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A Done
Deal
Another
upsetting night’s sleep – my duvet was bunched up and
looked like I’d had a fight with it, the fleecy throw
was caught up in some kind of jumble with my pillows and
worst of all, my nappy, as it had been for the past few
weeks, was soaked.
A few months ago
a nightmare scenario started where I was either being
chased or attacked by something which I couldn’t
identify but found incredibly scary. I’d fought this
unknown monster, I’d done battle with an unseen force
and when, after the second encounter and second soaked
bed, my mother (step-mother) had demanded I wore
protection until the phase (as she called it) was
over, I didn’t like it.
I shouted and
screamed my absolute refusal, which didn’t go down well
as I’d got to the stage (being fifteen) of arguing with
every decision she made. That was until dad (Howard)
came and ‘had a word’, which has seen me resentfully
wearing a thick terry cotton nappy to bed every night
since.
Dad is a
practical man, an intense man; he’s also a very
important and busy man and has little time for
‘stupidity’. He listened to all my arguments as to why I
shouldn’t wear a nappy and then slowly, but
methodically, disassembled each one of my points as
either being unreasonable, selfish or simply illogical.
He pointed out a nappy was what I needed and so that’s
what I would wear. No ifs, no buts, it was all a ‘done
deal’, that mother was right and I should “just get on
with it”.
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My real mum had
died when I was barely two years old so I don’t remember
her too well but dad had remarried when I was five. He’d
actually been seeing Diane for a year before he
introduced us and was told that I was getting a new
mummy... and new baby brother.
She moved in,
they married and I now share a house with my step-family
of Diane, Richard, who’s nine, William who’s seven and
now, eight month old twins, Jane and Alfie. My father is
a good man, he’s a pathologist at a lab in the city and
we’re close and although Diane is a nice lady, as I’ve
gotten older, for some reason I’ve grown to resent her
and my brothers and sister.
I suppose,
because I’m the eldest, it’s fallen to me to look out
for my siblings but now I’ve had enough of baby-sitting
and being, what I feel is, a general dogsbody.
Dad keeps
telling me it’s what I get an allowance for but I feel I
do more than my fair share of... well... everything.
Which I suppose is what has led me to arguing all the
time because mum is always at home now with the twins so
I’m expected, because dad is out at work all day and has
late hours to make extra money to keep a roof over his
family, to ‘step up more’.
Bloody hell... I
do enough around the house I barely get a moment to
myself. I rarely get chance to go out because of school
work and the family. My mates don’t come around anymore
because of the constant demand for attention from
everyone.
“Jason can you
do this?” “Jason, can you do that?” “Jason can you do
the other?” “It will only take a minute” It never does
and once started there’s always something else... it
never bloody ends. “While you’re there can you...”
The house is a
mess and all about the twins; the smell of pee
and powder and if the weather’s bad clothes and washed
nappies drying on radiators. Constantly being told to be
‘quiet’ because they’re sleeping and because she is
always involved with them, I’m supposed to keep my two
younger brothers occupied to make sure they do their
homework (projects) which I also have by the way. If
they need to be at football practice or some
after-school activity, it’s me that has to chaperone
them. The list never ends and so I don’t get much time
to myself. I resent everything and everybody.
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Before the
nightmares began, and I suppose it linked in to when the
twins arrived, I’d begun to have little accidents. What
I mean is that occasionally I’d pee in my undies, not
enough to cause too much trouble, like stains on my
trousers or jeans, but enough for me to know I’d better
change my briefs pretty soon. I kept these little
accidents secret and was able to deal with the wet
undies myself. However, something else seemed to be
bothering me and I didn’t know why. I know that with the
announcement that twins were on the way, dad, and mum to
a certain extent, went into panic mode and I suppose,
because I’m the eldest I noticed more than my brothers.
I’m of the
opinion that the twins were an accident: certainly from
just how fraught the house has been since their arrival.
Dad already was overloaded with work and now, with extra
family to feed and clothe his life/work load is immense.
I’m not sure if some of his obvious anxiety has rubbed
off on me. We used to be quite a happy little bunch and
dad had time for us all. Diane, was also pleasant to be
around but now she just gives the impression of being
constantly worn out and complains she doesn’t have the
time to ‘pretty herself up’ for dad or for them to go
out occasionally.
As a result her
attention has turned to me as the eldest to ‘help out’
but I already did that but since the twins my workload
has escalated and I rarely see anyone except at school.
It’s as if she’s decided that if she isn’t going
to have fun and do what she wants then neither is
anyone else.
However, somehow
with the twins came a number of new friends, mothers
all, who pop around and tell Diane what a wonderful job
she’s doing, what a hero she is looking after such a
diverse family and that it’s quite right to expect me to
step up. She’s been encouraged to be ‘the queen bee’ and
we’re all there for her pleasure. Well that’s how it
seems from the comments I get when they’re all around
sipping tea (or sometimes a glass of wine) and
complaining about their own lives and how easy men have
it. Of course they often bring their kids around and so
there’ll be a couple of screaming babies or tots
seemingly having a breakdown.
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I’m not sure if
I could blame the twins on my initial wet pants but I
ask myself if all this extra responsibility is the
reason I’m seriously wetting at night and have to wear a
nappy to keep from nightly flooding the bed. I’m fifteen
so of course shouldn’t be wearing a nappy any time,
which means I’m constantly in a bad mood.
This is not
helped by my step mum also being in a very ‘fragile’
mood, when it comes to me. If I’m in a mood, she’s in
one. Of course my younger brothers are too young to take
on too much responsibility but they get praised for
doing the slightest thing and I’m held up to ridicule
for complaining about the amount I have to do.
As a result my
step-mum has it all worked out and it appears I’m there
to benefit her decisions. She gets fatigued with the
Jane and Alfie, and as dad starts work early, I have to
fill in while she’s ‘resting’. As I say, I have to make
sure the boys are up and ready for school fully dressed
and breakfasted... and have done any homework, which I
have to say, at their age is very simple but still it
takes up my time and have precious little of it
as it is.
I’m sick of it
but now, because of these unsettling night time
activities, which result in my daily soaked nappies, I’m
constantly in a state of anxiety. Mum has pulled me up
on several occasions about my ‘attitude’ and has decided
that I’m just like the twins and need similar treatment.
She seems to get a kick out of putting my nappies and
plastic pants out on the line next to theirs. It’s
embarrassing because it means neighbours know, though
suspect, because of my ‘attitude’ towards her, she’s
already gleefully told them that she now has to nappy
another ‘baby’ in the house.
This doesn’t
stop my resentment but at least I have my own room where
I can occasionally find time and space for myself.
However, even that is no longer private as she’ll waft
in without so much as a knock and deposit my laundered
clothes, and clean nappies, with a flourish and give me
a condescending smile as she makes sure I’m aware of the
crinkly plastic pants she blatantly puts on the dresser.
“Your protection
darling,” she announces with a forced grin, “you will
let me know if I’ve got yours and the twins nappies
mixed up won’t you?”
I’ve asked for
privacy but she just smiles and whispers that babies who
still need their nappies don’t get privacy. Then
flounces off leaving me steaming but with nothing I can
do about it.
At one point I
was so angry I told her that I’d go off and live with my
grandparents (on my mother’s side) and she just laughed
and said that an incontinent teenager is no doubt just
what they want in their dotage.
He actual words
were, “Bugger off then, I’m sure they can’t wait to look
after a pants wetting, obnoxious little shit like you.”
She’s twelve
years younger than dad and has the ability to be as
sweet as pie when in public but as vicious as hell if
you get on the wrong side of her. Which I have to say
has become a great deal more noticeable since the twins
arrived.
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Dad has quite a
liberal, easy-going background where diplomacy,
discussion and reason are the way people interact. He
has always been there for me and we get on very well. I
respect him and listen to what he has to say. I never
used to argue with him.
Diane on the
other hand comes from a family that has a military
background, where she and her three brothers were in
constant competition for their parent’s approval. They
moved a lot from bases around Europe, so were never
settled for too long, or there were long passages of
time when their father wasn’t around as he’d been posted
overseas. I suppose, if there’s conflict and your dad’s
involved, that must leave you in a state of nervous
anticipation the entire time he’s away. However, in a
family of such an abundance of masculinity, the sole
daughter had found that by undermining those brothers
she often was able to deviously direct action her own
way.
I’ve never met
that side of the family. At the registry office wedding
I can only remember dad, her and me, plus the registrar
and a couple of witnesses. I gather that because she was
pregnant said she didn’t want others to know her
‘condition’ so a big wedding was out of the question.
Thinking back,
maybe I might be remembering this wrong, but I might
have overheard granny telling someone she thought dad
had been tricked into marrying her... but I could be
wrong. I might have just thought that myself.
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Dad had warned
me about my attitude towards his wife... I mean... I
stopped calling her mum but she wasn’t happy with me
calling her Diane so sent dad to have ‘another quiet
word’. She insists that Richard and William call her
mummy and now when she speaks to me she calls herself
‘mummy’ to me as well. If dad isn’t around I try and
fight back but she just tells him when he gets home from
work and I’m back in hot water. Then he goes off on one
saying he expects me to pull my weight around the house,
less back chat, more respect for what she has to do...
oh... and act my age. Diane then undermines that by
treating me like a little kid. She doesn’t let me forget
I still wet the bed so sees me as just a big ungrateful
toddler who still needs to wear a nappy.
“I wasn’t there
when you were a baby,” she gives me that sickly smile,
“but there again; it looks like you’re reliving being
one. How lucky am I to get to change your soggy
nappies?”
I seethe with
rage but, as she’s holding up my well-soaked morning
padding, it’s hard to argue the point.
The weird thing
is she doesn’t seem that bothered about the wetting
because as far as she’s concerned, the bedding is safe
now I’m well contained at night. She has said, in one of
her less aggressive moments that it’s no trouble washing
my nappies as she has the twin’s daily
contribution to do anyhow. She makes out she’s a martyr
and I’m an ungrateful teen who acts like a toddler going
through his ‘terrible twos’. She demoralises me all the
time and dad, because he’s so busy and under a load of
work-related stress, says “Listen to your mum.” He
thinks, because of what Diane has said about me, that
I’m just acting out and should be “contributing - not
alienating” everyone around me.
It doesn’t help
that at her insistence either she or dad has to help me
with the pins and material to make sure my night time
nappy is on correctly, although I suspect it’s more to
make sure I wear one to protect the bedding. Yes that’s
the other thing, she’s not only convinced dad that I
need a nappy but I’m too incompetent to sort it for
myself so need supervision.
She mentions the
extra laundry she had to do when all this first started
(‘as if I don’t have enough to do’ she complained
to dad) and insisted on not only a waterproof mattress
protector but as I’ve said, nappies and plastic pants to
act as the best barrier. She convinced dad that I’m too
resentful not to try and take it off so she needs to be
sure. So, I’m supervised each night to avoid any
possible leakage, which in truth they did on a few
occasions where I half-heartedly put the nappy on
myself. Dad has taken her side in all this (I suppose I
can’t blame him too much because I’m fifteen and wetting
the bed) and often looks at me as if I’m doing it on
purpose... but why would I?
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Before all this
my bedtime was when I wanted to go, I didn’t have a
specified hour but ‘just be sensible’. However, now,
because I have to be put in protection she insists I am
ready by 8pm (at the latest) because she doesn’t want to
be changing me at any time of my choosing. Sometimes,
and I’m sure it’s out of spite, she tells me to get
ready as soon as I’m in from school as she’s too tired
to worry about putting an ‘argumentative teenager’ back
in a nappy when it suits him. Dad takes her point and
agrees which means often I’m wearing a nappy around the
house when I’m still doing chores or worse still, when
her friends pop by. I try and escape to the privacy (as
if) of my room but that isn’t always possible.
I’ve complained
that I can’t go out like that but she says that’s up to
me. If I want to go out there’s no one stopping me,
which is true but how can I go out and meet friends
whilst wearing a nappy? My friends haven’t yet abandoned
me but I see them so rarely, apart from school, that I
might as well be a recluse.
As I’ve
mentioned, ‘Mum’ on the other hand, has loads of
‘friends’ who also have kids and all seem to congregate
at our house. There’s barely a pause in the number of
people who are always popping in or ‘just passing’ and
of course my nappies are not a secret to any of these
visitors. Diane happily discusses my problem as if she’s
talking about the twins and though I’ve objected and
asked dad to have a word he just tells me to get over
it.... “What if they come up with a solution?” and that
puts an end to my complaint as far as he’s concerned.
So far they
haven’t and I don’t anticipate they ever will (find that
elusive solution) but it’s an argument I can’t win so
the humiliation continues. If I’m in the living room or
just passing through she’ll make a comment, or one of
her friends will, and, as I say, she always speaks as if
I’m a baby, so they do as well. I hate everyone and
everything yet still can’t stop this night time flood,
which of course makes me even angrier but also makes
Diane’s position that much stronger. And if I’m being
honest the constant stream of pee seems to be getting
worse.
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tbc +
Part 2
Diane had
Howard on side pretty early on. She continued to point
out that his son, although getting older, was
also getting more confrontational and disrespectful to
both of them. As far as she was concerned this was not
only a terrible thing to have to put up with but an
awful example for Richard and William, who would be
looking to their older brother as a role model.
“He needs to be
shown that, as things stand, he is no more an adult than
Jane or Alfie and should be treated as such... before he
gets too clever and thinks he’s something special.”
Diane’s anger at her stepson’s perceived disrespect for
her and all she did for him meant she was not to
be trifled with on these points.
“I don’t think
wetting his bedding makes Jason something ‘special’,”
his father tried to joke.
“Really, then
why is he doing it?” Diane was adamant and wouldn’t let
up, “I’m the one who has to do all the laundry, change
the bedding and put up with his constant contempt. If I
was you, as his father, I’d insist he wore a nappy all
the time so he doesn’t forget he’s nothing more than a
bed-wetting child.”
She threw the
last phrase in with equal contempt she thought Jason
paid her.
“Yes, yes, okay,
I see your point.” Howard really wanted an easy life.
His work was demanding and had long hours. If he had to
go to court (where he hated sitting around waiting to be
called) it meant other work had to be caught up on by
his understaffed team. They, and he, were under constant
pressure after government cuts causing tailbacks and the
usual ill-conceived processes those cuts would cause.
There was never enough time and everyone wanted results
STAT or yesterday. It was never ending demand so could
have done without his son causing problems at home and
thought, with the twins now in the picture; he’d have
been able to rely on his eldest for a modicum of
sensitivity to the situation.
There had been a
time, and it didn’t seem that long ago to Howard, that
his family got on well together. To him they were the
complete set in Happy Families and that’s what he hoped
was still the case. However, since the twins, and the
extra work they brought, priorities changed and with
that change... so did other things. Jason, who up until
then had seemed a reliable teenager, had suddenly
become, well, a teenager. When the family was focused on
the new arrivals, he wanted some freedom and began to
think about his own needs and not that of the family.
The fact that, for no apparent reason, he’d began to
have wet nights, which at the beginning he confessed to
be down to anxiety nightmares, only added to a strange
combination of individual requirements. Unfortunately
for Jason, his timing was off because the twins were the
centre of attention and was far too busy to get
involved.
Howard didn’t
want to fight his wife (she’d had a tricky time with the
twin’s birth) who was correct about his son’s awful
attitude, it had been getting worse. So, on his next
quiet chat with Jason he laid down the law. That
meant, if there were any further complaint’s from Diane,
all his grown up privileges would be taken away and just
so he knew how that would feel, he’d be wearing nappies
at night as a precaution.
Although his
father wasn’t an angry man there was a perceived warning
in his voice that Jason took seriously. To his horror he
couldn’t help but notice that dad, a rather intense but
thorough man, always looking forensically at a problem
or situation, had decided to side with his wife. This
hurt the boy because they used to have a much closer
relationship. Jason resented the way he now had to share
his dad with all his other kids and although he’d grown
up with them that irritation was growing. Unfortunately,
as that rage was growing so was the intensity of his
night time wetting.
He met every
request from Diane (though not so much his father) with
a grunt, an under-the-breath swear word or a huge
put-upon sigh. He was being a teenager but that,
together with his wetting problem, meant Diane wouldn’t
put up with any of it. Her not coping was far from the
truth, she was determined to succeed in getting her
stepson to heel – she was the one in control whether her
hubby or anyone else knew that or not.
“Just do as
you’re told,” his father tried to rationalise the
situation with his son, “she’s only doing what’s best
for you and your constant obtuseness is not helping your
case in the slightest. Make life easier for yourself and
just get on with what she suggests... and then we’ll
all be happy.”
His father never
recognised the hurt and betrayal his son felt.
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That first night
when he was returned to wearing a nappy was quite
traumatic for Jason. Of course he’d wet a few times but
now everyone knew about his problem it was embarrassing.
His father had made good points about why he needed to
heed what his step-mum suggested and although in part
agreed, he couldn’t bear the thought of letting her win
on any of them. He may not have wanted her to have such
a say in what happened in his life but his father had,
bit by clinical bit, reduced his argument to being that
of a selfish irresponsible boy who was only making
things worse and who really didn’t know what was best
for him.
While he didn’t
like the direction the ‘chat’ was going his father had
made some irrefutable points (like his step-mum) but the
one about waking up to a wet bed ‘just like a baby’ was
the one that stung the most.
“But I’m not a
baby,” Jason pouted, angry that his dad didn’t see that
as a teenager such comparisons hurt. The annoying thing
was that the wetting was getting worse but didn’t want
to tell anyone... he was, despite his anger, pretty
ashamed of that fact.
“Well you’re
acting like one and what’s more your mother has an easy
and none disruptive solution in preventing you waking up
to a sodden bed. So, stop being obstreperous ... it’s
for your own good as it can’t be very nice waking up...”
The fact that
the way his dad now spoke to him was as a bedwetting
little kid greatly demoralised Jason and realised
despite being definite he wouldn’t wear a nappy... he
wasn’t going to get much choice.
“Yes, yes,
alright...” although he hated to admit it his dad was
spot-on, it would be sensible to wear some form of
protection. There was a moment of silence whilst both
took in just what was being unwillingly agreed.
“Good, now I’m
glad that’s settled.” Howard was relieved that at last
his son saw sense.
However, Diane,
having checked in on her kids who were fast asleep, had
been listening at the door. She was armed with a fabric
nappy, plastic pants, powder and cream... all the things
the twins needed for a change, except larger. She knew
she’d, erm, Howard would win the argument and, as
in most things, was organised; not prepared to let
things fester or for a change of mind. She gently
knocked on the bedroom door.
“Yes love,”
Howard answered and watched as she slowly entered armed
with the very things Jason so hated.
“Uuuurrggghh”
was the boy’s inevitable response.
“It’s getting
late so I thought we’d get things underway... straight
away... so we have no more worries, OK?” She
looked to her husband for encouragement. Jason sat on
his bed in silence though warily eyeing his step-mum.
Unhappy that she came prepared but should have known, if
his father was in favour, then he was going to lose the
battle anyway.
“OK Jason, as
it’s been quite some time since you last wore a
nappy...”
Jason bridled
now things were happening and it looked like she was
going to do the deed. This was a culmination of events
over some time – damp undies for several months but a
soaked bed was really the last straw. He hadn’t been
able to keep that a secret.
Howard gave an
‘affected’ cough, which indicated she needed to be more
understanding and less pushy about her stepson’s current
situation. She got the message though Diane being Diane
completely ignored it. She may have at times acted like
the timid and put-upon housewife but her self-awareness
and determination was really what she was about.
She wasn’t going
to put up with much more nonsense. “Look, you wet the
bed and you need to wear some kind of protection.
However, you can sleep in your stinking pit for all I
care because I’m not going to wash and change your soggy
bedding. Or, you can be sensible and wear what the Good
Lord has recommended for centuries as the best and most
instant way of making sure that a leaky pee-pee does the
least damage.” She was half joking about the Lord’s
recommendation but only half.
Jason was
already feeling well-chastised by his father but willing
to do as he suggested but now she, that bloody woman
was having a go, and speaking to him like she would his
little brothers. The enormity of the situation for him
became too much and felt it difficult to keep his
emotions under wraps; he unintentionally and
embarrassingly began to sob.
Diane was quick
to notice her obnoxious teen did after all have an
emotional breaking point. Here was an unexpected
opportunity where she scored points because was
immediately over to comfort him. She knew that Howard
would instantly be on her side at this show of empathy
so it would be down to Jason not to show his true
colours.
“Now, now
sweetheart, I know it’s all a bit, you know, weird but,”
she said stroking his back and hugging him, but of
course this was all mock concern “you really need to
take notice of what daddy, erm, your father is saying.
It’s what you need.”
He tried to pull
away, he didn’t like that she was now so
understanding, but her arm around his shoulder made
movement difficult and any violent shrug would be
noticed by dad... and he didn’t want to make things
worse between them.
She indicated
for Howard to leave them together so, ruffling his son’s
hair, he departed silently and left the two protagonists
together.
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Jason couldn’t
look at his step-mum but she gave him a long look of
appraisal before she began. Sensing that he was already
on the verge of capitulation and all he would need was a
firm but loving push, she kept the ‘empathy’
going.
“Look love” she
said in a soft confidential whisper, “there’s only the
two of us now... it’s getting late and you need to wear
one of these if you want to get a good night’s sleep.”
She waited for an eruption but it didn’t happen. “So,
why not get undressed and I’ll help you with this.” She
said holding up the piece of terry fabric. “I know, I
know,” she said sympathetic to his shrug of reluctance,
“but once it’s on and you’re settled, I can assure you
you’ll be thankful for it.”
She nearly said
something jokey about the twins being happy in their
nappies but decided, at that time, it was best to remain
‘understanding’ but determined.
With hubby now
out of the picture she didn’t have to ‘play nice’ but
saw that it appeared to be working. He wasn’t as verbal
or physical for that matter though it did look like he
was coming to terms with the ‘grown-ups’ decision.
He gave no
indication for her to proceed, although a good,
uninterrupted night’s sleep would be most welcome. What
was about to happen went against everything he thought
made him a teenager but peeing the bed had reduced him
to this level. He knew it but hated it. But, here she
was, prepared and being nice and there seemed no other
option but to submit. His thoughts and actions were a
jumble and plagued by indecision, he couldn’t speak or
move.
Not waiting any
longer for a response Diane immediately began to get
things ready.
With barely any
resistance she helped him out of his clothes. Once he
was all but naked, down to just damp underpants, she
suggested he stripped the last item away himself. She
noticed, as his shoulders drooped, the look of utter
defeat cross his features. Despite everything he
wondered if this was for the best and what she was doing
was probably the right thing... well his dad thought
so... but still... it was utterly demeaning.
“Look, the
sooner we have you all sorted, the sooner all this will
be over and I’m sure it will only be a temporary
situation... you’re not going to be wetting the bed
forever now are you?” She tried to sound upbeat but was
determined not to let this moment of victory pass.
Jason was
stunned into silence as thoughts over the last few
months filled his head. How he’d managed to hide his wet
undies for all that time but was he really fooling
anyone or did she know all along? That first
morning he woke up to a sodden bed and his ridiculous
attempt to hide the fact... and then the embarrassment
of having to admit to it when it happened again and
again. In truth, despite his attempts to play down the
situation, his need for some kind of padding had been a
long time coming.
She didn’t wait
for an answer but saw him hesitate and decided that
she’d wasted enough time talking... it was time for
action.
She dragged
those yellowing white cotton briefs down and had him
step out of them, then wiped between his legs and
crevasses with a towel, which was then laid on his bed
so he could stretch out. He moved like a naked confused
robot, not too sure what to do or where he should be.
Diane knew this was an awkward part of the proceedings
so, without ceremony or permission quickly smeared in
anti-nappy rash cream and doused him in powder before he
had chance to complain or react.
There was an
urge to protest, to shout and demand... something... but
in fact the business he so tried to deny was occurring
and he had no physical response to this initial assault.
She was tempted
to talk baby-talk to him as she would when changing the
twins but bit her tongue... now wasn’t the time to sound
triumphant. She wanted it to look like the most natural
thing in the world so, with her practiced hands (thanks
to the twins) had the various substances applied in
seconds.
As she rubbed it
all in, Jason was stunned by her speed and efficiency.
This was it, the thing he dreaded was happening and
strangely found his speech and limbs could no longer
fight off the inevitable. It was like he was suddenly
turned into a baby and unable to respond. Even his
breathing all but stopped for the duration as her firm
determined fingers made sure every inch of susceptible
skin was well protected. This entire state of affairs
shocked him into inertia.
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Recognising he
had no further fight left in him she quickly folded the
nappy and fed it under his immobile bum, then, with
equal speed decisively yanked the fabric tightly up
between his legs. He had a terrified look on his face as
he realised the thickness of the material that now
surrounded his privates but, with an air of
satisfaction, she took two large baby pins and fastened
it firmly into place.
“There, I’m sure
you feel a lot better already,” she flapped out a pair
of clear but crinkly plastic pants before he could
comment. “One last thing to make you’re all nice and
secure” again the expected protest didn’t come so nimbly
drew the noisy item up his legs and over his now soft
cushiony groin.
She patted the
plastic to remove any trapped air and slid her hands
around to make sure all the fabric was tucked in. Once
that was completed she smiled. “There, that wasn’t so
bad was it? All done and you’re all safe and secure for
when you have another accident.”
His clear
plastic pants shone in the bedroom light whilst the
well-fitted nappy with the two huge pins was clearly
visible underneath. She was pleased with her work and
her teenage nemesis now looked like a toddler with a
mummy who knew how to look after her bedwetting little
boy.
It was getting
late so she pulled the covers down and helped him into
bed. Jason moved as if he wasn’t really there, mentally
he was paralysed. He wasn’t sure how this had transpired
so rapidly but it had and was reluctantly getting
accustomed to his new thick supporting nightwear.
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She’d done it;
she had that insufferable child in a nappy now and was
damn sure he wouldn’t be going to bed in future without
an adult supervising his new routine. She’d enjoyed his
sluggish reluctance as he climbed into bed but her
success was to witness his well-padded and slinky bum
slowly slip under the covers.
“Night-night
love,” Diane said hardly keeping the sound of
satisfaction from her voice, “Be a good boy and don’t
try to take them off... I’m sure daddy would be most
disappointed if you did.” So overawed by it all the
‘modest’ sound of victory passed by Jason who hardly
heard the barb she’d thrown but still it left Diane very
pleased with the result.
She chuckled to
herself knowing that at that moment her teenaged stepson
was wearing more or less the same as his eight months
old brother and sister... no wonder she was so pleased
with the outcome.
Once back
downstairs and with all the kids now in bed it was just
her and hubby... and she had a lot to say on the subject
of his son.
She reiterated
the problems and extra work he was causing and all but
guaranteed that the ‘acquiescent’ young man she’d just
left would be an angry and resentful brat when he woke
up to a soaked nappy.
“He’ll be in a
mood because we will have been proved right, it’s what
he needs but that won’t stop him complaining and you
dear husband need to be firm with him. Don’t give in and
make sure he wears a nappy. We need to ensure he doesn’t
renegade on wearing one so suggest we supervise him
every night... or it will be you paying
for new bedding and a mattress.”
She knew with
finances a bit tight her husband was worried about
money. So, for the next couple of hours she went on
emphasising her stepson’s need for padding.
She went on
about how Richard and William had both been
potty-trained by the age of three so had no worries
there. Jason on the other hand was proving to be a bit
of a soggy monster regarding his attitude to her, the
family and his underwear.
With a
confidence that belied her slim physical appearance,
she’d known, once Jason’s bedwetting showed no signs of
stopping, there’d be a need to arrange protection for
his bed and it would take more than a waterproof sheet.
She wasn’t going to put up with a constant stream of wet
bedding, underwear and pyjamas and settled on the best
and simplest defence and that was nappies... if there
were other choices, she didn’t even consider them.
She saw that
getting him (rightfully) into wearing padding at night
would not only protect the bed but might well rein-in
some of his more bellicose behaviour. Howard was
browbeaten with her logic and intensity of what the
answer to Jason’s problem was. And as the twins were
wearing nappies why shouldn’t the only other
pants-wetter in the family?
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tbc +
Part 3
As
anticipated come the morning and the teen was in a bad
mood, the bed was dry but his nappy was soaked. The
confusion and inertia had gone to be replaced by a soggy
annoyance. On waking up he realised the protection had
done its job and was furious that they’d been proved
correct. Even if he thought they were right he didn’t
want to give Diane any satisfaction at all.
He pulled off
the plastic protection and clammy padding that hung
uncomfortably low at the back where, for some reason all
his pee had migrated and threw them into the corner of
the bathroom glad to be rid of such babyish items. So,
after wiping himself clean (but for safeties sake
putting on a couple of pairs of white cotton briefs
before the rest of his clothes) he felt he’d regained
some of his independence. Going downstairs he was trying
to formulate an argument and was quick to launch into it
once he saw Diane and dad at the kitchen table.
However,
noticing his brothers sat eating their cereal meant he
didn’t want to mention the nappy and stuff by name...
even if he was angry he didn’t want them to know what
had taken place.
“Bloody ‘things’
kept me awake all night...” he snarled but dad gave a
stern “Language” and nodded towards Richard and William.
He complained
that the items in question had kept him up all night as
they were - too tight, too noisy, too hot or too
uncomfortable. Of course it was a lie because he wasn’t
happy about how he’d been compelled into wearing the
damn things. He needed to assert that it wouldn’t be
happening again and that everyone was aware of that
fact.
“Ah,” said a
knowing Diane, “but is your bed dry?”
Being caught in
a quandary, because he didn’t know how much his brothers
knew, Jason didn’t answer that particular question but
continued to argue. Unfortunately, it only added to his
father’s opinion his wife was correct – he was
confrontational, didn’t listen and still thought peeing
the bed was better than wearing protection - the boy was
wrong.
“Your nappy did
what it was supposed to do,” Diane lambasted back, “You
should be grateful, never mind giving it the big sobs...
you just don’t know what’s best for you you’re such a
self-centred...” Well, the cat was out of the bag now so
Jason angrily stomped out of the kitchen knowing his
argument had failed at the first obstacle... his
step-mum.
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Unfortunately,
such had been Diane’s devastating attack on her
stepson’s character the previous night that Howard
wouldn’t really listen to any of his complaints. She’d
proved to her husband (more by insinuation than fact)
Jason’s wetting was getting worse and had convinced him
that he probably wet during the day. So, to try and stop
her from exploding or having a breakdown, all the
precautions she recommended should and would come into
play for a ‘peaceful’ existence at home. She contended
that without a strong lead from Howard then the entire
fabric of the household would fall apart... and it would
be entirely as a result of his inaction if it
did.
Under such a
barrage of derision and accusations of possible failure
Howard followed Jason back to his room and had further
words. In private, Jason grudgingly admitted that the
wetting was getting slightly worse and that he’d
occasionally had damp underpants. Thinking he was being
honest and his father would appreciate such honesty he
was surprised at the reaction. His dad reasoned that in
that case it would be sensible to wear protection all
the time.
Despite a
teenage temper tantrum and volatile resistance, Jason
found it hard to challenge his father because he really
didn’t want him to know just how bad the wetting had
become. Dad’s logic was always precise and to the point
so any antagonism he felt towards his father was really
only half-hearted. However, he’d never come up against
his dad being so adamant on any subject so that he had
absolutely no choice. If dad deemed it necessary (and
to make sure of compliance) Jason would have regular
nappy inspections when at home and not just when he woke
up with soggy padding.
Jason couldn’t
believe dad had not only agreed to all this but was
dogged in his view that it needed to happen. The
thing is he was already on shaky ground and arguing
seemed to make things worse. The teenager in him wanted
to rebel but the guilt of pissing the bed left him with
no alternative but to resentfully submit to his dad’s
rationality. His arguing and general irritation to the
situation had made things worse. He had no independent
support and his obvious denial (but evidence of a wet
nappy) simply didn’t help his position. So, just like
the twins he was to be made to wear a nappy and plastic
pants all the time when not at school, where,
appreciatively for Jason, his father thought such action
would cause too many problems.
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At first Jason
thought this new rule was a joke – ‘nappy inspections’
was a laughable idea. He wasn’t going to wear a nappy
when at home – but dad made no bones about it. That was
how it was going to be and any further argument just
went to prove his wife was correct in her opinion of
him. Jason didn’t want to go against dad but this was
stupid so wasn’t going to put up with it. However, dad
brought out a threat that he couldn’t ignore. His summer
plans, plans he’d been talking about and looking forward
to all year, to go with one of his mates on a holiday
abroad would be instantly cancelled.
Jason was aware
that the trip was dependent on dad financing it and that
as money was tight it would be an easy item to dispense
with. This was a devastating blow and no amount of
shouting or pleading would change dad’s mind. The
resolute look on his father’s face told him the decision
had been taken and now it was down to him. Reluctantly
this possibility was just too much to contemplate, so,
he’d just have to put up with this new rule until on
holiday or dad saw sense. Well that was the hope anyway.
“You need to
know Jason,” said his dad, “that you’re not always going
to get your own way”.
“But I NEVER get
my own way,” he choked with annoyance.
“Well, I’ll see
this as a trial... think on... as Newton’s Third Law
states - For every action, there is an equal and
opposite reaction. Don’t push your luck... it might
just turn round and push back.”
His reaction was
to burst into tears. This just wasn’t fair but his
father had spoken and, although wasn’t too sure what the
quote meant, it came with a risk he couldn’t ignore.
Jason didn’t think his father knew how cruel he was
being, whereas Howard thought his wife’s idea of
‘preventable wet episodes’ was, after his son had
admitted to the problem getting worse, a simple remedy
and couldn’t see why Jason, a reasonably intelligent
boy, was against it. It was an obvious solution to a
growing problem for all concerned.
Jason’s wrath at
having to submit was difficult to channel but could at
least take it out on his brothers.
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In some ways the
other two boys were pushed to the edges of family life
because of the arrival of the twins and the battle
between their older brother and mummy. Neither boy was
demanding, Diane had brought them up to be polite and
respectful but the atmosphere in the house had turned
unpleasant at times, which had an effect on them. It
wasn’t always like that because Jason had been a
terrific big brother.
Of course, when
Richard was born there had been an initial natural
feeling for the five year old Jason that he was being
usurped. His dad seemed to spend more time on the
newcomer than him and so resented it. However, with the
passage of time he grew to like looking after his little
brother and was happy to teach him to read, learn his
numbers and play together. By the time William came
along, Jason was used to having these little people
around and, with being that bit older, found he quite
liked having a family. He even found his ‘new’ mum to be
fun and attentive, whilst dad seemed to dote on them
all.is relationship with his’new’ mother
Dad, mum and the three boys looked the perfect family
and so it continued... until the arrival of the twins.
If asked, Jason
wouldn’t be able to tell you when or why he suddenly
took against his step-mum but since becoming a teenager
for some reason resentment had begun to grow. It might
have been something that the gang of friends he hung
around with jeered about in the schoolyard, or maybe
something he’d seen on TV, or maybe games he was playing
on PlayStation but he began to think - now he was grown
up - he should think differently and live his own life.
Suddenly, he
hated being told what to do but still being reliant on
his parents for everything. He hated the demands put
upon him by being ‘family’ and not an individual; whilst
at the same time all his mates were boasting of their
own rebellious successes. Well that is except for Pete
whose family were off to Spain for their summer holidays
and their only son was allowed to bring a friend...
Jason had been first choice. He was very excited about
the prospect of his first trip abroad and hoped it would
cement his feeling of mature independence.
However, there
were some stipulations to going and those were that
Jason had to help out more. Making sure the boys were
supervised, school work done, clothes clean and ready,
fed and on time to catch the bus. Before Jason did this
naturally but now, because mum was worn out looking
after the twins, he resented it fell to him to sort it
all out.
Unfortunately,
Jason’s resentment grew along with the sudden appearance
of wet pants. Guilt and general frustration as to ‘why?’
it was happening to him made his mood sour. The more he
got angry, the wetter he seemed to get - though perhaps
surprisingly he hadn’t put these two factors together.
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Meanwhile,
Richard was steeped in his school football team, quite
independent in a boyish kind of way. Whereas William was
quiet and followed behind his older brother, content to
take a backseat and not push forward for anything. In
their respective classes, Richard was a leader and
academically good. Unfortunately, William’s reports
suggested that he was slow to take advantage of what was
going on around him and struggled to make himself heard
in the general hubbub of school life.
Diane was very
supportive of all her boys but looked after her youngest
by more-or-less babying him... that was, until the twins
began to loom large. As Diane expanded with child (or
children as it turned out) William suddenly dropped out
of being the one everyone looked out for. That, together
with the growing impatience of Jason, made the poor lad
feel left out so moped around the house trying to avoid
contact with anyone. Richard, with whom he shared a
bedroom, did his best to keep his spirits up but the
dejected little fellow began to feel like a spare part.
With everything
else that was going on – twins on their way, dad working
all hours, school a challenge and Jason being obnoxious
to mummy, William drifted into a world of solitude. Even
when there were people around he’d have a book open and
pretend to be engrossed, in fact, he had turned off
completely and just wished the day away. His only escape
was sleep so spent as much time as he could in his room;
always thankful if Richard wasn’t there to chat. He’d
often be found on his top bunk lying quietly and staring
off into space.
However, with
the arrival of the twins William found himself no longer
the baby of the family and was now an older brother. He
liked this sudden elevation and it helped snap him out
of the depression no kid of six should have ever been
in. Later, he celebrated his seventh birthday, which
Richard had told him, was the age when things would be
different as he was no longer a ‘little kid’. Nothing
actually happened to physically change but because of
what his brother had said, Will thought, whether he
noticed or not, things had to be different so needed to
act the ‘big brother’ to the new arrivals.
However, all the
achievements the two boys were making were eclipsed by
Jason and their mother seemingly in constant battle. If
they took mummy’s side, Jason mocked them, if they tried
to remain neutral they got a glare from mummy. Daddy was
rarely around for them to take any direction from so
they tried to keep out of the firing line as much as
possible.
However, both of
them were keen to help mummy as much as possible and
loved it when she praised them for being ‘big boys’.
However, Jason seemed to be stomping around the house
being disagreeable, to which their mummy’s response was
to ridicule him.
Then it
happened.
Big brother wet
the bed.
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They heard mummy
screaming at him about it not being the first time and
she was convinced he was doing it on purpose. Then the
two boys heard her rip into him – “If the twins wear
nappies to prevent everything getting soaked then so
should you”. The arguments and shouting went up a gear
as mummy insisted that daddy had a word and eventually
that led to their big brother wearing nappies at night.
Once put to bed
Richard and William would lie in their bunks and whisper
to each other wondering if Jason was turning into a
baby. Whatever was happening neither of them wanted to
be returned to wearing nappies, that would be too awful
and more importantly, what would their friends say?
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As always,
thinking ahead, Diane knew that Jason would need more
than just the few terry cotton nappies and plastic pants
she’d bought in advance, some of which he was now
wearing. So, as finances were scarce decided to try and
find a cheap way of getting supplies.
She went on
Mumsnet and assorted other online help and support
groups and found someone local who was getting rid of
their entire supply of teenage incontinence items
because their son had grown out of it all. A couple of
emails later and a package of very reasonably priced
second-hand items arrived in a big box which she stashed
away until she could introduce them to their ‘damp’
recipient.
On checking, and
to her absolute delight, the box had everything;
colourful childish disposables, plain coloured
disposables and a dozen or so terry cotton nappy
squares. The lady had also included an array of
colourful and plain pairs of plastic pants, a couple of
onesies that fastened under the crotch to hold a
nappy firmly in place and bottles and canisters of
anti-rash cream, soothing oils and baby powder. The
package also contained a note.
Hi Diane
Here, as
discussed, are the items we talked about but also,
because of Darren’s growth spurt and suddenly becoming
no longer incontinent I’ve included some things we never
got around for him to use. Hope you find them useful and
of course it was lovely to speak to you. Should you need
an ear at any time to talk about your son’s problem, I’d
be only too glad to lend it... you have my number.
All the best and
good luck.
Gwyneth
p.s. Darren
always looked so damn cute in the purple onesie and
matching plastic pants... in some ways it’s a shame he
grew out of it all.
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Meanwhile, when
her husband wasn’t around Diane seemed to take great
delight in checking Jason’s newly enforced nappy regime
especially when her friends stopped by. There was no
escape for the teen because of the twins she constantly
had a group of similarly supportive mothers who were
battling with kids of their own. She was encouraged by
them to bring the boy down a peg or two, even if that
hadn’t proved successful with their own kids. They all
took some strange delight in seeing Jason struggle with
the responsibilities of wearing a nappy and still
appearing to be a teenager. Privately they cackled at
his miserable misfortune and applauded Diane’s no
nonsense approach to dealing with a belligerent
bed-wetter.
Apart from his
family, for Jason there was another problem, his wetting
was indeed getting much worse. He hadn’t been to see a
doctor because he didn’t want anyone else to know about
it and above everything else, hoped it would be, like
Diane suggested, just a passing phase. So
whenever a doctor’s appointment was raised he would lie
and say that he thought he was getting better so no need
to bother the local GP. The fact that he actually needed
a nappy was pretty soul-destroying and trying to ignore
his problem was becoming more and more difficult.
Jason hated
himself for his constantly leaking cock; making him even
more furious was that it was hard to blame anyone else.
As a result he became more reclusive and tried to keep
himself away from all that was going on by spending what
little time he had in his one and only sanctuary, his
bedroom. That had been his room since before Diane was
on the scene and he held that privacy, no matter how
vague, to be his by right... but his step mother had
other plans. She’d already invaded his isolation by
waltzing in with his freshly laundered clothes... and of
course nappies. Any protest from him had been instantly
dismissed by being told that “...pants-wetters don’t get
privacy”.
Buoyed by her
friends, and now getting such a kick out of her control
over him, she made another decision that he wasn’t going
to like. The twins, who up until then had shared their
parent’s bedroom, were to be given a room of their own.
It was proposed that the twin’s cots would be
transferred to the bedroom Richard and William shared,
whilst their bunkbeds would be moved in to Jason’s room.
It would be a squeeze for the three boys to be together
but Diane concluded that the twins and all their
paraphernalia would just about fit into her boy’s room.
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There was a
general argument that none of the kids were happy about.
Jason complained about being the eldest he should have
privacy and, perhaps unsurprisingly, the two boys
objected to sharing their room with a bed-wetter. As no
one would be happy about any such arrangement Diane
pretended to re-think the situation. She’d already
planned what would happen but, discussing the objection
between the boys with her husband promised she would
come up with a suitable compromise that should settle
any dispute. Once told of her decision Howard realised
there was no real alternative as the house didn’t have
enough space for a different outcome - so agreed to what
was planned.
So, on a Friday
morning, whilst Jason and the boys were all at school,
and with the help of a couple of friends, Diane moved
the two cribs, changing table and dresser into Jason’s
room.
“Then I can have
all those who require nappies in one place.” She said
pleased with her ‘obvious’ solution and quite
incidentally her two sons wouldn’t be put out at
all.
The tantrum
Jason threw on discovering what had happened was
devastating for him, but his step mum simply pointed out
to her husband that it proved he was nothing more than a
little spoiled child who insisted on wetting his pants
and getting his own way. She was in a fiery mood when
she added her damning response to his sulk “Like a two
year old”.
His room, which
has to be said was quite spacious, was now cramped. His
single bed, which had been set in the middle of the room
with space to walk around, had been pushed up against
one wall under the window. The twin’s cots were put side
by side opposite with the large chest of drawers, whose
extended top (complete with padded foam cover) was used
as a changing table and set along the wall just about
separated the two different aged bed-wetters. Jason’s
table and games console had been removed to make way for
extra furniture for the twin’s clothes and his own
wardrobe was also commandeered for more baby stuff.
Every surface now looked (and smelled) like a nursery,
with powders, lotions, creams and of course nappies all
on view. Worse still were his nappies and plastic covers
left on ‘easily accessible’ surfaces same as the twins.
Whilst the shelf that contained his few bits and bobs
became festooned with the trappings for babies.
Jason could
hardly contain his anger but his seething was met by his
step mother’s complete lack of empathy.
“I simply do not
have time for your self-aggrandisement the world does
not revolve around you and your wet pants,” she screamed
at him. “I have enough to do with the twins and the rest
of the family to have any more unnecessary
worry.” There was a malicious accusation to her tone
“Now everything for baby is where it should be
and that’s in the same place, so stop being such
a selfish, self-centred little brat.”
As a child she’d
had plenty of practice in bringing down and putting in
their place boys who thought they were something
special. Jason was not going to fair well against her
expertise in this area.
His PlayStation
was now set up in a little alcove in the living room but
was for all to play with. He also had to do homework on
the kitchen table, and as that seemed to be in constant
use he had to find elsewhere. The garage was cold but if
he wanted some privacy, that was the only available but
restricted space. His room, although now cramped as
well, was the only place he could work. However, it
hadn’t helped that whilst arguing with his step mum he’d
pissed himself a little. He hoped she hadn’t noticed so
had thrown himself down on his bed to not only hide his
embarrassment but also to hide guilty tears.
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Howard had been
shocked on his return from work to find his fifteen year
old son crying and in such a state. The boy was so upset
he could hardly put words into sentences as he
complained and begged for things to be returned as they
were. But, as always in these matters, Diane had got in
first and explained the problem, and the obvious
solution that affected the least amount of people. So,
even if Jason didn’t know it, his dad was well aware
that it was the only sensible answer so... a done
deal.
Diane had
pointed out that with the twins in another room (as
advised by all parental guides) that now they were able
to sleep on their own, it would give the adults more
time to themselves (and added sensually) a chance to be
intimate without waking the babies. Obviously, although
she could see Jason’s objections (and rejected them as
being unworkable), having nappies, changing table and
equipment where needed made perfect sense.
“It makes life
so much easier and practical with everything in one
place to make dealing with wet and stinky nappies
stress-free.” Howard had to agree with his wife’s
reasoning even if briefly he felt the pain and
disruption of his eldest.
It had been true
that the twin’s things seemed to occupy every surface
and although in many ways that would still be the case,
having a central point where they could change them and
keep their nappies and clothes, as well as see to
Jason’s increasing needs, was simply the only solution.
Jason tried to
compromise with his father and said that he’d rather
have Richard and William sharing his room but his tears
fell even more when it was pointed out that they didn’t
want to share because of the constant smell of wee and
baby powder. Any autonomy Jason thought he had was
completely eroded.
“The sooner you
can get over this wetting problem son,” his father
sympathised as best he could, “the sooner things might
change.” However, Diane had left the idea he was wetting
on purpose still as a possibility and that his avoidance
of going to the doctor was proof. This was in the back
of dad’s mind when he said “Sorry Jason but this is for
the best.”
Those words were
no comfort when he realised that a wet stain had
appeared on the front of his school trousers. The thick
double briefs he wore for school just not robust enough
to take the amount of pee all this tension had produced.
It was a defining moment. The sigh of self-pity was loud
and long. He had few friends he could talk to, and
besides, who would want to talk about a fifteen year old
still wetting his pants? He felt imprisoned, isolated
and inadequate.
He lay there for
a good hour crying, resenting his family and trying to
work out a way to change things. Alas, the house only
had three bedrooms and his was the second largest so had
no one to turn to for consolation. It was a done deal,
and, as his father had become prone to tell him, he’d
just have to ‘...get used to it’. Stuck in his
mind was dad’s threat not to let him go on holiday with
his mate if he didn’t just buckle down and do as he was
told.
He hated
everyone but there was another revelation, now the twins
were in his room a new state-of-the art child
mobile/monitor/camera had also been purchased and set up
to keep an eye on them. The fact that sound and images
of the room would be permanently accessible to Diane
meant he’d have no privacy for anything a fifteen year
old boy was prone to do.
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tbc +
Part 4
Lying alone
on his bed his few moments of peace were rudely
disrupted when Diane breezed into the room holding Alfie
and saying he needed his nappy changed. Jason knew he
had no say in the matter, it had been a few days now
since the ‘grand move’, so didn’t comment other than try
to curl up into a ball and pretend she wasn’t there.
After some cooing, cute baby talk and the rustling of
nappies and plastic pants, she lay Alfie down in his cot
and turned to her step son.
“Okay, whilst
I’m here I might as well change you.” She quietly
offered. Since the twins now resided in his room and the
initial upset had lessened (though not disappeared) they
had adopted a less antagonistic role towards each other.
Jason bristled
at the suggestion. How did she know? How did she always
know? Once again on the way home from school he’d soaked
his thick briefs. That’s why he’d thrown himself down on
his bed to contemplate what to do (and hide his shame).
Although this was getting to be more of a problem hoped
he’d managed to keep these increasing day time accidents
a secret... but she knew.
He mumbled he
was fine and to leave him alone.
“Well, you’re
not fine you’re wet and if for one minute you think I’m
going to indulge you through getting a rash when it can
so easily be avoided you’re sadly mistaken.”
He knew that
tone and what’s more knew she wouldn’t take no for an
answer but still...
“Go away, I
don’t want or need your help... I just want to be
left...”
“Oh stop your
constant whining. We might have our differences but I
know when somebody needs changing and as your father has
let you know on many occasions we’re here to do
just that.”
It was not true;
his nappy changes were not supervised, they were
performed by one of his parents, mainly Diane. Despite
all her arguments that she was ‘overwhelmed’ with extra
work, it didn’t stop her making a point of changing her
teenage stepson. She knew he was at his most vulnerable
and made sure he knew who was in charge. He was under
intense scrutiny and worried that if he objected or said
the wrong thing then his trip abroad would be
unceremoniously cancelled.
He sighed
heavily not wanting to move but, with the ‘done deal’
and his now crowded bedroom, knew that there was an
inevitability about what would happen next.
“Now, if you
want, I can get daddy up here or you can just stop being
a big, ermmmm, (she nearly said baby but decided
against that) a big pain in the butt, and let me make
you more comfortable.”
He hadn’t known
his father was home so that news jolted him a bit. He
hated the fact that these days his father thought of him
as a little kid. He needed to be grown up but under all
this pressure it was hard. This was not going as hoped -
he needed a win yet his dribbling dick kept letting him
down.
Despite her
annoyance at Jason she wanted her hubby to know that the
nappies were working and the tension between step-mum
and stepson had decreased. She had a new plan - make
wearing nappies as natural as possible. She treated his
nappy changes as she would the twins, necessary for
their comfort but without too much ceremony. Of course
the twins got baby-talk and loving snuffles, which
occasionally crept into the way she changed Jason, but
he didn’t like that. To appear more agreeable she was
desperately trying to sound reasonable and toned down
the disapproval in her voice whilst attempting to sound
like she was on his side.
However, the
threat that his dad might be called to do the job meant
that he’d then know his eldest son not only needed to
wear protection at night but also during the day... that
was just too much to consider. Reluctantly he stripped
out of his school uniform and guiltily stood there in
his soaked underpants. Diane shrugged and once more
indicated for him to lie out on top of the dresser,
“...it makes things easier” and set about removing the
soaked item and then wiped him down.
“Look, do you
want daddy to do this because I’m getting zero
cooperation from you here?”
It was true, the
resentment, even though she was helping, was there and
he was finding it difficult to be anything but
embarrassed by the entire operation (how had he let this
happen, being treated like a little baby, wasn’t he a
teenager?). He’d lost his one tiny piece of
independence, his room, so there was nothing else she
could take. But the prospect of dad coming up and
finding just how soaked his pants were was worse than
what was actually happening so he said “No” and became
slightly more cooperative – the loss of his holiday
looming large in that decision.
“That’s better.
Now Jason, I know you’re not happy with things as they
are now but you’ll get used to it and whilst you’re
still going through this, erm, wetting phase...”
She was trying to make him see that it wasn’t all bad
but also making sure he knew the reason things were
happening the way they were was because of him. She
wasn’t making him wet it was all down to him so he had
no reason to be angry at her. However, she didn’t want
him to think she was totally blaming him so took a
different tack by hoping he’d see this ‘development’ was
an obvious way to make things work for all concerned.
Of course
another opportunity arose for her to embarrass him more
but thought she’d try to phrase it in a sympathetic way.
“You need to
take more care of yourself and keep this area,” she
wiped his cock and balls, “free from any chance of
disease. There’s already slight redness...
so... I’m sorry to say it but this hair will need
to go AND we might need to rub on more anti-rash cream
at night to begin to relieve the situation.”
She could see
the anger flair behind his eyes but it immediately gave
way to a look of resignation. To begin with he fought
her putting his nappy on (until dad had yet another,
more forceful word) but slowly he seemed to accept this
is what he needed and wasn’t as abrasive (or abusive) as
he had been.
“Look, it’s for
your own good. Your father agrees and so does every
medical site I’ve read. Whilst you’re peeing your nap...
erm, pants, this patch of hair is nothing but a
playground for germs that if not kept under control,
will make your life hell. I’m sure a lad your age
doesn’t want to be seen by all the girls at school
scratching his balls all the time... now do you?” She
smiled as if she understood the embarrassment that would
cause and was only thinking of him.
Jason knew that
if it had been discussed with dad then it was already a
‘done deal’ so would be useless to complain. After all,
it was just another thing taken away, even if it was for
‘...his own good’.
“You won’t tell
dad,” he asked uncertain, “you know, about me just
wetting my undies will you?” He nervously mumbled
knowing if she kept his secret he’d be in her debt.
This was a
strange request because his father knew he wet his
pants. Diane wondered if he’d simply forgotten but then
realised it was the intensity of the soaking that
worried him. Damp versus soaked... a huge change in
circumstances. Of course she was quick to take advantage
of the boy’s vulnerability.
She followed
Jason’s gaze to the small pile of soaked cotton material
she’d just removed from him.
“Your father and
I have no secrets Jason, and nor should you. It’s not
right to hide things from your parents when they’re only
there trying to help.” She heard him inwardly groan.
“But, I suspect, if you give me no more trouble and
accept the way things are, then, I suppose it can be
between just us two. However, if you give me grief, I’ll
tell the entire street about it.... and you know I’m not
joking... right?”
This was a heavy
blow but, with thoughts of his trip abroad still in his
head, realised he had no alternative but to agree so
nodded “Yes”.
It still hadn’t
filtered into his brain that dad already knew about his
wetting getting worse and was on his wife’s side in
combatting it becoming a bigger problem. He thought she
was doing her best and it was his son who was putting up
unnecessary barriers, instead of fighting her Jason
should be grateful for the simple solution she offered.
“Look,” she said
wiping him dry,” I’ll get you some depilatory cream
(she’d read about some that removed unwanted hair and
then slowed down its re-growth and thought that would be
ideal) and then we can get rid of it all in one go,
okay?”
She was trying
her best to sound understanding and sympathetic but
under it all she was just tightening control over him.
Removing his pubic hair would be a psychological blow to
the image he had of himself. Although, as she said, it
was a sensible precaution the fact that he’d look just
like her much younger sons ‘down there’ tickled her no
end. His bragging rights to being a teenager were fast
diminishing, and as far as Diane was concerned, rightly
so for a bed wetter.
So, as she had
him lying naked and vulnerable decided he might as well
get put into his night time nappy; after all, it was
after six.
“Look, I know
it’s relatively early but you’d be doing me a big
favour if we can get you into your nappy now. I have
things to do and it would certainly help if I didn’t
have to worry about doing it later. It also means that
you aren’t subjected to this twice... which must be good
for you, hmmm?”
Jason felt sick.
He had no further fight left in him. Everything had
changed and left him with nothing. He didn’t want to
admit it but in truth he’d been defeated, yet for the
first time in ages, she wasn’t bitching but talking to
him in a reasonable fashion. This had been a moment; a
moment when he had to accept defeat and that there was
absolutely nothing he could do that wouldn’t make life
more difficult for himself. This was the way things were
and, if he wanted to have any life at all, he...
No, no, NO... he
couldn’t give up but what can a lad who has nothing do?
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All this was
going on in his head and whilst wracked with indecision,
he hadn’t answered her question. She was not one to wait
on ceremony; she applied the cream in a thick dollop and
quickly smoothed it in. Once happy that everything that
needed coating was coated shook a cloud of baby powder
over his genitals, then pulled out one of the fresh
nappies and a thick piece of extra padding and without
further chat, fastened him in. This time, perhaps for
the first time, the resentment he normally had when this
happened was no longer there, just an acceptance of the
inevitable. And, although he’d had his nappy changed
many times, this time it felt like it was done without
any resentment from her as well.
There seemed to
be a degree of care and consideration that he hadn’t
noticed before, or more than likely just hadn’t been
there. It was a strange feeling because without the
resentment suddenly the process felt like this was
something he’d actually forgotten... this attention. It
was nice. Also not waiting for any further response she
fluttered out a pair of blue plastic pants and eased
them up his legs.
“There, now
that’s done I can get on and finish making tonight’s
meal.”
She’d acted so
quickly he barely noticed his new circumstances, lying
there feeling every bit like his baby brother who was
lying just a few feet away in a cot wearing exactly the
same.
She was clever
and of course this was just what she wanted him to see
that he was no more than another baby. She may have been
gentler in her speech, maybe more understanding, but it
would be done on her terms and as far as she was
concerned the sooner Jason accepted his place the
better.
He’d been
unaware that she’d just treated him exactly like his
baby brother; same understanding, same affection, same
result. Of course she’d won on all counts but had a
plan,e was still grumpy. and a cache of
clothes, so wanted to push further. However, to do that
she first needed to get a completely demoralised and
needy Jason to relinquish any idea he was almost an
adult. She had to make him grateful that his lovely step
mother only wanted what was best for him and he’d do
anything to seek her approval. What she didn’t bank on
was that soon she’d discover something else that would
make his transition to total dependency complete.
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tbc +
Part 5
I was really
depressed. I had very little and that had now been taken
away, and worse still, I now shared my bedroom with a
couple of babies. I don’t know how she managed it but
mum had really played her hand well, whilst I had no
hand to play. I felt really down and utterly dejected.
What made things
even worse were the tears I shed. I couldn’t help it and
I’m sure seeing a lad my age crying his eyes out over a
bedroom and wet pants played into her hands. The thing
was I could actually understand there was little choice
if my brothers had turned against me, which I bet was
her doing. They’d never said anything about my wetting
before so I was a bit surprised they had... if they had?
Needing to wear
a nappy at night was a done deal as dad kept
reminding me but the fact that whilst crying I’d also
wet my pants had been quite a shock. I desperately tried
to hide the stain but she just knew... that bloody woman
knew. Nevertheless, if I could keep it from dad then I
wouldn’t feel as bad. I really didn’t want him wondering
what had happened to his teenage son and knowing I’d wet
during the day, whether I had good reason or not, was
just too much. It was important... despite everything
dad was mine... I didn’t want him thinking any less of
me.
Regardless of
arguing with him whilst putting forward my complaints I
did respect dad’s decisions. I didn’t like them (well
what did I like under the circumstances) but
although he’d been very forthright in his answers and
they were to my detriment, unlike Diane’s, I never
thought he was being vindictive.
Because of her I
was already wearing a nappy whilst at home so
desperately didn’t want to have to wear one for school
as well. So far I’d got her to agree not to tell dad but
fully aware I’d have to play ball to some extent though
still be alert to the fact that she could change the
rules at any time.
I lay on the new
changing table (dresser) and was cleaned me up. I didn’t
want her to but I needed her silence on my wet undies so
knew there’d be a price to pay. That payment, as in all
things, was to do as I was told. I had surprisingly
quickly come to terms with being changed into a nappy by
her, and being fifteen and naked had been brushed of as
something that didn’t matter – I wet my pants so in her
eyes I was little more than a toddler. She enjoyed my
continued embarrassment but I had nothing left in the
armoury and could see if I continued on my course it
would only get worse for me.
I’m a reasonable
person for heaven’s sake. I’m wearing a nappy after all
and I doubt if there are many lads my age who would have
allowed this to happen. I know I’d been reluctant at
first but dad’s logic (and my unruly bladder) and I
suppose Diane’s insistence that it was an easy and
immediate way to contain the problem had seen my
compliance. As I say, I doubt if many other teenagers
would... hmmmm?
There was no
doubt that the main problem was my wetting and the
sooner I could get over that the better. However,
although the nightmares were not happening so frequently
(but hadn’t stopped completely), my night time soaking
was. The entire thing I found draining and overwhelming
– the sudden wetting, the fact that I now wore nappies
at my age made me feel less than a man, I wasn’t even
sure what the fight with mum was about. I mean, I was
fighting for something but had no idea what and as I
pondered that stupid thought, my padding was gently
absorbing my latest release. Now I’m wetting my pants
during the day, and had been observed doing so, I fear
something worse - though not sure if it will be because
of mum, or something I do - and that’s causing me a
great deal of anxiety.
The circle
continued.
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On top of all
this she told me about my pubes and indicated that for
health reasons I needed to get rid of them. I’d been
itching down there, and though begrudged having to do
so, reckoned she was probably correct on this and wasn’t
worth arguing over. Oddly enough, my acquiescence seemed
to spark a more genteel approach in the way she spoke to
me. For once she seemed reasonable and spoke as if she
was saying and doing everything for my benefit. Had she
changed tactics or had I unexpectedly stumbled onto
something? The speed at which I submitted to her
suggestion... was I being more reasonable? I had
a sudden and unsettling thought; what if she was always
being rational and I was the objectionable one? It had
been argued on several occasions that this confrontation
was all down to me... but then I just thought of her and
her mates ganging up to humiliate me and thought again.
She promised to
get some cream for the elimination of my pubic hair so
I’d sort it out myself when it arrived. Having said that
I’ll probably be inspected afterwards to make sure it
had been done correctly because I know she doesn’t think
I’m capable. That’s why she always ‘supervises’ nappy
changes. That’s one of the problems I have, I make
mistakes, say something wrong and she’s very clever at
inflating those moments to my detriment. She knows
exactly what to say and how to say it so I look to be
the problem, which she is just trying her best to solve
and it’s my stubbornness and ingratitude that makes
things worse.
Early on, when I
was first put into night time protection I said if I had
to wear a nappy then I’d do it myself. Now we don’t use
disposables in our house so she said that as it was
fabric she’d do it. She pointed out that with the twins
she had plenty of practice and as a result was quick and
capable. I still complained but both her and dad came up
with a solution – if I could change the twins nappies,
and fit them perfectly, they’d let me do my own.
However, I was so nervous I made such a pig’s ear of it
so as a result lost my independence and now I’m not
supervised, I’m physically changed. Every time she sighs
as if she’s being put upon and has even more work, she
really does love the fact that she’s in charge and I’m
just like my baby brother and sister.
“C’mon let’s get
this done,” she’d be all business-like, as if doing me a
favour. “This isn’t something I enjoy so...” But I knew
it was something she took great pleasure in because I
was at her mercy and she knew it. Unfortunately, so did
I.
Sometimes, if
dad’s not there, she coos at me like she does the twins
offering up baby-talk and whispered encouragement about
being a ‘good boy’. She makes a big deal out of folding
a fresh nappy – saying how nice and soft
it’s going to feel and how happy I’ll be once
she’s pinned it on over my “sweet little pee-pee”. I
know she’s doing it to get a rise out of me and of
course she does. So, when I do react I’m seen as the
petty one and as I’m wearing a nappy my reactions are
described as being a childish strop. I don’t know how
she’s done it but I get the impression that dad doesn’t
see me as a teenager anymore. I suppose, because he
always seems to be busy working and hardly sees us, when
he does, I’m wearing a nappy and she’s telling him of my
failings, well, what else is he going to think?
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However, now my
room, our room, is full of babies and baby stuff
I have to realise that it’s not the twin’s fault I wet
but my leaky bladder. Even their monitor that plays
sound effects and heartbeats has a soothing quality that
I’m not averse to. In fact, the twins are not a problem.
Despite wearing a nappy at night and getting a decent
night’s sleep I can’t pretend that I’ve not had more
than a few near misses during the day. I never know what
she has planned next and that’s not helping my anxiety.
Now mum has seen the actual evidence I need to act
differently around her. That got me thinking about me
and my attitude.
So, now we’re on
a slightly more ‘sociable’ level she’d asked for a
favour, which is a first - to voluntarily get ready for
bed early so she didn’t have to fix my nappy twice. I
had to hold my tongue because I didn’t like it but
pretended I didn’t mind, after all, she held all the
cards.
It was really
quite eerie because as she was doing it this time the
experience felt different. Because I hadn’t put up a
fight or acted begrudgingly, erm, I can’t quite explain
it except... yes... that was it, the resentment I
normally had for her involvement in this ‘operation’ had
somehow faded. Instead of fussing and wriggling about I
let her just get on with it. I’m not sure if I was
imagining it but she was taking her time and being
thorough but gentle. It was like experiencing having a
nappy changed for the first time... but I was relaxed
and amazingly it felt comfortable.
What I wasn’t
banking on was that she made the damn thing even thicker
than normal by adding extra soaker pads. She said that
was because I was wetting so much so with thicker
padding I wouldn’t need to be changed as often. I could
understand that but I didn’t like it... except once it
was on it felt terrific. The plastic pants looked huge
but then she patted my bulky bum as if we were now mates
and asked me to take Alfie downstairs and put him in the
playpen with Jane. At that moment I realised that we
were both dressed the same but that too was nice - in an
amusing sort of way.
The thing is,
even though it’s only been a few days since the twins
were moved into my room and I’m spending so much time in
their company, my bitterness has lessened. In fact I’d
go as far as to say that I love having them with me. All
the things I thought I’d hate have disappeared and I’m
much more involved in what they do. You’d think I’d have
nothing in common with a couple of little babies, well
apart from our mutual need for nappies, but I like that
I’m able to comfort them. I even like the music that
their electronic mobile cum monitor makes to help send
them off to sleep. There’s something childishly innocent
about hearing the soft music and heartbeat as Jane and
Alfie settle down... it settles me too.
Anyway, before I
did anything else, and it seemed like an afterthought,
mum grabbed a pale blue Babygro off the shelf and
slipped Alfie into it. Again, he giggled through the
process and once it was snapped between his little legs,
he looked really happy and comfy.
“You know,” said
mum as she straightened it around him, “you could do
with a couple of these.” I pulled a face – a nappy and a
Babygro – I don’t think so. “They’d keep your nappies up
and smooth down the bulk. People would hardly notice you
were wearing any padding at all.”
Erm, was she
really hinting that I should wear one as well?
She faffed about
as Alfie sat on the floor, tidying a few bits and pieces
and straightening out the cot’s bedding, and then said
when I’m ready could I take Alfie down stairs whilst she
got on with other things.
I thought at
first she meant for me to go down as I was but
thankfully didn’t object when I slipped up a pair of
fleecy shorts to hide the bulk. However, I had to agree
with her, Alfie’s nappy did look nicely contained in the
Babygro. He was giggling round his dummy as I picked him
up and patted his nappy and carried him to join his
sister. It’s the same with Jane, if she crawls over to
me or I’m just playing with her (I may have been a bit
resentful but I’m not a monster) I always pat her padded
little bum. I wonder if it’s something about nappies
that make everyone do that. Even at my age both mum and
dad always pat my padded bum when they’ve finished
putting me in a nappy. Now, though I may not like having
to wear one, that little patting action is quite
reassuring – strange or what?
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For the first
time in what seemed like ages the following morning I
didn’t wake up wet. The thicker padding had somehow kept
my bladder from leaking and my general demeanour was
fairly positive. Although I knew it was a one off, I
began to think maybe I’d turned some kind of
psychological corner and my dripping cock might become a
thing of the past.
Of course, when
Diane came in to change me, despite her words of
pleasure and encouragement, I detected her
disappointment at not having to do the job she so
‘hated’. However, she simply said that, as it wasn’t wet
I might as well keep it on until it was which happened
later in the day. Wondering around the house wearing
such a bulky item wasn’t something I wanted anyone else
seeing but it felt better wearing just that than trying
to hide it all under jeans or shorts. Still, this was a
good sign, or at least I hoped it was?
My brothers took
the opportunity to pat my excess padding every time we
passed each other. They didn’t say much although Richard
always looked a little appalled, whilst Will just gave a
little giggle. I suspect dad, or mum (though I doubt
that) might have told them to be ‘understanding’ about
my situation and being nice kids... and the fact I’m
bigger than them, they just accepted what was happening
to me.
Waking up dry
occurred a further two mornings but then being kept in
the thick nappy until it was wet was a downer. I had
hoped to be able to return to wearing briefs but mummy,
erm, mum said it was too soon to take that chance
but was sure I’d be out of the ‘nappy business’ in next
to no time.
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Now I’d become
‘more amenable’ and less argumentative towards mum (I
know she’d have loved it if I, like my brothers, still
called her mummy) the atmosphere in the house changed.
However, despite trying my best to be ‘nice’ somethings
didn’t change. I was still subject to regular nappy
inspections, still talked to as if I was a child,
especially if her mates were around. Nevertheless,
because I was seen as cooperating, she was less on my
case and more ‘asking’ than ‘demanding’. Something else
that happened when I stopped fighting back so much, I
didn’t find helping my brothers as annoying either... in
fact, I was finding a lot less things annoying.
As I’ve said,
over time and sharing a room with a couple of babies was
weird but unpredictably I’d soon got used to the sounds,
sights and smells of their little lives (whether they
got used to mine is another thing). There was something
about these sweet, defenceless little individuals who we
all functioned around. I hadn’t appreciated before just
how much they needed our love, attention or protection
and was surprised just how much I was prepared to give.
If one of them got a bit upset in the night it was often
me who picked them up and walked around trying to
quieten the little mite down. Even more surprising I was
quite good at it, which elicited a deal of praise from
dad and that pleased me no end - I wanted that
approval.
Often, when he
and Diane came to bed they’d pop in to check on the
babies and at the same time check I was okay as well. To
be half asleep and realising its dad whose checking your
nappy to make sure you’re not too wet, or brushing hair
off your forehead before whispering to “sleep tight”...
was something I didn’t realise just how much, even at my
age, I’d missed. Dad hadn’t really said anything like
that to me for ages and I’d missed that connection...
and I craved more of it.
Even Diane was
impressed when she saw me in the morning parading around
the bedroom in my soaked nappy, which was dragging down
the back of my plastic pants, whilst “shushing” and
gently speaking to whichever one was being fussy. Often,
no sooner had I got one settled than the other started
up and I’d have to go through the whole rigmarole again.
The thing was I had a soft spot for the sweet little
things. They had a sort of giggle that was so endearing
I wanted to get that every time I picked them up or we
played together.
It was quite
something to realise I had this affinity with them and
it was a connection I relished. I wasn’t sure how or why
this came about except it started when we were moved in
together. I had no option but to take notice and in
doing so I’ve become obsessed with being involved in
their lives. They have softened my approach to things...
maybe that’s why I’m more disposed towards Diane... or
possibly, I’m simply living my life through them?
Oh, and another
thing happened, I started waking up wet again but for
some reason didn’t mind. Nappies, wet or dry, were what
my underwear now consisted of so there was little point
in getting upset if they were either... umm...
maybe I was only just realising how much I wanted,
erm, I mean... needed them.
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On one occasion
I was trying to get Jane to take her dummy but she
wasn’t having it, which was unusual itself, so I was
alternating between popping it in between my lips and
then offering it to her. Hoping now at nine months old
that she would want what I had and demand its return.
Well, I wasn’t aware that I was being observed by both
Richard and William who seeing me with a dummy in my
mouth were convinced I was turning into a baby (well I
was wearing quite thick padding at the time). It felt
really strange at the dinner table that night when they
asked mummy if I was now a baby like the twins. When she
asked for clarification and they explained what they
saw, I blushed and was lost for words.
“Your brother
should have used a dummy many months ago and we’d all be
better off...” her expression said that it would have
stopped my argumentativeness but then smiled most
agreeably. “But the answer is ‘No’, your brother isn’t
turning into a baby he’s just being very helpful at a
time of stress for mummy. We should all be grateful for
what he’s doing.”
Again, praise
that I wasn’t expecting sent a shiver of pleasure down
my spine and as well as a brief spurt of warm pee into
my nappy, I also felt the warmth of appreciation.
My brothers
didn’t seem happy with their nappy-wearing brother
getting praise when they thought to embarrass me but I
had a comeback.
“Mum, don’t you
think it’s time to put these two back into nappies for a
while... they seem to like spying on me wearing mine...
perhaps they really want to wear them as well?”
I can’t pretend
this was a new thought. When I was put into night time
nappies to begin with I hated that those two were fine.
I wanted the repercussions of my sins visited on them as
well but of course it was just me and... well... I felt
bitter about it.
Both their jaws
dropped as they saw mum look like she was actually
contemplating the idea then looking over at dad who
raised his eyebrows.
They looked
guiltily at their food, not daring to catch either mum
or dad’s eye but dad just left it with a “Hmmmmm”
as if he too thought it might be a good idea. We didn’t
hear a peep out of the worried boys for the rest of the
night.
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tbc+
Part 6
It was
unusual that mum, dad and me were all in a game
together. I couldn’t think of the last time we had this
kind of relationship and daft as it sounds, I liked this
act of mutual silly solidarity. This feeling might have
been a one off but I knew things were shifting. I put it
down to the hours I was spending at play with Alfie and
Jane. Even in our room (yes OUR room) when it was just
us three together, after mum had changed me into my
night time nappy and I was bedding down for the night, I
was enjoying the pleasant music and effects the monitor
pumped out to send the little ones off to sleep. There
were other benefits - the compliments I was getting from
both mummy and dad, umm, mum and dad, and
the joyful feeling I got when the twins did that
heart-melting ‘smile’ were all that mattered.
It was really
quite unexpected the way I’d become so involved. I felt
like I had to see to their needs above my own and as a
result saw less and less of my friends and more and more
of my little family. I identified with their crying,
their play (what there was of it), their moods, their
joy and even their messy nappies – it was like I had to
be with them and as a result I think I ended up copying
what they did to a certain extent. Oddly enough, if they
were wet, quite often so was I. Not that I cried when I
soaked my nappy but my moods seemed to be governed by
theirs - if they were happy, so was I, if they were sad
or in some kind of distress, I seemed to feel it as
well.
The downside to
all this was that my sleep patterns were all over the
place and school life saw me walking around like a
zombie. Also, my wetting had gotten worse so it was
suggested (nicely) by mum that perhaps it might be time
to wear a nappy there as well. Of course I was against
the idea until I rushed home one afternoon because I’d
leaked in a history lesson. My undies couldn’t cope with
the flood and I could feel the overflow begin to dribble
down my thighs. I don’t think too many of my class mates
noticed because I was out of there so fast but I suppose
some might have guessed because when I got home the seat
of my trousers was soaked.
All the
arguments and refusals seemed to be mocking me and that
one occasion was enough of a warning to make me accept
mummy’s, I mean mum’s suggestion. She was surprised that
I’d accepted it without our usual quarrel but was quick
to get things ready for the next morning. She was there
to get me out of my nightly soaked nappy, cleaned up and
into a fresh one for school. The plain, though shiny,
new tough white plastic pants she assured me would, if
anyone was curious, just look like a pair of underpants
so shouldn’t worry. I did but at least I wasn’t going to
embarrass myself by leaving a trail of pee from one
lesson to the next.
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Diane couldn’t
believe the degree of denial Jason still seemed to be
in. Did he really think, after all this time, his father
didn’t know he wet his briefs almost every day or that
he was now wearing padding to school... but the
desperation for her to ‘keep his secret’ made it so she
could influence him even more... or that’s what she
thought.
However, she’d
been busy as usual by putting doubts in his head,
“...whilst you’re still wetting love,” about going
on holiday with Pete later on in the summer break. His
family were driving down to Spain for a couple of weeks
so they were all going to be close together for quite a
long journey.
“What if you
pee your pants... how are you going to explain that
sweetheart?” She asked innocently, again pretending
she was only thinking of him. But of course, this did
increase his anxiety levels and although the holiday was
something he was looking forward to, it was a hell of a
chance to take. He hadn’t actually thought about having
to wear nappies for the trip... believing that he’d be
over it all by then.
What if they met
some girls... or had to share a bed for some reason -
the shame of pissing all over his friend was just too
much. How he expected to keep his constant wetting a
secret would be impossible. What was even worse such
unease made him soak his nappy with further
unanticipated warm spurts.
In the end he
had to tell Pete that he couldn’t make it after all as
some ‘family issues’ had cropped up. As it was, because
their relationship had faltered over the past few weeks
Pete didn’t seem that perturbed and immediately asked
another of his friends if he wanted to take Jason’s
place. The speed all this happened upset Jason
tremendously and felt more alone than normal but it had
to be said, the thought he might wet the bed or himself
and have it witnessed by one of his school mates was
just too awful to contemplate.
So, Diane had
got him back to thinking of family, talked him out of
going abroad and into wearing protection for
school... all in all... quite a decent bit of
manipulation of which she was justly proud.
The change in
Jason was dramatic and to begin with was put down to his
recognition that whilst he wet he needed to be wrapped
in thick padding. Diane wondered if not only was he
accepting that fact but was now enjoying wearing
a nappy. She’d read online, and spoke about it with
others on Mumsnet, that often kids suddenly want to wear
nappies. One woman online said it had been the best
thing that had happened to her family once she had her
teenage daughter back in protection. “She calmed down
and was like a different, and more pleasant, person.”
Another claimed her ten year old son had insisted on
wearing disposables for any long distance travel, “It
was a revelation because he was no longer grumpy when we
went to visit people.”
At first Diane
wondered if that was what was happening to her stepson.
However, once she discovered the real reason it all
became so easy.
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Thankfully, with
the school’s summer break fast approaching, I didn’t
have to put up with nappies at school for too long,
although, I can’t pretend it wasn’t a trial every day.
Still, despite the worry, it was less of a burden
knowing I was well-padded and with plastic pants
gripping tightly, safely assured by mummy there would be
no leakage. That was another thing, like the twins, I
began to be thankful for my nappy changes. Although
mummy, I mean mum, still changed me with her ‘baby talk’
I didn’t find it as annoying as I used to and actually
thought that the extra thick padding was a comfort. So,
in a way, I was happy, yes happy, to get my wet padding
sorted out by her because she knew what she was doing
and it always felt right. The twins never complained so
why should I?
A couple of
things happened at school which sort of made me wonder
about what was happening; Brian the ‘friend’ who’d taken
my place on Pete’s holiday, and someone I’d been on the
football team with, came up and accused me of being a
‘mummy’s boy’. He then patted my bum, laughed in my face
as if he’d just delivered the ultimate put down, and
went off with his mates leaving me wondering what
exactly he meant by ‘mummy’s boy’. I mean, why wouldn’t
I be mummy’s boy and why had he singled me out?
Then Mr Baines,
the history teacher, came up and not very
surreptitiously sniffed the air about me and quietly
said that if I had any trouble or worries to come and
see him as IT wouldn’t be a problem. To begin with I
wasn’t sure what IT was, or what he was getting at until
he also surreptitiously patted my bum. I realised that
he probably guessed why I dashed out of his lesson and
could doubtless smell the baby powder and quite
possibly see I was wearing padding.
Oddly, once that
possibility of people knowing sunk in I released a
stream of pee and, instead of a mass of worries,
surprisingly settled contently into that warming glow
such action produces. I’d never have thought I’d feel
grateful about wearing a nappy and tight plastic pants,
especially to school, but I’d been more worried about
having stained wet pants than knowing I was wearing such
robust protection. For the last few days of term my
dependence and confidence in class was such that it
wouldn’t be right if I wasn’t wearing thick padding
encased in plastic. However, the name calling increased
and the number of people searching for my company during
breaks or lunchtime hit an all-time low.
That was another
thing, whilst at school and supposedly concentrating on
the lesson; I’d be worrying about the twins. Where they
ok? Was mummy looking after them? Were they missing
me?
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So! Yes things
changed in the household and it took me a while to
realise that I was now regarded as one of the twins.
Yes, I know I’ve been complaining about being treated
like that for a while but it came to a head with –
the pubes incident.
I was all geared
up to de-pube myself and was standing naked in the bath
tub when in marched mum. She’d earlier presented me with
a large tube of de-hairing cream and told to read the
instructions. However, she knew what I was like so
couldn’t be bothered.
Anyway, as I
say, she came in whilst I was standing naked and saw the
damp nappy on the floor so guessed I’d had another
daytime accident and was there to check I was doing
things right. She took one look at my pubic forest (as
she joking called my hairy groin) and said that I needed
to trim first ‘as recommended on the instructions’.
She tut-tutted
and grabbed a pair of scissors from the vanity cabinet
and without asking just pushed me so I was leant up
against the bathroom wall and began to trim the area.
Now, I told her I could do it and that I didn’t need any
help but she just said that it would be a bad idea to
start arguing with someone with scissors who was working
next to my genitals (actually she said my sweet
little bollocks). I might not have liked the
situation but had to agree those scissors did look
sharp.
Anyway, she
snipped and tidied up the area and then, again without
asking, opened up the tube and started smearing the
pinkish cream all over my hairy bits. She laid it on
quite thickly, front and back, and then added that ‘as
it was a bit like soap’ she might as well “do the
rest of me”. Again, without asking she began to
spread it under my armpits, down my arms and then
proceeded to do the same with my legs. I was a smeared
pink blob and it was only after standing there for a few
minutes she said that I should shower it all away.
I thought that
was it and would leave me to it but smiling and still in
charge she took a loofah to my entire body so that as I
was trying to enjoy the warm spray, she was scrubbing
away and making sure all the hair around my groin was
gone... so were the few light hairs on my arms and legs.
Finally she
turned off the shower and poured shampoo onto my hair
and gave it a good massage as she often did when bathing
Richard and William. I didn’t want to be enjoying the
experience but it felt really nice to have my head
rubbed like that and then have fresh warm water gently
poured over as a final rinse. Not once did she say
anything demeaning, only offered encouragement and
support... it was hard not to let my guard down.
“There, doesn’t
it feel nicer being looked after by mummy than
constantly arguing?”
It was true it
did.
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Yes I know I
should have been full of anger and resentment but it had
been a long time since I’d felt such complete
tenderness. We’d been at odds for so long I’d forgotten
how things were at the beginning and how well we used to
get on. I let her guide me to the bedroom, the twins
already fast asleep, where she dried me off, rubbed
soothing creams into my de-pubed area, sprinkled baby
powder all over and made sure I was tightly wrapped in
my thicker night time nappy. She even held out a pair of
very shiny purple plastic pants for me to step into and
gently shuffled them up my thighs to cover the fleecy
material. The fact I then pulled on the offered light
purple t-shirt made it look like I had a new set of
pyjamas. It looked pretty good... well mummy thought
so... I didn’t disagree.
“Gwyneth was
right,” I heard her mumble under her breath but had
no idea what that meant.
Quite
unexpectedly she gave me a quick peck on the cheek and
smiled “There, my sweet boy... you look so cute and
isn’t this better than all the fighting?” and, at that
moment I couldn’t deny I felt something. It may
have been the lack of hair. Even though I hadn’t had
much body hair to begin with, the fact that I now had
none made my body feel different. My naked pubic area
had felt really sensitive and peculiar as she’d rubbed
in all the various products thought necessary. In fact,
at one point my entire body felt like it was glowing so
it was a total new experience... though wasn’t sure why
I’d let it happen but I had. The anger, the anxiety and
the resentment which usually accompanied any such
personal interaction had been replaced by gratitude and
understanding... perplexingly I’d liked what had taken
place.
“Mummy knows
best,” was circling in my head at the time but don’t
ask me why.
She checked the
twins and turned on the musical mobile/monitor “Who’s
mummy’s little sweethearts then eh?... yes you are” she
cooed to them whilst making sure they had their dummies
in and then, as if wanting to make sure I was okay,
returned to my bedside.
“Now, I know
it’s early, and it is up to you, but you’ve been working
pretty hard over the past few days and I think you look
tired. So, why not grab a bit of early shut-eye while
you can.”
She was correct;
even though it was only around 8pm I did feel pretty
worn out but as I wearily climbed into bed she patted my
well-padded purple plastic bottom and, whether this was
simply in my head or not but, well, it didn’t feel like
I was being dismissed as in the past but ‘valued’?
Was I now one of ‘mummy’s little sweethearts?’
it certainly felt that way? How a simple pat could
communicate any such thing I don’t know but that’s what
it meant to me.
I felt really
snug, the music and soft sounds coming from the monitor
were very soothing, the occasional ‘slurp’ of the twins
enjoying their binkies and in truth my eyes were getting
heavy so let them flutter closed. Then to my
astonishment I felt something being tickled against my
lips. As I opened them to ask what it was, I felt a
little piece of warm silicon slip in. I opened my eyes
to complain but Diane just smiled and held it there. I
didn’t detect any malevolence in her eyes just concern.
“You’ve been very anxious so...” she said as if by way
of explanation. I tried to say it wasn’t necessary but
she kept it gently resting in my mouth. “Go on, give it
a try... babies love their dummies for a reason... I
think you’ll find it helps no end,” she softly
intimated.
Again I tried to
gradually spit it out but she held it there until I had
to suckle to stop from drooling all over myself. The
nappy, the plastic pants, the fact I was now as smooth
as a baby’s bottom all seemed to indicate I was now just
that... a baby. However, I wasn’t that concerned because
I felt so comfy and relaxed my brain had powered-down
and able to enjoy the experience. I was getting pleasure
from being looked after, soothed by the same music my
little baby brother and sister were hearing and
unbelievably, like them, getting comfort by nursing on a
dummy.
She stroked my
head and whispered, “You know Jason, you’ve been
incredibly helpful and I really, really appreciate how
you are with the twins. I’m afraid I haven’t been very
adult – meeting your aggression with aggression of my
own... sorry.”
I was about to
reply but she gently shushed me as if to say – that’s
all that needs saying. She tapped the binkie between my
lips and smiled. “No more need for either of us to feel
anxious... just relax, suck and let any animosity go...
and I’ll do the same.”
Remarkably, I
did feel at peace... hairless my body felt different and
now my mind had settled into a more comfortable, less
stroppy, mode. I sucked and it didn’t feel silly, in
fact, it was extremely calming... mummy was right.
Once she saw
that I wasn’t going to spit it out she said her
good-nights and slowly, after kissing the twins again,
left me to settle down. Her words were echoing around in
my head... she was ‘sorry’... it felt weird and yet I
couldn’t help but feel grateful she’d said so.
I fell asleep to
my own sucking rhythm... the rhythm of a soft pulsating
heartbeat.
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Although there
was very little spare space in my room, sorry, our
room, every surface, floor to ceiling, had toys and
stuffed animals of some description occupying it. At
night their mobile cum monitor played sweet music and
that subtle undertone of a heartbeat I found quite
relaxing. I didn’t realise just how much time I was
spending with the twins ‘chatting’ to them, playing
silly games, reading stories they didn’t understand but
somehow I’d got myself immersed in their lives and so,
because I didn’t have to be anywhere, I didn’t put on
much in the way of clothing. So, often I could be found
similarly dressed in nappy and plastic pants only, which
I had to wear anyhow. Still, it didn’t matter because
they weren’t bothered and we enjoyed each other’s
company.
When mummy sat
feeding Jane her meals, I’d feed Alfie before starting
on my own. The same with bottles of
warm milk, I’d test it before I gave it to whichever one
I was nursing. Mummy saw this and one night, instead of
the dummy, offered me my own bottle of sweet, warm milk.
Again she didn’t ask she simply rested it against my
lips until I took it in voluntarily. Because I was
speaking to all the kids and saying things like “mummy
is doing this” or “daddy’s saying that” I found myself
calling them both mummy and daddy quite by accident.
Daddy seemed shocked the first time I called him that
but Diane simply thought it was best and avoided any
confusion in her son’s minds.
That was
because, now Richard was nearly ten, he’d begun to call
mummy ‘mum’ which she wasn’t having. He complained that
his friends called their parents mum and dad and they
called him a baby because he didn’t. However, she simply
used me calling her mummy as a reference. “If Jason
calls me mummy, so do you and your brother. It’s a sign
of love and respect and I want mummy’s sweet boys to
always know that I love them... and they love mummy.”
It sounded more
threat than explanation but Richard got the message. She
also got them both to say “Yes mummy” and the small
rebellion was over before it started. Although,
strangely Richard’s attitude towards me was a little
resentful, as if I’d somehow let him down but he now
knew mummy wasn’t to be questioned. Maybe he was worried
that if he didn’t comply then wearing a nappy might
become his daily underwear.
Now I was
wearing a nappy full time, and mummy made sure it was
always a thick one to soak up my excess pee, I no longer
felt I could claim any moral high ground. This
realisation only hit me when I saw my brothers getting
ready to go out, whilst I was still wearing little more
than what the babies had on. They looked the ‘big boys’,
Richard in shirt and jeans, whilst William wore smart
shorts and jumper, I looked, well like I did, one of the
twins and what’s more, I couldn’t have cared less.
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Thankfully, the
shouting died down and Jason had begun to really join in
and not only look after the twins but also take more
time out for his brothers. Things were getting better
and mummy had quietly told the boys Jason was going
through ‘some things’ but had realised with his
problem that wearing a nappy was for the best.
Strangely, and
it appeared with their mummy’s full approval, wearing
only a nappy about the house became ‘normal’. Jason had
got used to being put in a night time nappy and this
could have been just one more humiliation... well that
is except for one thing... he didn’t care. Besides,
often the nappy would be soaked without him having any
knowledge of it happening. What he hadn’t realised was
the amount Diane was making him drink throughout the
day.
“Keep yourself
hydrated sweetheart... you can never have too much
liquid when you’re losing so much... so drink up.” She’d
insist and Jason did as he was told.
“Mummy knows
best” a constant echo in his head.
Occasionally
Richard and Will would look boggle-eyed at their older
brother only wearing a colourful pair of cartoon plastic
pants over an enormous cushion of a nappy whilst
watching TV or helping them with their projects or
simply getting them up and ready in the mornings. It was
a strange sight – them in normal clothes and him in such
obvious baby clothes. However, mummy had told them not
to say anything about it, so they didn’t, although they
wanted to.
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What was perhaps
even more peculiar was that I absolutely loved being
praised when I’d done something that met with mummy’s
approval. Even in front of her friends she was full of
compliments and often they’d join in and say what a
good boy I’d become. She seemed to love praising me
and showing me off, which was a lovely change. Whereas
before I hated them being there, now I loved to hear
them echo mummy’s nice words about me. They patted my
nappy bulge just the same as they did the twins but now
I didn’t mind as I thought they were being affectionate,
and I liked it.
Now I was
hairless what I was wearing also felt different. My body
seemed more aware of the material and that was something
else I liked. Mummy was giving me hugs and praise... it
was like I’d slipped into an alternate loving baby
world. The soft plastic that surrounded the bulky
material felt slinky and childishly fun to wear. I never
thought plastic or rubber pants could be so nice and I
never complained now when they were tugged up my thighs
and over the fleecy cotton material. I don’t know where
she’d got it from but mummy produced a large purple
Babygro and fastened the studs under my crotch. She was
right about it holding everything in and hugged me
close... I liked the sensation.
There was a new
friend she had called Auntie Gwyneth (I knew that name
but couldn’t remember where from or why) who said how
perfect I looked and all her other friends agreed. I
blushed bright pink, well that’s what it felt like but
it might have been because I filled the front of my
nappy I was so happy.
“Oh my God,”
squealed the new auntie, “he looks so perfect. Oh how I
miss Darren, he was the same... so damn cute” then
there’d be a loving smile and pat on my bum.
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At one point,
when it was just me and mummy and we were sat on the
sofa next to each other she said something that made me
think.
“You know
Jason,” I sat guarded because she sounded serious. “I
think weirdly that wearing a nappy has made you a nicer
person.” I looked at her wondering what was coming next.
“I know there was more than a little resentment at
first, and I suppose I was a bit late in acknowledging
that fact, but now, when I see you and the kids
together, and all the anger and confrontation has all
but disappeared... well... I can’t help wondering if it
isn’t for the best.”
She shrugged but
got the feeling she was hoping I’d agree. The thing is,
ever since the twins had been transferred to my room, I
did find our relationship had grown better. What was an
initial possible battleground failed because, and very
much to my surprise, I loved being around them both. I’m
not sure if I felt the same way when the boys were
babies, mummy said I was always good with them as well,
I just don’t remember having that deep connection I have
with Jane and Alfie.
She continued
“It’s like it used to be when you were much younger, we
got along fine, I hoped it would always stay that way
and hated when it didn’t” She smiled and reached for my
hand to hold. “Now, despite the wet mornings and extra
laundry I see that wearing a nappy has made you
better... more considerate. I know you
feel I treat you as a baby but I mean it in the best
way... I want you to feel loved like it used to
be between us. I want us to be more than friends and I
think by you wearing a nappy it’s made that possible.”
She thought for a moment and then added, “It’s taken me
a while to appreciate what all this means,” she gestured
towards my padding, “You being all but back to when
everything was nicer, less anxiety, less responsibility
and having FUN... so... that’s got to be better than it
has been. I don’t think you should think of being
anything less than you are because you wear a nappy,
just be happy and content.” And then she gave me the
biggest of hugs that took my breath away.
Bloody hell, and
although I didn’t follow or necessarily agree with all
she said... I hadn’t been expecting her to sound so
understanding.
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It was true – I
didn’t wriggle or act awkward when she insisted that I
needed extra anti-rash cream. I think I became a little
addicted to baby powder and loved the smell when either
the babies or I were showered in it. The thicker nappies
had a softness to them that made my de-haired bits and
pieces feel like they belonged snugly wrapped tightly as
they were. In fact, mummy kept repeating that everything
was better and I appreciated things more than I had and
wondered what I’d had against them at the start...
nappies were great... mummy said so. In
truth, the atmosphere in the house was much more
pleasant and mummy was keen to give my change of
character the credit.
In fact, the
more mummy and daddy said nice things about me, the more
I wanted to please them. I became hooked on that praise
and in return I did exactly what they wanted. If mummy
put me in certain clothes after she’d changed my wet
morning nappy, I didn’t fight her for anything extra –
if that is what she was dressing me in, like the twins,
then that is what I would wear. Colourful and childishly
patterned plastic pants were slipped over my fat padding
and I didn’t mind. If we were going out anywhere she
suggested I wear a new colourful onesie that suddenly
appeared from nowhere and told me that it would hide
some of the bulk the nappy caused. It all became obvious
and unstressful... the entire household was benefitting
from my change in attitude by accepting that I wear a
nappy for good reason.
She hadn’t said
that I had to only wear padding around the house but I
noticed her nods of approval when that’s all I wore. For
some reason it didn’t seem important to wear tons of
clothes and I sort of got used to the feel of just being
in my nappy. Besides, I was wetting more so access was
made easier if my clothing was kept to the minimum. I
still had my responsibilities towards my brothers and a
pair of shorts hid my nappy (well almost) for any
immediate outside ventures and I didn’t resent that any
more. Daddy was still working hard but seemed to
appreciate that when he was home we were now all getting
along.
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tbc +
Part 7
Jason had no
idea what was happening, his fifteen year old
rebelliousness had somehow, and without being aware of
it, faded away. In his place was a nervous kid dependent
on thick protection, a lad who just happened to love
being with his baby brother and sister but desperate for
mummy and daddy’s love and approval. These days he
couldn’t remember why he was so nasty towards his
step-mum, it all seemed so alien to him... he was a good
boy. Diane kept her positive reinforcement going at
every opportunity, letting him know he was a good boy
and this approval was what he wanted more than anything.
Meanwhile,
Richard and William looked on having no idea why there
much older brother was wandering around the house
wearing thick padding and little else. But as their
parents didn’t seem that bothered decided they shouldn’t
either. Mummy tried to explain as best she could that
Jason was trying to be a good brother to the twins like
he had been to both of them. Clothes weren’t banned it
was just his preference; all very natural and acceptable
(and as mummy kept repeating - it also made changing his
damp nappies easier). So, as well as taking the boys to
where ever they were meant to be, when needed, he’d
happily step in to babysit. This gave their parents an
opportunity to venture out for an evening alone, which
had been a very rare occurrence in recent times. They
were happy to leave the kids with their very attentive
older brother.
Richard in
particular wasn’t sure, William wasn’t bothered. Jason
wearing a hidden nappy was just about OK but with it on
view... well what would people think? If the eldest
was... would they think all the boys in the family had
to wear nappies? Mummy had restated that unless they
also wet the bed they were in no danger of following in
their brother’s footsteps but Jason was in need of them
so not to make a fuss. It was all just normal, well,
normal for him.
The boys had
been going on about a new Minions movie they wanted to
see and it was suggested that Jason took them. However,
he said he wasn’t that keen and would much rather stay
at home and, as dad was working late, babysit the twins
so mummy could have a night out as well.
“Well, if you’re
sure,” Diane saw the excited look on Richard and Will’s
faces and a loud cheer from them both when she happily
agreed to take them to the cinema. “You two can be my
chaperons for the evening.” She said making the boys
feel more grown up, even if it was the Minions they were
going to see.
Diane had
decided to make an evening of it for her sons by taking
them to McDonald’s before the show started, which had
got them even more excited because they rarely got to go
to their favourite restaurant. Mummy was full of praise
for her sons; they looked very grown up in their smart
casual clothes and waved to their older brother as they
skipped excitedly down the street towards the bus to
town.
Later, as they
ate their Big Macs and guzzled down huge colas, the two
boys had never been happier. For once they were the
centre of mummy’s attention; no strange older brother,
no twins, just them and her and they loved every second
of it. Even though there was no school the following
morning such a night out was still a wonderful treat.
Mummy was in good spirits, the food was of course
excellent and the movie had received brilliant reviews
and, like big boys, they were going to a ‘late’ showing
so wouldn’t be back until after 9pm, which was quite
late for them.
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Although at
fifteen Jason shouldn’t like the Minion movie he was
sorry to miss it. He’d laughed along with his brothers
at the other Minion and Gru exploits but these days
wanted to be in mummy’s good books and babysitting the
twins wasn’t any ordeal at all. With daddy at work, and
the rest of the family out at the movies, Jason climbed
into the play pen where the twins were surrounded by all
manner of squeaky, noisy, fluffy and fun items to keep
them occupied. Well, in truth, it didn’t keep them
occupied as much as their babysitter who threw himself
into entertaining Jane and Alfie with his silliness. The
baby’s bubbly giggles, wide-eyes and surprised look on
their faces drove him on to pull more funny expressions,
blow bubbles, shake, cuddle and baby-talk to the
menagerie of stuffed animals and generally keep busy.
The twins seemed to love it as much as he did.
He took it in
turn holding them up and encouraging them to take early
steps, or build up bricks, or tap a toy that made an
animal sound. He had fun with pop-up picture books,
which seemed to fascinate Jane in particular, whilst
Alfie was more interested in things that squeaked. When
it was time for a bottle he tried to feed them both at
the same time, if they didn’t finish it, he did. On the
occasions when their nappies were wet wasted no time in
getting them all clean and fresh again. Strange thing
is, when alone with them, he often thought of himself as
being the same age especially as they played. He became
‘big brother’ when needed but otherwise he’d immerse
himself in their world.
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For the first
time in a number of weeks Dad arrived home just after
8pm to a very quiet house; the lights were on and the TV
was on mute but there was none of the usual hubbub of
family life. He’d been so busy recently that he often
left the house around seven before the kids got up and
arrived back home after ten when they were in bed so
rarely got chance to spend time with any of them. Diane
had reported that Jason had stepped up so was pleased
with his change of attitude to being more family
positive.
Howard had been
relieved that the bitterness and general disruption in
the house, as far as his eldest and wife were concerned,
seemed to be at an end. He never questioned the ‘whys’
or ‘wherefores’, he took what Diane said as the way
things were. He’d watched his son become more and more
reliant on nappies as his incontinence got worse but,
because of his own ridiculous workload, left Diane to
make all the necessary arrangements to keep him clean
and tidy. He trusted her judgments completely.
However, he was
home early for a reason, he’d had some excellent news
that he couldn’t wait to share. Unfortunately, he’d
forgotten that his wife and two of his boys had gone to
the cinema so all his pent up excitement would have to
wait.
Nevertheless, in
the living room he was surprised to see three babies
snoozing in the playpen. Jason, wearing only his nappy
and plastic pants, had fallen asleep and his two little
charges, one in each arm, had snuggled up and were
slumbering against him.
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The change in
Jason’s attitude had been a surprising bonus. Since
Diane had moved the twins into his room the expected
ructions just didn’t happen, well, not like Howard had
feared. Instead, over the last few weeks since it had
happened, the teenager was more loving and attentive to
his roommates and so his father no longer received
complaints from Diane about his conduct. Indeed, now he
looked down at the three huddled together; Jason seemed
to fit into the scene with remarkable ease... just as
his wife had explained.
Of course,
seeing his teenage son only wearing nappies and plastic
pants on a night made him worry but was assured by Diane
that all that was needed was to let Jason work things
out for himself. She had a way with words that, although
not profound, did give a feeling of understanding and
nurture.
“He’s been on a
journey love,” she said explaining to Howard why his son
was wearing nappies during the day as well now, “and,
although it’s taken some time and a few unnecessary
hurdles, I think the boy has found himself.”
Jason had now
done that and was happier wearing padding and looking
out for the rest of his siblings. Howard wasn’t sure
what was going on but had been constantly assured by his
wife that it was all part of a ‘process’ and everyone
should be happy for him.
She’d even
bragged that her friends and neighbours were quite
jealous of the fact that despite having to wear
protection Jason was so attentive to his brothers and
sister that they wished they had a ‘wonderful caring
son’ like him. It had been a struggle and Howard had to
give credit where it was due. Diane had insisted that
once he was wearing a nappy and the fear of leaks was
avoided, then Jason would settle down and be more
accommodating.
For a lad who
not so long ago was fighting to be a teenager to slip so
quickly into being a tot was quite remarkable. Whether
noticed or not Jason didn’t seem to question that he
had. In fact, if anything, the consensus (Diane’s
opinion) was put down to his proximity to the twins day
and night. That and the fact he was becoming more and
more reliant on his own nappy to keep him dry and free
from public embarrassment. Others wondered what magic
potion Diane had slipped into his nappies to make him so
eager to be compliant, whilst others were just happy
that his quarrelsome attitude had simply changed for the
better of all concerned... thanks to the unending love
and understanding of his step-mum.
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Although Diane
had not had to slip anything into Jason’s nappies to get
him to comply, she had been busy with the sophisticated
mobile/monitor which she activated when the twins went
to bed. She remembered when Richard and William were
babies just how difficult it had been at times to get
them to drop off and decided that with the twins, she’d
try the very latest (and expensive) in baby
entertainment Nighty Bye-Byes to help. Not only
did it act as a video monitor it also played a selection
of musical ditties aimed at Sleepy-time for babies;
delta waves with soothing hums and echoes, the sound of
mummy’s heartbeat (not actual mummy’s but just a calming
heartbeat) together with her soft words of love and
reassurance (her voice could be pre-recorded and then
fed at random into the system), all acted as melodious
sophisticated comfort to anyone who was sleeping in the
room.
Who could resist
being told ‘mummy loves her sweet babies’ or ‘yes
you are mummy’s little darlings’ or babies
are ‘cute just the way you are’- plus a host of
other loving and babyish terms of endearment. Thus,
whilst he slept, not only were Alfie and Jane being
serenaded and spoken to but also Jason received
inspiring words that reduced his anger and delivered
heartening testaments about being a wonderful little
baby. Of course the twins were too young to understand
such words but a tired teenager might just be
influenced by them.
Diane had no
idea it was this soft nurturing sleepy-time
melody that was actually facilitating the change in
Jason’s attitude. It was only by chance that he said a
phrase that echoed with something she’d recorded for the
monitor. This freakish phenomenon got her taking more
notice. It seemed that each morning he woke up, and
although soaked, was also less grumpy. She quickly
detected a decline in arguments, an almost immediate
acceptance of mummy’s and daddy’s jurisdiction and a
burgeoning love for his brothers and sister.
This was all so
incredible she didn’t quite believe it, how could it,
especially the speed at which it was happening? So the
monitor, with its heartbeat and special comforting delta
waves she bought to serenade the twins, was having a
more dramatic and immediate effect on Jason... the
results were absolutely incredible. To make sure it all
fit together, and seeing as he was already pretty
dependent on them, added the simple refrain to her
discreet, yet loving nighty-night words of comfort,
about the need for ‘lovely thick nappies and
sweet plastic panties’ ‘wetting nappies was okay’
‘mummy knows best’ and ‘kind babies are the
happiest babies’.
She chose her
soothing and encouraging words carefully. She didn’t
want anything to happen that couldn’t happen naturally.
However, his startlingly speedy compliance to what the
monitor was pumping out each night led Diane to try
other things. Once she’d noticed this phenomenon there
was no way she wouldn’t use it to her advantage. She
spoke more positively and directly to Jason about how
sweet and helpful he was when he did what mummy
suggested and how much mummy and daddy appreciated it
all. “Mummy loves to see her little boy in his thick
nappy and lovely colourful plastic panties” and “Onesies
makes Jason a happy boy” were just a few of the many
‘suggestions’ she fed into the machine. The fact that it
wasn’t a constant churning out of her words, only
intermittently, that made them so compulsive. They
slipped unobtrusively into Jason’s head and he had no
idea why he reacted the way he did but there was no
denying, he loved all those things mummy said he should.
She knew her
words wouldn’t mean anything to the twins but it excited
her to see just how influential they were on Jason. She
introduced a liking for a binkie to the
soundtrack and gently let him feel it would help. He
took to it with no trouble. The speed at which this
‘suggestion’ was taken up intrigued her, which in turn
led to a regular night-time baby bottle of warm milk.
Again something he took to without any argument and as
far as she was concerned, visually very satisfying. She
also realised that adding a night time drink made
certain for an exceedingly wet nappy come morning.
There had been a
couple of mornings when it looked like he might be over
his nightly soaking, perhaps even gaining back a bit of
control. Diane was having none of that... she wanted him
just as he was... suggestible and wet.
“My baby boy
loves his milkies... baby loves his bot-bot...” and
other such suggestions were seeing instant results. So,
even when the monitor wasn’t running, mummy was there
with the positive message that he was “...like the
twins...such a good boy” and insist he kept himself
“well hydrated”. If the twins were having their
bot-bots, so was he but Diane always made sure one was
out and available for Jason, so he could suckle when not
doing anything else.
The knock-on
effect of that meant as he was drinking more, the more
he filled his nappy, the thicker the padding. She got no
argument from him as he was mummy’s “little champ” and
that was what he loved to hear. She loved her unexpected
control over her stepson who’d gradually and
successfully been reduced to a more incontinent boy. The
recording playing throughout the night, every night,
made sure he was aware of the fact that wetting his
nappy was a good thing... because mummy said so.
Now, unbeknownst
to anyone but Diane she had got Jason just where she
wanted him. Although mummy had told him that she was no
longer angry and was on his side, she still retained
that need to dominate... it was after all in her blood
(she imagined if she could have got her brothers
to piss themselves how fantastic would that have been).
Perhaps it was no more than a little kickback to the
stress he’d created in the past but could all this power
possibly make him even more subservient to her wishes.
So, she reasoned, if it was done in a loving and
understanding environment, and those with eyes could see
just how caring she was, did anyone else need to
know?
It was amazing
for her to see just how easily he took each suggestion
and once it was there in his brain, he seemed more than
happy to accept it as natural. So, she didn’t have to
rely heavily on her night time words having an effect,
just the constant affirmation during the day got the job
done.
For her the
satisfaction of seeing her annoying stepson reduced to
little more than a toddler was worth all the effort
involved on her part. Mummy was going to ‘lovingly’
parade Jason for all to see how she deals with an uppity
teen, and what’s more, he was going to be happy about
it... because he was mummy’s little trooper.
Her friends and
neighbours had been gobsmacked at how amenable Jason had
become, especially when she occasionally checked and
changed his soggy nappy right in front of them but
received barely a whimper of dissent. Of course she
didn’t let on to them about the fantastic baby monitor
breakthrough (worth every penny she paid for the
astonishingly wonderful gadget) she let them think he’d
been tamed by her natural wiles, cunning and force of
personality. The angry teen was now a compliant little
kid who did as mummy said without question and, like his
baby brother and sister, that included where and when he
got his nappy changed.
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Howard wasn’t
sure if he should wake his eldest son but decided if he
was that tired then he probably needed to sleep.
However, he did notice that Jason’s nappy looked like it
was in desperate need of a change whereas the twins
looked fine.
Whilst trying
not to wake him Howard picked up the twins and with
hardly any reaction to being moved carried them to their
cots and settling each down with their binkies. It would
seem that Jason had tired them out with whatever games
he played and of course the family was grateful for the
time and effort he put in to keep them occupied.
The fact that he
could now change the baby’s nappies made no difference
to Diane’s rule that said he shouldn’t change his own.
The heartbeat monitor was very clear on that point, “only
mummy or daddy can change baby’s nappy”. At one
point earlier, when he suggested he should change
himself, Diane reminded him of their ‘secret’ and that
she never let on about his wet briefs on the condition
he always did as he was told. He gave in to her argument
immediately feeling guilty for bringing it up but now,
with those extra ‘words of encouragement’ from the
monitor, only expected an adult to change his nappies.
To Jason he was
in toddler mode when playing with the twins but
quirkily, because of that rule, he’d be walking around
with a full squelchy nappy being held up by equally
saggy plastic pants waiting for mummy or daddy to change
him. These days he never created a fuss and patiently
waited his turn or for them to notice what was needed.
Otherwise, he’d simply walk around with it all day.
However, daddy
didn’t know about all that... all he knew was his son
needed a change. So, next on the list was to get his
eldest into clean fresh padding and into bed. He gently
shook him awake where a tired Jason smiled in
recognition and hugged him.
“Sorry daddy
must have fallen asleep,” he yawned, stretched and
looked a bit guilty. His plastic pants crinkled as he
tried to rise and he could feel the weight of the soggy
material underneath.
“That’s no
problem... er... sweet boy,” this was the first
time he’d used such words though he’d heard his wife
call him that recently and had witnessed the joyful
smile that appeared on his son’s face. Jason wriggled
and smiled at daddy using such an affectionate term.
“But let’s get you out of this messy nappy and into a
fresh one shall we?”
“Okay” and was
gently led upstairs to his shared room where he first
checked on his little brother and sister before lying
out on the changing area. It was relatively rare that
Howard got a chance to change his kids because of his
ridiculous work schedule and the hours he kept but this,
well this was something that he should do. His wife had
been clear about what Jason required and daddy changing
him would be an emotional bridge the boy needed.
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Diane had done a
great job in convincing her husband that this was just
what Jason desired. His slip from angry teen to mother’s
little helper, though in many ways quite dramatic, had,
according to her, been what he wanted all along and, all
the antagonism was just his way of asking to be the way
he was now. Of course Howard didn’t quite believe it at
first but saw the way Jason reacted to being praised.
With peace in the house and everyone seemingly happy
with the way things were, why would he try and alter
anything which obviously worked?
The term ‘Sweet
Boy’ came about when Diane was rocking Alfie after he’d
just been fed and said he was the sweetest baby boy in
the world. Jason had innocently asked if he was as well
and she confirmed that they both were. He seemed to like
the term so waggled his hips like a happy little
toddler, which in turn emphasised his thick padding. He
looked coyly up at mummy and smiled as innocently as
possible and, in that one innocent response, she saw
what being treated like one of the twins meant to him.
For Diane it was
a peculiar moment; she had him both as a ‘big boy’ and
‘little baby’ at the same time. He could take on teenage
responsibilities, but worked better being a little kid.
She pondered this for a while until she came up with an
answer – Jason acted as a teenager when she wanted him
to take on such responsibility because he needed her
validation.
So now Jason was
keen to help out without resentment; to actually want to
take his brothers to football or spend hours with the
twins reading and playing with them. Howard simply
wouldn’t have believed it if he hadn’t noticed just how
much more content his eldest was and that all the early
annoying antagonism had disappeared.
Diane had of
course changed her approach to dealing with her stepson
by repeatedly reporting back to his father about how
wonderfully things were going. Needless to say there was
no mention of the ‘special monitor’ but made it clear
that Jason was having issues. She realised that he had a
lot going on that he couldn’t quite understand (being
at that difficult age) but was, as she kept
emphasising to hubby, thankfully working through them.
All teenagers,
she said with what sounded like sound logic, grow up at
different speeds. Some are slow to adapt, some are
quick, whilst others are scared or confused by the
entire thought of adulthood and the responsibilities
that incurs.
She’d wondered
if his bed wetting was an unsubtle cry for attention but
had mistakenly jumped to the conclusion that it was just
him being an annoying teen. However, now admitted she
was wrong and appreciated that being fifteen and having
to grow up so hastily had been quite a strain on him and
that, with the twins now getting all the attention, he
was somehow regressing back to a time when he was the
centre of all that devotion.
All this
psychosomatic stuff appeared to be the answer as she
quoted articles and research she’d read online carried
out by professors and psychologists to prove her point.
She added that anything Howard could do to cement that
bond would make Jason feel especially loved.
She admitted
that it had taken her awhile to see all this, but
according to those sources, it was not that unusual for
an older sibling to feel overshadowed by their younger
ones and find a way of getting that supposed ‘lost love’
back. She insisted that the best way to deal with it was
with understanding, love and let him behave and be
treated the way he wants - less stress all around.
Thanks to his wife’s dogged research Howard was relieved
to have one less thing to worry about. He’d gladly
accepted her conscientious understanding of the
situation at face value and went along, as always, with
what she prescribed as the most sensible solution. He
wasn’t sure how all this came about but with all the
work he had to catch up on, was relieved there was an
‘official’ explanation to his son’s bizarre development.
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“Mummy” and
“Daddy” were what all three boys now called their
parents. It had taken Diane a while to get Jason on
board but was now just as at ease using these terms as
Richard and William. However, as Howard looked down on
his passive but sodden son he wondered if the rule he
shouldn’t change himself might be better if he was now
allowed. He’d speak to Diane when she and the boys
returned from their trip to the cinema. He chuckled to
himself, a rare event these days, but couldn’t wait to
tell them his incredible news that would change
everything.
Meanwhile, there
was work to do, his son’s nappy wasn’t going to change
itself and although he didn’t do this often Diane had
insisted that either of them needed to make sure he was
correctly and securely nappied to avoid any possible
leaks (a leaky nappy would prove just too
embarrassing for the lad). It was his chance to show
both Jason and Diane he was on-board with and understood
all that was taking place. However, on the changing
table there was already fresh padding set out. The
fleecy material seemed larger but also there were extra
soaker pads and new thicker glossy rubber-looking pants
with Disney cartoon characters all over them. Howard
thought that his wife must have put them there for a
reason, perhaps Jason was wetting more so needed all
this extra stuff, anyway if that’s what she’d decided
then that’s what he’d be wearing.
For a brief
moment he wondered where she was getting all this new
stuff from (not knowing about the box of second hand
clothes) and was it an expense she should have
discussed. “Well I don’t suppose it matters because soon
we’ll have no financial worries” he said with a chuckle
to no one in particular as he grabbed the items and
returned his attention to his son.
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Jason seemed
relieved to be getting rid of his soaked nappy and let
daddy change him with barely any resistance. He could
see daddy contemplating each item before wiping him
clean, rubbing in the oily barrier cream and delivering
a cloud of talc with a flourish. For the first time in
ages daddy seemed less lined, less tired and happy. Both
seemed to be enjoying this moment of intimacy.
“You know Jason,
I was sorry you missed out on your trip abroad,” he
rubbed in the talcum powder as his son just smiled back
up at him. “However,” he added quietly as if sharing a
secret, “and you’re going to be the first to know, I’ve
been headhunted... and we will be going somewhere sunny
to live, permanently, wouldn’t that be nice?” He
searched for some reaction but only got an “Oooohhh”
it didn’t appear he was aware of what was being said.
“OK, you’re tired,” he acknowledged, “perhaps it’s the
wrong time to tell you but it will mean you’ll be
getting your own room back. In fact, all you kids will
have your own rooms and...” but decided to stop there.
He’d wait and tell them all together.
Finally, with a
tender smile and a little effort daddy fed the much
thicker fresh nappy up between his son’s splayed out
legs and pinned it into place. To finish the job he
slipped the new glossy rubber pants up his thighs and
patted them firmly into place. There was absolutely no
doubt that his son now looked like a toddler. However,
the winning and contented smile on the boy’s face
convinced him he was happy with the situation.
“There you go
all freshly...” he paused for thought again. Although he
was still a little perturbed about this nappy lark there
was no doubt that these days he did seem a lot happier
and certainly a lot less ‘fussy’. Diane had explained to
him it was a miracle Jason had come to appreciate the
situation and declared how grateful he was for the care
and attention they paid in making sure his nappy fitted
securely. She also said with an appreciative smile that
Jason had never looked cuter and at that moment, Howard
could hardly disagree... because it brought back
memories of baby Jason with his first wife.
A grateful son
reached out for a hug, surprised, though willingly
Howard returned the gesture. The hug was tight and quite
intense as Jason murmured his thanks and whispered how
much he loved his daddy. Thinking of his first wife and
baby son had brought an unexpected lump to his throat
and a tear to his eye.
“It’s alright
son... I love you as well.”
It took this
emotional moment for Howard to realise that it had been
some time since the two of them had been quite as
intimate. Howard wondered if that had been part of the
problem. Boys, as they get older tend to pull away from
physical contact with their parents... had he got it
wrong, was he partly to blame, and that wasn’t what his
son was desperate for... it was in fact affection?
The hug lasted longer than any he’d had with his son
since a toddler and, as he rubbed his son’s back and
patted his sleek rubber padded bottom, was reminded just
how warm and loving his son could be and how nice it was
to cuddle a child.
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He guiltily
thought how, since the twins had been born, all
affection had been directed towards them and he’d not
had time for his other boys - not that he didn’t still
embrace them but work was taking its toll timewise and
emotionally - he needed to make more of an effort for
his family. The good news he couldn’t wait to share
would solve all that – more money, new location and
bigger house... and better still, a life/work balance
that would take away some of the pressures.
Eventually, with
a soft kiss to his needy but sweet boy’s forehead he
assisted him off the changing table. A few wobbly steps
later helped Jason climb under the bed covers and, with
a reassuring pat to his bulky but joyful cartoon
inspired posterior, let his boy wriggle contently down
and yawn his need for sleep.
The sudden bout
of bedwetting, the move to day time wetting and his
need, no, love for his nappies were an obvious
indicator that his son needed this (what was it his wife
called it – regression therapy?) more than
anything else. On his own Howard would never have
thought this was what the solution could be but Diane
(who had over time easily misdirected her husband),
proved herself to be the perfect mother and seen exactly
what his troubled son craved.
Howard wasn’t a
stupid man, but was a busy and relieved man. The last
few months of anger and resentment that had been the
basis for life at home had, as he’d hoped, eventually
passed. He knew his son was really a ‘nice lad’ and with
the correct understanding and guidance all would turn
out well. Although at times he’d been called upon to
lay down the law he’d seen that his wife, who was
the recipient of all the nastiness, had proved to be a
martyr. Once she’d discovered exactly what Jason’s
problem was had found a way to let him discover for
himself just what was best for him.
He loved that
Diane, although prone to anger, had, despite having the
twins as well as the rest of the household to contend
with, taken the time to help his son find himself. He
had no idea that what was needed was this but, and this
is what he was most proud of, his diligent and caring
wife hadn’t give up on him.
Despite all the
worries about his teenage son wearing nappies and
seemingly having nothing but family in his life, there
was no doubt, judging by the hugs, smiles, giggles and
easy going nature, the lad had never appeared more
satisfied.
“Night-night
son,” he said with renewed affection.
“Night-night
daddy...ummmm, can I have my binkie please?”
Howard saw it on
the bedside table but hadn’t realised, despite its
larger size, that it was his, he thought it was just
another for the twins. In spite of the initial shock,
the fact that his son wanted it was proof as far as he
was concerned that it was, as his wife had insisted,
something he desired and to deny him his true nature
just wasn’t right.
She’d inferred
that using the same phrases that they used towards the
twins would make Jason feel that much better. So,
‘sweetheart’, ‘baby’, ‘little cutie’ etc would help him
know that both parents understood what he was going
through and what was required to help.
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When Howard
initially raised concerns about a teenager wandering
around the house in just nappies and plastic panties
she’d just smiled and told her hubby to relax. “It’s
something he likes to do, says he’s more comfortable and
besides... he’s not hurting anyone and his wet nappies
are easily accessible... so why create waves where there
really aren’t any?”
He couldn’t
disagree because he did look remarkably unconcerned
about the way he dressed and furthermore, there was a
bounce (and waddle) to his step, which hadn’t been seen
for a long, long time.
Diane had
insisted that things had never been better between the
two of them and pointed out, once hubby was less busy,
they’d have more time to spend together because Jason
was only too happy to ‘help out’.
“Here you go
champ,” daddy slipped the large white binkie between his
lips now totally convinced this is what his boy wanted.
“Fwanq Ooo
Dathy,” was the reply around the slippery silicon bulb.
“Sleep tight
son” and pressed a button on the monitor.
With daddy’s
final words echoing inside his head, and the nice music
from the monitor begin to play Jason felt all cosy and
relaxed.
In his content
and unhindered state he happily and naturally
experienced the first warming flow of pee into his
thick, thick nappy. It would be the first of many...
like every other night for the foreseeable future... as
mummy’s magical, reinforcing words of love, praise and
the need for her trio of nappy users to stay happy
little babies made sure it was a done deal.
Well that was
mummy’s idea. Except, with daddy’s exciting news...
change was in the works. So, any current done deals
might well be undone.
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