so. For some reason his mind
wasn’t sending any warning signals to get to the toilet,
instead it was just telling him that toilet was now… and
it would just happen.
Whilst at camp
he’d had a system and he made sure he did his business
first thing in the morning and only wet because he was
already wearing his protection and that’s what it was
for… but now?
#
His mother was
drying him down and inspecting his groin.
“I’m sorry
sweetheart but you appear to be getting a bit of a nappy
rash so that will need special attention.”
She thoroughly
dried him before applying a very cool and soothing
cream. She spread it all over, each stroke sending
impulses to Joey’s brain he could do without. As usual,
his mother was loving and thorough, making sure each
little crease and crevice received the healing ointment.
Her tender touch was amazing sliding over his bottom and
groin making sure the rash didn’t get a hold of her
little boy. Joey felt the stirrings he’d tried so hard
to hide from his mother and spat out his dummy in panic.
“Mum, er mummy,
er, it’s nice but it’s, er…”
So absorbed in
protecting her baby’s skin she hardly noticed but saw
the awkwardness on his face and realised the problem.
She stopped and was quite embarrassed herself as she
grabbed the baby powder and sent clouds of the stuff to
cover the offending article. Joey coughed and spluttered
as the fine powdery haze settled and that helped to
soften his excitement. Flustered, she slipped his dummy
back in before reaching for a clean nappy.
#
Joey remembered
at camp that when he had a rash Terry had put him in
disposables and it cleared up quickly. Not only that,
they actually felt a lot better to wear yet still
protected him from any dribbles. He wanted to ask his
mummy if he could be put into disposables, some like he
wore before, which were thick when wet but soft and less
bulky when dry. He wasn’t sure if he dare mention the
fact that he had worn them for a while at camp in case
she got mad at her instructions not being followed.
Unfortunately,
whilst he pondered the question the moment soon passed
as she pulled up the nappy, with a couple of soaker pads
inserted and pinned in to position. A sigh
escaped from behind his dummy but she thought it was a
sigh of happiness now he was out of the damp and into
something clean, dry and safe.
“There,” she
said looking admiringly down, “my Little Prince is ready
for the day ahead.”
#
The intoxicating
smell of baby powder and lotion hung in the air and her
feelings of nothing but love for her reformed little boy
ran through her mind. The thick, white terry nappy
encircling his lower half was so sweet, so endearing,
so… she thought he’d only ever looked cuter when he was
a baby. He was safe and secure and in her eyes looked
like a little angel laid there sucking on his dum-dum.
She shimmied a
thick, glossy pair of white rubber pants over the fabric
bulge and pulled a white and green striped cotton
t-shirt, with a small teddy bear on the breast pocket,
over his head. Happy that he was all tucked in she
patted his very padded bottom and guided him down for
breakfast.
#
Wearing just
protection around the house had become second nature.
He’d developed a lovely little waddle that was a joy to
watch as he moved around burdened only by his glossy
defence. His mother didn’t see why he needed anything
else but there was reasoning behind that thought. She
knew that he would be reluctant to answer the door
dressed as he was, so she could keep track of the people
he came into contact with.
She need not
have worried.
Joey was now
completely intimidated by his mother’s actions. He was
scared of incurring her wrath and facing another harsh
spanking and all it took to get him to comply to her
demands was a swat to his bare bottom or the threat that
hung behind his bedroom door.
He gave his
mother no excuse to use any discipline and conceded to
each and every demand. He stopped questioning and just
accepted that he had no say in his life so there was no
point in fighting her. In return, and to his surprise,
she was so much more loving and affectionate and he
found he was responding to this in a way he would never
have thought possible.
He liked being
looked after, he liked all the kisses and hugs, the
cuddling and sweet words and enjoyed the company of his
sisters, who didn’t make fun of him but made him laugh.
Even though his mother had reduced him to looking and
behaving like a toddler neither Mary nor Susan thought
he was, he hadn’t changed, he was simply their older
brother in different clothes.
Of course they
knew he wore a nappy but their mother had explained this
to them whilst he was away at camp. He had a wetting
problem and needed the protection and that they, being
good young ladies, who knew the Lord was watching
everything they did, wouldn’t mention or embarrass their
brother… so they hadn’t.
In the home she
wanted none of her children to feel embarrassed about
this - things were the way they were.
Outside of
course, to keep her son close by and to make sure there
was no slipping back into his old independent ways, the
clothing kept him in check. At one point she had thought
that if he had ‘acted up’ when out and about, she would
have attached baby reins and that would have attracted
even more attention, which she was sure he would have
been keen to avoid. As it was, such measures were not
needed as he had quickly adapted to her new regime and,
if he wasn’t happy, he really didn’t have much choice
his bed time could always be made earlier still. Luckily
for her, the lack of any outside influence had made the
process so much easier. She loved her sweet little boy
more than ever.
#
Since breakfast
Joe and his sisters had been sat watching TV. Even
though he wasn’t that interested in Nickelodeon, both
Susie and Mary seemed happy watching and he knew better
than to argue. As it was, he got into the antics of
SpongeBob and his chums more than he thought he would.
This show led into something else that looked
particularly girly but was fun with Mary explaining who
everyone was. Time shot by and he only noticed the hour
when there was a knock on the front door.
At 9.30am to
Joe’s surprise, Todd arrived with his mother. It hadn’t
clicked when his mother had mentioned earlier that he
would be having a visitor, that she meant a play date
with his little friend. Sitting wearing just his huge
rubber pants he suddenly panicked and begged Mary to go
and get him a pair of shorts from his bedroom, whilst he
tried to avoid meeting his guest.
His mother
answered the door.
#
“Good morning
Sarah, Todd,” she ruffled the youngster’s hair in
greeting, “so glad you could make it… Joey’s looking
forward to spending the day with you.”
As Mary passed
the little group in the hall she shyly greeted them.
“Hello Mrs
Watkins. Hello Todd.”
They both smiled
their greeting back.
“I’ll be back in
a moment I just need to get something from upstairs,”
she said excusing herself.
Meanwhile, Mrs
Griffiths was leading her guests into the front room
where she knew they’d all been watching TV, but only
Susan was sat glued to the screen.
“Say Hello to
Mrs Watkins and Todd dear.” She said whilst scanning the
room for Joe.
“Hello.” Susie
said in her very shy, quiet voice.
“Where’s
your brother got to?” Mrs Griffiths knew something was
up but then saw the curtains trembling a little and
realised he was hiding.
“You can play
your games later Joey, so come out now and greet your
guest.”
Joe recognised
the tone as not one to ignore so nervously began to
slowly reveal himself, hoping above hope that Mary would
arrive back in the next few seconds so he could cover
his glossy protection.
#
He popped his
head around the curtain.
“Hi Todd… Mrs
Watkins…” he forced a smile whilst still maintaining
some mystery to the rest of his torso.
“Mary and I were
just playing a game, er, mmm,” he mumbled hoping to buy
some time.
“Come and say
Hello properly.” His mother gently insisted.
He knew he
couldn’t keep up the secret any longer and he’d have to
reveal himself so, taking the bull by the horns, he
stepped from behind his hiding place and showed himself
and what he was wearing.
Todd rushed over
and hugged him, rubbing up against the thick slippery
padding and affectionately stroking his bottom as if it
was normal. There was no look of surprise or horror or
sympathy, it was regarded as ‘normal’ that an eleven
(almost twelve) year-old boy should be wearing
protection. Joe wondered why he’d been so reticent to
appear as he often did these days - apparently everyone
was at ease with his nappy.
#
Todd guided Joey
from behind the curtain and onto the sofa to watch a bit
of TV with Susan. Thankfully, he could hear the gentle
rustling of Todd’s protection as he sat down and was
mightily relieved he wasn’t on his own. However, Todd
was wearing dark green checked shorts and a lighter
green polo shirt and looked a lot more grown up than him
but of course that wasn’t something that the youngster
worried about in the slightest.
Meanwhile,
Bernadette had offered coffee to Sarah and they’d gone
off to the kitchen to chat. Just a few seconds later
Mary arrived back and apologised to Joe for taking so
long but had the excuse that she was trying to find a
pair of shorts that matched his t-shirt. Too late but
Joe took them from her whilst disentangling himself from
Todd’s excited embrace. He pulled them up and shrugged
as he saw there was a teddy bear on the opposite leg,
they were indeed a match… and very, very childish.
#
However, between
them having breakfast and watching cartoons their mother
had been busy and the large garden was set out with a
variety of areas to have fun. She’d put a sheet over the
washing line and pegged it out to make a tent, there was
a host of toys scattered around and of course there was
the swing and a little yellow and red plastic Wendy
House of Susan’s. At the beginning of summer, before he
went off to his job overseas, their daddy had bought
them a trampoline and set it up with the safety net all
around. He’d also started a shelved garden area for the
kids to have their own flower beds but that was still
under construction.
With trees along
the back wall and high fences between each property, the
area was self-contained and hardly overlooked. This is
what appealed to the Griffiths when they moved in –
space for their children to grow and run around, but
safe and private. Joey hadn’t minded playing out dressed
as he was because of this and he knew none of his
friends could see him, although now, after the
restaurant, he understood that secret probably no longer
existed.
#
Back in the
kitchen Bernadette and Sarah were getting to know each
other over a cup of coffee. Recent histories, school,
local gossip, Father John, husbands and children were
all summarily discussed and agreement reached on each
subject.
Bernadette
discovered that little Todd’s wetting started again when
his mother had fallen ill. She’d been in and out of
hospital a great deal and, worrying he was going to lose
her, seemed to have triggered his incontinence. Now she
was relatively better, although she had more tests to
come, he clung to her and his father but still couldn’t
seem to get to a potty in time. Sarah thought it was
psychosomatic but she didn’t want to put extra pressure
on her son by insisting he got potty trained for a
second time. She hoped it would all sort itself out on
its own. She also had nothing but praise for Joey and
told Bernadette just how influential he’d been on her
son enjoying the camping expedition.
Bernadette
hadn’t known that Todd would only allow Joey to change
him and screamed and cried if anyone else tried. He only
trusted his mummy and daddy and now Joey, to perform
such an intimate task. Joey’s mother was shocked at this
news simply because Father John hadn’t mentioned it,
although in truth, she hadn’t had chance for any real
discussion since they returned from the lake. However,
there was a touch of pride that Joey had been so ‘hands
on’ and not shirked any responsibility, no matter how
messy it might have been.
She fair glowed
with even more pride when Sarah suggested that it was
probably down to him being brought up by such wonderful
parents, and by default, because of the huge gaps of her
husband working away, that actually meant Bernadette’s
raising the children.
#
The early sun
that flooded the back garden meant it was already
pleasant to play outdoors. With plenty of things already
available to do and the unrestricted imagination of four
young children, it wasn’t long before they were deep in
their first adventure. The girls were dressed much the
same as the boys in shorts and t-shirts but even Susan’s
clothes weren’t as juvenile as Joey’s.
Neither his
nappy nor his outfit prevented Joey from coming up with
a game of ‘Pirates’ that had them all charging around,
leaping from one area to the next and with the little
plastic house transformed into the pirate ship and
renamed - The Yellow Canary.
Joey had placed
pieces of a torn-up cardboard box all over the garden to
act as ‘islands’, if you could make it to these you were
safe but you were only allowed two jumps on the grass to
get to them before you became a horrible sea creature,
which chased the others around.
Screaming and
squealing, laughter and whooping filled the morning air
as the lively quartet changed and modified the rules to
this ad hoc game.
#
With a kiss to
her son’s cheek Mrs Watkins left, leaving him brimming
with happiness now he had Joey to play with. With
instructions to play nicely, do as Mrs Griffiths says
and the information that she’d see him around 4pm, she
left leaving a bag of paraphernalia in case he needed
changing, which was really a foregone conclusion.
Sarah drove off
feeling a little bit better about leaving her son at the
Griffiths. Her chat with Bernadette had been revealing
and they found that they had quite a lot in common. She
even partially understood her wanting to keep her son as
a child for as long as possible because she had the
same, unspoken, desire for Todd. She actually liked that
he was still in nappies, she loved that he clung to her
and though wasn’t sure about going down the clothing
route, would be only too happy to treat Todd the same
way as he got older and more independent.
#
The game of
Pirates continued off and on throughout the morning,
often interrupted by Susan suddenly chasing bubbles or a
balloon, which of course got everyone involved. Mary
would then introduce a doll or something into the scene
and it would become a family occasion or a game of hide
and seek or some other different fun activity.
At one point the
boys were holed up in the tent planning some ‘secret’
enterprise, whilst the girls had retreated to the
plastic house, I mean, The Yellow Canary, to come up
with a scheme of their own. As the boys were hidden away
Mary thought the girls should launch a surprise attack
and went off to fill a couple of little plastic buckets
with water.
When the boys
‘attacked’ The Yellow Canary they were indeed astounded
to find themselves doused of very cold water. This
unprovoked attack had them screaming and laughing as
they charged around the garden chasing the girls and
shouting words of revenge, whilst the water soaked into
everything they wore.
#
Lunchtime was
approaching and they had run themselves ragged
throughout the morning. Their mummy, as promised, made
them a wonderful picnic, which she set out on a blanket
under one of the two tall elms in their garden and that
filled the woods behind them.
Before they ate
the girls went off to wash their hands and Bernadette
took the opportunity to check Joe’s nappy, of course he
was soaked through as were the rest of his and Todd’s
clothing. She assumed that Todd would also need changing
and the youngster shyly nodded.
She brought out
the bag that Sarah had left with all the things she
thought he might need, which included new disposables,
clean plastic pants, creams, powder, wipes and a couple
of toys.
“OK,” Bernadette
beamed, “guests first.”
She patted the
plastic pad she’d spread on the ground and started to
pull down Todd’s shorts but he shrank away and clutched
at his waistband.
His bottom lip
pouted as he squirmed away and said, “Joey do it.”
She smiled at
the sweet little babyish voice that was adamant who was
going to change him and without any words spoken from
his mother, Joey stepped up.
#
She passed the
bag over to her son and was amazed at how quickly he got
all the contents arranged for his task. Todd was happy
now his friend had taken charge and let himself be
guided out of his damp shorts. He stood with his opaque
green vinyl pants matching the green checked shorts that
were currently around his ankles, and anyone could see
his bloated disposable was indeed thoroughly saturated.
As Joey pulled down the slippery cover and released the
tabs Todd whispered to Joey that he hadn’t known he was
wet. It hadn’t been just the water attack that had
soaked him.
“I’m not sure,
er, when I, er…”
“It doesn’t
matter, “Joey interrupted and calmed his friend, “let me
get you into something dry and it will feel a lot
better.”
Todd missed his
friend and since camp had hoped to see him at either the
cubs or scouts meetings at the church hall where he went
to be a Beaver. He’d asked around to see if anyone knew
if he would be joining and even Father John hadn’t been
able to confirm or deny whether Joey would attend one of
the groups.
#
As Joey went
about his job in an efficient manner Todd told him that
at times his new disposables never made him feel wet…
they only increased in size. So, unless he really
thought about it, he didn’t know he’s peed his pants and
they remained comfy to wear.
Joey was
impressed.
Once he’d wiped,
applied lotion and powdered the area he unfurled one of
Todd’s disposables and saw that it had the animal print
that he’d seen at camp. They appeared larger than his
previous design but fun-looking nonetheless. The crinkle
was the same as his old style and they fitted him just
as well.
Todd looked so
happy now he’d been changed by his friend and because
his clothes were wet Joey searched in the bag and
retrieved a pair of yellow cartoon plastic pants. He
shuffled them up his thighs whilst the youngster giggled
at the tickle the manoeuvre caused.
#
Then it was
Joey’s turn and as Mary and Susan got back his mother
started stripping him. She took off his wet top and
shorts then asked if Mary would be kind enough to peg
both his and Todd’s shorts, shirts and plastic pants out
on the line before she tucked into lunch. The girls
appeared anxious to help and both scuttled off to see to
their task.
Todd was still
sat at his side, watching as Mrs Griffiths saw to her
son’s needs. She wiped him and, after checking the rash,
applied a thick layer of cream before applying more
powder.
“Er, mum,
mummy,” Joey was a bit nervous about what he was just
about to request.
“Do you think I
could try, er, can I wear, er, might I…”
His mummy looked
down on her son who obviously wanted desperately to say
something as he squirmed around under her gaze.
“Er, can I wear
one of Todd’s disposables please?”
#
As he lay
nervously wondering what her response would be she
smiled and nodded.
“Are you
asking,” she emphasised the word, “to wear a
disposable?”
Joey meekly
nodded.
“You want to
wear one of these?” She held up the animal print item.
Again Joey
nodded uncertain of how the request was going.
What he didn’t
realise was this was the first time that he’d actually
requested, or even mentioned, wearing protection. Up
until that moment he’d been put in whatever she saw fit
so this was a turning point. This was her son, actually
acknowledging his need and actually wanting to be put
into a disposable… and she couldn’t have been happier.
“Well, let’s
see.” She acted doubtful but shrugged her shoulders.
“Todd, would you mind if Joey here wore one of your
special nappies?”
Todd giggled and
smiled his positive response.
“Are you sure
this is what you want?”
Bernadette asked
just to make sure that Joey was aware this was happening
at his behest and not something she was forcing him
into.
“Yes they, er,
look nice and feel, er, lighter than the cloth, er…”
“OK then, let’s
get you into them.”
#
She unravelled
the crinkly package and was engulfed by the sweet, talcy
smell. It didn’t take her long to have him taped in and
thinking how sweet he actually did look. She asked Susan
to go into the house and fetch the pair of yellow
cartoon plastic pants that were on the drier in the
kitchen. She thought he’d look equally as adorable as
Todd did in his waterproofs and hoped she could get them
to wear nothing but them for the rest of the afternoon.
Susan quickly
returned and watched as her mummy scooted them up her
brother’s legs and patted them into position. Both Todd
and Joey were now dressed almost identically wearing
animal print disposables and tight-fitting cartoon
plastic pants. She was convinced that if they had
another water fight, at least their nappies should be
waterproof.
Bernadette was
satisfied each boy was now well protected and watched as
they waddled over to the picnic area where Mary and
Susan were already sitting waiting for them so they
could start their picnic. The food was wonderful; the
sun kept shining making the scene all very idyllic. The
boys appeared happier not being encumbered by shirts -
wet or otherwise.
Everyone seemed
happy with the arrangements.
#
Meanwhile, two
pairs of eyes looked down on them from their hiding
position high up in the tree, Syed and Danny couldn’t
believe what was going on below them.
###
Part 10
Syed looked
across at Danny and shook his head - what the hell had
happened to his best friend, the captain of the soccer
team and a mate who could always be relied on?
He’d watched him
changing that little boy and sat transfixed as he saw
Joe’s mum then change him. Syed thought there must be
some medical reason for it. Perhaps he’d been in an
accident, perhaps… well he was just making excuses
because everyone on the street knew he dressed like a
toddler and wore a nappy. Even if few had witnessed it,
word certainly spread throughout the neighbourhood.
Despite this, he still missed him and was desperate to
know what was going on and get his friend back.
When he’d
enquired at their house if Joe was around Mrs Griffiths
had acted like he was somebody she’d never seen before;
someone who’d never been in her house before, someone
who wasn’t her son’s friend. She was very off-hand and
he was convinced it was her making Joe act like a little
kid.
#
No matter how
many times he or others turned up at the door asking to
speak to Joe she would just say he was unavailable and
shut it in their faces. Although this left him extremely
angry he realised there was very little he could do
about it. The fact that she’d sent him off somewhere
with that ‘religious’ group the first two weeks of
summer break had made a gap that was proving difficult
to bridge. Access to Joe had been stopped at every turn,
frustrating Syed and the rest of the team from having
their star player back.
Syed and the
gang had missed Joe in the games that had been played,
the camp out - that wasn’t (without Joe it hadn’t
actually been organised), swimming in the river, the
cycling and skateboard competitions that had also all
been quite lack lustre without him. Joe was a driving
force and everyone missed him when he wasn’t there.
But as he looked
down on the Griffiths family he saw that his friend
seemed happy running around wearing just a pair of
bloated plastic pants. It didn’t seem right but neither
did it preclude him from being his natural animated
self, or inhibit him from having fun. They were all
screaming with delight as the game developed into yet
another laugh-inducing escapade - and he was jealous.
He knew he
should be ridiculing his friend and keeping as much
distance as possible from such a big baby but, although
outwardly and to others he expressed contempt, he was
very envious of the joy being generated in that back
garden.
#
Unaware of the
spy in the tree and totally unconcerned about wearing
nothing but his protection, Joey was actually enjoying
the day. Now he had the disposable on he deemed
everything felt a lot better. The bulk wasn’t there, the
irritation was less and he’d thanked his mummy profusely
for allowing it. She had cuddled him and Todd and told
them they looked wonderful in their matching outfits and
for some reason that pleased them both. He had no idea
she was happy because he’d actually asked for a
disposable, in front of the girls as well as Todd, so
now felt able to let his father know about his son’s
little ‘problem’.
Joey could
hardly say his mother made him wear them or deny asking
to be put into disposables now could he? After all there
were witnesses to his request.
As the afternoon
wore on more photos and video of her happy and oblivious
son dressed in his new protection were taken and she
would let Stanley know, at some time in the future, how
his wonderful boy was bravely battling a recent bout of
incontinence.
She’d let him
know he was being a courageous little soldier, even
asking to be put into a nappy so as not to mess his bed.
She would make
him sound like a little hero who was dealing with it in
the best way he could.
She would say
how proud she was of him and his thoughtfulness at
trying not to let it affect the rest of the family - the
girls being totally supportive and not teasing him in
the least.
Of course, at
this point at least, she wouldn’t mention the rest of
his clothing but tell him how their wonderful son was
determined not to let his nappy get in the way of
anything. Having said that, she’d tell him, he was so
worried about what his friends might say, and the effect
it could have on his sisters, so was keeping them at a
distance.
#
Todd had never
been happier, dressed just like his hero and playing
with his sisters, who were fun, the water attack had
made him wet himself with both shock and pure joy, and
he wished he wasn’t an only child. Since he’d met Joey
at camp, Todd often wondered what it would be like to
have a brother, someone like Joey, someone who he could
grow up with. He loved Mary and Susan because, like
their brother, they were full of ideas and, what was
even better; they made a huge fuss of him.
It was a
fantastic day and when his mother arrived at four he
really didn’t want to leave. As it was, both boys were
once again soaking wet and needed a change. Bernadette
offered to change Todd at the same time as she did Joey
saying it was no trouble. She also confided in Sarah
that Joey had asked if he could wear one of the
disposables that Todd had brought and hoped she didn’t
mind that she had let him. Sarah looked a bit shocked
but saw how happy the two boys were, who were still
running around in their wet nappies, but also thought
how cute the two of them looked together. She had no
objections.
However, when it
came to changing them Bernadette insisted that ‘out of
politeness’ Joey should ask Mrs Watkins if he could have
one of Todd’s disposables and thank her for letting him
wear one all afternoon. He was reluctant to ask but his
mummy had made it clear that her boy should be courteous
and it was only right for him to thank Todd’s mummy.
“Er, please, er,
Mrs Watkins I, er, liked Todd’s disposables, er, I hope
you…”
Through
nervousness he wasn’t sure he could complete his little
speech but, as he was standing in front of her wearing a
very bloated disposable he thought he better get on with
it.
“We, er, I,
wondered if, er, I like them very much and, er, wondered
if, er, possible, I could perhaps borrow another?”
He looked
sheepishly at Mrs Watkins.
“Well of course
Joey. You and Todd look like brothers and if it is
alright with him then I can’t see any reason to say no.”
A smile spread
across her face and a tense smile crossed Joey’s.
“Do you find
them comfortable?” She queried.
“Oh yes,” Joey
said enthusiastically, “they’re the best and I like to
wear them.”
“Well you look
happy…”
Bernadette
guided both boys over to the changing mat and, using the
bag that Sarah had brought for Todd, cleaned each boy up
and slipped them into their clean animal print
disposables. Both were then put back into their
colourful waterproof panties but there was only time for
a quick farewell before they had to leave, despite
Todd’s reluctance to go.
However, after
promises of sleepovers and future visits and an
assurance from Joey that he’d think of joining the cubs
or scouts, Todd was led to his mother’s car, dressed
only in his t-shirt and padding just like Joey. His damp
shorts hanging forgotten on the washing line next to
Joey’s nappies, panties and shorts. Meanwhile, their
mothers had agreed that they would meet up at church the
following Sunday and go out for a meal afterwards.
#
Joey had wet
every night since he’d being forced to wear a nappy all
those weeks ago. He’d slid into the comfort that the
garment offered and used it with more ease than his
mother could have hoped.
After the first
couple of days waking up wet and being terrified what
she would say, it was now just so normal that she would
wake him, check, wash and slip him into a dry nappy for
the day that he now no longer thought about it.
The trip to the
lake may not have been what he wanted but it did make
him see things in a different way and sharing a cabin
with other ‘protection’ wearers hadn’t made him feel
different or strange or juvenile, he was just like
others who had to wear a nappy. So, although not
everyone wore one, some did and it didn’t matter, as it
didn’t stop anyone from doing anything. The other big
revelation to Joey was – younger people could be fun. He
didn’t have to be with boys his own age to have a great
time and he’d easily fallen in with the banter and
childishness of camp and cub life. It had been a
wonderful time – nappy or not.
He may well be
an eleven year-old boy but that no longer counted as he
frequently filled his padding often not even realising
he had done so. As Joe had slumped back into being a
child his mother’s confidence and attitude had grown.
She had found the strength to break from her meek and
mild old self and into a confident woman who knew what
she wanted and was determined not to let anyone or
anything stand in her way.
Joe had been
returned to the little boy she desperately wanted with
an ease that had surprised her. Currently, she didn’t
even need to threaten a severe spanking to get him to do
as instructed. He was the meek one now, hardly daring,
or even wanting, to voice an opinion, something, only a
few weeks earlier, he’d been more than happy to do.
The fact that he
had messed his nappy, which in turn had led to his cry
of discomfort and misery at what had happened was really
very endearing to his mummy. It proved that he needed
and was reliant on her to make things better. He’d given
himself over to the lotions and potions, the powder and
plastic panties and although he knew that being eleven
he shouldn’t be, he was very, very content with the way
things were.
#
By six o’clock
Joey was knelt at the side of his bed suitably padded
and saying his prayers to a God that he didn’t know
existed but because his mother insisted, he would thank
loudly. It had been a terrific, hot, fun-filled day
without a care in the world so Joey didn’t mind offering
his gratitude to everyone, including Mr and Mrs Watkins.
His mother was proud of her son and once he’d finished…
“Amen”
…she patted his
cushioned bottom and let him snuggle down with a nice
bottle of strawberry milk.
It was a warm
evening so she only fastened him into a thin, plain
yellow cotton onesie. Of course the nappy was nice and
thick and his cartoon plastic pants could be seen
billowing out from under its tight embrace, but it was
in these moments, when a bond that had been missing for
some time from both their lives became reconnected. She
loved the pliable and sweet boy he’d become. She loved
the way his special outfits fit him and nicely
emphasised his protection underneath. The material being
soft and stretchy, fluffy and colourful also adding to
his new adorable nature.
Joey had no
trouble, nor felt guilty about, the giggles his mother
would extract as she got him ready for bed. The creams
and powder she lovingly spread around his body, the
little tickles and kisses and the sweet talk made him
wriggle with pleasure.
He’d come a long
way from being the foul-mouthed, opinionated,
independent young man only a few weeks ago to the
nappy-clad, early night, respectful and obedient baby
boy who loved his mummy.
#
She rested his
head against her bosom and slipped the rubber nipple
between his lips to suckle. This operation had been
accomplished with ease. Joe had taken to it pretty
quickly and actually loved these moments with his mummy
when it was just him and her and he was being held in
her arms, cuddled and fed the sweet concoction. It was
often the most relaxed time of the day and he didn’t
want to rush it so the milk would disappear, but very
slowly. Once finished he was nearly always so
unperturbed he’d fall asleep immediately or at least be
so tired he wouldn’t notice her swap the bottle for his
dum-dum.
She had decided
that he would continue to wear his thick fabric nappy at
night but in the morning they would be going into town
to buy him some disposables. She wanted her little boy
to be happy and in truth, now he’d requested them,
couldn’t wait to start getting him into them on a
regular basis. She stroked his hair and saw his eyes
flutter shut as he continued to softly nurse on his
dummy.
Whilst she
watched her boy sleep she also had an idea that perhaps
Mary would want to help change her older brother when he
got wet. After all, she was growing up herself and mummy
thought she’d have no trouble with the sticky tabs
instead of the pins she used for the fabric nappy. Yes,
Mary would make an ideal helper and was sure that her
eldest daughter would be only too pleased to assist.
It wasn’t even
seven o’clock when the slurping slowed down and drool
dripped from his dummy down his chin. Her baby boy was
content and she was going to make him even happier with
the help of at least one of his sisters, perhaps both.
###
Part 11
Joe hadn’t
given the indulgence of masturbation much thought
lately. He had of course recently pleasured himself in
his wet morning nappy but that was more by accident than
design. Other than that, the act had not been at the
top, or even on, his list of ‘things to do’. So he was
in for a shock when his sweet dream became a nightmare
and he ended up one scared and messy boy.
#
It was another
beautiful, hot day: Mary and Susan were out running
everywhere in their swimsuits, Todd was careering about
wearing only his baggy, padded Beaver shorts and Joe was
chasing everyone around the garden in just his animal
print disposables.
They were all
enjoying themselves when a sudden cloudburst sent the
girls scurrying inside but the boys continued to dash
around in the falling rain. As puddles formed, they
would jump and splash in them, each embracing the
satisfying and refreshing feel as their bodies were
pummelled by the summer deluge.
The boys were
laughing as the rumbling storm increased in intensity
but loving every moment as they continued to wallow in
the gathering ponds. In fact, they were not now in the
back garden but somewhere that looked like a cross
between there and Lake Cambria.
#
The rain fell
harder and the ground became muddier, sucking at their
feet and legs and slowing down their activities. Joe got
stuck and Todd had disappeared altogether but, as Joe
struggled in the greasy bog, Terry arrived to help.
Dressed in his full scout uniform, and ever helpful, he
tried to reach the panicky boy who was now being dragged
under by the gooey mass. Joey’s hand stretched out to
Terry who grabbed it but in so doing slipped and fell on
top of the writhing, all but naked boy.
Their bodies
became locked as they struggled to free themselves from
the mud but that only forced the two closer together and
Joe could feel, in this moment of utter stress, his dick
getting hard. He could feel the mud squishing between
his toes and sliding into his nappy, which was
expanding, filling and dragging him down. He battled his
feelings as they both scraped and slid deeper into the
mire, Joe’s mud-slicked body sliding repetitively
against Terry’s slimy shorts.
As they flailed
hopelessly together the vortex of the swamp dragged them
under, excitedly Joe shot his load. As he tumbled into
the depths of oblivion he kept spurting wildly into the
menacing muddy mass.
Suddenly he was
somewhere pitch black.
#
No light
emanated anywhere and Joe was sodden, shaking and
afraid. He wondered if he was back in his bed, was his
nightmare over? He was completely disorientated and
there was nothing to guide him or suggest where he was.
There was a rumbling noise in the distance and he was
anxious. He could hear another, closer noise but
realised it was him starting to whimper. The fact that
he felt like he was in an alien environment was scary
and his soft mewling grew louder as he cried out as
dark-fear surrounded him.
“Mummy…
mummmmmyyyy… MUMMMMEEEEE.”
He had no idea
in which direction to go but crawled in the desperate
hope it would lead to his bedroom door but something was
holding him back. As he wrestled with
what he couldn’t see - real terror set in and he
screamed again for his mummy.
#
Bernadette
discovered her bawling son under his bed but entangled
in one of the sheets. He was still fighting an imaginary
foe and pleading for his mummy. She could see he was
still asleep and distressed but the smell alerted her to
the fact that her terrified little baby had filled his
nappy.
As he slowly
woke up Joe was so pleased to see his mother holding him
in her arms he cried with relief. Huge sobs of gratitude
wracked his body as he threw his arms around her neck
and clung to her for dear life. She
patted his back and padded bottom as he wailed into her
shoulder, glad he was safe but shocked at his nightmare.
He couldn’t put into words what he’d just experienced
but knew it was bad and even worse now he could smell
himself. He was so thankful his mummy had rescued him
from danger and hugged her begging her not to leave him
alone again.
#
His sisters were
standing in their nighties at his doorway alarmed at
their brother crying out so loudly. As Bernadette
soothed Joe she also tried to calm her daughters.
“Is Joey going
to be alright?” Susan asked in her typically shy voice.
“Did the thunder frighten him?”
Her favourite
stuffed toy, Betsy the pink bunny, was as always held
tightly in her hand.
“Yes sweetheart.
Joey’s just had a nasty dream but he’s safe now… go back
to bed.”
She gently
cajoled her daughters back to their shared room.
“He sounded
scared.” Mary queried, “Will he be OK on his own?”
Mary’s concern
was typical of her; nine years old, all grown up and
worried about others.
“He can share my
bed if he wants,” she offered.
Bernadette saw
that her son was calming down a little. Thankfully, as
she patted his full nappy the huge sobs were giving way
to short snuffles.
“That’s very
thoughtful of you dear. I’m sure once I’ve cleaned him
up he’ll be fine. Go back to bed girls we have a busy
day tomorrow.”
Susan thought
she had the solution to his troubles so walked in and
passed Betsy to a very bleary and teary-eyed Joe.
“She always
looks after me if I’m scared.”
Sniffling, Joe
took the proffered bunny and nodded his thanks.
Like angels the
girl’s creamy-white satin nighties caught the light as
they shimmered back to their own room.
#
Joe was a mess.
He’d completely filled his nappy with everything and it
was now up to his mother as to what would happen next.
He had forgotten about his surprising encounter with
Terry and the ensuing outcome, all he knew was that the
gunge surrounding his groin felt gritty, damp and
sticky.
Once Bernadette
was sure he’d calmed down enough she gently eased him
away from her neck and lay him on the ground. He
clutched Betsy and, because there were still a few
little whimpers, she slipped his forgotten dum-dum back
between his trembling lips.
Joe was thankful
for this because it meant he didn’t have to explain
anything, his mind still recoiling from the scary
episode. She slowly unfastened the snaps on his onesie
and pushed it up onto his belly. Then inched down his
bright plastic panties and saw the damage his nightmare
had caused. She had never shied away from doing the
dirty task so took a deep breath and unpinned the
offending article. She could see it was swamped with
pee, poo and also noticed the silky ribbons of something
else.
#
Joey sucked
anxiously on his dummy as his mummy cleaned him up. She
used wet wipes to remove most of the gunge before going
to the bathroom, returning with a small bowl of warm
water and a flannel. As usual she was methodical in her
care for her boy, every inch was mopped, sanitised and
thick cream applied. She rubbed in a thick layer of baby
powder before grabbing two thick nappies and a couple of
soak pads. With a little difficulty she pinned him in
and Joey had never had to wear such a huge nappy before.
He couldn’t put his legs together and once his thick
blue rubber pants were pressed into service and the
onesie’s snaps refastened he’d never looked so huge.
“OK sweet-pea
let’s go”
Joe looked at
his tangled bedding, the scene of his terrifying muddy
struggle, and suddenly gathered he wasn’t going to be
sleeping there as his mother gently steered him away. It
took a few seconds to realise where he was going but by
gently pushing on his thick protection, she guided him
to her bedroom.
“OK sweetheart,
we don’t want to have any more scares so you’ll be
sleeping in my bed for the foreseeable future. Mummy’s
going to keep a watchful eye over her scared little
boy.”
#
Joey never even
tried to argue his independence, in fact, he was
grateful that he wouldn’t have to return to his scary
bed. So, as she pulled back the covers for
him to climb in, he gladly shuffled his huge padded
bottom onto daddy’s side of the bed and tried to get
comfortable. Mummy got in beside him and kissed the back
of her boy’s head.
“Mummy’s here to
stop any more worrying things happening and to protect
her messy little baby from further accidents.”
A few seconds of
silence followed before Joey got some thoughts together.
“Mummy.”
“Go to sleep
sweetheart we have a busy day tomorrow.”
“But, but,
mummy… why am I still messing my nappy… I’m eleven?”
“I don’t know
darling but, while you are… and while you still need
your protection, mummy is here to make sure her little
boy is safe.”
Joey squirmed in
her comforting embrace.
He wanted a
better answer because he saw no reason why this should
be happening to him.
“But mummy…”
“Sleep now
sweetheart… put your dummy in and go to sleep.”
“But mum…”
“I said dum-dum
in… no more talking,” she reprimanded.
#
Joey’s mind was
working overtime trying to sort it out.
He knew when
he’d been put back into nappies and why, because of his
excess masturbation - so his mum and the priest had
said. However, he rarely pleasured himself at all these
days and, when he did have that feeling, it wasn’t as a
result of playing with his ‘stuff’, so why?
Why was he still
wetting and now… this, this, messing his nappy? It just
didn’t add up or make sense.
He wriggled
impatiently; the huge wadding between his legs made it
difficult to immediately get comfy but, whilst his
soothing dummy offered what comfort it could and his
mummy’s warm body so close, he felt ‘special’.
It was a
sensation he’d not admitted to before but a pleasing
shiver ran through his body when her arm slipped around
his waist pressing their hands together onto the
reassuringly smooth, silky, plastic bulk… content he
dropped off.
#
Bernadette tried
to sleep but what Joey had said made her wonder, why
exactly was he wetting and messing his nappy? She’d
never questioned it before; merely glad of the
opportunity to have her baby back, but now he’d
mentioned it she too began to wonder. Surely making him
wear a nappy for so long couldn’t have altered his state
of mind that much… could it?
His introduction
to wearing protection had been somewhat traumatic with
the thorough and decisive spanking he’d received
reinforcing his nappy wearing. The trip to the lake had
been at Father John’s suggestion, keeping him in the
company of younger boys who were still full of fun and
childish enthusiasm, they both hoped that would steer
him away from his daily emissions and any bad
influences. Making sure he didn’t feel too grown up by
insisting he always wore his nappy (one that couldn’t be
hidden) and insisting on the fact he needed to be
changed by someone else and being reliant on that person
- appeared to have been successful.
Once she had
made the decision to curtail his journey into adulthood
and return him to the little boy she so missed she never
thought of any further consequences. She was glad to
have put him into toddler clothes because it reinforced
he was just a child and mummy was in charge. She liked
that he had no say in what he wore or make any decisions
whatsoever. She liked his total reliance but, this
messing his nappy regularly was something she hadn’t
foreseen. Now her little boy was actually behaving
completely like a toddler she wasn’t too sure.
As Joey wriggled
and crinkled in his sleep, peacefully wrapped in her
arms, she now found sleep elusive as her mind began to
work through other things. Her main thoughts – did she
want to change the way things were? How was she going to
explain Joey’s new state of mind to her husband and,
with the summer break rapidly coming to an end, what
effect would Joey’s current situation be when he
returned to school?
#
For the second
time that night Joey dreamed only this time his dream
was of a beautiful place. He was happy, all his friends
were happy. This world was so much better - all the
colours were bright, everyone was friendly and nice to
each other, there was laughter and smiles, singing and
music, it was all just so perfect.
It didn’t occur
to him that they were all just toddlers, it just was - a
world of happy children where everyone was a sweet,
lively little kid who was out to enjoy life and have
fun. He recognised his own parents but they were also
just as juvenile as everyone else, so even adults were
little.
Everyone was
dressed in bright, infantile clothing, whilst nappies
could be seen on everyone. No one was without their
protection and no one seemed in the least bit bothered
about it. Some, like Joey, had huge padding and shiny
rubber covers that glistened in the sun, whilst others
had shiny frilly or crinkly plastic cartoon pants in
wonderful shades and designs. The main thing was, with
the smell of baby powder filling the air, and the
smiling sun keeping them warm, how easily everyone got
on. This was a most joyous place and he loved being part
of it… he certainly didn’t want to leave and decided
he’d like to stay there forever.
#
Joey sucked
enthusiastically on his dummy, oblivious to the fact
that his mother, in her own agitated state, was trying
to sooth herself by gently stroking the front of his
stuffed plastic mass. Oddly enough the silky soft
texture did calm her, whilst her son squirmed as the
sensations of his dream, and his mother’s gentle hand,
made him feel peaceful, floaty and nice.
He moaned a
little around his dummy as happy images flitted through
his mind and a warm glow spread throughout his body. He
had no idea he was once again wetting his nappy, in his
mind he was happily wading in a warm puddle with his
friends, all of whom were dressed like him in bulky
colourful plastic covers. They giggled and splashed one
and other… it was fun. No one worried about getting wet
as the friendly sun would dry them so there was no
problem. This colourful place was paradise for all its
inhabitants and one that fostered happiness above
everything else. The games continued as they ran around
all but naked enjoying the freedom of being tots.
Bernadette
hadn’t slept well but she had loved having her son’s
warm and well-protected body next to hers. The thick
slippery padding certainly was wonderful to stroke and
snuggle against. His cute little moans and mewling
during the night, muted slightly by his dummy, had been
a delight to hear. His sensual twitching as his blissful
dreams took hold carrying her back to the time when, as
a baby, she used to watch him kick his legs as he slept,
unencumbered, in his little world. He was always
adorable and nothing had changed apart from him being
larger.
#
It was time to
get up but she left her sleeping baby and raised the
girls to get them ready for the day ahead. A trip into
town and shopping was on the cards, Bernadette thought
it was time that her beautiful daughters also got some
special treats and planned for them each to choose
entire new outfits. After all, if Joey was getting his
special disposables it was only fair they should have
something too.
Whilst the girls
had their breakfast Bernadette returned to her still
heavily dozing son and woke him up. In his dream he felt
like he was being dragged away from playing with all his
friends so didn’t want to stop. Syed, Danny and all his
other mates were there squealing and shouting as they
ecstatically ran around or indulged in some fantastic
game or adventure. Some of the cubs and scouts were also
in the playground and Joey was being pushed on a swing
by Graham. Like Terry, he was wearing his scout’s
uniform but underneath, quite clearly, was his thick
protection. His matching glossy khaki plastic pants just
visible with the effort of each push.
Like everyone
else he was a toddler and even though it was his scout’s
uniform, it looked like one a two year-old might wear.
The badges were more colourful, the necker brighter and
his trainers lit up as he moved. In fact, the entire
scene was like something from one of the kiddie cartoons
he’d watched on Nickelodeon. Everything was magical,
sparkling, fun, vivid and welcoming… it was a world he
was so happy to experience.
Alas, he was
made to wake up as his mother rummaged down the front of
his protection to find him, as usual, soaking wet.
#
Despite being
pulled from this perfect place he was pleased to see his
mummy. Even with her hand down the front of his nappy he
reached out and hugged her neck and wanted to snuggle.
Regardless of his twelfth birthday being only a couple
of months away he was more loving and responsive to his
mummy than he’d ever been. His face lit up when she was
around and he loved to be hugged and snuggled as often
as possible. Of course Bernadette enjoyed the attention,
something she’d always received from her daughters but
now so happy that it was returned by Joey.
He was still
glowing from his dream, a world where everything was
little and perfect and he wanted it to be like that all
the time. His mind was full of cartoons and brightly
coloured puppets and where being grown up wasn’t
important. Being in mummy’s bed and being cuddled by her
had certainly given him a much nicer dream. Being little
and playing, having fun and not thinking about much else
was fantastic. Somehow she was making it all happen and
he loved it. He realised that it was an incredible place
and all his conscious thoughts were trying to get him
back there.
His mother
wondered why he didn’t quite seem with her. His limbs
were floppy and she found dressing him easier than
normal. Not that he put up much of a fight, if at all,
it’s just that it was, different, perhaps more accepting
this time.
#
Once again
wrapping him in giggles and baby talk she got him ready
for the journey to town. He was cleaned up and put into
his usual thick nappy, which were covered in blue
plastic pants. She slipped a navy blue t-shirt over his
head with the outline of a teddy bear on the front. He
looked wonderful dressed just like that but, as they
were going shopping, thought he should wear something
more.
From his closet
she picked out a brand new pale blue, corduroy shortall.
It contrasted nicely with his shirt perfectly as she
snapped the wonderfully soft item between his legs,
although the front bib panel all but obliterated the
outline of the teddy bear. The chrome metal clips
holding up the straps, which crossed at the back, also
lifted the shorts up enough to reveal his bulky blue
plastic pants. However, Bernadette was overjoyed because
he looked so precious, she thought if she could get him
to hold Betsy, or one of his other stuffed toys, the
image would be just perfect.
She asked him to
walk around a bit, just to see if the ensemble fitted
correctly, and to occasionally bend over and pick a few
items up. Yes, there was no doubt about it, Joey had
slipped into another level of toddlerdom and it didn’t
appear to worry him in the least. In fact, when his
mother asked him to hold his teddy bears, he didn’t
flinch as she took several photographs, even sucking on
his dummy as he did so. It didn’t seem like any of it
worried him now; the nappies, the baby talk, the
juvenile outfits, he appeared to be a happy boy and only
interested in pleasing his mummy and returning to his
own little world.
#
The town centre
was very busy. It seemed that all at the same time
parents had decided to bring their kids in to get their
uniforms or new school wear for the next term. Every
shop was teaming but in spite of this, it had become
such a social occasion, it was time to catch up for
neighbours, acquaintances, parents and children alike.
There was a buzz
in the air as school mates who perhaps hadn’t seen each
other for a few weeks noisy brought others up to speed
on their lives. The place was shrill with “Hellos”,
“Surprise”, “Well, how nice to see you’s” but no one
caught more comment than Joey as he trundled from one
shop to another holding his mummy’s hand.
Some thought it
adorable; some wondered “What the Hell!”, whilst others
simply could not believe their eyes. None of this now
registered with Joey who was in a little world of his
own and oblivious to anything other than what his mummy
and sisters were doing. The fact that his nappy was
evident now held no concern because in his head it’s
what everyone wore, well in his world they did.
#
“Hi Joe.”
It was Amy Wright and she wasn’t sure she was talking to
her friend he looked… different.
“We haven’t seen
you for ages,” she looked at his clothing, “have you
been doing anything, er, special?”
At that moment
his mother was helping Susan in the fitting room with
her new skirt and Mary was searching the rails to
entertain herself. Joe was sitting on his own waiting
patiently for his mummy to return.
Joe looked
bemused at her.
“Is this,” she
said pointing to his juvenile outfit, “something you’re
testing, a joke maybe or…”
She smiled
unsurely and then suddenly realised that he might have a
problem she hadn’t heard about.
“Are you OK…
been in and accident or, er, something?”
Joe swung his
legs and sat tight-lipped, an obvious crinkle and
rustling coming from his shorts with each movement
making it plain to anyone nearby that he was bristling
with protection.
“We’ve all
missed you these past few weeks, erm, er, what have you
been up to, er, anything nice?”
She couldn’t get
over how vacant Joe looked but that smile on his face
made him appear happy. She wondered if he was drugged or
something but wanted to keep the conversation going
because she was desperate to know why he dressed the way
he was and why no one had been able to speak to him.
His plastic
pants ballooned below his shortall and she could see the
snaps clearly running under Joe’s crotch recognizing
they were designed for easy access to change someone who
wet a lot. She’d changed her baby brother often enough
to know the signs and also the thick nappy she’d had to
put him in to prevent leaks. It looked like Joe was wet
but she didn’t like to ask.
#
Joe wasn’t
responding much just smiled but said nothing. Mary came
to sit with him as Amy continued her interrogation only
now she asked past Joe and questioned her as if her
brother couldn’t speak for himself.
“What’s wrong
with Joe?” She demanded.
Mary looked at
Amy and shook her head.
“Nothing.”
“Well why is he
wearing, er, a nappy and…” She sounded a little
incredulous that she was asking such a question.
“Oh, er, he’s
er, mummy says he’s incon, er, er,inc, er, he has a
problem getting to the potty in time.” She stammered.
“He’s
incontinent?” Mary clarified.
“”Mmmm, I think
so. Joey wets himself so mummy puts him in protection
but we…”
She saw a look
of amusement cross Amy’s face.
“But mummy says
we aren’t to make fun as it’s not nice… and… and God
would be angry if we did.”
Amy shook her
head. She guessed that wasn’t the entire story but it
would do as an explanation for now. She was just about
to investigate more when Bernadette and Susan returned.
“Oh, hello Mrs
Griffiths, Susan…”
From the look on
Bernadette’s face she could tell her presence wasn’t
welcome but she wasn’t that easily put off.
“I was just
saying to Mary how much we were missing Joe this holiday
but it seems, well, he has other things to occupy him
these days.”
She wasn’t sure
what else to say but wanted to make sure Mrs Griffiths
was aware that she knew something was wrong.
“Well Joe, it’s
been nice seeing you again and I hope…” she waved her
hand in the direction of his nappy, “you’ll soon be over
your little problem and you’ll be back with us for
Syed’s party.”
She could tell
Joe’s mother wasn’t happy about the conversation but
Mary had one final comment.
“Perhaps your
mother will find you something more appropriate to wear…
you’re not a two year-old after all.”
She almost spat
the last few words in Bernadette’s direction.
Bernadette was
livid. Partly at what had just been said but mainly at
herself for not foreseeing that this might have
happened. She should have realised that they might bump
into come of Joey’s school friends as the town wasn’t
that big. However, what had happened, happened, so now
had to just get on with what she came here to do and
that was to buy Joey his new disposables.
#
Mary and Susan
carried their own bags of new clothes as Joey held his
mummy’s hand. She noticed that his nappy looked to be a
bit saggy and hoped that the next store they went in
would have changing facilities. However, she decided
that she’d buy Joey his new protection first and
perhaps, put him in them for the journey home.
Bernadette was
astounded at the range of products that the store
carried. It had been a few years since she was last in
there looking for items for Susan when she was a baby
but it appeared to have recently undergone a major new
expansive development. Whereas before there were just a
couple of aisles for babywear, and a very restricted
selection, now there was row upon row of merchandise
catering from babies to teens. There was some fun and
colourful products for all age groups, including an
aisle for adult incontinence wear.
#
Still holding
Joey’s hand she caught the eye of one of the assistants
and enquired.
“My son needs
some disposables, he’s seen some he likes with animal
prints on… do you know if you carry that brand please?”
The young female
assistant did a double-take as she took in what Joey was
wearing but couldn’t help an appreciative giggle and
said how adorable he looked in his smart blue shortalls.
“Yes madam, we
carry an extensive range of disposables for all ages in
a variety of colours and prints from cartoon characters
to, well, perhaps if I just show you down aisle D… for
our slightly older clientele.”
She led the way
and they all trooped after her. Not surprisingly Joey
got very excited when they reached the ones with animal
print but the assistant had more information for his
mother.
“These are very
popular, though a bit more expensive than the plain
white variety. However, they are supremely comfortable
for, er, the heavy wetter.”
Bernadette
nodded but was taken by just how many different styles
there were.
“You have them
in a size that would fit my son?”
“Yes madam, no
problem. In this print…” she said with confidence now on
a subject she knew quite a bit about, “they go up to
large, which would be more than big enough for a growing
boy, although for your son,” she peaked down at his full
nappy, “a medium should be more than sufficient.”
She enjoyed her
job as she further explained that all the products had
‘wetness indicators’, which most mummies found very
beneficial. However, she got few boys of Joey’s age
through the door looking or reacting as he did.
Normally, they were embarrassed, shy or simply
belligerent and didn’t want to be there or anyone
noticing that they needed to wear nappies.
There was a lot
of “oohs and aahs” of delight from the kids as they
searched through the different and colourful brands.
However, this
school boy seemed to love being a tot and his clothes
suggested that his mother thought of him as such. She
concluded it took ‘all kinds’ but there was no doubt
that this boy was incredibly sweet and she thought he
looked absolutely adorable. His sisters were also cute
but showed no sign that they also wore nappies;
nonetheless they did seem not to only like their brother
but encourage him in the choice of nappies.
#
At that moment
Joey’s eyes alighted on a new range that had rockets and
stars emblazoned all over them.
“Mummy,” he enthused, “can I have
these please, pleeease, PLEEEEEASE?”
The assistant
smiled at the eleven year-old who was acting like an
excited toddler, then returned her attention back at his
mother.
“Yes, these are
also very popular but, although the largest size would
probably fit him, they are really for smaller and, er,
younger boys and girls who perhaps don’t wet quite as
much.”
“Ohhh that’s a
shame, he seems pretty keen on them.”
The assistant
had an idea.
“Well madam, we
do have a range of sturdy matching vinyl pants which,
once over the disposable, will give the same effect.”
Bernadette
looked impressed.
“Would you have
them in his size?”
Joey was fidgety
but smiling as he held onto one of the huge packs of
disposables he hoped his mummy would buy.
“I’m sure we
do.”
The assistant
continued to describe various items and those she hoped
would be appropriate to Joey so by the end of the visit
they had several large cartons of disposables; one of
plain white, one of stars and rockets, and two of animal
print. The also bought a pack of three, hardwearing but
clear step-in plastic pants, as well as three snap sided
pairs of colourful heavy duty vinyl covers, which
included the rocket and star design.
Joey was beside
himself with glee and couldn’t wait to get out of his
soaked nappy and into his new disposables.
As they exited
the store a small crowd of Joey’s school mates had
gathered around Amy and watched as their heavily
protected friend, dressed as a little boy, carried a
bundle of clearly marked disposables back to the car.
Some couldn’t help but giggle and two of them laughed
out loud but Joey, oblivious to their derision, only saw
people dressed as they were in his lovely colourful
dream.
###
Part 12
A couple of
the boys in the group were shouting abuse and jeering
Joey because they could see the heavy
nappy hanging below his baby blue shortalls, but that
was a big mistake. Joey was oblivious, or simply wasn’t
bothered, but the boys had to contend with an incensed
Mrs Griffiths. Obviously, they hadn’t heard about her
destruction of the football coach at the restaurant,
they weren’t expecting any confrontation and were made
to look more than a little inadequate as she launched
into a very public tirade about manners, attitude and
the promise that she would be speaking to their parents
and school in due course.
The threat was
enough to reduce the loud mouths to apologetic and
embarrassed little boys whose bravado and general
cockiness had suddenly departed. The fact that these
days Joey’s mother was not averse to public displays
when it came to the defence of her family drew a riveted
crowd as she berated the once swaggering group. Suddenly
very self-conscious and ashamed, never had wholescale
apologies followed so speedily and the cringing (and
almost weeping) boys had to publicly grovel for
forgiveness. Joey wasn’t bothered one way or the other,
quite simply he wanted to get home as soon as possible
to wear his new disposables and nothing else mattered.
#
His mother had
noticed the incredibly soaked and saggy nappy on their
return to the car but decided to wait until they were
back in the privacy of their own home before giving her
bubbling and excited son the thing he desperately
wanted.
Things had
changed in a huge way since Bernadette had first put him
back into nappies. Then it was both as a punishment and
precaution but that certainly wasn’t the case now. It
seemed that Joey was now leading the need to wear his
protection. He was just so happy at the store and so
incredibly excited at the masses of items stacked in
front of him she was sure he would have bought the
entire stock had he been allowed.
He was now
actually begging her to let him wear disposables and, on
reflection, she realised he’d never complained once when
put into a fabric nappy, well not since he’d come back
from camp. In that time he’d been content to do and wear
whatever his mummy decided. It wasn’t that he had been
intimidated and cajoled into wearing them, it appeared
he wanted to. At times his mummy wondered if she’d
inadvertently come into the possession of something
magical; a stuffed toy, or nappy or dummy… because he
really was no trouble at all.
He couldn’t get
out of his protection fast enough, almost dragging his
mother through the door, as he begged her to be wrapped
in his new security.
#
The soggy,
sagging nappy just made him look so damn cute. It was a
word that she thought and used often when she looked at
her son dressed in such a babyish way. She thought he
looked so adorable and it often brought a feeling of
such pure love… but also the need to protect both him
and that love. She smiled at the eager look on his face
and the total lack of worry about the mess hanging
limply from his hips.
Of course she
cleaned him up first. He’d made a mess in his saturated
nappy and needed a thorough cleansing before she could
slip him into something more comfortable. Joey had no
idea why, or even when, he’d wet so much but was just so
thrilled now he had all the new disposables to choose
from. Once his mother had done her duty in making her
boy as clean as possible, as a special treat she let him
choose the style he wanted.
“Mummy, can I
please, please, Pleeease, have the rockets and stars…
please?” He pleaded like a tot.
She thought
these would be his first choice as he’d been so excited
when he’d discovered them at the store and was more than
happy to let his unbridled eagerness demand to wear
them.
#
Although she was
equally keen on seeing him in them she made a great
ceremony in opening up the package, lifting out the
first individual item and slowly unfurling it.
Surprisingly, it crinkled quite loudly as the plastic
back slowly became unravelled and spread out. The smell
of newness, baby powder and whatever other perception
this rather charming looking disposable conjured up was
only matched by the giggly smile on Joey’s face. He
seemed ecstatic when she slowly taped him into the slim,
flexible but tight fitting article.
The stars and
rockets were appropriate because Joey was over the moon
and loved the little rustling sound they made with each
slight movement.
She let him up
and parade around in them for a short while. They hung
close to his hips and she had to admit he looked
unbelievably endearing in them. She knew that the soft
padding would swell considerably once they were wet and
his slightly padded bottom and front would become huge.
She reached for a cotton t-shirt that had a rocket on
the front and the outfit was almost complete. Joey
simply wanted to spend the rest of the day as he was but
his mother decided to be on the safe side, to slip a
pair of his new see-thru plastic pants over it all.
Although Joey
didn’t want this extra protection, as he was already so
comfortable wrapped in the crinkly and joyously juvenile
printed nappy, he stepped into them and was pleased
because the plastic was completely clear, so he could
still see the pattern. However, there was also another
bit of news that his mother disclosed as she patted his
padded bottom before sending him on his way.
#
“OK Joey, now
you are in disposables and the indicator strips will let
us know when you’re wet, from now on, both Mary and I
will be sharing changing duties.”
His face
changed from a smile to a sad little frown. A petulant
look appeared and his bottom lip trembled in a sulk.
His mother had
been thinking for a while that had Joey been a baby Mary
would no doubt have already seen to him if he’d needed a
change, so why not let her do so now?
She’d foreseen
that he might be reluctant but already had a way around
it - she’d give him a choice.
“Do you want
to wear these nice comfy disposables or go back to the
heavy fabric nappy?”
She knew what
the answer would be, and although he would be wearing
fabric ones to sleep in, if he wanted these that much he
would have to obey the rules she set down.
“Well,” she
asked firmly, “which is it to be?”
Joey shrugged
knowing he had no alternative.
“It’s only if
I’m not around and Mary… and indeed Susan… both only
want what’s best for you and would hate to see a bloated
and soaking wet nappy that might lead to getting another
nappy rash.”
#
Joey was
staring at the floor. He didn’t want this to happen but,
since he’d been put into a nappy, he’d never actually
changed himself. He’d changed Todd but never himself and
now it looked like the opportunity to do so had just
been given to his sister.
“Can’t I, er,
do it myself? Does Mary have to...?”
“Both your
sisters love their brother and want to help in any way
they can so, now they don’t have to fiddle with pins,
they can help. Besides…” She said thinking on her feet,
“you are the cutest little boy around so who wouldn’t
want to keep you clean and dry?”
“Muuummmm.” He
whinged.
“Fabric or
your new disposables, which is it to be?” She was
adamant that he should say clearly what he wanted and
then he would know the conditions that would follow.
He rubbed his
hands across the new glossy pants and said in a very
quiet voice.
“These
please.”
“That’s a good
boy.”
She patted his
bottom even more and cuddled her little boy who seemed
to have become more infantile-looking now he was dressed
in his playful printed disposables.
“Aaannnddd,
you look splendid in your new… ‘astronaut’ outfit. She
added as she smiled cheerily and ruffled his hair.
When mummy
said things like that Joey blushed with pride. He liked
that his mother thought of him in that way and enjoyed
the idea that everyone thought of him as a sweet boy.
All of which brought the smile to his face, everything
was back to ‘Happy Time’ with thoughts of him zooming
through space.
#
Since his
return from Lake Cambria Father John had been
exceptionally busy. Almost immediately he’s been sent by
his bishop to another part of the diocese to help
regenerate a failing church and then on to attend a
spiritual conference, it was some time before he
returned to St Cuthbert’s to tend his flock.
He had a lot
of catching up to do as his presence was sorely missed
whilst he’d been away.
Still full of
enthusiasm and fervour, the priest decided on paying a
visit to his favourite cub (and in his opinion most
improved boy), young Joey. He’d been impressed by the
way the lad jumped in and got involved in something he
basically had no interest in, well, to begin with. He
saw how, even burdened with having to wear a thick
nappy, he soon shook that obstacle off and managed to
take the lead, thereby adding to every one of the other
cub’s experience at camp.
The other
scouts and cubs all thought Joey was fantastic to have
around and the fact he wore his nappy throughout the
entire two weeks without letting it get him down was a
revelation and an inspiration to other ‘nappy’ wearers.
The priest hoped that the experience would lead Joey to
want to become a scout as he saw a great deal of
leadership potential in him and wanted to encourage the
boy in that particular direction.
Father John
was in for a surprise when eventually he knocked on the
Griffith’s door.
#
Thanks to the
clothes Joey was now wearing Bernadette hadn’t noticed
he was still growing and over the last few weeks had
added an inch or so in height. However, it was also
pretty obvious that changes in age and height had done
nothing to stop his total and speedy immersion in his
own little world.
As far as his
mummy was concerned, Joey’s nappy’s were an integral
part of who he now was and, strange though it may seem,
he appeared to be in no great hurry to change things.
He’d made absolutely no attempt to cast them off or use
the potty. She had thought he would have stopped his
night time wetting and masturbation but only one of
those activities had ceased, more or less. She had
thought that he’d simply find a toilet when he needed
one and he had, in his nappy. She also thought that
despite the threat of a spanking he would have rebelled
against everything since he’d gotten back from camp but
he hadn’t, the brush hanging on the back of his bedroom
door was all but redundant.
Even six
o’clock bed times weren’t argued over, watching
programmes suitable for Susan were equally appreciated
by all three children and most of all Joey seemed more
than happy, as he should do, to be a lovely big,
friendly, fun-loving boy… who just happened to wet
himself.
Of course she
didn’t have to make him wear what she did but it pleased
her and there was never any opposition from him, he
accepted everything as would a toddler, so that was how
she treated him. The fact that he’d immersed himself
back into his childhood with such ease had been a bit of
a surprise to Bernadette, and to see him lay out on his
tummy watching TV with his sisters, unashamedly wearing
nothing but a t-shirt and his childish protection, was
truly gratifying.
That was how
Father John discovered them when Bernadette welcomed the
priest into their home.
#
“Hello
Father,” Bernadette beamed when she answered the door,
“how nice of you to call. You’ve been busy since you
returned from the lake…”
She was in
full flow as she let the priest in.
“Can I get you
a drink, perhaps tea or coffee?”
Yes, either,
that would be nice.”
He followed
her into the kitchen as she busied herself filling the
kettle and getting cups and saucers ready.
“I’ve been
attending a conference on behalf of the bishop… on youth
and the community.”
“Oh, well,
that sounds interesting…”
She didn’t
really want to hear about it so started looking in her
cupboards for the tea, sugar and then went to the fridge
for milk.
“Well Mrs
Griffith, it’s on a relative subject I’ve called.”
Mrs Griffiths
was still busying herself so he continued.
“Yes. At camp
Joey proved to be a natural leader…”
She still had
her back to him as she fussed with cups and spoons so he
couldn’t see any reaction.
“… the scouts
and all the other boys loved him and I was hoping that
we could get him to join the scouts more permanently.”
An almost
imperceptible sigh escaped Bernadette.
“I think he’d
be a huge asset to the group. He’s inventive, diligent…
I would say a natural leader. Do you think he’d be
interested?” Father John asked hopefully.
Bernadette
knew she couldn’t hide Joey away from the priest so
turned and with a half-smile and half grimace suggested
that he should find out for himself.
“He’s watching
TV with the girls, why don’t you go through and ask.
I’ll bring the tea in when it’s ready.”
#
Mary was sat
on the sofa whilst Susan and Joey were laid on their
stomachs intent on some colourful cartoon on screen.
Father John took in the scene and was immediately
perplexed at why his ‘natural leader’ should be wearing
a padded nappy and plastic pants, surely, after all this
time, the poor lad still wasn’t being punished.
“Hello girls,
hello Joey”
Mary looked up
“Hello Father.”
The other two
didn’t seem to acknowledge him apart from a grunted
welcome of sorts, so intent were they on what was
happening to the characters on TV.
“Er Joey, can
I have a word?”
As he sat on
the sofa next to Mary the priest suddenly felt very
strange about the situation.
The boy
dragged himself away from the screen and stood in front
of the priest. His rocket t-shirt barely long enough to
reach to top of his protection made him look like a two
year-old. Meanwhile, the faded images on his disposable
let anyone who needed to know that he was damp.
“I spoke to
Todd before I went away…”
“He’s been
here for a playdate.” Joey enthusiastically interrupted.
“We played pirates and stuff… mummy made a picnic… it
was fun…”
He would have
continued jabbering on if the priest hadn’t interrupted
him.
“Yes, I’m sure
it was fun but, er, the cubs and scouts had all hoped
that you’d join us at St Cuthbert’s and maybe even join
our troop.”
As the priest
spoke he could see that Joey wasn’t quite there and
wondered what Bernadette had done to her son.
“Do you think
it’s something you’d like to do?”
Though he
heard the priest Joey was thinking of the cartoon he’d
just been watching and his mind was slipping back to
that TV adventure. Even whilst he was standing right in
front of the priest his bladder simply opened up and he
filled his nappy some more.
“Mummy, I
think Joey needs changing.” Mary called out to the
kitchen, “Do you want me to do it?”
Mrs Griffiths
walked into the living room carrying a tray with
everything prepared, including milk for the children.
“Yes dear,
that would be very nice if you could but I don’t think
Father John needs to witness it do you? So go upstairs
and change him there please.”
The disposable
bloated very quickly as the gel absorbed all the liquid
Joey expelled and the pretty rockets and stars faded.
The see-thru pants made this obvious to anyone who
watched and the Father was surprised that Mary simply
held out her hand, which Joey took and was led upstairs
by his younger sister.
Meanwhile,
Susan seemed completely disinterested in what was going
on around her as she was so absorbed in her programme.
#
Once tea was
poured and a few bits of small talk delved into Father
John looked to Bernadette for answers.
“He’s still
wearing a nappy… is he still being punished?” He
asked with a note of incredulity in his voice.
“Good grief no
Father,” she let a small smile escape. “He just seems to
prefer them these days.”
“But he looks
like a toddler, you even dress him like one… what’s
going on?”
Bernadette
didn’t like the priests questioning but, as he was a
friend and a man of God she thought she should try and
explain.
“You told me
that he wet every night and day whilst at camp
and when he returned home he just continued.”
She was as
telling the truth as she saw it.
“But that’s no
reason to treat him as a toddler.”
Father John
was quite perturbed.
“It isn’t
right. The boy needs to grow, experience the world, be
out with his friends, doing things with his peers…”
“Well,” she
sounded a little exasperated with the priest, “that’s
not your decision and my little boy seems so much
happier now.”
Seeing a
possible solution to what he saw as something bordering
on abuse of Joey he asked if she would let him join the
scouts at St Cuthbert’s.
“What did Joey
say?” She knew he’d not agreed to anything and that he’d
just peed his nappy in front of the priest.
“He didn’t say
anything. He looked, well, out of it… are you, er,
drugging your son?”
Anger flared
in Bernadette at such a suggestion.
“I most
certainly am not. How dare you suggest such a thing?”
She was worked
up now and Susan turned to see why her mum was shouting
at the vicar.
“Thanks to you
and your camping trip my son is happier and more loving
now than he’s ever been and that’s something YOU should
be proud of… not condemning me for having a wonderful
baby boy back in my life… our life” She corrected.
The Father
could see she was agitated and decided to pull back from
the accusations even if he didn’t feel the circumstances
were right.
“Yes, I’m
sorry. You are quite correct; a loving son is always a
wonderful thing to have, especially with all the
aggravation that goes on in the world.”
He could see
his words were calming her a little. His mind was racing
wondering what he could do but was so caught off-guard
by the way Joey was dressed, he thought he’d better
retreat and re-think the situation.
#
He settled his
cup in the saucer having hardly drunk anything and said
he had to leave.
“Sorry, I
didn’t mean to upset you I was just surprised at… well…
no doubt I’ll be seeing you all at Mass on Sunday, so
I’ll…”
At that moment
Joey was waddling back down the stairs wearing a fresh
disposable. Mary had done a fair job but it was hanging
very loosely to his hips and he didn’t have his plastic
pants covering him. Once again Joey was very proud of
his rockets and stars pants and had run off before Mary
had quite finished.
“Ah Joey, good
to see you again, hope you’ll give some thought to the
troop.” The embarrassed priest beamed an encouraging
smile which Joey returned. “The guys are missing you.”
“Bye Father,”
he waved from the stairs.
“Yes, er, bye
Joey, Mary, er Susan… er,” he nodded at Bernadette, “see
you all on Sunday.”
#
Bernadette was
more than a little disturbed by the priest’s visit and
doubt filled her mind.
Was she being
unfair to Joey?
Could she be
in the wrong in wanting her baby boy back?
Is Joey
unhappy?
The last
question was answered as he ran to his mummy for more
cuddles. Bernadette hugged him tightly and thanked Mary
for doing a “wonderful job”. However, she led him back
into the living room, laid him out and showed Mary how
to tighten the tapes on his hips so his nappy wouldn’t
sag quite as much. Mary was carrying his plastic pants
so it was her job to slip them up his legs to hold
everything in place and keep him from any leakage.
Both mother
and daughter cooed and tickled Joey who giggled
throughout the process then patted his padded bottom
when they’d finished. Susan just watched her cartoon,
where she was joined by her happy, crinkly, dry and
well-powdered brother.
Father John
drove back to the church in a quandary - just what could
he do?
###
Part 13
Father John had been completely
and utterly shocked by the way Joey was being treated by
his mother. The problem was, in some way he knew that it
was partly his fault; Mrs Griffiths had made it
abundantly clear his involvement in what had happened.
He’d gone along with the enforced nappy-wearing and even
insisted he wasn’t to independently remove them. However
responsible he now felt he knew he had to try and make
some kind of amends to get the boy back to the
committed, fun-loving, eleven year-old leader he’d seen
at Lake Cambria.
Bernadette was more than a little
annoyed by the priest’s visit. She couldn’t understand
why he wasn’t happy for her. She’d got Joey to say his
prayers, go to church and, better still, had stopped all
that self-abuse, leaving a sweet, innocent and loving
child.
Isn’t that what the Good Lord wanted?
As her son wriggled happily in front
of the TV, singing along with Susan to the cartoon
characters and obviously enjoying himself, she wondered
what could possibly be better. Mary, who now appeared so
grown up compared to her son, had proved that she liked
the responsibility and could take care of her brother if
needed.
#
However, another problem arose that
she hadn’t foreseen happening so quickly. Often when
chatting to their father via the computer, the visual
link wasn’t that good and they’d only get a jumpy image.
However, on the last occasion Stanley saw his son sat
with a dummy in his mouth and was more than a little
concerned. Although this was now a regular feature of
Joey’s comfort, his daddy was shocked at how he looked
and the way he spoke. Of course Bernadette had mentioned
Joey’s incontinence and played the seriousness of it
down but Stanley was now worried about his boy.
“Why is Joey sucking on a dummy?”
He asked Bernadette when the children
had said their goodbyes.
“Oh, er, he’s just playing house with
the girls. You know, er, he’s their baby… or something.”
She tried to make it sound light and
carefree but knew she couldn’t deceive her hubby for
long.
“Yes, er, Mary is growing into a very
young lady but still Susan and her love their little
games.”
She hoped that would be a good enough
excuse as he then enquired about Joe’s wetting.
“Oh, he’s still wetting… but he’s a
trooper… doesn’t let it get him down and once he’s in a
nappy seems…”
“Is he in a nappy all the time?”
Stanley asked with deep concern.
Bernadette saw no way out of this so
told him the truth, well as much as she thought he
needed to know.
“Just about all the time. He appears
to have lost the ability to know when or how to go to
the toilet…”
“What has the doctor said?”
“Erm, he’s confused and done tests
and we have another appointment in a couple of days but
basically, he thinks it’s something he’ll just suddenly
grow out of.”
Bernadette lied.
It was strange that the confidence
and bluster with anyone who challenged her or commented
on Joey’s nappies had, under the questioning by her
husband, disappeared and reduced her to a meek housewife
scratching around for an explanation.
“Well it can’t be because of
something that happened at school because they are on
holiday.”
Stanley was trying to reason this
out.
“Was it something that happened when
he went camping with that church group?”
Now he was both concerned and
suspicious.
“I don’t think so because it started
before he went. I nearly didn’t let him go because of
his problem but the Father convinced me it would be good
for him being around so many other boys his age.”
Stanley didn’t like the reference to
Father John but had to agree with him on this point -
that it probably was better for him to be at camp rather
than sitting at home.
“OK Bernie, keep an eye on them for
me and hopefully I’ll be home soon. I think they are
running out of things they need me to do over here even
though my contract was for six months.”
He smiled at the camera and
Bernadette flushed as she always did at her handsome
husband.
“Well… love to you all.”
And the link went black.
She looked over her shoulder at her
boy laid out on the floor with his legs in the air,
dummy in his mouth and Mary inspecting his bulging
disposable.
#
There was no doubt about it, wearing
his sweet childish disposables had definitely made Joey
even more infantile. His nappy was more often wet than
dry as he leaked continually not able, or willing, to
take control of his body. Bernadette didn’t mind but
there was a simmering doubt now playing at the back of
her mind.
Over the next few days it was very
apparent that Joey loved his new disposables often to
the exclusion of any other clothing. To him they felt
better to wear and even when wet, just felt nicer. He’d
normally be changed when all the indicating motifs
disappeared and it had absorbed enough liquid to expand
between his legs many times over. It was this bit that
he liked the best, even when there was just a bulbous
and squishy bulge in his plastic pants, unlike with his
fabric nappy, which he still had to wear on a night, he
never felt wet. He liked the waddle it
produced as well as all the attention.
Yes, these disposables were nice… and
wearing them made him very, very happy. He felt secure,
he felt safe and he felt like a little kid again… and
liked to wet them because that was fun. However, these
days he never actually meant to pee in them it just
happened. Suddenly he’d realise how big his disposable
had gotten and that made him giddy and joyous because it
felt good.
He liked the fact that Mary was
treating him like she was another mummy. She was
constantly checking him, making sure he was alright and
giving cuddles. He liked that. Susie, sorry, Susan, she
didn’t like to be called Susie anymore, was his best
playmate, well that was if Todd wasn’t around, and
again, she was like a big sister to him, always making
sure he was dry and, if he was upset or crying over
something, she made sure he had some toy or other at
hand and had plenty of stuffed animals to sleep with.
Since church, where Father John had
been very friendly and had thanked the Griffiths and the
Watkins’s for coming, Todd had become a regular visitor
to Joey’s home. After one Mass both families had gone to
lunch and had a great time together chatting and
gossiping. Again the eldest child was dressed like the
youngest but it made no difference to either group,
their sons we enjoying each other’s company and, with
both having the same wetting problem, there were no
special arrangements needed. The Watkins were so happy
that their son had finally found a friend he really,
really liked, so they were more than happy to let the
boys spend so much time together. Mary and Susan took
the two nappy wearing boys under their junior maternal
wings and made sure they were frequently inspected.
#
It seemed that every morning Joey now
woke up wet and messy, even when sleeping in his mummy’s
bed he couldn’t help himself. He’d lie there happily
sucking on his dummy until his mother cleaned him up or
took him to the bathroom for a more thorough cleansing.
It was never too much trouble for Bernadette but she
wasn’t keen on involving the girls in this aspect of
Joey’s toilet and kept them to simple disposable
changes.
After a night in his wet and messy
nappy Joey was always cheery when he was wrapped in his
fresh disposable. He was no longer asked which one he
wanted to wear that decision was taken by whoever was
changing him. He wasn’t bothered as he’d noisily waddle
away, the reassuring crinkle or rustle of his vinyl
pants adding to his sense of security.
#
Things began to change for Bernadette
as they had for Joey all those weeks ago.
Gradually doubt crept into her mind;
her husband’s wary concern and the Father’s earlier
words of reproach had affected her more than she
thought. The confidence, with which she started this
process, and the need to have her baby boy back, now
looked somewhat reckless. She decided to make an
appointment for Joey to see a doctor because plainly,
just taking him out of his nappy and putting him back
into briefs wasn’t going to be nearly enough.
The doctor, like so many other
doctors, simply didn’t have the knowledge to deal with
such a specialised case as Joey. He thought, as
Bernadette had already explained to her husband, it was
no doubt something he’d eventually grow out of.
“If it started suddenly, it can go
away just as suddenly.” Was the doctor’s pathetic
diagnosis.
She tried to explain that his
reliance on nappies and his love of disposables meant he
made no effort at all to go potty. As if to add emphasis
to her words of worry Joey filled his disposable there
and then in the doctor’s surgery - telling mummy loudly
and giggling what he’d done. The doctor just sighed and
shrugged, it was beyond him and, as far as he was
concerned, she’d just have to wait until he grew out of
it.
She arrived back home disenchanted
with the Health Service but knowing she needed to do
more so looked online for Child Psychologists, found one
in the next town over and booked an appointment. Joey
could be seen in three days.
#
The big problem that Bernadette faced
was how to undo what had been done and the fact was… she
just didn’t know.
Yes it was her who’d put him in
nappies, although it was Father John who’d suggested it
and followed through with a severe spanking. It was her
that then insisted he be punished for his self-abuse and
swearing but, how could she ‘undo’ those things. A
spanking was a spanking, not a lot you can undo about
that and it wasn’t like he was disciplined nonstop. The
threat was there in the early days but he soon didn’t
need that type of intimidation. It wasn’t her who put
him in disposables, well it was, but it was Joey who’d
asked for them. It was Joey who’d slipped back into
childhood, although she had to admit to encouraging it
with mild threats and baby clothes, in truth, he hadn’t
put up much of a fight.
The more she thought about it the
more uncomfortable she became about the ease in which
Joey had taken to it all, although at the time she was
just so grateful. She looked across as he played with
his sisters; tall and handsome and wearing his shiny
protection, she was caught in a dilemma.
Should she try to unravel her son’s
desire to wear a nappy and act like a toddler, should
she attempt to get him back to a noisy twelve year-old,
or should she just leave well alone?
Well, with that particular special
occasion, his twelfth birthday, drawing close she
decided on that day to begin the start of his return.
She would organise a huge party and invite all his team
mates and friends from school and hope that stimulates
any suppressed grown up feelings or desires her sweet
boy may have.
#
Bernadette’s hope was simple.
Perhaps, under the influence of his friends, he’d
gradually slip back into being the belligerent,
self-confident pre-teenager that he once was. Syed and
Joey, together with all his team mates were quite a
group of self-reliant kids, always out doing something;
soccer, skateboard, swimming, they never seemed to stop.
It was only now, when her son had become so much of the
baby she’d wanted, she realised what had been taken
away. He was almost twelve and although her motives and
hopes had been fulfilled, with a heavy heart she
realised that now was the time to return to the status
quo… although she hoped there’d still be touches of her
‘sweet little boy’ that would remain.
#
Syed was called and asked if he
wanted to come to Joey’s twelve birthday party. He was
to invite any friends of them both that he knew and it
was to have a soccer theme. Meanwhile, she sent out
invites and also called people she’d been keeping at
arms-length for all this time. She asked Father John to
invite the cubs and scouts, in fact anyone who was at
camp with him. She was worried that few would turn up
because she’d shielded him from his friends for so long,
although, if everyone turned up it meant the house was
going to be crammed with kids but, maybe, that might be
a good thing.
After such a long time being kept
well away from his best friend, Syed suspected something
amiss from Mrs Griffith’s invitation and was very
distrustful. However, he was desperate to see his friend
again and perhaps get to the bottom of what exactly had
been going on. The same could be said for just about all
his friends, rumour and gossip had gotten around so much
that everyone was curious to see for themselves. They
didn’t know if they’d get the Joe they all knew, or this
dumb little jerk who wore nappies, but they wanted to
find out.
###
Part 14
It was a first in such a long
time, the morning of Joey’s birthday party and a
surprise present no one expected. His mummy couldn’t
believe it, after so many wet and messy mornings, and on
the very day when she had decided to try and return him
to acting his real age, he presented her with a dry
nappy.
The thick fabric nappy and stuffers
that accompanied him to bed every night were as dry as a
bone. However, this huge development meant nothing to
the birthday boy himself, he just wanted to get out of
his night time uniform and get put into his slinky
disposables. In fact, when asked what he wanted for his
birthday, all he kept requesting was more colourful
disposables.
#
The day before had seen him visit
Doctor Rosemary Peterson, a child psychologist, who had
spent over two hours with Joey and his mummy. Apart from
the fact he was acting like a toddler, she could find
nothing physically wrong with the twelve year-old but
agreed that a traumatic event could have sent him back
to a moment in his life when he felt safe and protected.
Nervously Mrs Griffiths asked if his
severe spanking and being forced into wearing a nappy to
prevent him masturbating could have been the cause.
“It’s possible”
Had been the simple response, but the
Doctor added, it could be just one of many reasons.
Possibly by spending such a long time wearing a nappy,
maybe Joey had simply got used to it and actually liked
what it represented.
The psychologist went on to explain
that many young people are often stressed about things
their parents, teachers and even friends don’t know
about. She reeled off a list. Something as simple as
worrying about spots, reaching puberty, exams, pressure
to perform in sport, changing school or just growing up
and having to deal with becoming an adult can sometimes
put pressure on a young mind, especially if they aren’t
particularly ready to accept such responsibility.
#
Bernadette tried to think of
anything, anything at all, which could have affected him
but Joey was always a self-sufficient boy who was keen
on sport and never appeared to let exams worry him. He
usually sailed through them getting pretty good grades
whilst doing so. Joey’s leadership qualities had been
recognised by Father John at camp so obviously, just the
fact he had to wear a nappy wasn’t the cause of his
swift and current regression.
She couldn’t get into her son’s head
because talking to him now was like speaking to a
toddler, his answers were simple and uncomplicated and
something else she’d noticed, he’d say things he hoped
would please her. So, even if he didn’t like something
but thought his mummy did, well, he’d be a loving son
and say he did. There was absolutely nothing to dislike
about Joey apart from the possible idea of a twelve
year-old living a toddler’s existence, which in truth
was really OK for Bernadette.
#
However, with the priest, her husband
and now the child psychologist all saying something
negative those opinions were playing heavily on
Bernadette’s mind. The fact that the psychologist had
said there might be other explanations for her son’s
happy regression were a bonus but the doctor hadn’t
ruled out those traumatic few days at the beginning of
his re-nappying as the possible cause.
For one thing, Father John had been
most vociferous in his praise for Joey at camp and the
fact that even though he stoically wore his nappy, he
functioned like he always had. He hadn’t regressed, in
fact he’d led the team in many ways but now, well, all
that seemed to have disappeared and left, a sweet
reliant and compliant little boy who loved his mummy.
Mind you that wasn’t surprising
seeing as how Bernadette had gone to a great deal of
trouble to make sure her son knew his place; the
refurbishment of his room, the change of his clothing to
that of a pre-schooler, the paddle hanging as a threat
behind his door, so it was the last thing he saw at
night and the first thing in the morning – a shiver of
realisation ran down her spine - perhaps she’d over done
it.
The other side of that argument was
that Joey appeared very happy in his new state. He was
kind to his sisters; in fact, he was more loving towards
them now than he’d ever been. He was nice and attentive
to his mother’s wishes and the joyful way he played with
Todd and the girls was wonderful to behold. These days
it didn’t seem to worry him that his other, older
friends were not around as he could play happily on his
own.
#
Losing her son to become an uncaring,
cantankerous teen had been a step too far, and in her
mind at least, happening far too quickly. Those messed
in pyjamas from his burgeoning puberty being the main
thing that drove her to despair. She’d sought a ray of
light from the Lord, she thought Father John would have
been a big influence and change her son’s opinionated
attitude, alas all this amounted to nothing.
The biggest thrill for her had been
to see her boy in his protection; nappies and plastic
pants just made him the engaging, unaffected boy she had
hoped to have back in her life. Even though his twelve
year-old physique was too big to support his childish
clothing, he did look and act the part when wearing a
thick nappy and crinkly plastic pants. The entire outfit
seemed to take the weight of growing up off his
shoulders and relieve him of such a burden.
What she’d accomplished with Joey’s
regression was nothing short of remarkable. She’d had
some time now as the mother of an absolutely adorable,
kind and loving young boy and though she didn’t want to
return things completely to the way they were, knew she
had to give it up or perhaps face disastrous
consequences.
#
Bernadette gave the credit for the
dry morning to the psychologist, after just one visit
she’d been able to help Joey with his wetting, or so she
thought. She was convinced that after
a few more visits, with the good doctor’s help, she
could get Joey back to being a functioning twelve
year-old.
She fished out all his old clothes
from the boxes in the attic and added to the piles of
nappies and disposables his boxers and briefs, his
shirts and jeans and his soccer kit. She remembered that
he’d been wearing that when Father John had spanked him
hard for swearing at her and blaspheming. She wasn’t
sure about him wearing those, wondering if perhaps
they’d bring back unhappy memories. Anyway she had
already bought him a new seasonal kit of his favourite
team for his birthday.
She tacked up some of his old posters
of sports stars and cars, much to a bemused look on
Joey’s face. However, when she tried to change his
bedding back to something a little more appropriate to
his real age a scared and sorrowful look appeared on his
face so she thought it might be a change too quickly for
him to cope. She started to remove his array of stuffed
toys that now occupied a large part of his bed but his
snuffling and large weepy eyes meant she quickly
returned them to where they belonged. It looked as if he
was in no rush to get back to his true age.
#
She hoped that with all his old
clothing available he might want to try and wear some of
that but a naked and shivering Joey, fresh from his
morning shower, when asked to choose what he wanted to
wear, chose his animal print disposable, a matching
t-shirt with a cartoon lion on front and his clear
plastic pants. Despite his mummy suggesting something
different he didn’t want it and insisted he was put into
what had now become his favoured choice of underwear.
He opened the present of his new
soccer kit and smiled excitedly at his mummy, thanking
her but rather than insisting on wearing it, simply put
it with the pile of other presents and cards. Nothing he
received gave him quite the excitement of his crinkly,
colourful disposables.
Later however, once she’d dressed him
in his new soccer kit it wasn’t long before he’d be back
to only wearing his disposable, whilst his present was
left in a heap in a corner. These days he was way
happier when he wasn’t in anything that restricted his
happy, glossy pants.
She could only get him to wear
something else if they were going out otherwise he spent
his time in the house wearing his favourite nappies.
However, after petulantly refusing to wear his soccer
kit once too many times, the threat of a spanking from
his mother and his sisters made him fidget but acquiesce
whilst his shorts were slipped over his shiny plastic
pants - they didn’t conceal his padding but they’d have
to do for his party.
#
Once again the garden was a hive of
activity as Joey’s guests arrived. Todd was first and
was immediately taken off to play by Susan who
introduced him to some new changes to her play house.
Sarah went off to chat to Bernadette and
act as co-supervisor. Todd was wearing, as the theme
implied, a new soccer kit similar to Joey’s. He didn’t
have a favourite team but because he knew it was Joey’s
his mummy had bought him one especially for the
occasion. His padded bottom hardly showing under the
flimsy maroon polyester of his shorts, everything was
tight and inconspicuous.
A couple of the cubs from BLUE cabin,
Benny and Tommy came in their green school soccer kit
and joined Joey in a kick-about in the large garden.
Goal posts had been set up at either end, as well as
access to the trampoline and a few other games that
Bernadette and Mary had thoughtfully organised around
the sides. In the kitchen and living room the tables
were stacked with nibbles and bottles of soda for all
the guests to help themselves.
Terry arrived looking his usual suave
self, dressed in dark green shorts and matching pale
green polo shirt, not soccer kit but Bernadette couldn’t
get over just how smart and polite this young teenager
was. He greeted Joey with a hug and a beautifully
wrapped gift and Joey was obviously very pleased to see
him again.
#
Moments later some of Joey’s school
friends descended en masse, the six boys in the regular
school team kit, but the three girls giving it a miss,
preferring to be stylish rather than sporty. Each
brought a card and a couple brought DVDs and books as
gifts. One of the presents was supposed to be a ‘joke’
gift, a pop-up book of kiddie stories that was really
just a dig at what they thought Joe had become, Joey
thought it wonderful and hoped to read it with Susan
later.
Bernadette was a bit guarded when she
saw one of the girls was Amy who she’d had a bit of a
run in with back in town. She was a
bit apprehensive of what she might say, seeing as she
had plenty to say in the store. However, she appeared to
be either on her best behaviour or had simply moved on,
perhaps recognising that Joe was now a lost cause and
she should look elsewhere for a mate. Still she was nice
and friendly towards Joe and chatted to him for a few
minutes before he ran off to greet others.
There was no doubting that under his
kit the bulge was his nappy, even though it was not too
apparent to begin with, as the party progressed it
gradually swelled under the thin purple material and
left absolutely no doubt. It didn’t bother Joey and even
when Syed and Richard made a comment, Joey just giggled,
pulled down his shorts to show his plastic pants and
bloated disposable, then carried on as if nothing
untoward had happened.
#
Syed and Richard both laughed but a
strange tingle ran through Syed’s body. He was both
delighted and appalled at how Joe just didn’t seem to
care what anyone thought. The fun with which he greeted
everything, the wide eyed enjoyment of his situation,
the toddlerish innocence he viewed all around was in
complete contrast to his own family’s attitude. They
wanted him to work and work hard at getting grades. His
father wanted him to be a lawyer like him, whilst his
mother saw him more as a doctor and the pressure on his
twelve year-old’s head was getting too much.
Syed, perhaps more than any of the
others, was glad to be back in the company of his best
friend. He was surprised to see all these new people but
had really missed not having Joe to chat to and discuss,
well, his problems with. Meanwhile, he watched as Joe
suddenly crouched down by the table as if chatting to
one of those new boys but it was obvious to Syed at
least, that he was taking an impromptu pee. Moments
later, when he got up his nappy had expanded
considerably the soda going straight through him and
flooding his dainty disposable.
Mary also noticed this and sneakily
checked the indicator motifs had disappeared, which
meant his nappy was full so needed changing. She asked
Susan to check with Todd to make sure he was OK but as
they didn’t know about Benny and Tommy’s similar needs,
didn’t check on those boys.
#
Terry, like Father John, had been
surprised at the sudden childishness of Joey. His
pleasure in wearing his nappy didn’t surprise him, he’d
noticed that with the boy’s from BLUE cabin, however
this regression to speaking and acting like a toddler
did un-nerve him a little. He went to speak to Mrs
Griffiths, ostensibly to see if she would let Joey join
the scouts but found himself wondering what had become
of the confident boy he was so proud of up at Lake
Cambria.
Syed and the group of school chums
really didn’t know what to make of it all. The other
kids were younger than them, apart from Terry (who all
the girls had a sudden crush on) and didn’t know how to
play this ‘thing’ with Joey. He wore a nappy, he wasn’t
ashamed of it, in fact, he appeared proud of it so any
negative comments missed their mark as they simply
weren’t acknowledged.
Four of the boys who had only come to
make fun left fairly early having grown bored now they’d
seen for themselves what a baby Joe had become leaving
the girls, who were huddled around Terry, and Syed and
Richard. Syed was fascinated by Joe’s total ease with
his nappy, so when he saw Mary and Susan round up Todd
and the birthday boy leading them indoors, he followed.
#
At the same time Father John arrived,
so did a large group of boys from school, friends of
Joe’s who’d been involved in a sports tournament so
couldn’t be there at the beginning. Bernadette greeted
them on her son’s behalf suddenly noticing the absence
of Mary and Susan and putting two and two together to
know what was happening. For a few seconds she was sad
that his dry spell had come to an end but was pleased
that her daughters had taken on the responsibility to
keep their brother from getting a nappy rash. A few had
brought presents and cards though they were really there
to find out if all the rumours of Joe’s nappying were
true. They couldn’t wait to see for themselves, however,
the presence of the priest made them on their best
behaviour, well, to begin with at least.
A more intense game of soccer started
now some older boys had arrived, which made the younger
ones take refuge on the trampoline or stand on the
side-lines sipping their sodas. Father John was happily
chatting to the other adults and was pleased that Terry
had already broached the idea of Joey joining the scout
troop. Having got a frosty reception when he’d first
suggested it, he was delighted that Terry had laid the
groundwork and that Mrs Griffiths was more in tune with
what was best for her son.
#
Upstairs Syed was mesmerised by the
way Joe let himself be stripped of his shorts and soaked
protection and was rather jealous of the way his younger
sister lavished such attention on cleaning him up,
powdering and getting him back into a clean and fresh
disposable. The crinkly material and the soft rustling
of the plastic pants as they were rolled back up his
friend’s legs making him wish it was he who was being
changed.
This unexpected thought made Syed
take a sudden deep breath, which attracted the attention
of all in the room. He wanted to run away but the fact
that both Todd and Joe were all smiles now they had on
fresh protection made him feel less guilty about his
spying activities.
Oddly it was Susan who broke the
silence when she asked if Syed needed changing. It
hadn’t occurred to her that he wouldn’t, the two males
in her life needed changing so why not any other boy.
Mary smiled and encouraged Syed in and unwrapped one of
her brother’s stars and rockets disposables and patted
the bed next to Joey. It was at this moment, teetering
between doing something he wanted and not doing
something he didn’t think was right, that he shook his
head and disappeared back to the party.
As he stepped down each stair towards
the garden his mind was full of regret, he just wished
he hadn’t been such a coward.
#
The boys returned, now freshly
cleaned up, but now their protection was hardly
noticeable under their soccer shorts. Joe’s school chums
gathered around to wish Happy Birthday and kept patting
his bottom in the hope of detecting the padding. They
did. Once each had made the discovery for themselves
they seemed satisfied but any comments they may have
wanted to say were superseded as Mrs Griffiths brought
out a cake with twelve candles burning.
A rousing chorus of the birthday song
and Joey blew out the candles with one huge breath. At
the same time, Gareth, one of his team mates, couldn’t
resist walking up behind him and yanking down his shorts
revealing his plastic protection. Of course it was
supposed to embarrass Joe but all it did was make him
giggle, kick off his shorts before running around
enjoying his new freedom. Todd was quick to join him
and, perhaps emboldened by such an entertaining display,
so did Benny and Tommy.
The garden had four boys in their
protection running around oblivious of the ridicule the
other school friends were shouting. The adults and girls
stood in wonder as giggling, Joey would go up to one of
the abusive ‘friends’ and try to pull down their shorts.
They were calling him all manner of disgusting games but
Mary went up and pulled down Gareth’s shorts to reveal
his own childish Ninja Turtle briefs, which then made
him the object of some ridicule.
The party degenerated quickly after
that and the girls left as soon as Terry had said his
goodbyes. The other boys, having eaten and drank as much
as they could, departed chuckling to each other about
what a baby Joe had become and what a ‘sweet mummy’s
boy’ Gareth was. Gareth was ashamed of his briefs and
didn’t take part in much of the jibing his mates thought
up.
#
Throughout all this Bernadette and
Father John had a conversation regarding Joey’s current
situation. The priest offered his help and encouraged
her to continue seeing Doctor Peterson as he too was
very worried about just how childish and carefree Joey
had become. There now seemed nothing; no shame, no
embarrassment and no worries as to the way he felt about
what he did or how he looked. Normally, a twelve
year-old boy would be desperate to appear grown up, be
making demands of his parents, to be sulky and introvert
thinking the world was against them and no one had ever
experienced such an unfeeling and cruel world.
That certainly wasn’t Joey; he’d had
a great party and was still bouncing on the trampoline
with Todd, Benny and Thomas… all only wearing their
protection. Syed stood watching with a can of Coke in
his hand wishing he had the guts to join in. He hadn’t
resorted to wearing just his undies but looked on
enviously at the colourful nappies the boys were
wearing. The noise of the boys screaming in delight as
they bounced higher and higher, the crinkling sound of
their plastic protection and the obvious pleasure they
were experiencing was, to Syed, wonderful. He wished
he’d taken the opportunity to be changed by Mary when he
had the chance and looked in her direction, hoping that
another opportunity might arise.
###
Part 15
After everybody had gone, leaving
just Todd playing with Joey and the girls, Bernadette
sighed with relief. She’d been relieved that things
hadn’t passed off as badly as they could have but was
saddened that her son’s older friends hadn’t been the
age-improving influence she’d hoped for. If anything, he
seemed to see them as just other children to play with
and had no problem wearing his nappy in front of any of
them. He appeared ignorant of having to act in any way
other than the way he did and that was as a giggly,
silly, fun-loving toddler. Bernadette sighed once more –
this was going to be a bigger problem than she’d
thought. Especially as she realised that his dry morning
had probably been a one-off rather than the other thing
she’d hoped for - a road to recovery.
#
Syed hadn’t been upset by his friend
acting different; a child, a toddler, a big baby wearing
a nappy because he’d watched as he played and hadn’t
needed to try to impress anyone. Joe looked incredibly
happy and at ease charging around with the little kids
as much as he was kicking the ball around with his
soccer mates. There was no doubt that Joe was no longer
the ‘cool’ friend he once was, yet his obvious nappy
didn’t give him a moment’s worry. Syed was envious of
such ‘freedom’.
For him life was different. As soon
as he walked through his own doorway his mother would be
asking if he’d done any studying. Had he read the books
she’d given him? Didn’t he have a report to finish? He
sighed ruefully. The demands both his parents made were
weighing Syed down but all he could think about was the
missed opportunity to be changed by Mary, wear a nappy
like his best friend and not have to worry about a thing
other than to be a kid again.
In his home it was difficult being a
kid. The stuff he saw other kids do was not what his
mother and father thought as any benefit to a child. TV,
games and most social events with his peers were things
he’d never been encouraged or allowed to do as he was
growing up. It was only when he changed school, met Joe
and became a member of the soccer team that he
understood what being part of a group and acting like a
kid was about. However, his parents didn’t agree that
children should be left to be children. To them life
wasn’t like that and no matter how young they were
needed to get ahead in the rat-race as soon as possible.
Therefore, his home life was regimented with time
allocated to study and reading; the pursuit of knowledge
being top of their agenda.
His friendship with Joe had made it
so that as long as his best friend was there for him he
could cope with their demands. It had been a very hard
summer break without him around and his parents had
taken full advantage by making sure he had extra tuition
and visits to boring ‘educational establishments’.
At times he could have killed his
parents and would love to have been adopted by the
Griffiths.
#
It was 6.30pm and Joey was already in
the bath after such an exciting day. He’d managed to get
food, grass and dirt everywhere and was happily grinning
as his mummy lovingly sponged him clean. In the corner
of the bathroom was his soaked disposable and see-thru
plastic pants but he was happily splashing with his toys
as Bernadette made sure the birthday boy, her little ray
of sunshine, was spotless.
Covering him in a towel she led him
back into his room and laid him out on the bed, which
already had his night time protection arranged for
immediate use. She rubbed in a thick dollop of cream to
prevent nappy rash, which had Joey smiling as his
mummy’s fingers worked it into his soft skin. The baby
powder followed as usual and the thick soak-pads added
as she pulled the terry fabric up between his legs and
pinned it all into place. The plain white fabric was
turned into something more fun with the addition of his
new pop-studded vinyl pants with the stars and rockets
all over them. Joey’s face lit up when he saw that he’d
be sleeping in those and held out his arms to hug mummy
in appreciation.
It was childish but spontaneous acts
like this when Bernadette really didn’t want to change
the way things were. Her little boy so happy and
grateful over something so simple that it made his day,
why would she want to change him? Taking full advantage
of his outstretched arms she slipped a matching soft
cotton onesie over his head and snapped the poppers into
place. Since Susan had left Betsy Bunny with Joey after
he had the terrible nightmare, he had slept with it
every night. Even though there was an array of far
fluffier animals on his bed, because she had given it to
him, he now insisted it be in his arms when he went to
sleep. Bernadette popped in his dummy and her sweet
little boy, after such an exciting and busy day, quickly
relaxed and fell asleep.
#
For quite a while now Joey’s dreams
had been both peaceful and vivid. The nightmares he once
experienced had all gone and what he was left with was
an imaginary dreamland where everything was joyful.
Perhaps the main problem, if problem it was, is that his
imaginary world overlapped his real world completely. He
could no longer differentiate between the colourful
cartoon characters in his dreams, or on TV to the people
he met day to day. In his head everyone was like him, a
happy, excitable toddler - even adults were toddlers,
the only difference being they were slightly older,
maybe by only a few months, and that’s what separated
them. It was a landscape where everyone wore similar
brightly coloured clothes and all sported a thick nappy
with ‘interesting’ shiny plastic pants.
#
When his mother and the priest had
first punished him he’d hated that they resorted to
putting him into nappies as an ongoing reminder of his
‘sins’. However, he accepted it because his mother
insisted that both she and his father agreed on such a
course of action. He had no choice so thought he’d
better make the best of a bad thing. He tried not to
‘rock the boat’ and see the punishment increase so
acquiesced to his mother’s demands. The trip to the
lakes with the cubs had been something he definitely
didn’t expect or want to be part of but, as it
transpired, it was one of the best adventures he’d ever
had and as a result, though his punishment of remaining
in nappies continued, he thought it a small price to
pay.
He put up with whatever was requested
of him but, and this was a turning point, when Terry had
changed and put him in disposables for the first time,
the whole question of nappies altered and, like the
others in BLUE cabin, he realised the benefits and
comfort they provided.
When he returned home and the wearing
of a nappy was expected to continue he didn’t like it at
all but his mother’s determination (and the threat of
more severe spankings) had made him a little more open
to the things she was insisting upon. He got used to the
bulk all over again and found that, despite himself, it
was something very reassuring and something he enjoyed.
His mother made it easy for him to accept his situation
because there was simply no other influences allowed in
his life except what she wanted, and she wanted him to
be her little boy again.
It had been difficult to show any
enthusiasm for such an idea but the more he watched TV
with Mary and Susan, the more he played their games and
didn’t have to do or be anything other than a kid
enjoying himself, he found it a lot easier. Like when he
was at camp and was fighting against being absorbed into
the cub and scouting ethos, it had been the actions of
the scouts, especially Terry and Drew who convinced him
that it was something to be enjoyed. He came away from
Lake Cambria a better person (even if he was still in a
nappy) and with a desire to become a scout as soon as
possible. Unfortunately, his mother’s own plans got in
the way of that decision.
#
The next big influence was when at
home and he put on one of Todd’s disposables and that
whole feeling of well-being he’d had at camp came
flooding back. It was like a magic wand had been fired
in his direction as his entire demeanour changed as a
result of the disposable’s plastic embrace. Now it felt
fantastic to wear such an item, he never wanted that
sensation to leave. However, he knew that he would only
be allowed to wear such an item if he was still regarded
as a big kid. He didn’t want things to change. What he
wanted was to spend all his time in the welcoming
slippery plastic comfort of his nappies.
Joey had slipped into a self-inspired
world that was all about being a kid and enjoying
yourself. Although he was conscious of
family and friends the edges between reality and
make-believe were eroded. One minute he’d be mindful of
such people in the actual world but then in his head it
would flip and those very same people became cartoon
versions of themselves, which, in his realm at least,
made them much more fun to be around.
Like when a toddler watches something
on TV, the colourful images are often just as real and
meaningful as anything else around them, they are just
part of the toddler’s life. So it was for Joey. He’d
found a comfort, escape and a dimension to his life that
nappies provided. He perhaps didn’t even realise what
was happening but a gradual acceptance that his world
was changing and changing in such a way that it was
better, more enjoyable… more FUN.
Of course no one knew all this but
Joey… and it was debatable if he was aware of it.
#
As Joey slept his mother and the
girls finished the last little bit of tidying up.
Bernadette had heaped praise on her daughters who had
been enthusiastic in keeping Todd and Joey’s comfort a
priority. It was now even possible, because he’d seen
her change Joey on many occasions, for Mary to be able
to change Todd. She, in her turn, had found little
special ways to help her charges relax as she applied
creams and lotions, and both boys reacted with giggles
and smiles as she went about her new business. It was
perhaps strange, but she loved having them to look after
and took her responsibilities very seriously. Her
attitude was already rubbing off on Susan so between
them, Bernadette had a formidable set of helpers.
There were still cards and presents
Joey had yet to open so they were put into a pile for
him to attend to in the morning. Thankfully, the place
was soon back to normal, whilst the garden began to
regain some of its better features even though the lawn
had become somewhat cut up with the various games and
battles acted out on it.
Joey had been in bed for about an
hour when the phone rang, it was Syed.
“Eh, hello Mrs Griffiths, is, er, Joe
available please?”
Bernadette had been pleased with the
way Syed had been with Joey so wasn’t as off-hand as she
had been in the past.
“Well Syed, Joey’s all tuckered out
after a busy day… so is in bed…”
“Oh, OK, er, thanks Mrs Griffiths,
er, um, thank you for inviting me to the party, er…”
“Thanks for coming Syed.”
“Er… do you… er, do you think I might
be able to come and see him in the morning, erm…?”
Bernadette was somewhat taken by
Syed’s nervous enquiry.
“Yes, I don’t see why not… I’m sure
he’d love to have you over.”
Relief surged through his body as he
replaced the receiver from his secretive phone call. He
didn’t want his mum and dad to know he was planning on
visiting Joey again, they had been pretty dismissive of
him spending time with “… that strange boy”. He had an
early night himself and let his mind wonder as to what
it would be like to wear nothing but nappies as he and
his neighbours played in the garden. His dreams were
filled with brightly coloured disposables and Mary
making sure they fit him perfectly.
#
Joey slowly awoke. A hand was gently
rubbing circles around his tummy which overlapped onto
the front of his protection. The
feeling was wonderful and made him wriggle in utter
contentment as his mother, absentmindedly stroked her
son. He knew he’d gone to sleep in his own bed but had
no recollection of how he got into his mummy’s. However;
this was so nice he was glad he had.
Bernadette was slowly waking up but
could discern the way Joey wriggled in response to her
hand that he was now awake.
“Morning sleepyhead.”
She slid a finger up to check his
nappy and was surprised to find that once again he was
dry.
“Mornin’ mummy… mmmm.” He was
enjoying he gentle caresses.
“Who’s a clever boy then? Another dry
morning and another dry nappy… oooh you’re such a big
boy aren’t you?”
Even through his onesie he loved
having his tummy rubbed and could do nothing more than
wriggle and giggle with pleasure.
She cuddled him closer, kissing the
back of his head and then turning those little kisses
into huge big silly sloppy noisy kisses that had Joey
almost in hysterics as he writhed in pure enjoyment. She
was lucky that he didn’t lose control and fill his nappy
as a result but suddenly the door burst open and the
girls came running in and leapt onto their mother’s bed.
Soon the covers were all over the place as the group
became just one hysterical laughing mass enjoying a
daft, tickly start to the day.
#
When Syed arrived Joey was already
dressed in his plain white disposable with the thick,
colourful, slippery, vinyl cover making a shiny
statement to anyone who visited. He was barefoot and
wore a white and yellow onesie that hadn’t been fastened
between his legs, the flaps adding to his look of
babyishness. Joey rushed up and greeted him with a peck
on the cheek as he dragged his friend into the living
room to watch a cartoon on TV.
Joey was smiling and nudging Syed all
the time and eventually, once the programme had
finished, they gathered some other toys together and lay
out on the carpet to play. Syed couldn’t take his eyes
off of what Joey was wearing and Mary noticed that he
constantly ran his hands over the slippery material.
“Do you need changing Syed?” She
quietly asked.
“Erm, er, no…. er, yes… erm, well, er
no…”
Mary smiled. She was used to just
changing Joey when she thought he needed it and without
having to ask so, she thought Syed may be a bit shy and
perhaps just needed taking in hand like she would with
her brother.
“Follow me.”
She led Syed up to Joey’s changing
area and asked him to lie down.
“Do you want me to take your jeans
off?”
Mary already had her hand on the top
button and was poised to start her business.
Syed was really nervous. This entire
scene was strange and a little weird. He wasn’t sure why
he wanted this so much but he did. He took a deep
breath, nodded and closed his eyes, giving himself over
to Joe’s young sister.
She pulled off his jeans and was
amazed to see a pair of underpants where a nappy would
normally be had she been changing Joey.
She shook her junior maternal head.
“Boys,” and did a sort of tutting noise as if to say;
“Boys can’t even dress themselves properly.”
Once he was nude she noticed that
Syed had hair where Joey didn’t, Bernadette had removed
all the hair around his boy bits some time back. Mary
wasn’t sure what to do but thought it didn’t matter and
grabbed the box of wet wipes.
As she commenced wiping the area Syed
lay there feeling very unusual and tried his best not to
get aroused. He bit his bottom lip as Mary’s cool hands
wiped and then applied a coating of lotion to his groin.
“Bottom up.”
It was an instruction Syed hadn’t
heard since he was two years-old. Shortly after that age
his mother had him potty trained and wearing trainer
pants. He detected the sound of the crinkly package
being opened and spread out. Seconds later the soft,
cool material was slipped into place.
He was unbelievably excited by the
whole process and bit his lip even more firmly to drive
out the thrilling experience that his body was
undergoing. He could feel his cock stirring but didn’t
want to embarrass himself or have Mary deal with it,
thankfully another instruction soon followed.
“OK, you can sit down now.”
He slowly lowered himself onto the
pristine white padding beneath him and was satisfied at
the rustle that followed. Soon Mary had him well
powdered and taped in with her usual professional
manner. For the final flourish she reached for a pair of
Joey’s clear plastic pants and inched them up his legs.
“OK, all done. You can go back and
play with Joey now.”
She hadn’t given him back his jeans,
which left him a bit self-conscious to be dressed as he
was but Mary got on with tidying her stuff away and more
or less shooed him away. He tentatively wandered back to
where Joey was and, as no one said anything about the
way he appeared, spread himself out on the carpet just
like Joey and continued with their game of racing cars
as if nothing was different.
#
Later Bernadette wandered into the
room to bring everyone drinks. She had milkshakes in
glasses though Joey’s was in a sippy cup. She was
stunned to see Syed laid out in a nappy and protection
but appeared deep in his racing car game with her son.
However, once she made a presence known, Syed became
very nervy and self-conscious trying to infer, in a
babbling kind of way, it was Mary’s idea.
Mary in turn explained precisely why
he was now wearing the same as Joey and that was simply
because he looked like he wanted to. No one had said
anything she just took it on herself to offer him the
option, which he took.
Mary seemed pleased with herself that
she was grown up enough to see a problem and solve it
all by herself and her mother nodded that she’d done a
terrific job. However, Bernadette expected Syed’s
influence would have worked on Joey and not the other
way round. Despite her shock she couldn’t get over how
cute these two twelve year-olds looked wearing only a
nappies and cotton tops.
“It’s OK Syed,” She
tried to put him at ease. “Mary looks after Joey’s
changes so I suppose thinks you need looking after as
well... hope you don’t mind?”
Hiding behind a slurp of milkshake he
shook his head and the two boys continued with their
noisy game.
This had been an unexpected
development and Bernadette wasn’t too sure how to deal
with it. She knew that Syed’s parents would fiercely
oppose him wearing such clothing but, if it was
something he wanted, then perhaps she should be happy
that he wanted the same as her son. The problem she had
was that, although she loved the toddler side of her
son, knew she had to get him to change back. Syed
wearing a nappy would just reinforce his juvenile status
and he’d never get better.
She returned to the kitchen, wrapped
her hands around the mug of coffee she’d just made and
sat in desperate contemplation trying to find an answer.
#
The boys spent most of the day
playing and charging around the house in just their
nappies. Joey had filled his several times over, though
Syed had been very reluctant to do so. Eventually, and
only after seeing Joe happily letting go and watching
his disposable expand, did Syed tentatively let a bit of
pee escape. He soon found out just how hard it is to
stop the flow once it starts and quickly was the proud,
if damp, owner of a swelling nappy which was filling out
his plastic pants.
He noticed how nice the warm glow
felt and how his walk was changed to more of a waddle.
The fact that Joe continued playing as if nothing
happened made him do exactly the same. A little later
Mary came in checked her brother’s soaked mass and told
him it was time for a change. She looked across at Syed
and could see he was in the same situation so scooted
both boys upstairs to be seen to.
She tugged down Joey’s protection and
untapped the soggy nappy. He got a bit wriggly so she
found his dum-dum and shoved it in, which had the
desired effect of calming him down whilst she got on
with her job.
Syed noticed that his best friend no
longer had any hair ‘down there’. In fact he was as
smooth as a babies…
He let that thought go as Mary
quickly powdered and refitted a fresh clean stars and
rockets disposable and then added a pair of see thru
plastic pants like Syed had been wearing. She insisted
that Joey didn’t move as she then set about doing the
same to his friend.
Joey was still
sucking on his dummy as he watched Syed have his plastic
pants removed. Once they were off he suddenly felt much
more vulnerable and became a little fidgety himself
trying to put his hand over the offending bulge. Mary
would have none of it so went and retrieved another
dummy from the dresser and slipped it between Syed’s
reluctant lips. This was another strange and unexpected
sensation but he saw how his friend was happily sucking
on his so did the same. It took a few hesitant sucks
before he got the same rhythm as Joe but once Mary was
happy he was happy she untapped his soggy nappy and set
about cleaning him up as she had her brother.
Within minutes
both boys were heading back downstairs now in fresh
disposables that felt really nice on - Joey in his stars
and rockets design, whilst Syed had been placed in the
larger, animal print ones. Both had been put in clear
plastic step-in pants but had kept the same soft cotton
tops as they had before. Oddly enough Syed was
thoroughly enjoying this break from the norm and began
to slip easily into the childish, playfulness that Joey
radiated. He even began to use
shorter sentences, speak in terms he’d not used since he
was two and loved the sensation of his nappy rubbing
against his privates as they wriggled around the floor
playing their games.
#
At one point Joey noticed he had a
couple of birthday presents still left to open, one of
which was the gift from Terry. Smiling, he took his time
slowly tearing the gold coloured paper apart before
being presented with a green box. Syed and the girls
looked on as he slowly lifted the lid and was surprised
to see the content - it was a brown leather belt with a
sparkling brass buckle that had the scouts logo and the
words ‘Be Prepared’ written underneath.
The smell of new leather and the
shininess of the buckle had an immediate impact on
Joey’s psyche. A strange shiver ran down his body, a
brief recollection of talking to Terry and Drew up at
Lake Cambria flittered across his mind. What had they
been speaking about?
He remembered all the scouts wore
similar belts on their shorts and it looked incredibly
impressive. Meanwhile, bits of the conversation spun in
his thoughts… he’d made a promise… but what about?
Syed noticed his friend’s faraway
look and thought something might be wrong.
“Joe, Joe, are you… OK?”
He looked with concern at his
friend’s distant stare as Joe gripped the belt in his
hand.
“That looks a really nice belt,” he
added trying to get his mate back from wherever he’d
just gone. “Are you joining the scouts?”
The shiver became a tremble and
Joey’s entire body shook. Each nerve ending now tingled
in response to, something, which only a few seconds
later became apparent. It was as if he’d been hit by
some seismic upheaval as his eyes lit up and turned to
Syed with a look of complete clarity.
“Yes. I made a promise to the lads
that I was going to become a scout as soon as I got home
from camp.”
Syed looked confused.
“But you’ve been home ages…”
The idea he’d been back from camp for
‘ages’ was silly, it only seemed like a few days ago he
was having the time of his life with the rest of the
cubs.
“Have I?” He shook his head trying to
get his thoughts back more clearly.
Syed didn’t quite know what to make
of this complete change in Joe’s character, he wasn’t
sure what that change was but there was obviously
something going on. The sweet, innocent little boy he’d
just been playing ‘racing cars’ with on the rug appeared
to have been replaced. Joe looked like he’d just had
some kind of revelation and he was trying to make sense
of it. He held the belt tightly to his chest and a huge
sigh of relief escaped his chest.
It was like he’d suddenly become
aware of his surroundings and looked about to take it
all in. There was Mary and Susan sat with him and some
colouring books, his mother had just entered the room
speaking on the phone and his best friend was sitting
opposite him wearing a nappy… and appeared to be playing
with a couple of toy cars.
He looked down at his own outfit -
the plastic pant revealing his childish nappy, the
opened onesie flapping between his legs… he was
incensed. He looked over to his mother in disgust and
shouted.
“What the fuck am I doing in a
fucking stupid nappy?”
Bernadette was shocked and quickly
said into the mouthpiece.
“I’ll have to call you back Father…
there’s been some kind of… miracle.”
THE END
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