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CHAPTER 5

 

THE FEAST

 

As we all got closer to the house we were separated into dormitory groups.

 

I spotted Timmy he was standing in the yellow group with all the smaller kids.

I couldn’t see the kid I’d just laid out, he must have been inside already.

 

The dormitories seemed to be split into kids of the same age, and there were six boys and six girls in each group, slightly fewer kids in the bigger kid’s groups though.

 

There were kids of all shapes and sizes, tall ones, short ones like me, fat ones (don’t you dare call me fat though, I’ll punch your lights out for ya!) and skinny ones.

 

Tony gathered us round in a small huddle.

 

” We’re going to have a little race now. We want to beat all the other dorms into the dinner hall and get the first pick of the table places, so when I say go, follow me and run.

Oh! Before we go, I hope you can all remember your names?”

 

Everyone looked at each other with a puzzled, what is he on about look.

 

“Don’t bother, just follow me. GO!”

And with that we were off, I said earlier he was tall, he was bloody fast as well.

 

Everyone had trouble keeping up with him, even the posh kid and he looked like a runner.

We tore off down the side of the building in the direction we had come from when we came outside and then in through the door.

We were the first dormitory to get back inside the house and stepped back in the room with the benches.

 

“OK then everyone, you remember I asked if you could remember your name? well now’s the time to remember.

 

Above each peg is a coloured name label, first one back to me having taken their shoes off and placed them in the basket under their name badge gets, gets.”

 

“Gets what?” Everyone shouted.

“A fag” I said.

 

“Not likely,” said Tony.

 

“How about the winner chooses something? That’s fair.

Right go!”

 

Just as he said go, another group came crashing through the door.

They must have been told before they got here what to do because they went straight into looking for their names.

There were shoes and bodies rushing all over the room.

 

People were crashing into each other, pushing, and shoving to get to their peg first.

The first one back for our team was the posh kid.

Then in quick succession other kids in our dormitory.

 

The one’s that were finished and lining up were shouting instructions to the ones that hadn’t found their pegs yet.

 

The little kids then crashed in through the door and now there were even more bodies flying around the room.

 

“Over there Simon”

 

I looked around and the posh kid was shouting and pointing to the wall behind me.

I spotted the name tag, ran to it, and pulled my shoes off and threw them into the basket, turned and ran back to our line. I was last, but we were still first.

 

“Well done everyone.

See, teamwork pays off.

James, as you were back here first, you can see me later for your prize.

Right quick everyone follow me.”

 

We rushed up the corridor, past the classrooms.

Through the entrance hall with the chairs, and down the wide corridor at the other side of the building.

 

Everyone was slipping and sliding on the polished floor in their socks, but we were still winning.

We passed more closed doors and toward an open one at the end of the building.

We were being chased by another group, and they were close behind.

Too bloody close.

 

The smell as we approached the open door was fantastic, a cooked food smell but, sweet, savoury, hot. Just think of all the nice food smells you’ve ever smelt ever and roll them into one.

 

Tony halted at the open door and stopped everyone from crashing on through.

“Well done everyone. That’s the first time Pembroke has won in four years. Brilliant”

 

Tony appeared to be really genuinely pleased to have won, and we all cheered.

We’d won the race, but more importantly we would get first pickings for places around what could only be described as heaven on a table.

 

We all peered in through the doorway.

There were two long tables set out with benches down each side.

On each of the tables there was the greatest feast of food ever to be seen.

There were plates of Sandwiches in every imaginable flavour, Hot dogs, Pizzas, Chicken legs, Sausage rolls, cakes, Crisps, Ice cream, Jellies.

 

Even a chocolate fountain with a huge pile of marshmallows and Strawberries on sticks.

 

Apples, Oranges, Grapes, and some fruits I’d never even seen before in my life.

I had never seen so much food in one place before, unless you count Tesco’s of course, and I could never in my wildest dreams have nicked that much food in one go.

 

“Right Pembroke, we won so you can go in first.

You can sit wherever you like on that far table it’s your choice.

 

“Do we have to sit together Tony?” Asked one kid.

 

“No wherever, it’s your choice. Ready? GO.”

 

He let us in to the room.

Where to go? I ran around over to the table on the far side, my feet skidded and I slipped on my arse.

I picked myself up and checked out the table to see what was available and moved on.

 

“Hurry up I’ll let the others in if you don’t get a move on.”

Panic set in. No one had found a spot they liked yet, everyone was running up and down the length of the table trying to suss the best spot to sit with the best food nearby.

 

“10, 9, 8, 7” Tony started a countdown.

 

Shit, I wanted the lot. Where the fuck do I sit.

 

“5, 4, 3”

 

I sat between the Chocolate fountain and the huge pile of sandwiches.

 

“2, 1”

 

The posh kid came and sat next to me, Sam on the other side next to the Ice cream.

 

“Right times up.

 

Tony, Anne, Daniel, and Jenny (The staff) all came in and sat at the table with us.

I gave Tony a look of “get off our table, this is for us!” stare.

 

He looked at me and smiled.

 

“So, you thought all this was just for you lot did you, well your wrong, why did you think I was so happy about getting here first. I have never been able to sit where I really wanted too because we always used to lose the race, and now.

because of you lot I can. So, tuck in everyone”

 

Jane from Arundel was next to stand at the door and usher her little kids in. They got first pick on the other table because they came second.

How? I will never know.

 

For the younger kids it was an easy choice which way to go though, everyone tried to sit around the chocolate fountain on his or her table.

 

Next it was Andover, they came over to our table and had to make do with the remaining space.

 

And lastly it was Windsor. The older kids had been slowest for some reason.

 

Everyone got stuck into the food in front of him or her.

You’d think that some of them had not eaten for weeks, the way it was being thrown down their necks.

 

Even the posh kid wasn’t being posh anymore. He had a big clowns chocolate smile, from stuffing a huge piece of chocolate cake in his gob.

He didn’t smell of piss anymore, well he did smell but this time of a sweet

fragrance I sort of remembered but couldn’t place.

 

Be assured though absolutely everyone around the two tables, even the adults were thoroughly enjoying themselves and stuffing it in like there was no

tomorrow.

 

Some ladies came in with trolleys and asked if anyone wanted a drink?

There was Hot chocolate (as if there wasn’t enough chocolate in the fountain), Coke, Fanta, 7-UP and water, to choose from.

Most people went for the Hot chocolate, some had the coke, all of the adults had water.

 

We all stuffed ourselves silly. And after about an hour of stuffing, some people had had enough. And looked a little sick.

 

Tony stood up from our table. “Right, everyone I can see that your all just about full now, so one dormitory at a time, I would like us all to make our way

upstairs so we can start to get you settled into your rooms for the night.”

 

Night? It was still light outside.

I couldn’t tell what the actual time was though because there wasn’t a clock in the room.

 

Anyway, lots of us booed and there were a few of the kids shouting that it was too bloody early for bed and that they wanted to go back outside.

But all the protests fell on deaf ears, and the staff started to organise and usher us

towards the door.

 

We went up first, first to the table so first away was fair I suppose.

We left the dining room and followed Tony and the other house parents up the corridor to the hall.

We started up the huge staircase.

It split into two staircases halfway up and both came out on the floor above in different places.

 

When we reached the landing, we headed towards a door marked Pembroke.

The room was a large games room, with chairs, a table and lots of shelves filled with games, books, and puzzles.

We all piled in and the door behind us was closed.

 

“Right guys we need to process you all before we take you through to the

dormitory. We will take you through three at a time and the rest of you can wait in here for your turn, ok? We will start with Adam, Christopher, and Bruce please.”

 

Tony opened another door on the other wall of the room and the three boys, and all the staff made their way through, then they closed the door behind them.

 

The rest of us made a grab for the various stuff on the shelves.

Sam picked up Operation. I saw bucking bronco and grabbed it before another kid.

 

“You wanna play?” asked the kid.

 

“Suppose! I’m goin first though” I said.

 

We set up the game and started to play.

I saw that James had picked up a Rubik’s cube and was sitting on his own.

 

The bastard had already completed two sides in about 30 seconds, I couldn’t even do one.

I always ended up cheating by peeling off the stickers and sticking them on again.

 

The Girls played with the girls and us boys, with the exception of James played together.

 

Me and my new friend, whose name was Steven, had got through five games and we were on our sixth. He was beating me three to two.

 

The door opened and Jenny came in.

 

“Right were ready for the next three.

Can I have Gillian, Abigail, and Sarah Please”?

 

The three girls got up and made their way to the door.

After about 15 minutes of playing another series of games we were now level.

 

James was sitting on a big soft couch at the end of the room.

He’d completed the Rubix Cube and was playing with a puzzle box that had a silver ball in it that you moved through a maze.

His face was bright red as if in frustrated anger.

 

“Who’s dropped their guts, it fucking stinks in here.”

 

Everyone shook their heads and denied having farted.

 

“What do you reckon their doing in there?” Said Steven.

 

“Dunno! shall we sneak a peek?”

 

We stopped playing, both got up and crept up to the door.

It didn’t have a keyhole nor a handle. I pushed it but it didn’t budge.

 

Steven stuck his ear to the door. “Can’t hear anything,” he said.

 

I looked over to the other door that we had entered the room through.

It was exactly the same as this one.

I went over and tried to open it by sticking my fingers between the door and the frame, but the gap was too small.

 

“Anyone got anything I can shove in here to try to open this door?”

Everyone now looked round in my direction.

 

“I wouldn’t if I were you Simon because!”

 

And just as James said because, an alarm sounded.

Within seconds Tony was in the room.

 

“What’s going on in here?”

 

“Nothing sir” I replied.

 

“Then why has the door alarm gone off, you must have been doing something?”

 

“I wasn’t Tony. Steven and me were just mucking about and I just fell over against the door, honest.”

 

Just then the other door flew open, and this skinny young guy burst in to the room.

 

“You're ok Greg, false alarm, just someone clowning around.”

 

The guy looked disappointed.

 

“Ok if you're all ok then.”

 

With that, he turned and left shutting the door which clicked closed behind him.

 

“Enough clowning about, play quietly and wait your turn.”

 

He turned, walked out of the room, closed and locked the door again.

Steven and I went back to our game.

 

“Sorry Simon, I tried to tell you, “Said James.

 

“How’d you know it was alarmed?”

 

“I came to camp here last year.”

 

“Is that what your green tick on your name badge is for then?” I asked.

 

“Yes, it shows that I’m a returning camper and know what to expect here

without being told”

 

 “Told? Told what?”

 

Everyone was now listening to our conversation.

 

“Told about anything”

 

“Such as?”

 

“Anything about how it works here, don’t ask me anymore I’m not allowed to tell you.”

 

“You’d better tell me or!”

 

Right as I was just about to get up and beat it out of him, the door opened and Daniel came into the room.

 

“Everything ok guys?

 

Everyone kept quiet and just looked toward my direction.

 

“Right, we’re ready for James, Simon, and Steven. Come on guys,” said Daniel.

 

I whispered to James as he walked past.

“I’ll get it out of you later don’t you worry.”

 

He didn’t look too bothered about my threat. He whispered back.

 

“To be honest you won’t need too Simon, you’re just about to find out for

yourself”

 

Daniel Shepard’d us into the room and closed the door.

The room was set out like some sort of large doctor’s room.

There were six couches, three on each side of the room.

Tony was standing by one couch, Jenny by another.

 

“Over here Simon” Tony called me over to his bench.

 

Steven was called over by Jenny, and Daniel led James to another.

 

“Right jump up here for me” Tony patted the brightly coloured bench, so I knew where to sit.

 

“We have to do a few medical checks before we can allow you to do any of the activities here Simon.

I need to take your temperature and blood pressure, and we need to give you a little injection.”

 

“Injection what for?”

 

Well, the lake has some nasty bacteria in it. And so that you don’t become sick we need to give you a little injection.”

 

“I don’t like injections, I’ll take my chances,” I said.

 

“Ok but unless you have the injection you won’t be allowed to do ANY water activities while you’re here, it’s your choice.

 

“Anyway, let’s get your top off so I can do your blood pressure.”

 

I removed my t-shirt and put it down on the bench beside me.

Tony picked up a thermometer, and I instinctively opened my mouth.

 

“We don’t take temperatures in mouths here Simon.

He lifted my left arm and placed it under my armpit and lowered my arm again.

He then picked up what I remembered seeing before at our doctors a couple of weeks ago, a thing that inflated on your arm and the thing that the doctor put in his ears.

 

I’d had this done before and remembered that I tried to tense my muscles when it was done last time but it didn’t work, I’ll try again this time I thought.

 

Tony wrapped the rubber bag around my other arm and secured it with some sort of Velcro strap. He put the ear thing in each ear and started pumping up the band with a rubber ball and watched the little dial on the rubber tube.

 

I looked over to Steven, and he was having the same thing done to him.

I looked behind me, and James was as well.

 

“That’s fine” he said and he took off the band.

 

He then took out the thermometer from under my arm and looked at it.

“That’s fine as well, you’re still alive. He smiled and I laughed.

 

“So, what’s it going to be, injection or not?”

 

Do I want to go in the canoes and sailing boats?

Did I want to swim in the lake? It wasn’t a hard question to answer really.

 

“Ok. I’ll do it.”

 

It’s only a little jab in the bum, nothing to be worried about,” said Tony.

 

“Take your trousers off and lay face down on the table for me.”

 

“What! take my trousers off in here, in front of these two?”

 

“Just your trousers not your pants.

 

Why! have you got something to hide? They’ll all be doing the same in a

second anyway”

 

He smiled a sort of heard it all before and said it a thousand times smile.

 

I jumped off the table and took off my trousers and laid them on top of my shirt.

I jumped back onto the table as he had asked me to.

I turned my head and looked over to the table where James was sitting.

He was still in his trousers. I called over to him. “You not swimming then James.”

 

“I had this done last year, so I don’t need it again.”

He looked over and had a smug look on his face.

 

I took the look he gave me as an. I don’t need what you’re gonna get mate look.

He laid down on his back on the bench as I continued to watch him.

 

Without warning Tony pulled down the back of my pants and jabbed in the

needle.

I jumped a bit and said ouch, turned and gave him a hard stare.

 

“See! that wasn’t too bad was it”?

 

I turned back to look at James, just to see if he was laughing as I expected him to be.

 

He wasn’t looking at me.

He was watching Daniel’s face and talking to him as Daniel removed his

trousers.

 

I couldn’t believe what James was wearing underneath, he was wearing a

nappy.

 

“Your avin a fucking laugh, your wear nappies, you fucking baby”

 

James turned to look back at me, and just had a, I don’t give a shit what you think look on his face.

 

“I thought you smelled of piss earlier, did you piss yourself baby?”

 

I started laughing, by this time Steven had heard what was going on and he was looking and laughing as well.

 

“Enough” said Tony. “We don’t allow that sort of language here Simon.”

 

“But he’s wearing a nappy, he’s a fucking weirdo.”

 

“He’s not a weirdo, no more than you are.”

 

“Yea! but I don’t wear fucking nappies though, do I?”

” Is that so!” He replied.

He gave me a stare that had a, I know your secret look on his face.

I shut up straight away.

 

“What do you bloody mean by that”

 

“I didn’t mean anything Simon.

Just don’t be judgemental about people, just because you don’t know anything about them.”

 

“I already knew he’s a Posh Poof, now I know he’s a posh poof baby.”

 

I laughed again and Steven joined in we were nearly doubled up with laughter.

 

“Well, we all know who the REAL babies are here, don’t we Simon!”

Said Tony.

 

 All of a sudden, I started to feel all weak and limp and stopped mid laugh.

 

“Shit! Tony, I don’t feel well.”

 

“It’s ok Simon, it’s just an effect of the injection I just gave you.”

 

“What’s it doing to me? I can’t move my arms.”

I had a tone of real panic in my voice by now.

 

 “The drug will make your muscles relax, the effect will wear off.”

 

“But I can’t move my legs now.

Fuck, please help me, I can’t move.”

I could still move my head though and I looked over to James.

He was sitting up now and had a look of smugness.

 

“What you so fucking happy about wanker.”

 

If I could have moved, I would have jumped on him and beat him to a pulp.

I looked over towards where Steven was, he was shouting at Jenny who was

trying to calm him down.

 

“Right bath time,” said Tony.

 

“You're kidding, I can’t take a bath, I can’t move let alone bath myself.”

 

“Don’t worry we’ll bath you.”

 

“Your fucking joking, not even my mum has bathed me since I was four, so you ain’t fucking doin it.”

 

“Sorry Simon you have no choice, we need to bathe you before bed.”

 

“Bed! Now you are taking the piss, it’s not even late. I ain’t going to bed yet.”

 

“The drug you have been given takes time to wear off, so you won’t be running around for a little while yet,” said Tony.

 

This couldn’t be right, here I was, in a strange place, about to be given a bath buy a stranger then put to bed.

 

“You’re some sort of fucking pedo, don’t you fucking touch me.”

 

“Your choice! you can try to walk to the bath or we carry you?”

 

“If you touch me, I’ll have my fucking dad on you.”

 

“Your dad knows Simon, as does your mum, they both consented to you

coming here”

 

“What the fuck are you talking about?”

 

“Your parents signed a form allowing us to put you and everyone else here into the care and education programme you’re in now.”

 

“No way, my mum wouldn’t do that, she wouldn’t.”

 

“I can assure you that she did. Now walk or carry?

 

“Just fucking don’t touch me,” I screamed.

 

“Carry it is then,” said Tony.

 

I hadn’t realised it, but two other people had come into the room and one of them was standing on the opposite side of the table next to me.

 

Both he and Tony turned me over onto my back, sat me up then picked me up and carried me through the next door.

I tried to struggle but I had no strength. If I moved my arm, it only just reacted and the same with my legs, I was paralysed and helpless.

 

I tried to bite both of them, but they were wise to that and were always well away from my head.

 

James the bastard! was walking through on his own, looking behind him

watching me being carried.

He didn’t have a nappy on now and was walking through naked.

 

As we entered the next room I spotted the baths. There were six of them set out like the earlier room with the benches, three on each side.

Tony pulled down my pants, and I was placed into the middle bath.

The other guy held me up while Tony washed me.

 

I was twelve, I shouldn’t be bathed by anyone, let alone two grown men.

 

“When I get my strength back, I’m going to kill both of you. You fucking

understand me your fucking dead.”

 

Tony looked at me and smiled as if to say. Yea like as if I haven’t heard that

before son.

 

Tony washed me from top to toe, hair, body, legs and arms.

I couldn’t believe it when he washed my bum and balls, no man had ever been down there before not even my dad.

Mum told me he would never ever change my nappy when I was a baby.

 

Ok I’d had a girl playing there before but never a bloke.

 

“Please don’t. Look I can sort it out myself just wait I’ll be ok soon.”

 

He soaped up a flannel and rubbed me clean both back and front.

 

“You fucking happy now, had a little play have you, you’re both fucking queer.”

 

I was embarrassed. I wanted them to stop but could do nothing to stop them.

I looked over to James.

He had Daniel bathing him on his own and he seemed to be really happy.

 

They were both talking away and James looked as though he was playing with

something in the water.

Steven was in the same state as I was.

Angry, swearing, and really wishing he was somewhere else.

 

“Right were all done, how do you feel? Clean?”

 

“You will find out how I feel and very soon you wankers.”

Tony smiled, as did the other guy.

 

“Last thing, we need to give you a quick shave down below.”

 

“You really are taking the piss now mate, do not touch me, I mean it get you’re fucking hands off me you fucking bastards.”

 

Tony grabbed a razor off of the small table next to the bath and promptly

removed what little strands of pubic hair I had come to have, I was now back to how I was when I was nine.

 

I was devastated, why was this being done, who the fuck were these people?

 

“There, we’re done, time to get out then.”

 

They both grabbed me and stood me up on my now totally useless legs, while

supporting me under my arms.

Tony wrapped a big white towel around me and lifted me out of the bath on his own.

 

James was out by now as well, Daniel wrapped a towel around him and carried him through to the next room.

 

Tony was carrying me in both arms. I again tried to take a bite at him.

 

“If you don’t stop that Simon, I’ll have to gag you and I don’t want to do that, and you won’t want it either trust me, but I can’t have you trying to bite

everyone can I?”

 

“Then fucking put me down and leave me alone you sick bastard.”

 

“If you don’t stop swearing, I might have to gag you anyway.”

 

He carried me into the next room, I couldn’t believe my eyes, it was set out just like a baby’s room, very much like the one for my baby cousin in my aunties house.

 

There were six changing tables, again set out like in the first room, three on each side. The walls had numerous painted cartoon characters.

 

 

Pink and blue wardrobes sat against the wall by each of the tables, and

something that put dread into my heart.

 

Next to the changing table was a table stacked with disposable nappies.

 

“You don’t think you’re putting one of those on me, do you?”

 

“Well yes actually, I do.”

 

“Well, that ain’t gonna fucking happen.”

 

“What choice do you have Simon? None!

You can’t stop me, can you?

You are not in control here are you?

Just relax and let it happen, don’t stress yourself over it.

Whatever you say now will not change what is about to happen.

Save your energy and enjoy the moment.”

 

“What do you mean enjoy the moment, how can I enjoy the fucking moment your about to put a nappy on me, then God knows what you’re going to fucking do to me.”

 

I was in such a panic I couldn’t get my words out.

I wanted to just scream, but there didn’t seem any point in just screaming.

I wanted to punch this bastard in the gob or bite his head off, but I couldn’t.

All I could do was plead with him to stop what he was doing and let me go.

 

I looked over to James. He was on his back being dried by Daniel.

Daniel was speaking to him in a calm voice, and I could see James was

watching Daniel’s face, again intently.

He was smiling and excitedly nodding to everything Daniel said.

I heard Daniel ask him if he wanted a dummy and he said yes.

Daniel took a large blue dummy from a drawer.

James opened his mouth and took the dummy.

I could see that he immediately started to suck on it.

 

I couldn’t see Steven, but I could hear him. He was trying like me to plead with Jenny to stop and let him go.

 

“Simon if you calm down a bit, I will tell you what’s going on.

Why you’re here and what will happen to you over the next six weeks.

I would much rather that you just stayed calm and listened ok.”

 

“Nothing you can say to me will make this fucking better.”

 

“Ok then how about I tell you what we found in your suitcase, will that help?”

 

“What! my fucking knife?”

 

“No not your knife, and not your weed Giff took off you earlier on the train.

I am referring to what you packed with your clothes in the double wrapped

plastic bags”

 

I just lay there and stared at him. “What plastic bag?”

 

“The plastic bag with three pampers nappies in it.”

 

I tried to bluff it.

 

“I ain’t got a clue what the fuck you’re talking about mate.”

 

“Ok then let me try this one.

The plastic bag you had stashed behind your wardrobe back at home, the one that you packed in your suitcase just before you left to come here.”

 

I must have had a look of realization, guilt, and horror on my face.

 

“Will you listen to me now? Calmly?”

 

I didn’t know what to say, there was nothing I could say.

He knew my secret, but how did he know, had he or someone been spying on me, maybe some sort of paedophile gang had been spying on me and found out my secret.

 

So many things were buzzing through my head, it was spinning.

 

Tony carried on drying me as he spoke to me.

 

“The school or camp we have here is for children like you, who need help.

I don’t mean help as in help to do something.

I mean help as in guidance and support to achieve something that you can achieve but have not had the support you need to help you achieve it.

In short, we want to help you to help yourself.

 

We know from your parents and teachers that you’re not stupid, if you were you wouldn’t be here.

We know that you want to do better but haven’t always had the best guidance and support to help you.

Your sister has helped you and you love her for it but she’s only young and she’s still learning herself.”

 

“But how did you find out about my nappies?”

 

“Your mum told us.”

 

“NO! I don’t believe you, she didn’t know, she couldn’t know.”

 

I always kept it a secret from everyone I had to. I had to because I was different!

 

“Penny knows as well,” said Tony.

 

“Please! Don’t! I don’t want to hear any more.”

 

I was ashamed, my sister knew, my mum knew. Who the fuck else knew?

 

“Look Simon, if you apply yourself while you’re here you will feel better about yourself, you will learn and you will go away from here with the confidence you need to succeed, which is what I know you really want to do. Am I right?”

 

I had tears in my eyes. I knew he was right, I knew I wanted to be a better son to my mum and dad. I wanted my sister to be proud of me, and I wanted them to love me like I really loved them.

 

“But why the nappies, why do I have to wear nappies Tony?”

 

“Everyone here wears nappies and everyone here is treated in exactly the same way all the time from day one until the day you go home.

Some of the kids are like you, some of them like to wear in secret like you do, and as you have seen with James, some don’t need to have a secret anymore.”

 

“But why is he here? He can’t need help he’s clever isn’t he.”

 

“We provide an environment, which allows every single person that walks through our doors to become a better person.

Every one of those people requires a different thing from everyone else so if everyone is treated in exactly the same way then you can all learn from each other because a shared experience is a beneficial thing.

Everyone needs help in different ways, your need will be totally different from his, and from say, Stevens over there.”

 

“So, what’s his story then, whys he here?”

 

“That’s not for me to say, he may tell you if you ask him, but you’ll have to ask him yourself, we don’t ever tell kids about other kids.”

 

“So, every kid that was on the coach will be wearing nappies tonight?”

 

“Absolutely, no exceptions”

 

“What even the older boys and girls?

 

“Everyone” He smiled.

 

I felt better, I wasn’t alone.

I always thought that I was a freak. I must have been because what kid wants to wear nappies at 12 years old.

 

Tony didn’t know it, but I had been doing it for years since

Penny was a toddler.

I used to sneak her nappies into bed and put them on after everyone had gone to sleep.

 

I loved the feel and the tightness. I loved wetting them and having a warm wet feeling, but I never pooped, I never had the guts too.

 

My secret was out now, and in a big way, as it was with all the other kids here that I assumed secretly wore nappies for fun.

 

I was still having doubts, I was still worried about what everyone else would say but I was happier, I was calmer.

 

“Are you ready?

 

“Ready for what?”

 

“Ready for your challenge?

 

“I don’t know, do you think I am?”

 

“I think Simon we are all ready for a challenge, it’s just that some never have them, or even the opportunity and if they do get them, they fail them because they don’t always know how to beat or succeed with them.

 

You will have the best help and support here to meet all your challenges.

If you try and fail, then at least you know that you have tried, but if you never try then you will fail for the rest of your life.”

 

“I think I’m ready.”

 

 “Good boy”

 

I was crying now, tears were rolling down my cheeks.

I knew I needed help, I somehow knew that maybe what Tony had said was true, I was ashamed, embarrassed, scared even, I was totally devastated but somehow, I knew.

 

Tony picked up a bottle of Johnson’s baby powder and sprinkled it all over my body then rubbed it in.

I remembered now where I had smelt it earlier today, James!

 

When we went outside, he must have said he needed a clean nappy and come back in and been changed.

He smelt of baby powder at the feast table later instead of pee.

 

Next came a towel.

Tony folded the towel, lifted my bum, and placed it underneath.

He picked up a big jar and started to rub cream all around my bum and willy.

I had always wanted mum to do that to me when she used to change Penny’s nappies all those years ago.

He wiped his hands with a wipe, then grabbed the towel and pulled it up

between my legs.

 

“What are you doing?

 

“Putting your nappy on you.”

 

“This isn’t a nappy it’s a towel.”

 

“Let me tell you a story.

Long before you were born all babies all over the world wore what we call Terry or cloth nappies. Long, long before modern disposable nappies were

invented these were the only type of nappy available.”

 

“Why don’t you use a disposable then instead of these towels.”

 

“These towels as you call them will not leak at night.

We have found that disposables leak at night on older children because they don’t soak up as much as these Terry nappies.”

 

“I don’t think I like this already Tony, I don’t want a Terry nappy, please use a disposable.

 

“This is your first challenge Simon, are you telling me you’re not up to it?”

 

I thought for a second, was I up for it? Could I meet the challenge?

Could I cope, how could I go home, knowing I hadn’t at least tried?

How could I face Mum, Penny even my dad.

 

“Ok put it on, I’m ready.”

 

Tony pulled the nappy up between my legs. He then pulled both sides in tightly and used two large pins to fix the nappy together.

It felt strange.

Totally different from the Pampers I was used to wearing at home.

 

I looked over towards where James was.

He already had his nappy on and had a large pair of clear plastic baby type pants on over the top.

He looked over to me as I was watching him.

He was still sucking away on his dummy and he looked at me and smiled.

I could see he was happy.

 

Tony lifted my still weak legs and put my feet into my own pair of plastic pants.

He pulled them up and over the nappy.

I felt him pull, tug, and push the material to make it fit.

 

When he had finished it felt really tight and snug, and I found that my legs were spread out quite a bit.

I saw Daniel walk over to a blue cupboard and took out a blue all in one suit and walk back to the table and start to dress James in it.

 

“Do I have to wear one of those Tony?”

 

“Yes, and here it is.”

 

Tony had already been to the cupboard and picked out my suit.

It was the same blue and had my name on it.

I noticed the pink cupboard next to mine and it had Samantha’s name on it.

 

“Why Samantha Tony, and not Sam?

 

“Samantha is her given name, it’s the one her parents gave her as a baby and it’s the one they called her when she was younger.

It was only shortened to Sam when she grew up a bit.

 

Let’s sit you up a bit so I can get your sleeper on.”

 

He sat me up, put the sleeper over my head and pushed my arms through, my head popped through the top, and he then laid me back down gently.

He then raised my bum a bit and pulled the sleeper down over my nappied bum and legs.

 

 It had feet in it just like a real baby sleeper and buttons up the legs and at the neck.

Once my feet were in, he started doing up the buttons.

 

Tony was watching my face, as he was moving up my leg one button at a time.

 

“How do you feel?”

 

“I don’t know, I feel scared and sad I suppose.”

 

“No need to be scared, were here to look after you, but why sad?”

 

“I’m sad about being here dressed like a baby, I’m sad that my mum and sister knows.

I’m sad cuz she felt I needed to be here.”

 

“Your family loves you Simon, that is why you’re here, your mum knew that this was a chance for you to sort yourself out and grow stronger.”

 

“Is that supposed to make me feel better?”

 

Maybe not right now but in a few days, you might realise that.

You might even realise that were here to help as well.

 

Tony finished doing up the last leg button, then did up the ones on my shoulder.

 

“There! all done, ready?”

 

“Can I just lay here for a while? Please!”

 

“I can’t sorry, we have the last three girls to do yet. I need to get you to bed.”

 

I had forgotten about Sam, she was going to have to go through this just like me.

 Maybe she liked nappies. Maybe she was in need of help just like me.

 

“Is Sam, like me Tony.”

 

“In what way like you Simon”

 

“Does she need help like me?

 

“Everyone here needs some help, you’ll see that as the days and weeks go on.

The help all you kids get, depends on what help you all need.”

 

“Yes, but is she as bad a person as me?”

 

“You are not a bad person Simon, you just need a nudge to help you along the right road.”

 

“Will Sam be ok though? Will she be able to do the challenge?”

 

“It’s up to her. Samantha is her own person, she will need to work hard like you will, but I’m sure with friends like you to help her she’ll be able to do it.

Come on let’s go.”

 

And with that he picked me up and held me tight, he carried me like a real baby. Like you see mums carry their babies on their hips, close and tight with a hand under their bums.

 

I had never been held like that by anyone other than my mum before, and

certainly not by a man.

The tightness of the nappy felt strange but nice with everything sliding around inside, because of the cream tony had put on.

 

I rested my head on his shoulder as he carried me into the next room.

I knew what would be in that room before we got there.

Tony laid me in a large cot and pulled a blanket over me. I wasn’t shocked

anymore, I was expecting it. It felt right and if I was honest, it felt good.

Tony tucked in the blanket and raised the bars on the cot.

 

“Would you like a dummy Simon?”

 

“No”

I couldn’t push myself to accepting a dummy, not yet.

 

“You’ll be safe don’t dwell on it and get some sleep, you’ll feel much better in the morning, trust me I know.”

 

And with that he finished lifting the bars on the cot which clicked into place, he turned and walked back through to the other room closing the door behind him.

 

I knew that Sam was going to be next, I knew she would be shouting and screaming just as I was, but would she be calm when she got to her cot, only time will tell.

 

 I looked over to the cot next to me. James was in it, and he was sucking on a large bottle of milk.

 

“Why didn’t you warn us you bastard, why didn’t you fucking say something? You could have!”

 

He looked over at me and with a sorry look on his face, took out the huge teated bottle from his lips.

 

“I wasn’t allowed, it was a condition of being allowed to come back here.

I couldn’t tell or warn anyone, if I had I would have been sent home straight away.”

 

“But why are you here you fucking idiot, this is a nightmare.”

 

“For you it might be Simon for me this is bliss.

I have been looking forward to coming back here for months, ever since my parents said I could come back.”

 

“Sorry I can’t understand why the fuck would anyone want to come back here just to be treated like this?”

 

“It’s not just this it’s everything about this school. I lead a very intense and stressful life, I am only twelve, but I have pressures.

Pressures you wouldn’t know about or ever be able to fully comprehend.

Last year I was just like you are now. I was scared.

In fact, I was so scared I cried all night.

I couldn’t believe my parents had sent me here to suffer this indignity, why had they, what had I done wrong?

 

By the time I left here six weeks later I knew why, and I knew my life would be forever different.

You don’t believe me now, but you will see soon.

 

This is a life changing time, it’s a chance for you to make a difference for

yourself.

Please don’t ask me anymore, I can’t tell you, I don’t want to be sent home.”

 

I watched his face he was going to cry, he turned away and started sucking at the bottle again.

I watched his face, he smiled and a tear ran down his cheek.

 

Why was this kid here, I couldn’t see why.

Why was I here?

 

I was lying on my back looking up at the ceiling, there were fans spinning round.

I was staring at the movement just lying there.

Around the room there was sobbing from some of the other kids.

Fraught, scared, or maybe just happy like James, I couldn’t tell.

 

The tight cloth nappy I had on felt strange.

It wasn’t uncomfortable but it felt different to anything I remember ever

wearing before, it felt snug and close.

There was no way I was going to use it, I didn’t feel right, nothing felt right on this night.

 

It seemed like ages before the door clicked open and I looked over to see Tony come through carrying one of the girls. Jenny was next.

Then Sam.

She was crying, sobbing really, and like I had done with Tony she had her head on Daniel’s shoulder. He walked over to the cot next to me and laid Sam down on her back.

 

I heard him ask her if she wanted a dummy and she refused as I had.

He raised the bars on her cot and all three of the adults then left the room and closed the door behind them.

 

One of the girls started to scream. She was calling for her mummy and daddy.

She was really distraught and screaming out loudly.

 

The door opened and Tony and Jenny came back into the room and over to her cot.

Tony lowered the bars and got down on his knees, so he was at the same height as her head on the mattress.

 

He started to softly speak to her, I couldn’t hear what he was saying but she continued to scream and swear at him. I heard her spit at him as well.

 

He continued to speak quietly to her, but she wouldn’t quieten down and spat at him again.

I heard him say. “Ok then that’s your choice”

 

He got up and walked over to a small cupboard on the wall and took something out.

He walked back to the girl’s cot, but I couldn’t see what he did next, but the girl became very quiet, I could just about hear her, but it was very muffled.

Tony raised the bars on her cot and with Jenny walked back out of the room and shut the door.

 

I looked over to James. He had been watching everything because he was able to sit up, because he hadn’t had an injection.

 

“What did they do to her?” I asked him.

 

“They just gagged her”

 

“WHAT!”

 

“They just put a gag in her mouth to stop her biting, spitting and screaming”

 

“You’re fucking kidding me”

 

“I saw it a lot last year and I had it done to me”

 

“What’s the gag do then, how’s it work?”

 

“It’s a bit like a strap they put round your head, and it has like a big rubber dummy on it, and they force it into your mouth, and it fills your mouth, and you can’t speak or close it.

 

One kid told me last year, that he had it done to him three times.

He said he didn’t want it again, ever”

 

I looked back at Sam.

She was crying, tears were rolling down the side of her face.

 

“Sam, you ok?”

She ignored me.

 

“Sam!”

She turned her head and looked straight into my eyes.

She fixed her gaze at me and continued crying.

 

“Are you ok? Did anyone hurt you? I’ll fucking kill em if they did”

She continued staring at me for a few seconds then turned her head and looked straight up.

 

“Sam please talk to me, PLEASE!”

 

“Just leave me alone”

 

“Please just tell me you’re ok!”

 

“I’m ok just leave me alone”

 

I watched her face for what must have been an hour. It felt like an hour, but it could have been less it could have been more I’d totally lost track of time, all I know is that it was ages before she stopped crying.

 

She closed her eyes and must have dropped into a sleep.

She was in a restless sleep because I could see all the twitchy movements, she was able to make even in her paralyzed state.

 

The sobbing had died down in the nursery and for now the room was silent.

I heard the door click open and Tony came in.

He walked up and down checking all the cots.

 

He stopped at the gagged girl’s cot and dropped the bars.

He knelt down as he had before and started softly speaking to her.

I saw him undo the strap around her head and remove her gag.

 

He kept on quietly speaking to her as he did it, I couldn’t hear all of what he was saying but he was trying to keep her calm and reassure her.

 

I heard her crying again and Tony raised the bars and walked away.

He walked past my cot and spotted me still awake.

He knelt down next to me.

 

“You should try to get to sleep Simon, you’ll feel better once you’ve had some. I can give you something to help you drop off if you want?”

 

“No thanks, I just want to get out of this cot, I can’t sleep in here”

 

“Sorry son but I can’t do that, not on your first night anyway, Take the

pill it will knock you out till morning”

“I really need to pee, and I can’t can I!”

 

“Why not?”

 

“Coz, I got a fucking nappy on”

 

“It’s never stopped you before has it”?

I turned a bright red. I could feel my face burning with embarrassment.

 

“It’s not the same. I peed for fun then, now you’re making me do it”

 

“You’ll get used to doing it. You’ll have to”

 

“But I can’t I’ll be in a wet nappy all night”

 

“And?”

 

“What’s different from all the other times you’ve done it and gone to sleep?”

 

I couldn’t answer him because I didn’t have an answer to come back with, I just came out with it.

 

“Tony I’m scared”

 

“What, scared to wet?”

 

“No, I’m scared I won’t be able too”

 

“Would you like me to help you?”

 

“How can you help me pee, you’re not going to do anything fucking weird to me if you do, I’ll, I’ll”

 

“You’ll what, fucking kill me?”

 

“Yea”

 

“Come here”

 

He dropped the side of the cot down and put his hand behind my back.

 

“What you doing? please don’t hurt me”

 

Tony sat me up and held me as if I was sitting up in my bed.

 

“Now relax and it’ll start to flow, don’t try to force it”

 

Tony held me for 5 minutes before I let go, he just knelt, didn’t say anything, but just held me upright.

I could hear the pee hissing into the nappy which he must have heard as well, and again I went bright red.

 

“Done?”

 

“Yes” I replied.

 

He laid me back down, tucked me back in and raised the bars on the cot.

 

“Now try to get some sleep”

 

“How long will it be before I can move again Tony?

 

“In the morning you’ll get back some of your movement and by the time we get you up you’ll be able to walk if your helped”

 

“Will I be ok after that then”

 

“You’ll be right as rain”

 

“Tony” A voice came from behind us.

 

“Yes Samantha?” Tony turned to answer Sam.

 

“Can you help me now please?”

 

“Sure sweetie”

 

He turned back to me. “You’ll be ok Simon, just get some sleep, do you fancy trying a dummy to help you go off.

 

“Naw! not me.

 

“Thanks Tony, and I’m sorry”

 

“Sorry for what mate?”

 

“Sorry for being so nasty earlier”

 

“Forgotten already. Night!”

 

“Night”

He got up and went round to Sam, dropped the bars, and held her just as he had done for me.

Sam must have been really bursting because she went nearly straight away. It wasn’t till much later that I found out that girls find it easier to pee than boys.

Tony laid Sam back down and tucked her back in and raised the bars.

 

“Now both of you get some sleep you have a long day tomorrow”

He whispered.

 

As he was on his way back out two more kids wanted his help, and he did the same for them as he had done for Sam and me.

I looked over to Sam. She was looking at me.

 

“Are you ok now?” I asked.

 

“I’m ok. You ok?”

 

“As ok as I can be. You scared Sam?”

 

“I don’t know. I am, but I’m not afraid, do you know what I mean?”

 

“Yes, I think so. I don’t think they want to hurt us”

 

“Me too” She replied.

 

We lay there talking quietly for what seemed ages. Then I asked Sam a question and she didn’t reply. She’d fallen asleep.

I turned my head and looked over to James’s cot. He was fast asleep and

sucking gently on his dummy. It was moving slowly in and out between his lips as he sucked.

 

I somehow wished I had said yes to Tony now.

Anything would do now to try to help me get to sleep.

My Nappy was warm and snug around my bum and balls.

It felt better than having a wet disposable on because I somehow felt safe and secure.

 

I was starting to drift off when I felt some pressure being applied to my lips.

I opened my eyes, and Tony was standing next to my cot and pressing a dummy to my lips.

 

“Try this Simon, it’ll help”

 

I opened my lips and allowed him to push the dummy in.

He turned and walked away slowly.

I closed my eyes and started to gently suck.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

CHAPTER 6

 

Daniel’s First Evening.

 

All of the camp or should I say, school staff had congregated back upstairs in the staff common room, and everyone was chatting in their various dormitory groups.

I hadn’t realised it, but all of the teaching staff were also there and mingling with the dorm staff.

 

“Does everyone live on site then Tony?”

 

“Yes, everyone from Mrs Thompson and her husband to the cooks.

 

The Thompson’s actually live in a house in the school grounds not in the actual school building.

Mr Tom has his caretaker’s cottage up by the main gate and they are usually the only ones who live here all year round”

Tony handed some files to Jenny and myself.

 

“These are the files on the kids that are in out nursery.

Take a seat and have a read through, you’ll find some interesting reading there, but don’t try to remember everything, just try to pick up on some of the relevant points on each kid”

 

“Like what?” said Jenny.

 

“Things like why they’re here, odd family points like single parent families, siblings, criminal record if they have one, things that just jump out at you about them”

 

Jenny and I sat down and initially took two files each.

The top file I had was a boy named James Olgvy.

His file had a huge green tick across the front.

John Leavenger was sitting near where we were sitting, and I butted in to the conversation he was having.

 

“John, what’s the relevance of the green tick on the file?”

 

“That means he or she is a returning camper.

 

Someone who has been here previously, knows the ropes and won’t be any trouble.

We only allow certain children to return here, not everyone qualifies.”

 

“But why would kids want to come back here after having the treatment I’ve seen there in for?”

 

“You’ll find Daniel that not every kid coming today will be here for the same reason.

Every child has a specific need to be here, and you’ll find the reason if you read the file” He smiled as if to say just read it son.

 

I opened the file and read.

It started, James Olgvy is twelve and a child prodigy pianist.

I read on with amazement.

How the hell could a kid, a kid that’s, that intelligent need or want to be here?

He came from a stable family background, his grades were excellent, and then I spotted the problem.

James was so intensely being pushed by tutors and parents he never made friends, he never had time.

He had never had the affection a highly-strung kid needs to relax. He was constantly being taken from country to country, concert to concert.

He was schooled by a tutor and never interacted with kids of his own age.

He craved comfort, friendship, and attention. Something his parents were never able to give him because they always felt inferior to James and were unable to cope.

 

The file concluded. James has paid his own fee to attend Happy Summers and was here with his parents blessing and consent. He has been sworn to total secrecy as to the activities of the camp and instructed not to divulge any information to any other person either attending camp as a camper or staff member.

The file had other paperwork such as Doctors reports, parental consent forms, and his tutor’s report along with a picture of James.

I looked at Tony. He was intently watching my face for reactions to my read.

I motioned for him to come over.

 

“Yes mate?”

 

“Do you know this boy?” I asked.

 

“Yes, very well”

 

“It doesn’t say here, but is he a loner?”

” Totally the opposite actually.

James craves friendships.

He goes out of his way to make friends

but is often and has been rejected many times over by the people he tries to befriend.

He now just needs a bit more help in learning how to develop those initial first steps.

He was my actually my main charge last year”

 

“Main charge?”

 

Tony called over to jenny.

“Jenny! You might want to listen to this. It concerns you as well”

Jenny stopped reading and lent forward to listen.

 

Every member of the dormitory staff has two cases that are theirs to develop and care for.

You’re still responsible for everyone in the school, but your special cases are your prime responsibility.

They learn from you, and you give to them”

 

“Give what? Asked Jenny.

 

“Whatever they need!

As was mentioned earlier every one of the new staff members here today has been employed to provide their particular skill to the development of particular children.

This is done to compliment the returning staff’s skills and make this school a very special one of a kind in this country.

But not unique in the world

 

Daniel! One of your primary skills is music. There will be children here that will have particular musical talents either realized or yet to show themselves. James is one of your special cases.

He doesn’t need a tutor or a piano teacher he needs support and friendship. Build on what he tries to achieve himself and support him.

 

Jenny, as your primary skill lays in psychology. You have two kids that cannot interact and require help to create social bonds to others in their family and society in general.

Everyone has a skill that we make use of for the benefit of the children.

Not just the children in your nursery group but with all the kids in the school.

 

We just want you to do what you do best. Both of you have worked with kids for many years in one field or another and your ability has been noted, and we want you to use it here.

 

You both will start tonight with the two cases you have the files on.

You will be the primary carer for each child and initially you will be mentored by Ann and myself.

We will show you how to bathe, nappy and dress the children for the next few days, and then, when things have calmed down you will take full responsibility for your charge’s day to day welfare in the nursery.

 

Any questions?

Nope then carry on reading. The top two files are your main charges”

 

We both continued to read the files we had been given.

 

I also had a girl. Samantha, Sam to her friends.

She was twelve and a half.

She came from a single parent family and did not have a mother from a very early age.

She had become estranged from her father and had been associated with teen street gangs, drug taking and shoplifting on a daily basis.

She had become aggressive and disruptive when at school and was a persistent absentee.

 

It was also suspected that she was having underage sex.

The police were also aware of numerous criminal activities but were unable to prosecute, this included a recent incident only three weeks ago involving a

pensioner and a bag snatch.

She had shown early potential in school, with an aptitude toward advanced mathematics.

 

Her father had proposed her for the programme, and she was state funded.

I read Jenny’s files and she read mine, each child made for interesting reading to say the least.

Tony and Ann then took us through the procedure for the arrival of the kids.

 

It was now fast approaching five o’clock and the children’s coach was due very soon, so we tidied away the files and took a final moment to gather our thoughts.

 

Mrs Thompson entered the room and called for everybody’s attention.

 

“I know for the new staff members here today, some of what you have seen and learned of may still be a bit of a shock, but please remember we are here for the children, they are our primary concern and once they enter through our doors downstairs we do not stop until we achieve what we today set out to

accomplish.

 

I know all of you will do your best but remember everyone is here to support everyone else.

So, to paraphrase a new saying going round.

There is no I in team, so go out there and make a difference”

 

The assembled staff applauded her speech. Many had probably heard it many times before, but they applauded anyway.

It seemed that everyone here was out to do the same thing and that was to help these kids.

 

A bell sounded in the room.

 

“Right, there here, everyone to his or her places and don’t forget you’re here to enjoy it as well,” said Mrs Thompson.

 

“What’s the bell?” I asked Tony.

 

“That means the coach has passed the main gate, so we need to make our way downstairs”

 

As before everyone filed out of the room, passing their cups along as they did last time, but this time I wasn’t last in line near the sink.

I followed Tony out as did Ann and Jenny, and we made our way down to the front of the building to greet the happy campers with the rest of the house

parents.

 

Mrs Thompson was waiting at the head of the line to greet the coach and when it stopped, she jumped on board.

 

I could just about hear her welcome and a few instructions before the first few children started to file off the coach.

 

Everyone standing outside greeted each kid as they filed by with a welcome and shepherded him or her in through the big wooden front doors.

Once inside everyone was asked to sit, a few scuffles broke out to get the good seats but generally it was a good-natured scrum.

Mrs Thompson stood by the reception desk.

 

“Right, everyone.

I will call you up here one by one to the desk where matron will take your

details down and give you a badge with your name on it.

This badge is also your dormitory badge, as well as your name badge.

Everyone with the same colour badge will be in the same dormitory”

 

There were some anxious faces to this news.

I think some of the smaller kids were hoping that the bigger kids weren’t in their dormitory and vise a versa.

Mrs Thompson called the first name and one of the smaller children stood up and ran to the desk.

 

He seemed so pleased to be first and was so excited.

He handed over all of his items to be placed in the locker and received his name badge, then returned to his place and showed off his badge to all the other younger kids on his sofa.

 

That was how it went for the rest of them.

They went up one at a time and handed their belongings over.

There were a few who didn’t want to hand over their mobiles but soon everyone had been up.

 

Tony moved to the middle of the room and called everybody’s attention.

 

“Right now that everybody has done, listen in”

 My name is Tony I am one of the house parents here at Happy Summers

There are four dormitories and there are as many as twelve of you in each one.

 

If you’re a yellow name badge, then you’re in Arundel and Terri is your

Housemistress”

 

“Over here!” Terri raised her hand, and everyone looked in her direction.

 

“If your badge is Blue then it’s Pembroke, and for those of you who are that’s my dormitory

 

If you’re Purple, then it’s Andover and you’re with Suzie”

 

“Over here!” And she raised her hand to attract everyone’s attention.

 

“If your Grey then it’s Windsor” and that is Mr Leavenger”

 

“Over here!” Everyone looked in his direction.

 

“Each of your dormitories has six staff members, so in a minute we want all of you to go outside with your house parents and they will show you round, after that you can have one hours free time before dinner, OK?”

 

“Yes sir” Some answered but some didn’t bother.

 

“Is that OK”? He repeated.

 

This time everyone replied “YES SIR”

 

“That’s better

Now as I’m already speaking Pembroke will go first, so would all of you with blue name badges get up and follow me outside please”

 

All the kids with the blue name badges followed Tony along the corridor with Ann, Jenny and me following closely behind.

We made our way out of the building through the corridor I had entered when I arrived earlier that afternoon, past the classrooms.

 

Some of the kids were peeking into the classrooms as we made our way out of the building and I noticed a couple of the kids giving each other funny looks as they peered in.

 

We made our way across the lawned area towards one of the many large benches, where Tony got everyone to sit down.

 

“Right, we know that your all itching to get going and have a look round, but first there are a few rules”

 

There was a loud hissing and some boos from the kids, I joined in and booed as well.

Tony looked at me with a huge smile on his face, and some of the kids looked at me in amazement, then everyone burst into laughter.

 

Tony continued. “Until tomorrow no one and I mean no one is allowed in, or on the lake, and that includes the boats and the canoes, you can walk up the jetty but do not touch anything.

The woods are out of bounds for now, so no one is to go there, and no one is

allowed back into the house until we call you all back in.

 

Anyone caught not following these rules will not be going to the welcome party tonight.

Apart from that you can just about do what you like in the lawned area here,

understood?”

 

All the kids nodded their understanding.

 

“What sort of party is it mister? Came from one of the girls.

 

“Well, it’s a stuff yourself silly party, you’ll see” replied Tony.

 

“And the name is Tony, not mister or sir ok. And that goes for all the staff here, we will call you by your first names, so we want you to do the same for us. Now off you go and enjoy yourselves.

We’ll ring a bell when it’s time to come back to the building”

 

With that all the kids ran off in different directions either on their own or as small groups.

I watched as they ran, happy to be out in the fresh air, excited to be running around.

All of the other dormitories were out and running about by now, screaming and charging around.

I spotted Tony speaking to one of our kids. He called me over to them.

 

“Daniel this is James, we spoke about him earlier”

 

“Please to meet you James”

 

We shook hands.

 

“Very pleased to meet you too” he replied.

 

“Young James here needs a change could you sort him out please Daniel”

 

I looked at Tony as if to say WHAT!! Change what?

 

“If you go back the way we have just come you may remember the boys and girl’s rooms along the corridor. You’ll find everything you need in there.

James can come back out when you’re finished”

 

“I know the way,” said James. And with that he led me back to the house.

 

“So, this is your second time here then James”

” Yes”

 

“So, you know exactly where were going then”

 

“Yes, come on, quick, I want to get back out to play”

 

He knew exactly where to go and waited outside the door for me to open it.

I took out my key fob and pressed the numbers.

9807 nothing. Shit, Shit, Shit.

James looked at me as if to say what are you playing at.

I pressed again 8907, this time the door clicked open to my relief and we both entered.

James took off his shoes and left them by the door.

As we walked through the room, I noticed he was scanning the walls.

 

“Looking for anyone in particular?” I asked.

 

“Just for my name” And with that he pointed to a nametag on the wall.

 

“Just there” he said proudly.

 

We continued to walk through the boot room and I opened the door to the classroom corridor, but this time remembered the number.

We walked along the corridor and up to the boy’s room.

I once again clicked open the door and we both entered.

 

The room was set out in exactly the same way as the changing rooms upstairs, but a lot, lot smaller.

Brightly painted walls with cartoon characters, and two colourful changing tables with a table next to it with wipes powder and cream set out on top of a table between them.

 

On the back wall there were shelves stacked with disposables in five sizes from Extra small to Extra-large, a smaller stack of terry nappies and a washbasin next to the table fixed on the wall.

James, without asking jumped up on to the table and laid down on his back.

 

“Sorry James, but you’ll have to bear with me here, I’ve never changed a boy’s nappy before”

 

“You must be new here then, I didn’t think I remembered you from last year. Would you like me to help you?”

 

“It might help yes thanks”

 

“It’s your choice but you may like to grab some gloves first and then you will need to take my jeans off”

 

I took a pair of latex gloves out of the box on top of the table and pulled them on.

I hated the feel, they made me cringe every time I had used them in the past.

I undid the button on his Levi’s and pulled down the zip, then gently pulled the jeans down and off his legs and placed them at the end of the changing table.

He was wearing a disposable that looked absolutely soaked.

 

“How long have you had this on?

 

“Since I left home this morning.

I knew it would be a long time before I would get a change so I tried to hold out but couldn’t hold it any longer and had to go on the coach.

 

Right, firstly you need to open the four tabs”

 

“Can I ask before we go any further, have you JUST peed?”

 

“Yep, you’re safe I only peed it, THIS TIME!”

 

He laughed, he must have seen the look of utter horror on my face as I started to undo the tapes.

I looked at him, he was having fun and had a Cheshire cat grin, he knew he had a nappy virgin in his control and he was milking it.

 

I opened the four tabs and pulled the front of his nappy down.

He lifted his bum as he probably had done hundreds of times before.

 

“Pull the nappy out and roll it up”

 

I did as he suggested and placed the rolled up drenched article at the end of the changing table.

 

“You need the wipes now”

 

 

I picked up the wipes and pulled one out.

I found that I couldn’t use the wipes with the gloves on, as it was slipping

between the fingers of the glove and his skin.

 

“I’m going to have to take the gloves off James, is that ok with you?”

 

“I don’t like them either” he replied

 

I gently wiped James’s nappy area as I had seen my sister do to her kid a few times.

 

 

“You’ll need to be a bit firmer than that,” he said.

 

“I won’t break”

He smiled a broad I’m in control smile.

 

As I wiped his bum and willy, I noticed that he was hairless down there.

I thought it strange because I had plenty of pubic hair by his age.

I just put it down to late development.

 

I looked at James he had a really long sad face now.

 

“What’s the matter have I done something wrong?”

 

“No! It’s just that I don’t like the next bit.

 

“Why what happens next?

 

“Well now you have to lift my legs and smack my bum and say naughty baby”

 

“I HAVE TO DO WHAT?”

He started to smirk then he burst out laughing.

 

“Got ya! there, sucker”

 

“Why you little bugger, just for that”

 

I lifted his legs as if I was going to smack him as he had suggested.

 

“NOOOO! Please I was joking”

 

Then I burst out laughing, “Maybe next time eh!”

We both laughed. In fact, I cried because I hadn’t laughed so much in ages.

 

There was a knock at the door and Mrs Thompson walked in.

James made no effort to hide himself and just laid on his back with everything in full view.

 

“Is everything ok in here?”

 

“Yes, sorry” We both continued laughing.” Everything’s fine thanks you”

 

“That’s Ok then. Well, I’ll leave you two to it then shall I.

Oh! and welcome back James, pleased to see you back with us again this year”

 

“Thank you Mrs Thompson, I’m very happy to be back”

 

He again burst out laughing, as did I.

She tutted, left the room, and closed the door behind her.

 

“Shall we get you finished then?”

 

“Please, then I can go play”

 

“What size are you?

 

“Small” Came the reply.

 

I should have realized really because he was so skinny.

I grabbed a small nappy and opened it up, James lifted his bum, and I slid the nappy underneath him, positioning it as I had seen my sister do.

 

“You will need to put some cream on before you do it up Daniel”

 

I grabbed the pot of Balmex off the table and applied it to all of his nappy area.

I wiped off my hands with a wipe then pulled the nappy up over his front, grabbed the sides and horror, they didn’t line up.

James smiled and lifted his bum again and I repositioned the nappy and tried again.

It took three goes to get it right before the nappy was taped up.

 

“How’s that, OK?

 

“Yes, thank you. See we got there eventually” He still had his Cheshire cat grin.

 

I picked his Levi’s up off the table and snaked them back on up his legs, making sure that everything was tucked in.

James then jumped down off the table, tucked in his t-shirt, and did a final

adjustment to his jeans.

 

“You’d never” know he whispered.

 

I smiled back at him.

I cleaned up and threw the sodden nappy in the pedal bin along with the wipes.

 

“Don’t forget to wipe the table down, we want it to be clean for the next lucky camper, don’t we” he said very matter-of-factly, as if he now didn’t have a care in the world.

 

“You really like it here don’t you James?”

 

“You bet, it’s great to be away from everything and” He cut the sentence short.

 

“And what?”

 

“Nothing, it’s just great to be here again”

 

“Right if were ready then?”

 

“Sure are”

 

“Let’s go then”

 

I playfully patted his behind as I had seen my sister do to my niece.

He looked at me and smiled.

 

“Thanks” he said.

 

“For what?”

 

“Just thanks”

 

We made our way back outside and he headed off toward the lake.

Nice kid I thought, as I stood and watched as he raced away.

I hoped that the rest would be the same but somehow, I knew that that really wouldn’t be the case.

 

I wandered around the grounds watching everyone having fun and making sure no one got into trouble.

The lake looked lovely in the evening light, it was still only 5.30 and the sun wasn’t due to go down until 9.30 this evening, but the air was cooler and more pleasant.

 

It didn’t seem to worry the children though, they were still playing on the climbing frames and swings.

Some of the older kids were hanging out around one of the little summer houses near the lake I had seen earlier.

 

I went up to one and looked around it. It had a covered seated area with wooden benches built into the building at one end in an l shape, which was about 10feet long down each side and a door at the other end, and just like all the other doors in the school building it didn’t have a handle.

 

I took out my key fob and keyed in the code and the door clicked open.

I poked my head round the door and found a light switch and turned it on.

 

It was a slightly larger version of the changing room I had just been in with James.

No decoration this time though, but it had two changing tables and stacks of

nappies on shelves on the wall and a series of large clear plastic boxes stacked along the side wall.

A large plastic bucket, which I assumed was for used nappies was at the foot of the benches.

 

There were similar wooden benches to the ones on the outside of the hut on two of the walls.

I heard movement behind me which made me jump.

 

“You must keep the doors closed Daniel, I could have been one of the kids sneaking in behind you couldn’t I”

 

Jane had spotted me coming in and followed me.

 

“We must always shut the doors even if only for a second.

You’re lucky I wasn’t Mrs Thompson. She’d have had a fit seeing you leave the door open.

 

“Ok sorry I’ll make sure I do it in future”

 

“How you settling in though, everything ok”

 

“Fine thanks. I’ve even already done my first nappy change” “I said proudly”

 

“Well done you. Not a difficult one then” She had a wry smile.

 

“Actually, it was a returning camper”

 

“Oh! which one was that then?”

 

“James Olgvy”

 

“Yes, I remember him, he was a lovely kid last year. A great young pianist”

 

“That’s him, he’s a really nice boy. I nearly had to smack his bum though”

 

Jane looked at me with a scowl. “I hope you didn’t” she replied.

 

“No! No, I never did, we were mucking around while I was changing him,

having a joke and a laugh.

He said that I had to smack his bum and call him a naughty baby, but he was kidding me because he knew I hadn’t changed anyone before.

It was all totally innocent really”

 

“That’s ok then, phew! I thought you had broken the cardinal rule there for a minute. Glad you got an easy one to start with though”

 

“So am I”

 

“You’ll have some difficult one’s later I can assure you.

Anyway, seen enough?”

 

“Yea! I assume these huts are here to save time and not having to make

everyone traipses back into the main building all wet?”

 

“Yes, there is seating both inside and outside for fifteen or so kids.

This hut being so close to the lake is used for changing for the water activities.

 

It’s where we change the children into their swim nappies, before they go

swimming canoeing or sailing.

Then change them back into their school clothes and clean nappies when their finished”

 

We walked outside and closed the door firmly behind us.

On the other side of the lawn we saw a commotion, with a group of kids in a circle and hurriedly made our way toward the group.

We saw one of the other house parents in the middle of the group and he seemed to have the situation well under control.

 

“Trevor’s got it covered,” said Jane. “We can slow down a bit”

 

We weren’t running but continued walking at a fast pace.

When we got to the group, Trevor had one kid by his arm, and we saw another on the floor.

 

He pulled up the kid off the floor by his arm and started marching him back to the house, leaving the other one in the group.

The pair made their way back toward the house, just as they reached it the call bell sounded.

 

“Oops, lost track of time there,” said Jane. “We’d better hurry.

 

We moved across the lawn at top speed toward the house.

 

“I’ll catch you later Daniel. Have fun”

 

She hurried off to where her dormitory group were congregating.

I saw Tony, Ann and Jenny ahead with our group and made my way toward them.

 

” Were going to have a little race now” said Tony as I arrived.

 

“We want to beat all the other dormitories into the dinner hall and get the first pick of the table places, so when I say go, follow me, and run.

Oh! Before we go can you all remember your names?”

 

There were some puzzled looks on the kid’s faces. I myself didn’t know what he was on about.

But I noticed that James has his Cheshire cat grin again.

 

“Don’t bother, just follow me, GO”

 

All the kids with me and the girls in tow, raced off toward the house.

Tony was fast and the kids had trouble keeping up with him except James.

 

We reached the door, and Tony clicked it open and everyone piled in through the open door.

We were the first dormitory to get inside.

 

“OK then everyone, you remember I asked if you could remember your name, well now’s the time to remember.

Above each peg is a coloured name label, first one back to me having taken their shoes off and placed them in the basket under their name badge gets, gets”

 

“Gets what, a fag?” Shouted one of the kids.

 

“Not likely” Tony said. “How about the winner chooses? That’s fair.

Right now, GO”

 

Just as he said go, another dormitory came crashing through the door.

They must have been given some instructions before they got in here of what to do because they went straight into looking for their names.

The room was full of kids rushing all over the room.

 

People were crashing into each other, pushing, and shoving to get to their peg first.

The first one back for our dorm was James, thanks I’m sure to him looking for his name when we were in here earlier.

Then in quick succession all the other kids in our dormitory lined up behind him.

 

The one’s that were finished and lined up were shouting instructions to the ones that hadn’t found their pegs yet.

 

To make things worse the little kids then came crashing in through the door and now there were even more bodies flying around the room.

 

“Over there Simon” Called James

 

He pointed to the far wall and Simon spotted his name, ripped his shoes off and threw them in to the basket.

He was the last one back, but our dorm was still winning because most of the other kids were still running around like headless chickens.

 

“Well done everyone, see teamwork pays off. “Tony seemed delighted with coming first.

 

“James as you were first back here you can see me later for your prize.

Right quick everyone follow me”

 

We all headed up through the corridor again, past the classrooms. Through the entrance hall and toward the dining room.

 

Some of the kids were slipping and sliding in their socked feet on the polished floor but we were still in front.

 

Suzie, Jane, and the Andover kids were coming a close second to our kids, but we reached the dining room door first.

Tony stopped everyone at the open door.

 

“Well done everyone. That’s the first time Pembroke has won in four years. Brilliant”

Tony appeared to be really genuinely pleased to have won, and all the kids cheered.

 

“Right everyone, we won so you can go in first.

You can sit wherever you like on that far table it’s your choice”

 

“Do we have to sit together Tony?” Asked Steven.

 

“No wherever, it’s your choice but don’t anyone start eating until I say so.

Ready? GO”

 

All the kids rushed into the room and ran around the table looking for the best place to sit.

After 30 seconds or so, some of them were still not sitting, so Tony gave them a countdown from ten.

By two, everyone had grabbed a place on a bench.

 

Next to come in were the Arundel kids then the Andover’s and lastly Windsor.

I couldn’t believe they were last, so I assumed John had held them back to

protect the younger kids.

 

Once all the kids were seated, the adults all sat down next to them.

I sat next to James as no one else had.

 

Tony said. “Right get stuck in”

 

All the kids grabbed a handful of food and pushed as much as they could into their mouths.

So much so that some couldn’t chew.

 

 

Mrs Flagstaff and her ladies came in after a while with drinks trolleys, and

everyone chose a drink.

I turned to James who was stuffing his mouth just like the others.

 

“You’ll make yourself sick”

 

He nodded, as his mouth was too full to speak.

 

After about an hour of everyone filling their faces with food and drink, some of them looked a little green around the gills.

 

Tony stood up from our table.

 

“Right, everyone I can see that your all just about full now, so one dormitory at a time, I would like us all to make our way upstairs so we can start to get you

settled into your rooms for the night”

 

There were a few boos and lots of shouts of.

 

“It’s too bloody early for bed”

 

But everyone from our dormitory stood up and followed Tony out of the room.

We all made our way upstairs and headed for the playroom.

Tony settled the kids down while the rest of us made our way into the changing room.

Trevor and Kim who I’d met earlier were already in the room.

 

“Are the first baths run? Asked Ann.

 

“Yes. Already to go,” replied Kim.

 

“Daniel you’re with me. Just follow my lead for the first one,” said Ann.

 

Tony came through with the first three boys.

Adam, Christopher, and Bruce.

Ann and I moved over to one of the tables and we called over Bruce.

Tony and Jenny took Adam, Trevor, and Kim took Christopher.

 

“Jump up onto the table please Bruce” Requested Ann,

 

He jumped up and sat with his feet dangling above the floor.

 

“We have to do a few medical checks before we can allow you to do any of the activities here Bruce,” said Ann.

 

“I need to take your temperature and blood pressure, and we need to give you a little injection.”

 

“Injection! What for?” He asked.

 

“Well, our lake has some nasty bacteria in it.

And so, you don’t become sick we need to give you a little injection”

 

“Oh! Ok” said Bruce.

 

“Just get on with it then!”

 

“Ok take your top off so I can do your blood pressure”

Bruce removed his shirt 

 

Ann picked up a thermometer and placed it under Bruce’s armpit.

Then she picked up a pressure band and stethoscope to take Bruce’s blood

pressure.

She wrapped the band around his other arm and pumped it up and watched the little dial on the rubber tube as she checked his heart beats on his forearm

 

“That’s fine” she said and took off the band.

 

She then took out the thermometer from under his arm and looked at it.

“That’s fine as well, you’re still alive. She smiled.

 

Now it’s only a little jab in the bum nothing to be worried about” she told Bruce.

 

“Take your trousers off and lay face down on the table for me.”

Bruce jumped off the table dropped his trousers and jumped back on.

 

Ann pulled his boxers back and injected his left cheek.

 

“Ouch” complained Bruce. “That hurt”

 

“Sorry I missed”

 

“Missed, missed what? What did you miss?” Said Bruce.

 

“I was aiming for your other cheek and missed”

 

Ann laughed and so did Bruce. I watched on, paying attention to everything that was going on.

Although I was supposed to be helping Ann, I was more interested in making mental notes as I watched her work.

 

Ann started talking to Bruce about what he wanted to do while he was at camp and general points about his family and school.

 

“Ann! I feel all strange, I can’t move my arms,” said Bruce.

He had a real concerned and worried look on his face.

 

“It’s ok mate, it’s just an effect of the injection.

 

“But I can’t move my fucking legs now, shit I’m gonna die”

 

“You’re not going to die, you just won’t be able to move for a while, it will wear off don’t worry.”

 

Bruce was nearly in tears.

Don’t worry everyone has the same reaction after the injection.” I said.

 

“Right are you ready for a bath?”

 

“I can’t have a bath, I can’t move”

 

“It’s ok” Said Ann” Daniel and I will bath you”

 

“I don’t think so, I don’t want a fucking bath.

 How long does this last? Me not being able to move?”

 

“Well, you should be up and running around again by morning”

 

“What the fuck am I gonna do till then. I can’t move”

 

“Look Bruce. Firstly, we don’t like foul language around here, it’s not very nice, secondly, because you can’t move for yourself, we will have to do it for you won’t we”

 

“But I don’t want a bath, and I don’t need a bath, I had a shower this morning before I left home”

 

“Well, everyone here gets one on their first night.

Give me a hand Daniel and we’ll carry Bruce Through”

 

Ann pulled Bruce’s socks off first and left them on the pile of clothes on the floor.

 

“Look I really, really don’t want a bath and you can’t make me have one”

 

“Too late” said Ann, and with that we rolled him over and picked him up and carried him into the bathroom.

Ann pulled his boxers down and left them on the floor.

We then placed him in the shallow bath.

 

“Look I don’t know what your game is, but I don’t want you fucking touching me, you got that”

 

“Well, you’re in the bath and you need to be washed so we have to touch you don’t we”

 

“If you touch me, I am gonna call my dad and he’ll come and sort you two out, you hear me bitch”

 

“Tell you what Bruce” Said Ann,” I won’t touch you if you can bath yourself how’s that?

 

“How the fuck can I do that when you bastards have paralysed me?

 

“Last warning, enough of the swearing please”

 

By this time, the other two boys were in the bath and being washed, there was similar shouting and swearing going on as well.

I washed Bruce all over and also washed his hair.

Unlike James earlier, Bruce had plenty of pubic hair.

 

“You’ll need to shave Bruce now Daniel”

 

“Shave, fucking shave what?” Asked Bruce. “You ain’t shaving nothing, get your fucking hands off you bastards”

 

I did as Ann asked, picked up the razor and a tin of shaving cream off of the small table, squirted some cream into my hand and applied it to his groin and proceeded to shave Bruce’s pubic hair off.

I worked out why we were doing it for myself, but I just wish she had warned me earlier that it would need to be done.

 

He tried to fight us.

He swore screamed and pleaded with us to leave him alone.

 

By the time I had finished, Bruce had quietened down a bit.

The other boys in the baths were also more subdued.

 

“I want to know why you are doing this to me please tell me.

 I want you to fucking tell me right now?”

 

“Well Bruce, your parents have asked us to help you” Replied Ann.

 

“In what way do my fucking parents want you to help me? I don’t need any fucking help from you bastards”

 

“Let’s look at that shall we. You’re constantly in trouble with the police and you have a criminal record that’s longer than my CD collection.

You beat up a year 7 girl at school because you didn’t like the way she looked at you.

You hit your mother and are constantly abusive to both your parents and your teachers at school. Do I need to go on?”

 

“So fucking what? They all deserved what they got didn’t they?”

 

“I really doubt that young man”

 

“You don’t fucking know me, what do you know about me fucking nuffing”

 

“Last warning Bruce cut the language, or you’ll force me to cut it for you”

 

“What you gonna do wash my mouth out, like to see you try luv”

 

“No, we don’t do that here, we have more effective methods”

 

“Like what?”

 

“You carry on swearing and you’ll be finding out real soon”

 

Bruce looked at Ann and me. He must have seen something in Ann’s eyes that made him think he’d better curb the swearing.

 

“If you calm down, I will tell you why you’re here and what’s going to be

happening to you for the next six weeks” I said.

 

“I know what’s gonna be happening to me tomorrow mate, I’m gonna be outa here”

 

“Quite the opposite Bruce you’re not going anywhere.

Your parents have signed you over to us for our education programme

And you’re here to stay. Said Ann.

 

“We’ll see luv, we’ll see”

 

He was calmer but I could see he was planning and scheming.

I saw it in his eyes.

 

“Right Bruce we’re going to get you out of the bath now and dry you off next door. OK!”

 

He said nothing.

Ann lifted him under his arms, and I wrapped a towel round him. We then both carried him towards the door to the changing room.

I felt a sudden pain in my shoulder.

The little sod was trying to take a huge bite out of me.

 

“ARRRGH! YOU LITTLE”

Ann saw what he was doing and grabbed his hair and pulled him off me.

 

We continued to carry him through to the nursery with Ann still having hold of his hair and him trying to bite me again.

Once we passed through the door Bruce saw the layout and contents of the

second changing room.

 

“What the fuck is going on here?

You’re taking the fucking piss now.

Get the fuck off me”

Were some of the comments traded from his foul mouth.

 

We carried him over to the changing table in front of his wardrobe and laid him down on the changing pad.

 

“Let me have a look Daniel”

Ann pulled down my t-shirt from the neck to look at the bite.

 

“You're OK he’s not broken the skin, but you’ll have a whacking great bruise there later tonight”

 

“I’ll live” I replied.

 

Bruce was still screaming and shouting, while Ann was checking my shoulder.

 

“Do you fucking think, you gonna put one of them fucking things on me, you pratt, never”

 

“Well Bruce, you have given me no choice my lad.

I warned you and you have persisted in swearing and have now bitten someone”

 

Ann walked over to a drawer on one of the wall cupboards and took out what appeared to be a huge dummy on a leather strap with a short rubber tube and an inflator bulb attached.

Bruce saw what was coming.

 

“You’ll never get that in my fucking mouth I can assure you of that”

He screamed.

And with that he grit his teeth and clamped his jaw tight shut.

Ann handed me the gag.

“When I open his mouth, you push the gag in Daniel”

 

She placed one hand on Bruce’s forehead and the other hand she placed on Bruce’s chin, she then put her fingers on either side of his cheeks at the back of his jaw and pressed hard between his top and bottom teeth with the tips of her fingers.

 

Bruce resisted for about 10 seconds, then his jaw popped open and Ann was now forcing the skin of his cheeks between his teeth and forcing his jaw to open even further.

I saw my opportunity and shoved the gag in the gap Ann had created.

She released her grip once the gag was in place then grabbed the leather strap and quickly secured it behind Bruce’s head.

 

Bruce started screaming through the gag.

But his words were now illegible, but still loud.

Ann started to gently squeeze the bulb and the dummy in Bruce’s mouth

Inflated.

 

 

 

Eventually all that could be heard were a few muffled screams.

 

“Now if you start to behave yourself Bruce, I will remove the gag. If not, then it will stay in all night if necessary. Do you understand?”

 

Bruce had a look of abject horror in his eyes. He was still trying to scream out, and his eyes were screaming as well.

 

“DO YOU UNDERSTAND BRUCE?”

 

Ann was very firm now. She was showing Bruce that she was boss and what she said goes.

He quietened, looked at Ann, and nodded his head.

 

“When I think your calmer, I will think about taking the gag out ok?”

 

Bruce nodded again. He had a defeated look in his eyes now, less aggressive.

He’s realized very quickly, as had I, that lack of movement and having

something shoved in your mouth are a very persuasive method of control.

Ann again explained to Bruce why she had done what she had done, then she turned to me.

 

“We need to constantly observe all kids that are restrained and or gagged

Daniel.

We need to check that they’re not choking or having breathing difficulties.

 If we get Bruce ready and he behaves then we can think about removing his gag.

But he will need to apologise to you for biting you as well, won’t you Bruce”

Ann looked at a now defeated Bruce as she spoke and Bruce nodded.

 

I dried Bruce’s front then we turned him over and I did his back, and Ann dried his hair.

Once I had finished drying him, Ann grabbed a bottle of baby powder and puffed a good amount on Bruce’s back and patted it in.

We turned him back over and did the same for his front.

 

“If I take your gag out, will you promise to behave?”

 

He nodded yes, so she deflated the gag, undid the leather strap, and took the gag out.

 

“Now what do you have to say to Daniel?”

 

“I’m sorry” He blurted out in a not very convincing apology.

 

“Please don’t put a nappy on me. I’ll be good, I won’t swear or bite anymore. Please! I promise I really do”

 

He was pleading with us both. I felt sorry for him, here was a kid presented with an unknown fate, helpless to resist, not knowing what his fate was or who we were.

 

“If you stay calm, I will explain why you’re here and what’s going to happen to you. If you do not behave and start playing us up again then I will re-gag you, do I make myself clear Bruce?”

 

“Yes” He replied in a now worried voice.

 

“Ok then as Daniel and I dress you I will explain”

 

Ann explained to Bruce why his parents had sent him, how his parents had signed a consent form and what was expected of him while he was here.

 

While Ann was talking to him, we nappied him and put him in his sleeper.

 

I think that at that very moment the realisation that his parents had consented to his treatment dawned on him and he started to cry.

 

I felt that he was crying for many reasons though, mainly because he was being nappied, but I think he also couldn’t believe his parents had seen it necessary to send him here, so he felt let down by his parents and he was ashamed of his

predicament.

 

“They wouldn’t do it, I know they wouldn’t do it, I don’t believe you, your

lying”

 

“Your parents love you Bruce. I know that because they have been brave enough to send you to us so we can help you.

You will come to know that yourself, because you will learn of the sacrifice they will have made for you when you return home.

Just work hard and everything will work out you’ll see.

 

I’m going to ask Daniel to put you to bed now, will you behave or do we both need to do it?

 

“I’ll behave”

 

I picked him up and carried him on my hip like a mother would carry any child on her hip. He wasn’t that big that I couldn’t cope.

He was still sobbing as we walked through the nursery door.

But he saw the cots and started floods of tears again.

 

“I don’t want to be treated as a baby, please don’t do this, I’ll go home and sort myself out I promise, I really will”

 

“You have to finish what we have started Bruce, sorry but you don’t have a choice.

 It’ll be ok, be brave and behave and everything will work out fine”

 

I laid him in his cot and pulled up the blanket and tucked him in.

 

“How long do I have to stay in here for?”

 

“Well, the drug you have been given will start to wear off in the morning, you should be starting to be able to walk on your own by about lunch time”

Would you like me to give you a dummy to suck on?”

 

“Not on your fucking life. Sorry I didn’t mean to swear, I don’t want that gag thing again, please don’t make me wear it”

 

“I won’t this time, but you must try to curb your language Bruce, otherwise you may get the gag again”

“Sorry I will be good, Promise. I’m sorry I bit you”

 

His apology was a little more real this time.

 

Kim and Jenny came in carrying the other two boys.

There was a large scream of “Noooo” from one of them, but they seemed to have both calmed down a lot by now and were heading to their cots.

 

“While we’re getting everyone else ready for bed we will be in and out quite a bit” I told Bruce.

“So, if you need anything just call and I’ll see what I can do ok?”

 

“Please can I not wear this nappy, I won’t be any trouble, I won’t really I won’t”

 

“You have to stay here sorry Bruce, it’s for your own good. I’ll check on you soon”

 

I raised the bars on the cot and locked them into place.

He looked so sweet lying there, but he was so sad, and I hated to see that.

I walked back into the changing room to see Ann and Tony cleaning up.

 

“You did great there Daniel you coped really well” Ann said.

Tony then noticed what must have been my long sad face.

 

“You ok mate?” He asked.

 

 “No not really no! I feel so sorry for him, for all of them.

It hurts to see them so scared and sad. I’m having trouble coping with it”

 

“Look the first one is always the hardest,” said Ann

 

“It will get better I can assure you.

By the time we get through tonight things start to get better, and as we said

earlier, when the kids see what we’re trying to do for them it then gets so

rewarding, you’ll see”

 

“I know, it’s just trying to get through tonight I suppose”

 

“Shall we get ready for the next three then?”

Kim and Jenny came back in from the nursery.

 

“Everything OK you two?” Asked Tony again.

 

“I lowered the lights in there,” said Kim.

 

“Ok” said Tony. “Thanks”

 

Jenny looked a little how I felt, and I think Tony saw it as well.

 

“Come here love” He walked over to her and gave her a long hug.

 

“I know it’s hard, but as I just said to Daniel it will get easier. You’ll see”

 

“I just hate seeing them so scared, I don’t think I can do this Tony”

 

“Look your next kid will be much easier She’s one of yours and she’s a

returning camper. It’s Sarah. Just hang on in there, ok?”

 

“OK” Jenny replied.

 

“Right let’s get ready then.

In the laundry basket you’ll find a bag with the children’s names on them.

All of their dirty street clothes into the bags please.

But first make sure that you check and empty any pockets before you put the clothes in.

 

 If you find anything we will need to keep it separate from the laundry stuff.

Anything you do find will need to go into an envelope with the child’s name on, which you will also find in the baskets.

Wipe all the tables down then were ready for the next lot”

 

We cleaned everything and put all the kids’ clothes into the bags marked with their names, then put them into the laundry basket.

The only two things found in a pocket was some chewing gum and for some reason a sandwich from the feast, both of which were disposed of in the bin.

Kim went to run three more baths.

 

“If we’re ready Jenny can you get the next three in please.

We need Gillian, Abigail, and Sarah.

Daniel you’re with Jenny for this one ok. Right let’s go then”

 

In came the three girls.

Jenny called Sarah over to our table and she came up to us bouncing, like a two-year-old.

 

“Your happy Sarah,” said Jenny.

 

“I’m always happy when I come here” she said.

 

“You like it that much” Asked Jenny.

 

“I sure do”

 

“Right let’s get you started then. Take off your top and your bra if you’re

wearing one”

 

I helped Jenny with Sarah and followed her lead.

As she was a returning camper, she knew what was going on and was just really happy.

She didn’t need an injection because she wouldn’t struggle so getting her ready was a doddle.

 

Jenny took her temperature and blood pressure.

As she would have done normally to make it look good for the other girls.

 

Jenny got Sarah to take her jeans off, and she was wearing a swollen, quite wet Pull-ups nappy.

The other girls saw and started to tease her and call her nasty names.

But Sarah didn’t cry, she didn’t comment, she just sat on the table and smiled at them, knowing full well what was coming for them and enjoying the moment.

 

The other girls had their injections and asked why Sarah wasn’t having one.

Little did they know the real reason, but they would know very soon.

The other girls both lost movement, has had the boys previously.

There was some screaming and swearing as there had been with the boys, but as before, things soon settled down.

 

Jenny and I walked Sarah through for a bath. She pulled off the pull-up she was wearing herself, and it plopped onto the floor and she got in.

I noticed straight away that like James earlier she didn’t have any pubic hair

either. Obviously arriving well prepared for her stay.

Jenny bathed her, washed her hair, and let her play with some bath toys for a while.

 

The other girls were, as were the boys before pleading not to be treated this way, with about the same amount of swearing and threats.

Neither of the girls got to the point of needing a gag though and Tony and

co-managed to keep the situation well under control.

 

Sarah stood up in the bath and Jenny wrapped a towel around her body and one round her hair.

 

“Would you like me to carry you through?” Asked Jenny.

 

“Ohhh! Yes please” Came the happy reply.

 

Jenny picked Sarah up, as I had done with Bruce, hip style, and carried her through to the changing room, laid her down and we dried her.

I dried her hair and Jenny her body.

The two other girls were brought through, and, as with the boys there was a

disbelief and aggressive reaction to what they saw and were expecting to

happen to them.

 

 

But the guys coped expertly with the problem, which was down mainly to the years of experience they had, working at the school.

 

Jenny and I continued to powder, nappy and dress Sarah.

She was contented and when she asked Jenny for a dummy, I was astounded that she would ask for one rather than be asked first.

 

We finished dressing Sarah and Jenny brushed her hair for her while I did up the buttons on her pink sleeper.

She then hopped off the changing table and waddled through to the nursery.

She had to waddle because her nappy was so thick between her legs.

But I could see that she was more than used to walking that way.

 

I learned from her file later that evening that she wore most nights at home

because she liked wearing nappies and her parents were ok with it.

 

Jenny tucked Sarah in and offered her a night-time bottle of milk, which she took with no question and sucked away as I raised the bars to her cot.

 

The room was darker than when we were last in here because Kim had dimmed the lights slightly.

I went over to Bruce’s cot to check on him.

 

“Still awake then”

 

“Can’t sleep. Don’t want to sleep anyway. Not in here not like this”

 

“You’ll need to get used to it,” I said. “I can give you something to help if you want”

 

He shook his head and turned it away.

“Just leave me alone”

 

I stood looking at him for a while. He was holding back the tears I could see it in his face. He was trying to hide it, but it was there to see.

Sarah was in her cot sucking away looking over towards Bruce’s cot and

smiling at him with the bottle quickly emptying.

 

“What you got to be so fucking happy about?”

 

She turned her head and looked away but didn’t miss a suck on that teat.

The other girls were brought through and laid in their cots.

Their swearing and screaming had now stopped, and they were sobbing themselves.

We all left the nursery and made our way back through to the changing room.

 

“Well done again everyone, no major problems this time.

How was that one Jenny? easier?

 

“Yes perfect, I wish they could all be like that” She replied.

 

“Give it time they will all get easier as the kids become accustomed to their new surroundings and lifestyles. Better for you Daniel?”

 

“Yes thanks”

 

“Well, you have another easy one next. James is with you and Ann”

Just as he said that an alarm bell sounded, just like the one I had set off earlier upstairs.

 

“Everyone stay here and don’t move”

And with that he was off running toward the playroom door.

We watched as he clicked open the door and burst through.

Once inside he gave us the thumbs up through the open doorway after a few seconds indicating all was well.

 

“Someone playing with the doors, happens every year without fail.” Said Ann.

 

We made our way back through to the changing room. Closing the doors behind us as a matter of routine now.

 

After a dressing down of the culprits in the playroom.

Tony came through with Simon, James and Steven.

 

James came over to our table and jumped up without any prompting.

He took off his shirt and held his arm up for the blood pressure check.

 

“Your keen” I said.

 

“You bet” He smiled back.

 

Ann took his blood pressure, and I did his temperature.

Which of course were both fine.

He then jumped off the table and took his jeans off.

Simon, who was being prepared by Tony, shouted over to James when he saw his nappy, but James just looked over in his direction and stared at him.

 

His face was a picture.

He had a look of your gonna get yours mate, and real soon.

 

He knew that I knew exactly where he was coming from and then turned to me and smiled a huge grin.

He didn’t need to say a word, and I returned the knowing smile and winked.

 

“So, what are you looking forward to this summer then James?”

 

“I have been told that there is a really good music teacher here this summer, so I’m looking forward to practicing with him.

I also really want to make some new friends and can’t wait to get out on the lake again”

 

“Well, you’re in luck, I’m not an actual music teacher but I am good on the piano, but from what I’ve been told nowhere near your standard though.

So we can duet if you like. I’m more of a strings man really, guitar mainly”

 

“Great I can’t wait”

 

 As we spoke there were raised voices from the other two boys in the room,

because by now the muscle relaxant had taken effect and they were unable to move.

 

James looked over to Simon lying on his table frantic because he was helpless. And he had a look of satisfaction on his face.

 

He knew what it was like and he knew what Simon was now going through.

He knew because last year it was him that was lying there helpless.

 

Ann untaped his nappy, rolled it up and threw it in the bucket under the table.

 

“Want a bath then?” She asked.

 

“You bet”

 

And with that, he jumped off the changing table and led the way to the

bathroom totally naked, with Ann and I walking behind.

 

Tony and the others were still trying to get Simon and Steven to calm down so I left them to it and Ann and I went through with James.

 

He loved his bath.

He even asked for some bath toys and played while Ann and I bathed him.

 

The other boys were carried through and put into their baths.

There was a great deal of swearing and shouting going on but the boys were bathed without much incident.

 

“You ready to come out yet James?” Ann asked.

 

“Can I have just a little longer? Please!”

 

“One more minute then, then it’s out you get” She replied.

 

“I think you can manage James on your own can’t you?” Said Ann.

 

“Sure, I think we’re ok don’t you James”

 

“We sure are Daniel”

 

“I’m going to get next door ready then” With that, Ann went back through to changing room one leaving me with James.

 

“Right time to get out, up you get”

 

He stood up and I wrapped a towel around him.

We both stood and watched as the toys swirled around as the water drained through the plughole.

 

The little yellow duck was chasing the bigger yellow duck, and the little red boat was chasing both of them toward the plughole whirlpool, heading, according to James, for oblivion and a watery end.

 

James smiled as we watched.

I was watching him intently, he was as happy as I had ever seen a child be.

And he was just watching toys spinning around in a bath.

 

I suppose he was just happy to have the pressures lifted off him.

No responsibilities, no worries. Just as it should be for a kid of just twelve.

 

“Want a carry?”

 

“Yes please” And with that he virtually jumped on to my hip.

 

I carried him through and set him down on the changing table.

We talked as I dried him.

I found out about his parents.

About his visits to different parts of the world playing in concerts, and about his likes and desires.

 

The other boys followed us through after a short while. They were still swearing and cussing, but a lot less than before.

 

“Where are you from Daniel?” Asked James.

 

“I normally live and work in London” I replied

 

“I love London, it’s my favourite place, there’s so much to see and look at”

 

He told me about the concerts he’d done in London, even one at

The Royal Albert Hall.

I told him about meeting the Queen and going to her garden party as I powdered him.

He was transfixed, everything I said got a reaction and he wouldn’t take his eyes off me as I spoke to him.

 

“Would you like a dummy?”

 

“Ooooh! Please that would be great”

 

I opened the drawer and took out a new clean dummy.

He opened wide and started sucking straight away.

 

I folded a terry nappy with the boy fold and placed it under his bum, then used the Balmex in his nappy area before pinning the nappy on snugly after the

second attempt.

 

“How’s that snug enough”

 

“You bet, snug as a bug in a nappy” He laughed.

I pulled out a pair of plastic pants, and he raised his legs to help me get them on, I pulled them up over the nappy making sure that everything was well tucked in,

 

“How’s that then comfy?

 

He took out the dummy. “Just right” He smiled at me with the biggest smile I’d seen today so far from anyone.

 

I took the blue sleeper out of his wardrobe, and he sat up without being asked and I put it on over his head.

 He guided his own arms through the sleeves and laid back down lifting his bum so I could pull it down over his nappy.

I guided his feet into the feet of the sleeper and started to do up the buttons.

 

“I can see that you’re a happy chappie. You really enjoy this don’t you James”

 

He took out his dummy again.

 

“You can’t really know how much”

 

“Well tell me then”

 

“Well, It’s, it’s like. Look ask me tomorrow and I’ll tell you then, promise”

 

“Ok in your own time no rush”

I smiled and he grinned another of his happy face looks”

 

“Bed?”

 

Without saying anything he popped his dummy back in, sat up and held out his arms.

I picked him up and carried him through to the nursery, again hip style.

He gave me a huge hug.

 

“What was that for?

 

“Muffing” he said through the dummy.

 

He did it again and rested his head on my shoulder as I carried him to his cot.

I laid him down and he scooted under the blankets.

“Want a bottle?”

 

“Gweat” he said through the dummy

 

I went to the fridge. “Warm or cold?” I asked.

 

 

He took the dummy out this time “Always warm” he said very matter of

fact.

 

I put the bottle in the rapid bottle warmer on the fridge and set the temperature.

Within a minute the bottle was just right.

I took it over and gave it to James and he started sucking immediately.

I raised the bars on his cot and locked them into place.

“Night James”

 

James waved as I turned, and he smiled through the teat of the bottle.

 

As I was walking out Tony came through with Simon on his hip, he too had his head on Tony’s shoulder as James had done on mine.

 

I smiled at Tony and he returned the smile with a quick wink.

Jenny and Ann were close behind with Steven.

 

He wasn’t as relaxed as Simon, but he was at least quiet now.

I went through back to the changing room and started to clean up ready for the last three girls.

 

Ann came in and was followed closely by Tony.

He closed the door behind him.

“Everyone ok?”

 

“That was a real pleasure for me” I replied.

 

Jenny came in from the bathroom.

 

“You were right Tony, it does get easier”

 

“Three to go then. Daniel, Jenny, I’d like you both to take the lead with your next kids. Let’s get ready”

 

We finished off cleaning up and preparing the changing rooms.

Everyone now happier, everyone now with a sense of achievement, even the

experienced people in our company were glowing with success.

 

“Right, we ready then team?”

 

Tony went through to the playroom and brought through the last of the girls.

He directed them over to our respective tables where Kim and I were waiting for Samantha.

 

“Hi Samantha, I’m Daniel and this is Kim, Jump up here for me please”

I touched the top of the table with my fingers and she hopped up.

 

“Oh god, please don’t call me Samantha, only my dad calls me that and only when he’s mad at me. Everyone calls me Sam”

 

“Sorry Samantha. We have to use your given name here, it’s a camp rule”

Said Kim

 

“Oh. Ok then, it’ll be funny being called Samantha again though”

 

“You having fun so far?” I asked her.

 

“You bet, that food was just about the best I have ever, ever had”

 

“Take off your top and bra for us please,” said Kim.

 

“WHAT! In here in front of him your kiddin luv”

 

“No, I’m not, I’m being serious. Besides Daniel has seen it all before anyway.

We heed to give you a quick health check, it’s standard practice for all new campers, and once we’ve done that, we need to give you a small injection”

 

“Well, he might have seen it all before but he ain’t seein mine luv, and I’m not avin any injection, I don’t need one”

 

“Well Samantha, you have two choices here,” I said.

 

“One, you have the health check and injection or two you don’t have either and never do the water activities, like Swimming Sailing and Canoeing, your choice.

Because without it you can’t do any of the water activities while you are here”

 

“Why an injection though what’s that for?”

 

“There are some nasty bugs in the water in the lake, and we need to make sure you don’t get ill, which is why you need it.

But before you have the injection, we need to check you over and check your temperature and blood pressure”

 

“So, what’s it going to be then Samantha, the balls in your court,” said Kim

 

Kim looked at me, and I at her.

I was just thinking, what the hell do we do if she says no thanks, when she said “Gawaan then do your worst”

I was a little relieved.

Phew! That was easy I thought to myself.

 

Samantha reluctantly took off her top and bra, she had a remarkably

well-formed pair of breasts for her age, but then again, she looked much older than her tender years.

She looked at my eyes as she undressed, never taking her eyes off mine.

 

“Catchin a good eyeful then Daniel, got what you wanted?” I recon you’re a fuckin perv mate”

 

I ignored her and wrapped the blood pressure cuff round her arm while Kim took her temperature.

 

The other girls were by this time also bear chested and having the same

treatment.

 

“That’s fine, thank you Samantha. If you can drop your jeans and lay face down on the table now, please so we can do your injection”

 

 “You really are getting your money’s worth ain’t you mate, next you’ll be wanting to see me fanny”

 

She took off her jeans and climbed back on the table and laid face down as I had asked.

 

Apart from her comments to the contrary, it was obvious she wasn’t too worried about anyone seeing her body.

 

She still had some puppy fat, which is usual for a girl of her age but apart from that you couldn’t really tell that she was only twelve.

One of the reasons she was sexually active I suppose.

 

Kim grabbed a syringe and jabbed the needle in.

She didn’t need to pull anything down to get a clear shot because Samantha wasn’t actually wearing a lot anyway.

“Ouch that fucking hurt. Be careful”

Samantha rubbed her cheek where Kim had just jabbed.

 

“Sorry sweetie. Just lay there and relax for a bit for me.”

 

“So, what are you looking forward to doing, while you’re here then Samantha?” I asked.

 

“Are you sure you can’t call me Sam, Samantha’s so back in the day”

 

“Nope, sorry can’t do it” I replied.

 

“Wooooah”

 

“What’s wrong sweetie?” asked Kim

 

“I can’t move my legs, what the fuck have you done to me?”

 

“Don’t panic it’s just an effect of the injection it’ll wear off”

 

“But I can’t move me. Wooooah! Now my arms have gone dead. You’ve done something to me you bitch I can’t move, you’ve paralysed me with that jab.

Ooohhh! I feel all funny now”

 

“Calm down and the feeling will pass shortly, you’ve just had a rush of blood to the head that has made you a bit dizzy Samantha,” said Kim.

 

“Some of the children have a dizzy reaction Daniel, not all, it will pass soon.

She just needs a few minutes for the effect to wear off”

 

“What causes it then?” I asked Kim.

 

Some of the girls who have been taking some sorts of birth control pill have a slight reaction, nothing serious.

Unless she tells our doctor at her pre acceptance examination that she’s on the pill we have no idea.

“At least it confirms one thing doesn’t it Samantha?”

 

“And what the fuck is that then luv?”

 

“It confirms that you’re on the pill and more than likely having sexual

intercourse with someone”

 

“So what if it does, nothing to fucking do with you is it cow!”

 

I butted in. “Well, it’s one of the reasons your actually here Samantha, you dad has sent you to us to help you sort yourself out”

 

“What has my dad got to do with it, he knows fuck all about me, he hasn’t wanted to know since mum died”

 

“Actually, Samantha he has had his suspicions about your having sex and is very concerned for you” I added.

 

“My dad’s a total tosser and has been for years. Sam don’t do this, Sam don’t do that, what does he think he fucking knows about me, fucking nothing that’s what, fucking nothing”

 

“He knows that he loves you, and he knows that you just hurting yourself by doing what you doing” I said.

He has sent you here to Happy Summers to be part of the programme we run here for children like you.

Kids that are always in trouble for one thing or another, doing drugs, having sex, drinking, stealing”

 

“So what if I’m having sex, what the fuck has it got to do with him or you!”

 

Kim responded. “Well for a start young lady, you’re underage which I am sure you are aware.

And should the police wish too, they could and should arrest the boy or boys your having sex with”

 

“They’d be lucky, I don’t even know who they fucking are”

 

“So, it’s more than one boy then?”

 

“Who the fuck are you to be questioning me what boys I have had.

Don’t suppose you’ve had any dick yourself for years by the look of you luv,

so don’t start on me.

Now how long before this drug thing wears off. I want to get up”

 

“It won’t wear off till the morning” I replied.

 

“You’re fucking kidding me, so you expect me to lay here all fucking night then?”

 

“Well, no, not really. Kim and I are going to carry you through to the bathroom and give you a bath now”

 

“Your what! Carry me what! You can just fuck right off if you think I’m having a bath like this. Is this some sort of loony bin?

Oi get your cuntin hands off me you tossers”

 

Kim and I sat Samantha up and between us one on each side carried her through to the bathroom.

 

“I ain’t avin a fucking bath, no way.”

 

Kim slid her thong down and together we lifted up and sat her in the bath.

 

“I am gonna fucking kill the two of you in the morning, trust me your gonna get such a smack from me your gonna be seeing stars”

 

“You want to shave her or do you want me to do it Daniel”

 

“Shave what? You’re not shaving nuffin luv”

 

“I’ll do it” I replied and grabbed the can of gel and the razor.

 

“I fucking knew it, your some sort of fucking perv.

Don’t you dare touch me”

 

I squirted some gel on my fingers and rubbed it in and around her pubic area, she actually had a fair amount, more than I would have expect for her age.

 

“Please don’t, I don’t want to be shaved, please”

I picked up the razor and made the first pass.

 

“Look please don’t! I won’t kill you after all, but please stop”

 

I continued on.

 

“Look will you fucking just stop and leave me alone, I’m gonna get the cops on you two first thing once I get my movement back, I’m gonna be on the phone and reporting the pair of you”

 

“Is this the same police” I replied. “That have arrested you for various things

recently.

Maybe it was the shoplifting or maybe it was the mugging the old lady.

Or maybe you could ring social services, who would love to take you from your dad and put you into care.

I can call either or both of them for you in the morning if you would like me to”

She looked at me as if to say how do you know so much about me?

 

“Look Samantha your dad sent you here, social services know you’re here, and everyone else knows what goes on here so you can complain all you like

nothing will change, you’re here to stay for a full 6 weeks.

Just think of it as an opportunity to better yourself, and have some fun at the same time”

 

“I don’t what to have fun and if this is your idea of fun then you got some

fucking weird ideas mate”

 

I finished shaving her and washed her off.

I held her while Kim washed her hair and wrapped a towel round her head when she had done.

 

“Right then time to get out. Ready?”

 

“NO!” She answered sarcastically.

 

“Oh well, we are!” Said Kim, and with that we lifted her and wrapped a towel round her, then picked her up and carried her through to the changing room.

 

“What the fuck is this? Your avin a real fucking laugh now people.

Do you seriously think that I would in any way let you do what you think your gonna do with them things there.

 

“How are you going to stop us young lady? Punch and kick us? I can’t see you doing much of that at the moment can you? And I’ll ask you to curb your

language please, we don’t and won’t put up with it”

 

“Look! I don’t know what your game is, and I seriously don’t want too either.

But I ain’t avin no nappy put on me no way, never”

 

“Sam, I’ll call you that once, and only once,” said Kim. “Just so you know I’m being deadly serious understand?”

 

“Whatever!” She replied.

 

“I don’t actually like you as the person you are right at this moment.

 I don’t like people who beat up or bully other people who can’t for whatever reason defend themselves.

To me you’re the scum of the earth.

If I was in charge kids like you should still be transported to an island like they did to convicts two hundred odd years ago and left to rot.

But every adult here is here to help children like you who for whatever reason think your better than the rest of society.

 

Every child here is going to be treated in exactly the same way as you are going to be, and there are no exceptions.

I don’t care at the moment what you want or how you feel.

Your here to let us help you become a better person, because the powers that be, think our programme may help to bring you back from the brink.

 

You might not want to be here at the moment but in time during your stay here you may see the harm you’re doing yourself and others, and your father in

particular.

 

You can make it easy, or you can make it hard, the choice is entirely yours.

It will be a challenge for both you and me, but I hope in time we can become friends, and I hope you work at becoming a better person with my help.

But for now, you have no choice in what happens to you, so relax and let us do what we have to do and when we have finished getting you ready you can lie in your cot”

 

“Cot! What the fuck do you mean COT?”

 

“I mean cot. IE the place you will be sleeping for the next six weeks.

Once you’re in your cot you can scream your head off and swear as much as you like but I don’t advise it.

But be assured it’s going to happen like it or not”

 

She looked at both Kim and I and all of a sudden it must have dawned on her the seriousness of her situation.

She was helpless, unable to really resist or to help herself in anyway.

Her only avenue of resistance was coming from her mouth.

She was at our mercy and nothing she could do was going to make us stop what was coming next.

She started to cry uncontrollably.

 

“Please don’t do this to me, I don’t want to be treated like this, I don’t deserve to be treated like this”

 

“Tell that to the old lady you put into hospital three weeks ago” I said.

 

“But I didn’t mean to hurt her she just wouldn’t let go of her bag, I’m sorry”

 

“Look I’ll do a deal with you Samantha.

You behave yourself, be cool and I will help you through this and make it as easy as I can. Deal?”

 

I looked into her watery eyes.

Her eyes said, I hate you, and never ever will I allow you to do this to me.

 

“Ok deal” she said.

 

I knew she didn’t mean it, and I knew I had a real challenge on my hands with Sam.

 

Kim and I nappied and dressed her.

She didn’t say another word throughout the rest of the process.

She just kept her eyes closed, and we did what we needed to do.

 

“There done! You ready to go to bed?”

 

Sam looked at me and nodded, she had a look in her eyes more of defeat than anger now.

Kim and I lifted her up and I carried her through to her cot.

As James had done earlier, she rested her head on my shoulder, but she still didn’t say a word, she just softly sobbed.

I followed Tony and Jenny through with their girls and headed for the empty cot next to where Simon was laying quietly. I laid her down then tucked her in.

 

“Would you like a dummy to help you sleep?”

 

She shook her head and just stared at the ceiling.

I lifted the bars on her cot and locked them into place.

 

Simon was staring over at Sam.

He had a look of real concern on his face.

Then he looked directly at me and told me with his eyes that I had better not have hurt her.

 

I was pleased with that because it showed that he actually cared about

something other than himself and there was a real hope that he wasn’t a lost cause.

 

I turned and headed back through to the changing room.

Where the team were tidying up.

Tony and Jenny followed me in and shut the door behind them.

 

“Well done team. I think that went really, really well.

Congratulations on seeing through on your first night everyone, and I’m really proud to have you all on my team in Pembroke.

Has anyone got any burning questions?”

 

It was a bit like being in an insurance sales team office meeting, but without the

backslapping.

 

“I have a couple,” I said.

 

We didn’t cover the shaving or the gag procedures before we started, don’t you think some sort of warning and training may have been useful before we started tonight?”

 

“To be honest Daniel we have found that on the job training is far better than any demonstration or instruction we could give you beforehand.

I think both you and Jenny had plenty of on-the-job training tonight though”

He smiled a knowing smile at Jenny and myself.

Suddenly we heard screaming and shouting coming from a speaker in the room.

 

“Ah! The nursery monitors are working.

Jenny, you want to come with me. I think this is one of yours kicking off”

 

“Tony and Jenny headed back through to the nursery.

I followed on behind and stood in the doorway watching through the nursery’s dim light.

 

Kristy, who was one of Jenny’s charges, was screaming and calling out for her mum and dad.

Tony dropped the bars on her cot and quietly spoke to the girl to try to calm her, but she spat in his face and then continued screaming, he tried again talking to her and again she spat in his face.

 

Tony went over to a cupboard on the wall and took out a gag and with Jenny’s help they gagged Kristy.

 

I spotted James on his knees in his cot watching what was going on.

His face was a picture.

He showed concern one moment then horror and then back to concern.

He spotted me watching him and dived back under his blankets.

Jenny raised the bars on the cot and then she and Tony made their way back out.

 

“As I’m on nights tonight, I’ll go back in, in an hour or so to check on her Ok Jenny”

 

“I found that hard to do personally Tony,” said Jenny.

Did you see the look on her face, she was petrified”

 

“Yes, but in an hour or so she will have had time to think about everything and will have calmed down.

We only use the gag here for spitters and biters and persistent bad language. It’s a precaution for the staff more than anything else, but it does get the child to

rethink what’s happened and why they have been gagged.

Nine times out of ten you will only need to gag a child once while there here for the desired result”

 

“Yes, but it must hurt”

 

“Not at all. Want me to show you?”

 

Tony went to the cupboard and removed one of the gags. He offered it to Jenny, and she put it in her mouth. Tony did up the leather strap and inflated the dummy.

 

“Try to say something,” said Tony.

Jenny could only let out a grunt.

 

“Now try to bite down hard”

 

We could all see her straining to move her jaw, but she wasn’t having any

success. Tony deflated the gag, undid the strap and removed it.

 

“Painful?”

 

“No! not at all. A little frightening maybe, mainly because you can only breath through your nose”

 

“This is why it has such a calming effect, the child finds out very quickly that if they struggle against it or try to scream or shout, they have difficulty in getting a breath. This is why we need to constantly check the recipient.

But always remember the gag is never left on all night.

 It normally only takes a couple of hours maximum to have the desired effect. Any longer than that and the jaw begins to ache, and it has the reverse effect by making the child resentful.

 

Anyway, I think we all deserve a real pat on the back for tonight’s work, so let’s get cleaned away and we can go prepare downstairs for tomorrow.

 

“Why what have we got to do for tomorrow?” I asked.

 

“You’ll see, Ann will show you all that needs to be done because I need to stay up here”

 

We all cleaned up the rooms one at a time, starting with the games room.

I packed away the dirty nappies from the kids that had been already wearing them when we undressed them in the first changing room.

 

There were only two anyway.

They went into a separate white plastic bag.

We threw the kids street clothes bags in with the used towels and the nappy bag all into the one hamper, but not before again checking pockets first.

 

When everything was spotless, we wheeled the laundry basket out of the nursery and down the hall to the lift.

Tony stayed behind to keep a check on the kids.

 

Everything was quiet, not a sound could be heard except the occasional squeak of the wheels on the laundry basket.

We called the lift, and the doors opened instantly, the five of us piled in and went down.

 

I pushed the basket to the laundry door then down the short corridor towards the laundry room. I could hear voices coming from ahead of me and recognised at least one of them.

 

Jane and the team from Arundel were already sorting out the washing in their basket and loading one of the ten large industrial washing machines with their dirty towels.

 

The room was large with four driers as well as the washing machines and there was a smaller room off to the side that I noticed had two large ceramic sluice sinks with mixer taps above.

The room was cool despite the warm evening, which had much to do with the white tiled walls and stone floor.

 

“Hi there you lot. Everything go ok? No major problems I hope,” said Jane.

 

“We had a couple of gaggers, but apart from that no major problems” Replied Ann.

 

“How did you two get on then?” Referring to Jenny and myself.

 

“A little hard at first” I replied. “But it got easier as we went on”

 

“Same here,” said Jenny. I found it hard to look at their sad faces”

 

“Ah! yes but you also had some happy ones as well though didn’t you.

And I bet as the week goes on, you’ll find the smiles will increase”

 

“I hope so” Replied Jenny. “I really do hope so”

 

In the corner of the room were stacked all the bags with the cases the kids had brought to camp, filled with all the shorts and t-shirts and other clothes the kids thought they would be using while here.

 

“I see the cases are kept here then Jane”

 

“We keep them here because we wash and sort the clothes for each kid before they go home.” She replied.

 

We all sorted the laundry basket, the towels all went into one machine, and each Nursery had their own machine for the clothes.

Each bag that had the kid’s clothes in, was itself washable, so all the bags were just loaded straight into the machine with washing powder then it was started.

 

Ann took me and Jenny through to the sluice room and showed us the large industrial sized yellow dirty nappy bin on wheels.

I lifted the lid and chucked the plastic bag inside.

 

“This gets emptied daily.

The refuse lorry collects the bin and wheels it out through the double doors here!

Empties it and wheels it back in”

She motioned to a pair of doors at the side of the room.

 

We all wheeled the now empty nursery laundry baskets back up the corridor and back through to the main building.

Jane wheeled a smaller basket up the corridor with us.

 

The Andover team were just about to make their way down the corridor when they spotted us coming up and waited at the top by the door.

 

“You lot all done,” asked Suzie. “That was quick work.

No major problems I take it then”

 

“Yes, all done” we nearly all replied in unison.

 

We all filed past and nodded and smiled at each other, I couldn’t see any long faces, so I suppose everything was running smoothly with their nursery.

 

“Right leave the baskets here and follow me” Said Jane”

 

We left the two baskets in the main corridor and headed for the dining room.

The kitchen ladies had cleared the room away and just the tables and benches were still in place.

The room divider had been opened up, and the room was now its normal full size.

 

In the area that had been closed off by the divider there were a series of

different sized highchairs to suit the size of the kids in each nursery age group.

 

They were all wooden and made to an old-fashioned traditional design.

 

“Right then let’s get these set up for the morning shall we,” said Jane.

You boys get the tables and benches moved, and us girls will sort out the highchairs”

 

I teamed up with Lawrence from Arundel, and we repositioned the tables into four lines down each side or the room, then we positioned the benches in the same direction along Side each table.

 

The girls set out the highchairs along the wall next to the tables, there were four highchairs for each table.

The smallest chairs to the right-hand tables and the biggest to the left.

 

When we had done it reminded me of the three bear’s story.

The three different sized chairs for the daddy bear mummy bear and baby bear that Goldilocks had sat on.

I asked Jane why there weren’t highchairs for everyone.

 

“We only use these for kids on punishment.

It makes them stand out from the rest, just as the short punishment dress does, it adds to the result were trying to achieve”

 

“What humiliation” I asked.

 

“Not humiliation no, that’s not it.

Although the kids on punishment may feel some extra humiliation that’s not its intended purpose, it’s more of a deterrent to curb and discourage bad behaviour from other children.

 

Look at it this way, years ago kids at school were punished with the cane in front of the rest of the school, not all kids mind you, because not all kids were misbehaved, but nine times out of ten it was always the same kids getting whacked, because it was always the small few that constantly played up, other kids saw what was melted out and behaved themselves because they didn’t fancy getting caned in front of the school.

 

To start with all the kids feel humiliated to be wearing nappies and have some stranger they don’t know change them, but that dread factor is increased then they see someone being more humiliated than they are.

 

The highchair raises the punished child high above everyone else for all to see, and adds to that dread factor, while everyone else is sitting on a normal bench eating fairly normally.

 

The punished one’s wear bibs and have to eat with their fingers or toddler spoons and forks and drink from a Sippy cup.

We have found it has the desired effect”

 

“Do you know what” I replied.

“I remember a kid from my early schooldays his name was Ian, he was always getting the cane.

He thought it was a badge of honour, the rest of us thought he was an idiot”

 

“There we go, see it does work, we don’t and never would use the cane or any other method that involved striking a child here.

Besides, corporal punishment was band in UK schools in 1986.

Our method has the same overall effect though”

 

I chatted to Lawrence as we worked, asking him how he had found it, and if

anything had happened.

 

And it turned out that as the younger kids were smaller, they were easier to

handle, but every single one had cried or bawled like a baby, and Lawrence was really having a hard time dealing with that aspect of working in Arundel.

 

We finished in the dining room just as the Andover team came in to help.

 

“You lot are too slow, were all done here” Joked Ann.

 

“Right, everyone follow me,” said Ann

“One more job to do down here then we can have a drink and a chat upstairs”

 

We walked out of the dining room collected, the smaller laundry basket from outside the laundry room door and headed to the other side of the building and the boot room.

 

“Right guy’s we need to make sure all the kid’s shoes are clean, if not then we need to either wash and dry them or brush them off.

Once you’re done, everything goes into the kit bag hanging on the pegs.

Write the child’s name on the bag, then into the basket it goes.

One bag at a time and please don’t mix any one’s belongings up.

Here you’ll need these”

 

Ann handed out a permanent marker to each of us, and we all picked a hook took the bag off and started sorting through the baskets below.

 

I picked a hook with the name George G written above

I pulled out the basket and took out his shoes.

He must have been one of the older boys because his shoes were quite large.

As I picked them up and tipped them slightly, a load of stuff that had been wedged into the toes dropped out.

A mixture of sweets, small change, a flick knife, a lighter and cigarettes, a packet of condoms, and most worryingly a small bag of white powder.

Stuff that he obviously concealed at the reception desk handover.

 

I called Ann over.

 

“Do you think this is what I think it is” I asked her.

 

“More than likely” She replied.

 

“Not the largest I’ve ever seen here but not the smallest either.

Just pop it in this envelope and pop his name on it, we can drop it into security later”

 

The job only took us about 20 minutes or so to finish, because most of the shoes and trainers were fairly clean.

It was easy to tell who’d been near the lake though because those shoes were caked in mud.

 

A few of us found undeclared things in shoes that definitely shouldn’t have been there and certainly wouldn’t be handed back at the end of camp.

 

We filled the basket with the bags, and Ann took the envelopes and pens.

off of us.

I pushed the basket this time and we made our way back down the corridor,

toward the main hall again.

This time though we were closing doors behind us as we went.

 

We wheeled the baskets toward the laundry and one person from each nursery was lumbered with the job of taking the larger baskets back to the relevant nursery while we went back down to the laundry to deposit the contents of the smaller baskets.

 

“We need to pop the bags round here guy’s,” said Ann.

 

And she indicated to a series of hooks behind the wall where the suitcases were.

Once they were all hung, back up the sloping corridor we went, toward the main

corridor.

 

Ann knocked on the security door and Mr Thompson opened up, took the

envelopes and raised his eyebrows.

 

“A few more than last year then” he said and tutted.

“Seems that every year we get more and more.

We might need to invest in a walk-through metal detector”

 

Ann agreed with him.

 

The rest of us made our way up the main staircase for that well-earned tea or coffee.

 

The Windsor team were just heading toward the lift as we reached the top of the stairs.

 

“Had a few problems tonight Frank? Asked Jane.

 

“You could say that” He replied

“But no more than any other year though. You all done downstairs?”

 

“Yes, everything’s done, your lot’s shoes have been sorted and are already

hanging in the laundry” She replied.

 

“Super, thanks you lot. We’ll get this laundry on then join you all upstairs”

 

They all piled into the lift with the basket and made their way down.

 

The rest of us went in the opposite direction and headed up the stairs to the staff room in the loft.

 

We all took a seat once inside and a couple of people took orders for drinks and made them.

Everyone chatted about each other’s experiences from the evenings work and there was some general chit chat about things like, what their normal day jobs were before joining Happy Summers.

 

Mrs Thompson came in closely followed by the Windsor team.

She chatted one by one with everyone around the room and after a while she called for everyone’s attention.

 

“I know from speaking to many of you tonight that you all have had not only mixed feelings but also varying degrees of satisfaction.

I would just like to thank each and every one of you here tonight for the patience and understanding you have shown towards the children on what for many of them has been a difficult and traumatic evening.

 

I said it earlier and I will say it again. Things get easier day by day and for those of you that are newbie’s, you will all soon get that sense of satisfaction that

everyone gets who has ever worked here receives.

 

It’s been a long day for everyone so get some rest and tomorrow, well tomorrow is another day and new challenges, so once again I thank you all for what you have signed up to do here”

 

I hadn’t realised it, but it was about 10.30pm when I looked at my watch.

I supped my tea, made my excuses, and left the room.

 I was going to go straight to bed, but I thought I would check up on Tony, so I made my way downstairs to the night room.

 

Tony was reading and Elizabeth was making some drinks.

In the background I could hear faint murmuring coming from two speakers in the room.

 

“Didn’t expect to see you again tonight mate, everything ok?”

 

“No, I’m good, I just thought I would see how you were doing before I crashed out”

 

“Everything’s fine down here, I’ve just done a round to check on everyone and

collected all the empty bottles.

Most of them are asleep now, but as you can hear though, a few are still fighting it and chatting to one another”

 

“How’s Kristy did she settled down?” I asked.

 

“Yes, I took her gag out about half an hour ago, she was sorry and upset but other than that no problems.

 

I just have to say Daniel that I think you did exceptionally well tonight.

You coped and showed compassion where it was due.

Kim told me about how you dealt with Samantha, which I must say was brilliant for a first night”

 

“Thanks, I do try”

I let out a nervous laugh, I always feel a little strange when I’m being given a compliment.

 

“It’s funny really.

 I enjoyed it tonight, mainly because even at this stage I can see where we’re heading with these kids, and for a couple of them I think were already making progress”

 

“Don’t be fooled by first appearances Daniel. They may seem passive but it’s because they’re unable to resist at the moment.

Come tomorrow when they start to get movement back then we may see them back to their old ways, just be aware of that.

Anyway, we all have another long day ahead of us tomorrow so why don’t you get off and have a rest. I’ll see you bright and early at seven ok”

 

“Yep, no problem, hope you have a good night you two”

 

I left them chatting and made my way back upstairs.

Just as I came out onto the loft landing Jane came wandering past.

 

“You off to bed?” I asked.

 

“Sure am. I need my beauty sleep”

 

“Not as far as I’m concerned,” I said.

 

She laughed.

 

“Did you leave your glasses at home then Daniel?”

 

“Glasses what glasses I don’t” then I realised she was joking

 

“Nope my eyes are fine thanks I don’t need glasses to see the good things in life”

 

Jane blushed a little and went all-girlie.

 

“Well, must dash, my bed awaits”

 

“So does mine” I winked and gave her a big, big grin, and she blushed some more.

 

She hurried along to her room, and I followed behind still looking at her lovely bum.

 

She quickly unlocked the door.

 

“Night” she called as she walked through the door.

 

“Night” I replied.

 

I deliberately stood at my door for a moment key in hand just waiting to see if she took another look.

Sure enough I saw Jane pop her head back round her door.

Just to look back and see if I was inside yet. I looked toward her.

 

 “Everything ok?” she asked.

 

“Yes, fine thanks. Night”

 

“Night again she replied. Then closed the door.

 

So, she’s interested I thought to myself.

 

I opened my door reached for the light switch and flicked it on.

I took another look to see if Jane had popped her head out again but alas no, so I stepped in.

 

I collapsed onto my bed and just lay there.

I thought about my day.

The surprise, the highs, the lows and then my own hopes and expectations for the next six weeks.

 

I hadn’t realised it, but I was utterly drained and exhausted.

I didn’t even want to get up to get into bed.

It was just then I noticed that the pile of clothes I had left on the floor wasn’t there anymore.

 

Where the hell have they gone I asked myself?

I got up and looked in the cupboard and draws.

I found them in the washing basket in the bathroom.

 

I wondered who’d cleaned up, but I was so tired I couldn’t be bothered to worry about it.

 

I crashed back down on to the bed, pulled the overhead light switch and the room went dark.

 

I kicked off my trainers, shut my eyes, and drifted off.

 

 

 

Next time were back with Simon to see how his morning goes.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

CHAPTER 7

 

SIMONS MORNING

 

“Simon. Psssst Simon. SIMON”

 

“Yes mum?”

 

“I ain’t your fucking mum. Wake up you plonker”

 

I stirred, opened my eyes and looked in the direction of the voice.

 

“Cummon wake up”

 

“I’m awake what do you want?”

 

I looked across to see Sam looking across at me from her cot.

 

“Can you move yet?”

 

“Dunno, I just got woken up ain’t I”

 

“Try then you wally!”

 

My blankets had somehow worked their way down the cot overnight so I must have had some movement back.

I was just laying on my back in my blue sleeper.

I strained and managed to just about lift my arm off the mattress and could move my legs a little but not much else.

Sam was watching me trying to move.

 

“Look” she said.

She managed to shuffle her body and turn on her side and face me head on.

 

“What’s the time?” I asked.

 

“Dunno the sun’s up though”

 

The sun was streaming through a gap in the curtains and the slightly open

window beyond, and I could hear the birds were chirping away outside.

 

 

 

A few of the other kids were awake and talking to each other.

I looked over to James, he had his back to us and was laying on top of his

blanket’s and on his side. I couldn’t tell if he was awake or not, but he could have been just laying there listening to everyone else.

 

He looked quite cute in his sleeper, and it was obvious he was wearing a nappy under it because the sleeper bulged around his backside.

I looked down to my own sleeper and had my own obvious bulge, but it wasn’t just the nappy that was showing.

I just hoped Sam hadn’t noticed it.

 

“I can’t wait to get this fucking shit off me” she said.

 

“Me too I replied”

But really, I was quite snug in the sleeper, my nappy was fairly damp all the way round me but warm, and I was just about ready for another pee by now as well.

 

“I wonder what they will be doing with us today,” said Sam.

 

“Did you see those classrooms downstairs? I said.

 

“I bet were in for some sort of schoolwork.

I didn’t fucking come here to go to school that’s for sure”

 

I laughed. “Me neither”

 

“I can’t stand school that’s why I don’t go much,” said Sam

 

“Same here “I said. “Bloody waste of time”

 

“Tell you what though, first chance I get I’m otta here, you coming?”

 

Before I could answer a voice came from behind me.

 

“Why don’t you like school though?”

It was James, he was awake.

 

“I just don’t all right. What’s it got to do with you anyway?”

 

“I was just asking. I just wondered because I don’t go to school, so I wanted to know why you didn’t like it that’s all”

 

“Whadya, mean you don’t go to school. Corse you go to school, how can you talk all posh if you don’t go to school?” Said Sam.

 

“I have a tutor”

 

“And what the fuck is one of them then” I asked.

“I have my own personal teacher.

She teaches me everything that you would learn at school. Like English, Maths, Latin and the four sciences”

 

“Look! why the fuck are you here James, did you kill someone or something?”

Asked Sam.

 

“I’m here because I like it here. I‘m on holiday”

 

“Fucking holiday! you ain’t arf got some funny ideas about where to go on your fucking holidays kid”

Both Sam and I laughed.

 

Click! The door to the room opened and the adults came in.

 

“Morning everyone. Did we all sleep well?” Asked Tony.

 

A few answered yes but most just called out with comments such as

“Not fucking likely, dressed like this”

 

“Well, it’s breakfast time, who’s ready for breakfast then?”

 

“Are you gonna get these things off us first?” Someone shouted.

 

“You all get a change after breakfast is finished. Who thinks they can walk?”

Silence, no one answered.

 

“Looks like everyone’s crawling to breakfast then”

 

“Me I can!” “And me!” “Me to!” Soon just about everyone said they would walk.

 

“Ok then we’ll see who’s up to it shall we”

 

All six of the adults unlocked and lowered the bars on the cots.

Three of the kids jumped out straight away including James and stood and watched while everyone else were helped to their feet.

Daniel came over to me and helped me jump down.

 

“You stand there and hold on to the cot while I get Samantha out” he said.

 

I stood holding on to the top of the cot’s bars, my legs were still very weak and a bit wobbly, but I could just about stand without my legs giving way under me.

 

Daniel went over and sat Sam up and dangled her legs over the edge of the cot. She took a huge swing with her fist at Daniel’s head but missed.

 

She was still slow with her reactions, so he saw it coming a mile off.

 

“Try that again Samantha and you’ll be spending the rest of the day locked in your cot. Do you understand?”

 

“I don’t fucking care. I’ll get you next time you bastard”

 

“If you do little lady, then you will be punished”

 

Tony called over. “Everything ok Daniel?”

 

“Nothing I can’t handle, you’re ok thanks”

 

Now Samantha, it’s your choice, locked in here for the day or breakfast and the day outside? What’s it to be, it’s up to you”

 

“Breakfast” she said reluctantly.

 

I could see that she was planning another attack though because she had that look on her face of, I’ll get you next time mate don’t you worry.

 

“You ready Simon?

 

He came over to my cot, supported me under the arm, and helped me waddle over to Sam’s cot, where he held her under the arm as well.

Daniel took the weight of us on our wobbly legs, and we started to slowly make our way out of the nursery toward the door.

 

Everyone else was being helped except the three kids who I realized were like James and were maybe back here for a second year so didn’t have the

injections.

 

“When will we be able to walk properly Daniel?” I asked.

 

“In about an hour or two. By lunchtime you’ll be able to start running around again”

 

“When do we get these clothes and nappies off then” asked Sam.

 

“You will get a change after breakfast Samantha”

 

“But this nappy is wet and uncomfortable, can’t you take it off before breakfast? Please”

 

“After” Insisted Daniel

 

“But why?”

 

“Truth?”

 

“Yes truth,” said Sam.

 

“Well, you should all try to have a pee again at breakfast, because when we change you later, you’ll have a fresh clean nappy on for your morning activities”

 

“Whatya mean clean nappies, you telling me were having more nappies after breakfast” Screamed Sam.

 

“Yes! I thought you’d realized that you’re going to be in nappies until you all go home”

 

I had realized last night when Tony was talking to me what we had in store, but obviously Sam hadn’t.

 

By this time we had made it into the hall and were approaching the stairs

 

“NO WAY NEVER” Screamed Sam.

YOU GOT NO CHANCE OF THAT EVER HAPPENING”

 

Daniel replied calmly “Well you have the same two choices as before, outside or cot, it’s up to you”

 

“Well the first chance I get all this shit is coming off, you can believe that bruvver”

 

“Well Samantha. If you take off your clothes or nappies, you will be punished”

 

“Yea! And I know you’re not allowed to hit me, no one can, I can get the cops on you if you do”

 

“There are many other forms of punishment young lady, we don’t need to spank or hit you, there are plenty of other methods at our disposal.

And if you continue with your threat, you’ll find out what I mean”

 

Sam was really fired up, she collapsed on the floor and sat on her bum and

refused to budge, just like a little toddler having a tantrum would do.

 

She looked at me with a, you joining me look.

I decided the best thing to do was to try solidarity, so I let my legs go and joined her on the floor.

 

We could just about manage to sit slumped forward but not much else.

Sam seemed pleased I’d joined her, she didn’t say anything but looked and had a real big I’ve won grin on her face.

 

“If that’s the way you two want to play it, then fine, you can sit there while

everyone else goes for breakfast”

 

Daniel stayed with us, and we sat and watched as everyone else made their way down the stairs.

 

James glanced back and waved for me to come on and join him.

He looked and made a you don’t want to be doing this face, but I had made my move and now I was committed.

 

The smaller kids from another nursery came out and filed past us.

They were all dressed as we were, in pink and blue sleepers.

Timmy walked past and asked me what we were doing?

 

“They are missing breakfast that’s what they are doing,” said Daniel.

Most of the Arundel kids sniggered at our situation.

 

“What you fucking sniggering at you little tossers” Sam was a little angry that our little protest wasn’t having its desired effect.

 

“Sam, I’m hungry, aren’t you?” I whispered.

 

“Nope don’t want any fucking breakfast, You with me or not?”

 

At the other end of the corridor more kids were being escorted to breakfast.

I counted only six kids, four girls and two boys, none of them were making much of a fuss.

 

A little while later three of the bigger kids were being taken down.

They looked really funny dressed in their sleepers.

 

“I’ll give you two one last chance, do you want to sit here or do you want

breakfast?”

 

I looked at Sam, but she just stared at me. I took the look as a mixture of don’t you dare and please support me. Neither of us uttered a word.

 

“Ok your choice, we’ll just sit here then shall we”

 

So, we sat on the floor for over what must have been half an hour, before

everyone came filing back past us.

Both Sam and I had gained a little more movement in our bodies by now and were able to sit up straighter and move our legs a little

 

Now as I had said earlier, I really needed a pee by now, and I was finding it

really hard to put it off.

The trouble was that sitting in a wet nappy on the hard floor was becoming a

little uncomfortable.

 

No one was allowed to speak to us as they walked past us and headed for the playroom.

James tried again to get me to follow them, but I had made my decision and now I had to stick by Sam.

 

After about another half hour or so, everyone came back past us again, dressed this time in different clothes.

 

The girls had on short little pink dresses with white pants, knee socks, and white shoes.

All the boys had a sort of all-in-one shorts suit that was in blue with white socks and black shoes. I did notice one thing, you couldn’t see if either the boys or girls were still wearing nappies now though.

 

“And if you think I’m gonna wear that gear your fucking crazy,” said Sam.

 

The adults took everyone downstairs, and over about 15 minutes more a steady flow of kids all dressed as our dormitory were, filed past us and down the stairs.

Tony, Jenny, and Kim came back upstairs, just as the last group of the bigger kids went down.

Tony whispered something in Daniel’s ear, then the three of them made their way back into our nursery.

 

I guessed Tony had said enough was enough or something like that and gave Daniel some instructions.

 

“Right you two, I’ll give you both 10 more minutes then we will move onto stage two”

 

“What’s stage two then?” I asked.

 

“Wait the 10 minutes and you’ll find out,” said Daniel.

 

I looked over to Sam, I was pleading with my face for her to give it up, but I wouldn’t and couldn’t just come out with it.

She looked back and gave me a shut up and be quiet stare.

 

I didn’t want a gag, and I didn’t fancy whatever Daniel might have had in store for us with stage two!

I sat and stared at Sam, but she just stared back.

 

Now two things happened in quick succession.

First, I couldn’t hold on any longer and just let a long pee out into the already soaked nappy.

It felt so good to empty my bladder because I’d been holding back since I woke up and boy was it good to let go.

 

Unfortunately, the nappy wouldn’t hold the flood and leaked out of the plastic pants and through the sleeper onto the floor.

A little puddle of pee appeared on the floor next to my right leg. Sam noticed and let out a laugh.

 

I told her to “Shut up” I couldn’t believe I had supported her in her protest and now she was laughing at me.

 

Secondly after I had peed and leaked and she had laughed I made the decision to give in.

I managed to get onto my knees and then onto all fours and finally stood up and walked to where Daniel was standing.

 

“Can you change my nappy please”

 

I looked at Daniel and wanted to just die of shame. I couldn’t believe I had just asked someone to change my wet nappy.

 

I don’t even remember ever asking my mum to do that when I was tiny, and I can remember a lot of when I was very young.

 

“Sorry I can’t Simon”

 

“What! Why not? I want to go with the others. I want to change out of these wet sleepers and nappy”

 

“Well, you were both in this together so either you both quit together or you both suffer the consequences together”

 

“But that’s not fair, I want to quit”

 

“I want, I want. Have you ever heard of Can I, or please! Simon? “

Asked Daniel.

“I’m sorry but it’s both or neither”

 

As I stood there, I felt a trickle of pee running down my leg heading toward my foot. I had had enough.

 

“Look Sam, you got me into this now get us out”

 

“I didn’t ask you too, you did it yourself” She replied.

 

“But I thought we were friends”

 

“Friends don’t give in, they stand by each other till the end”

 

“You fucking cow”

 

“Right times up, what’s it going to be the pair of you? Last chance”

 

“Please Sam. Let’s give in. PLEASE”

 

I was now shit scared that things were going to turn out pretty bad and real soon.

Sam looked at me and saw that I was scared. I don’t think she really cared about me though, she was just worried about herself, and her own feelings.

 

“Do your worst wanker” she said to Daniel.

 

Oh fuck, what the hell was she doing.

 

“Please Sam, please don’t do this to me, I don’t want to be gagged.

 

“Please sir, I don’t want any trouble. I don’t want to be with her, I’m really sorry”

 

“Times up. What’s it going to be Samantha? It’s up to you now”

 

She looked at me and smiled.

 

“You touch me you cunt and I’ll stab you”

 

“Fine, but don’t say you weren’t warned”

 

Tony and the other adults were obviously listening to what was going on from inside the playroom and came out all together through the door.

.

Tony and Jenny grabbed me, and Daniel and Kim picked up Sam.

I was trying to struggle but I was still not strong enough.

I pleaded that it wasn’t my fault she wouldn’t give in and that I was sorry and would do whatever they said.

 

Sam was screaming and swearing, and I could also hear her spitting.

 

“You try to bite us again Samantha and you’ll wish you hadn’t”

I heard Kim shout.

 

“Tony, I’m sorry, I won’t do this again, please stop, please don’t hurt me.

Jenny please, I’ll be good, I will honest” I pleaded.

 

I was being carried through to the changing room and toward one of the

changing tables, but unlike last night this time it had straps attached to it.

 

“No, please what are you going to do to me. I’m sorry Please don’t”

 

They laid me on the table and strapped my wrists to the side of the table, and a big strap was secured across my chest.

I cried out again.

 

“If you struggle you will hurt yourself and I don’t want that, and I’m sure you don’t want that either Simon”

 

I looked at Tony, his face was that of concern, but his eyes were stern.

I shook my head no.

 

Sam was now also strapped to the table next to me in exactly the same way.

She was swearing and spitting at both Daniel and Kim.

I saw Kim walk to a cupboard and take out what I assumed was a gag and took it back to the table.

 

I watched as they forced Sam’s mouth open and inserted the gag.

She tried really hard to resist and was screaming really loudly.

 

Kim did up the strap behind Sam’s head and then squeezed a little ball that was attached to the gag.

Sam stopped screaming and I could just about hear some muffled screams now.

 

“Please don’t do that to me Tony. I’ll do whatever you want but please don’t use a gag on me”

 

“I don’t intend to Simon. Had you been shouting, swearing, and spitting I would have done though”

 

“What’s going to happen to me now, what are you going to do to me?”

 

“Well! as you were prepared to give in and Samantha didn’t, it will be a little easier on you.

But you have to be punished.

It’s the consequence of what you did I’m afraid.

 

I can’t have you show rebellion in-front of the rest of the school and for it not to have any punishment, can I?”

 

I started to cry, I didn’t want what was coming, whatever it was.

 

“Don’t worry Simon, we don’t intend to hurt you in any way, I Promise”

Said Tony.

 

His words were comforting but I was still dreading whatever they were going to do.

 

Between them they undid the buttons on my sleeper and pulled it up and over the sodden terry nappy.

Jenny pulled off the plastic pants and Tony unpinned and removed the nappy, and I heard him drop it in a bucket next to the table.

 

Jenny then took some baby wipes and wiped down my nappy area.

She lifted my legs and cleaned under my bum.

 

Tony folded three huge terry nappies and placed them under my bum, they looked and felt a lot bigger than the one I had just had on.

 

Jenny put lots of cream on before Tony pulled the really bulky material up

between my legs and secured all three of the nappies with two sets of pins on each side of each nappy.

 

Jenny pulled out a pair of what looked like really big girl’s pants from my

Wardrobe, and pulled them up my legs and up and over the huge bulk of

material covering my middle.

 

They were plastic pants with a white material cover, and oh! the shame, they had rows of frills on the back.

I remember mum using these on Penny when she was a tiny baby.

 

Jenny then pulled on a pair of short white socks over my feet and then they were followed by some really babyish looking black shoes.

 

I looked over to where Sam was being changed and she was also getting the same nappies, but instead of the socks shoes and pants they were refastening her sleeper back up.

 

“I’m going to undo these straps, Simon. If you cause any trouble your

punishment will be worse than it is at the moment. So, what’s it going to be?”

 

“I’ll behave” I replied.

 

They both undid the straps, and Tony sat me up. It was difficult to sit with all the nappies I was wearing but Jenny held me while Tony undid the shoulder buttons and slipped the sleeper over my head.

He then went back to my wardrobe and took out a white dress.

 

“Please that’s not for me, is it? please tell me it’s not for me”

 

“It is for you Simon. This is your punishment dress, and you will wear it for the rest of the day.

You will wear this dress and these nappies so everyone can see that you are

being punished”

 

It’s something we do here to show everyone what will happen to them if they don’t behave themselves.

You won’t be the only one dressed like this for the next few days, but everyone will look at you and have a little laugh quietly to themselves”

 

Tony put the dress over my head and guided my arms into its short puffy arms.

He and Jenny then helped me down off the changing table.

When the dress fell down my body it didn’t even fully cover the frilly pants and nappy.

I was totally humiliated, I didn’t cry but I felt a series of tears run down my cheeks.

 

“Can’t you just spank me or cane me or something! anything but this” I pleaded.

 

I looked across at Sam, she was still strapped to the table, and her sleeper had been refastened.

 

She looked across at me and tried to scream at me through the gag.

I could see she wasn’t happy.

Maybe because I was now dressed and off the table and she wasn’t.

 

“Jenny is now going to take you downstairs to the playroom where you will stay on your own until lunchtime.”

 

Playroom, that didn’t sound bad. I could live with that.

 

“What’s going to happen to Sam Tony? Is she in real trouble?”

 

“I think you should worry about yourself young man and be thankful that you decided enough was enough before things got too out of hand.

Samantha wasn’t worried about you, so why should you worry about her.

 

Now you toddle off and behave for the rest of the day.

I don’t want to hear of anymore problems with you. Right”

 

I nodded my agreement.

 

It was a full two weeks later that Sam told me what had happened to her for the rest of that first day at Happy Summers.

 

She and I made up eventually and she apologised for what she had forced me to endure.

But she swore me to secrecy about what happened to her too.

 

Tony had said toddle off and behave, it was more waddle off than toddle.

Despite me gaining some strength in my legs I had real problems walking

because I couldn’t close my legs together due to the bulk of the nappies.

I had to sort of roll my body from left to right and swing my legs every time to move forward.

It reminded me of how sumo wrestlers stand and move before they fight.

 

Jenny took me downstairs and we went in the direction of the dining room.

Great I thought, she’s going to let me have breakfast.

But that was far from the truth.

 

We stopped outside a door, and she pressed some numbers on a keypad and the door opened to reveal a babies playroom complete with real baby toys and playthings.

 

At the back of the room there were two big metal cages.

Jenny shepherded me towards one of the cages and unlocked it with the keypad thing again.

 

“In you go Simon”

 

“You can’t, please don’t put me in there I don’t want to go”

 

“IN NOW!” She said, with a real last chance voice.

 

“I won’t! you can’t make me”

 

“Would you rather be upstairs with Samantha then?”

 

I looked at her, I could see she was waiting for me to refuse again, she knew that I wouldn’t though, because she knew I was shit scared of what might

happen if I did.

 

I had to get on my hands and knees to get in, and she closed the gate behind me

 

 

“You can lay or sit in here it’s up to you Simon.

We call this the time out zone.

You will be in here for at least the next two hours until lunch, so take that time to reflect on what you have done, and hopefully we won’t get a repeat will we”

 

I looked at Jenny, she was sorry she had had to put me in here I could tell from her face, she was sort of sad for me.

I shook my head as a no reply but didn’t speak.

 

“We have a camera in here so we can keep a check on you, so just play or lay and reflect on what happened over the last two hours”

 

She turned and left the room but didn’t shut the door.

 

I had a good look around the room.

There were loads of baby toys all over the place, and some things in the cage with me, and more in the cage next to mine.

 

There was a big multi coloured blanket in the corner and various cuddly toys. I spotted some wooden letter blocks piled up as well.

 

“Huh Hum! I see we have our first naughty baby for this camp then Matron”

 

I turned and saw Mrs Thompson standing by the cage with Matron looking in at me.

 

“He looks so cute Mrs Thompson.

I wonder if he would like a bottle seeing as he missed breakfast.

 Would you like a bottle of milk? What’s your name? oh! Simon, that’s a really nice name for a baby, Simon, yes, I like Simon”

 

I could feel my face glow with shame.

She had so obviously seen many kids in this cage over the years she had worked here, and looking at her, it was many years, but it didn’t help me here and now.

I just wanted to hide in the corner and cry.

 

“Well would you like a drink, Simon.

I can pop along and get you one from the kitchen if you’d like”

 

I was actually dying for a drink. I hadn’t had one since last night’s feast and a lot had gone on since then, and my throat was totally dry, but did I really want to sit here sucking on a baby’s bottle like I had seen James doing last night.

 

Well, I could always rip the rubber nipple off and drink it out of the bottle I thought to myself.

 

“Yes please”

 

“Yes please Matron!” Said Mrs Thompson.

 

“Yes please Matron”

 

“That’s much better, here we go then”

 

She pulled out a large plastic bottle from her apron with a rubber teat on it just the same as the one James had had.

 

“There we go” She passed the bottle through the bars of the cage.

 

“Now we’ll just wait here and wait till you’re finished, Ok”

 

Shit! my plan had backfired, I was expecting them to leave me alone, but they just stood and watched me.

 

“Off you go then. You must be parched, just put it in and suck away”

 

I went very hot and red again, but I had no choice now, I had to do it.

I put the teat in my mouth and started to suck.

 

The milk was warm, sweet, and tasted ok, it would have tasted so much

better had I had not been here in front of these two, sucking it from a bottle and dressed as I was.

 

They didn’t take their eyes off me until I had sucked the bottle dry.

It took me ages because I was so self-conscious of what I was doing.

 

“Well done Simon! would you like another one?” Asked Mrs Thompson”

 

“No thanks”

 

“No thank you Matron!”

 

“No thank you Matron” I replied

 

“Good boy, we’ll leave you to it then, have fun”

 

How the fuck was I gonna have fun?

I’m locked in a cage, dressed as I was, with nothing to do, I thought to myself as I watched them leave the room.

 

I looked around the room again, I didn’t spot anything new other than a little plain white wooden painted box about 6 inches square in between the two cages.

 

I couldn’t quite make out what it was.

I tried to stretch my arms through the bars to reach it, but I was about a hand’s length too short.

I looked around there must be something I could use to bring it closer.

Nothing.

I couldn’t see anything that I could use.

 Shit how was I gonna reach it?

 

I pulled the blanket in the corner of the cage toward me to see if there was

anything underneath I could use.

All the cuddly toys came with the blanket but nothing else!

 

I tried stretching through the bars again.

I pushed and strained, only half a hand now but still too far.

 

I sat with the blanket in my hands looking at the box.

 

DOOOH! As Homer would say. I loved the Simpsons it was a great new show, and I had seen just about every episode since it started.

 

I passed the blanket through the bars and held onto each end about three bars apart as if I was holding a skipping rope.

I then tried to loop the blanket over the box as if it had actually been a rope.

 

I tried three times without success then on the fourth attempt I managed to get the blanket over the box.

 

I had just started to pull the box towards me when I noticed out of the corner of my eye someone standing in the room.

 

I quickly dropped one end of the blanket and pulled it back through the bars.

 

“Don’t stop, we were enjoying watching you work out that puzzle”

 

I turned round to see Suzie from the Andover nursery standing in the room watching me, and she had with her one of the boys from her nursery, he looked a little older than me, about thirteen or so.

 

He was dressed as I was, but with two exceptions.

He was gagged and had on a pair of white leather gloves which were strapped to a large white leather belt around his waist and his hands were strapped into them.

 

“Simon! please meet David.

He’s going to be spending the rest of the morning with you in here, because like you, he has been a naughty boy, haven’t you David?”

 

David nodded in agreement.

 

Suzie opened the door to the cage next to mine and motioned for David to crawl inside on his knees.

 

He didn’t move at first, he just looked at Suzie and had a petrified look.

 

“It’s either here or back to the nursery and strapped into your cot for the rest of the day, what’s it to be?

 

He dropped to his knees and shuffled into the cage.

Suzie closed the door behind him with a clang.

 

“If you promise to behave David I will remove your gag. Would you like me to remove it? “

 

He nodded his head vigorously, his eyes wide with the expression of yes please now! now.

 

“Come here then”

 

He shuffled back to the doorway and Suzie released the strap, deflated the gag, and pulled it out of his mouth.

 

“If I hear any more obscenities from you today David, or if you try to bite and spit at anyone again today, this goes straight back in.

Do you understand?”

 

“Yes miss. Sorry yes Suzie”

 

“If you’re a good boy I’ll let you out for Lunch. If you’re not, then you can stay in here all day.

Understand?”

 

“Yes Suzie. Can’t I have these off as well”

 

“Maybe later if you’re good.

If not, then we will need to spoon feed you your dinner like a real baby.

Would you like that?”

 

“No! Sorry, no Suzie”

 

“Ok then, you two play nicely and I’ll be back at lunch time to see if you’re

prepared to behave for the rest of the day”

 

She left the room leaving the door open as it was before.

 

“What the fuck did you do to be put in those things mate?”

 

“I tried to rip off my clothes and nappies and bit someone”

 

“Why you here?”

 

“I wouldn’t go to breakfast” I replied

 

“Wow! You’re here because you didn’t eat.

Shit I wonder what’ll happen if you burp at the dinner table”

 

We both laughed

 

“Naw, they hang you upside down by your feet for that” I said.

 

We were now both creased up.

 

“Right let’s see what’s in that box, I can just reach it now”

 

I put my arms through the bars and pulled the box towards me the last few inches, took off the lid and tipped the box so I could peer inside.

 

“You're kidding me, all that fucking about for this”

 

I had seen the contents before.

Penny used to love them when she was a baby.

Inside were four baby rusks.

 

“What’s in there?” asked David, whilst trying to peer in himself.

 

“Cummon show me”

 

I held up one of the rusks. “Want one I asked?”

 

“Dunno, what they taste like? looks like a big macaroon biscuit to me”

He replied.

 

“To be honest I’m starving, I ain’t eaten or drunk since last night’s feast and a biscuit is a biscuit ain’t it”

 

“These are baby rusks mate, not biscuits, you can have em”

 

“Chuck one over then, I’ll give it a go”

 

I threw a rusk towards his cage, and it hit the bar and bounced away out of reach.

 

“Bollocks” said David. “Have another go”

 

I took another rusk out of the box and more carefully this time aimed the rusk to go between the bars and tossed it over.

It landed on the mat just inside the bars of the cage.

 

“Good shot,” said David.

 

“How you gonna eat with your hands like that?” I asked.

 

“Watch me” he said.

 

He positioned himself next to the rusk and fell down on one side, then he began to shuffle himself toward the rusk and grabbed it in his teeth.

 

David took a huge bite and managed to get most of it in, in one mouthful.

 

“A bid wheet, bud ok” he spurted as he ate, “do haf one”

It sounded like he was talking baby talk because his mouth was so full but I

understood what he had said.

 

I picked up another of the rusks and sniffed it, it smelt like a Jaffa cake after you had bitten all the chocolate and orange stuff off, always the best bit of a Jaffa cake the top bit.

I took a nibble, then a bigger bite.

 

“See not too bad” he said as I chewed away.

 

I too hadn’t eaten since last night either, and although I wasn’t starving

something was better than nothing, so I nibbled away.

 

“Anymore in there?” Asked David.

 

“One left, you want it?”

 

“Wouldn’t say no”

 

I carefully tossed the last of the rusks through the bars and David positioned himself in the same way he had done before and thudded to the floor next to the rusk.

 

This time he managed to get the whole thing in, in one go and sat back up

 

. “You ain’t arf got a big gob” I said

 

He just sat there chewing away with a huge smile on his face and a look of

satisfaction of at last having eaten something.

 

“You know what I could do with now?” He said.

 

“A nice bottle of cold milk!” Came a voice from the other side of the room.

 

Suzie was standing by the door, in each hand she had a baby bottle filled with milk.

“Seeing as you pair have finished eating, I thought you might like a drink to wash it down with”

 

She walked toward us holding out the bottles.

 

“Can’t we have coke miss?” Asked David.

 

“No, no coke, but you can have orange juice if you want”

 

“I’ll have the orange please” I replied, seeing as I had just been forced to suck on a bottle of milk earlier, and maybe the orange would be in a glass rather than a bottle.

 

As if!

 

“Ok, and you David, what’ll it be milk or orange?”

 

“I’ll take the juice as well”

 

“I’ll take the juice please” came Suzie’s reply.

 

“I’ll take the juice please Suzie”

 

“There that didn’t hurt now did it, takes nothing to be just a little polite young man. I’ll be back in a minute or so”

 

And with that she turned and headed out of the door.

 

I finished off the rusk I had started and as I swallowed the last of it, Suzie came back in with the juice.

 

“Here we go boys” and she produced in each hand both a bottle and what looked like a large toddlers Sippy cup, both filled with what looked like orange juice.

 

“Seeing as your hands are restricted David, I have brought you the bottle to drink from, Simon you can have the cup”

 

“How the fuc” David stopped short of completing the word fearing the return of the gag.

 

“How the hell do you expect me to drink from that thing tied up like this?”

 

“Hell is better than the other word you were going to use but is still not

acceptable David.

I’ll let you off this time, but you had better start thinking before you speak in

future, otherwise, we may need to prolong your punishment”

 

“Sorry Suzie, but can’t you take these off please, I’ll really be good, promise”

 

“If you’re still behaving at lunch then I might take them off but not before, OK”

 

David looked at Suzie with defeated eyes, he knew she wasn’t going to budge and let him off his punishment,

I could see in his face that he wished he hadn’t tried to bite and punch her

earlier.

 

He nodded and gave out a slight sigh of defeat. Suzie placed his bottle on the floor inside the cage.

 

“But how can I drink from it if I can’t hold it, he asked”

 

“How did you eat the rusk earlier” asked Suzie back.

 

“I’m sure you’ll work it out” Suzie smiled at David, and he looked back with more than a frustrated look.

 

Suzie turned to me and handed me the cup through the bars.

“You deserve this Simon, it was nice to see you share your rusks with David.

Enjoy!”

 

I took the cup and looked it over, it looked like a cup Penny had used as a toddler, but the top was fitted on differently.

 

I waited for Suzie to leave the room and as soon as she went through the door I tried to pull off the lid.

 

“If she thinks I’m drinking from this bloody thing” I said out loud.

 

I pulled at it, I tried to bite it off, I banged it on the bars of the cage with a clang, but I couldn’t get the lid off.

 

David had knocked over his bottle and was now on his side again, positioning himself ready to suck out the juice through the rubber teat.

 

“You look just like a toddler dressed like that, banging your Sippy cup in your playpen” Joked David.

 

“And you look like a real baby laying there sucking that bottle, all you need now is a shitty nappy and your complete”

 

I laughed so hard I couldn’t breathe for a while.

 

“Don’t joke it’s not funny, I really need a shit, but I’ll be fucked if I’m doing it in a nappy”

David had a real look of concern on his face, so much so that I thought he was going to do it right here and right now.

 

“Fuck no, please don’t, I think I’d shit myself laughing if you did”

 

I started really laughing hard again.

 

David started laughing hard as well.

 

“Oh crap! it’s coming, don’t make me laugh I can’t stop it SHIIITT”

 

I immediately stopped laughing, I must have had some sort of serious look on my face, because he stopped laughing as well, after he looked at me.

 

“OH MY GOD” He screamed. He had a look of horror now, like he was about to, to!

 

“Got ya!! You silly bastard you thought I was gonna do it didn’t ya”

 

“Fucking right I did, I was thinking about being locked in here with the smell of shit for the next few hours, and I gotta tell ya! I wasn’t looking forward to it”

 

He smiled a satisfaction smile, you know the one you give someone when you catch them out.

 

“OH MY GOD” he screamed again, and again he had the look of horror on his face, but this time his face was red.

 

“No! please, please don’t” I pleaded with him.

 

Still laying on his side he again smiled and then burst out laughing.

 

“Fuck me you really had me going there that time, you mother fucker”

I started laughing.

 

Despite our situation we were able to laugh about it, but in the back of both our minds I’m sure, we were dreading the thought that we might actually need to have a shit, and in the not-too-distant future either.

 

 

Next time were back with Daniel for his first morning.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

CHAPTER 8

 

Daniel’s morning

 

I was woken by a knock at the door; I rubbed my eyes and sat up.

Again! another knock on the door, I looked over at my clock on the bedside

cabinet which told me it was 6.40.

 

“You ready Daniel?” came a shout from the hallway.

 

“Hang on”

 

I was still in my shirt and trousers from last night, so I jumped off the bed and headed for the door.

 

When I opened the door, Jane was standing there bright eyed and bushy tailed.

 

“You ready she blurted as the door started to move?”

 

“Oh, I see not” she smiled, “looks like someone just woke up didn’t they”

 

“Yea sorry I didn’t set my alarm last night.

 

“No matter you still have plenty of time, you’d better change your clothes though, looks like you have slept in those all-night”

 

I gave her a wry smile and nodded that I had.

 

“Chop, chop or you’ll miss your first coffee of the day, and it looks like you need it”

 

She turned and headed off down the corridor toward the staff room.

 

“Don’t be long, I’ll see you in the staff room. I’ll get you a coffee ready”

 

I closed the door and made my way to the bathroom.

I stared at my reflection in the mirror.

Why do I always look so bloody rough in the morning I asked myself.

 

I pulled off my t-shirt and looked at my bite from last night.

It had developed into a large black & purple bruise which was tender to the touch, and I could still see the teeth marks.

 

I won’t get caught like that again I thought to myself.

I shaved, peed, washed, cleaned my teeth, and changed, then made my way to the staff room.

 

The clock on the wall said 6:55 when I walked in, so I still had time for that quick coffee, which Jane had in her hand as I walked through the staff room door.

 

“Thought you might need this” she said as she handed me the mug.

 

“Thanks, you’re a life saver”

 

I swigged a full mouthful.

 

“where’s your name tag Daniel?” Came a voice from behind me.

 

I felt my chest and found that I had left it off

 

I turned to see Mrs Thompson standing with a displeased look on her face.

 

“Sorry I must have left it on my dirty shirt, I’ll go and get it now”

I put my hand in my pocket, but didn’t find what I was looking for, so I tried the other one.

 

“I suppose you have left your key in your room as well haven’t you” She smiled.

I nodded an embarrassed nod and looked down at the floor, just like a kid being told off by a parent.

 

I don’t know why but Mrs Thompson seemed to have that effect on me.

 

“Come with me then, I handed my mug to Jane, she just smiled and took the mug from me.

 

I followed Mrs Thompson out of the room, and we headed toward my room.

Outside my door she produced a key and opened it, pushing the door open and motioning me to go in.

 

“My, my, we have left a mess again haven’t we”

 

“Oh! yes sorry, I was running late this morning”

 

“Please do try to keep your room clean and tidy Daniel, we like all staff to make their beds and put away dirty clothes before they leave it.

I’ve already had to pick up your dirty clothes and towels once, please don’t

expect me to do it again”

 

With that, I rushed around and picked up all my dirty stuff and jammed it into the washing basket in the bathroom.

I grabbed my Keys and badge and made for the door.

 

“Haven’t you forgotten something Daniel”

 

I stopped in my tracks, turned, raised my eyes to the ceiling, and headed for the bed, this woman is worse than my mother I thought to myself.

 

I tided the bed, then hung my badge in place around my neck and finally made for the door.

 

“A tidy mind leads to a productive mind, please remember that Daniel, we will retrieve your dirty washing, but we don’t have the time to clean up after you, and as I said yesterday your key and name badge are vitally important, please

remember them at all times”

 

“Yes sorry, I’ll make sure it doesn’t happen again”

 

I closed the door behind me and headed off back to the staff room, just in time to see a crowd of people heading toward us.

 

Bugger, I wanted to finish that coffee.

 

I stood at the door to the staircase down and waited for Tony and the rest of the Pembroke staff to come by.

 

“Sorry you didn’t get to finish that coffee Daniel” said Tony as he filed by.

 

“Not as sorry as I am” I replied. “I could have really done with finishing it”

 

We made our way downstairs and all split up and headed towards our

respective nurseries.

 

When we went into the Pembroke playroom, Tony stopped everyone and asked us all to take a seat.

We then had a chat about what to expect from the forthcoming mornings events.

 

He warned the new staff about what to expect and just generally got everyone motivated, as would any good team leader.

 

“And don’t forget that you need to be paying particular care to the problem kids from last night.

Now they have some movement back you may have a bit of aggression.

How’s your shoulder this morning Daniel?”

 

“A bit bruised and sore, but nothing I can’t handle thanks”

 

“Ok if were ready then, let’s go”

 

We made our way through the doors one by one and into the nursery.

All of the kids were awake and talking, Tony turned up the lights in the room.

 

“Did everyone sleep well?”

 

Tony knew what the answer was already, and only a couple of the kids replied yes, most of the replies came back in a somewhat more negative response.

 

“Well, it’s breakfast time, who’s ready for breakfast?”

 

Most of the kids seemed to think that they were going to be changed first but Tony put everyone right on that matter.

 

“You’ll all get a change after breakfast” he said

“Who thinks they can walk?”

 

No one answered.

 

“Looks like everyone’s crawling to breakfast then”

All of a sudden as if by some sort of miracle everyone could now walk.

 

“Let’s see who can sit up then shall we,” said Tony.

 

The six of us split up and headed for the cots to let down the sides, a few of the kids sprang out of their cot all ready to go, James included.

 

I first went to help Simon to his feet. He was a bit wobbly at first, but I told him to hang on to the cot while I helped Samantha.

 

I lowered the side of her cot and helped her sit up, then pulled her legs around so they dangled over the side.

 

I nearly caught a fistful as she took a swing at my head, but I was a little quicker than she was and managed to avoid the swipe.

 

“Try that again Samantha and you’ll be spending the rest of the day locked up here in your cot”

 

Tony had spotted the attempt and asked if I needed help, but I replied that I could handle it.

 

Sam was going to be trouble today I could sense it, I think that she felt it was her time to fight back, the fact that she now had some movement back she would try to carry out her threats from last night, but as of yet she was still as weak as a kitten and had slow reactions so I wasn’t too concerned.

 

“So, Samantha what’s it to be, locked in here for the day or breakfast?”

 

She reluctantly decided on the breakfast option so I helped her to her feet and led her over to Simon’s cot to collect him, then we headed or should I say

wobbled our way out of the nursery door and into the corridor and onward to the staircase.

 

“When will we be able to walk properly again?” asked Simon.

 

“You should be ok in an hour or two and by this afternoon you should be

running around normally again”

 

“When do we get these clothes and nappies off then?” enquired Sam.

 

“You’ll get a change after breakfast”

 

“But this nappy is wet and uncomfortable, can’t you take it off now?”

 

“After”

 

“But why?”

 

“Truth?” I asked.

 

“Yes truth” She replied.

 

“Well, you should try to have a pee again during or after breakfast, and maybe try to empty your bowels, because when we change you later, you’ll have a fresh clean nappy on for your morning activities”

 

“You mean were having more nappies after breakfast” she screamed.

 

“Yes, I thought you’d realized that everyone’s going to be in nappies until you all go home”

 

Sam had obviously decided that she didn’t like that idea, and after a short 

discussion about her taking her clothes off and subsequent punishments she could or might expect, she decided that she wasn’t having any more and dumped herself on the floor.

 

She glared at Simon as if to say you’re joining me down here aren’t you, and low and behold he collapsed to the floor as well and joined Sam in her little protest.

 

It was all they could do to remain upright, but they just about managed it.

It reminded me of a couple of babies trying to sit up on their own for the first time, wobbling too and frow.

 

“If that’s the way you two want to play it then fine, you can sit here while

everyone else goes for breakfast”

 

Everyone else filed past and made their way to the stairs, James tried to

encourage Simon to come with them, but I think because Simon had made a bond with Sam, he decided that he would support her in her hour of need.

 

Tony gave me a thumbs up as he went past and mouthed, we’ll save you some.

 

Jane filed past us a while later with the kids from Arundel nursery, and a little guy asked what my two were doing on the floor.

 

“Not having breakfast, I replied” And most of the kids sniggered which didn’t please Sam one bit.

 

Simon whispered a little plea to Sam about wanting breakfast, but she only gave him a mouthful of abuse and he looked crestfallen.

 

After a while some of the older kids from Andover filed by, and also a few from Windsor, all heading for the stairs in total silence, most with heads bowed.

A couple of them glanced over at us and smiled a knowing smile, but most just walked on heads bowed down.

 

“I’ll give you two one last chance, do you want to sit here or do you want

breakfast”

 

Simon looked at Sam, still pleading with his eyes.

She just stared back and didn’t say a word.

 

“OK your choice, we’ll just sit here then shall we”

 

I could see Simon was getting more frustrated with Sam and I could also see that sitting on the floor was becoming more than uncomfortable for him in his wet nappy.

 

It was nearly half an hour before everyone came back from breakfast.

They all filed past us in silence again and headed towards the games room.

 

James again tried to persuade Simon to go with them, this time I think he nearly did, but he looked in Sam’s direction, and she just stuck to her guns and stayed put.

 

It was another half an hour before everyone came out again, but this time dressed in their day clothes and heading back downstairs for their morning

activities.

 

As everyone came out Sam caught her first glimpse of what they were wearing and reacted in horror.

 

“If you think I’m gonna wear that gear your fucking crazy”

 

A slow succession of kids from all of the nurseries gradually came and went as the morning continued, some of the smaller kids looked so cute in whatever they had on, be it pink or blue.

 

About another 15 minutes passed.

Tony, Jenny, and Kim came back upstairs and made towards the games room.

Tony stopped and whispered in my ear.

 

“Time to move to stage two Daniel” he said.

 

“Give them another warning and another 10 minutes then we’ll come back out and get them sorted”

 

I nodded and he moved off to the games room door.

 

“Right, you two I’ll give you both another 10 minutes then we’ll move onto stage two”

 

“What’s stage two?” Simon worriedly asked.

 

“Wait the 10 minutes and you’ll find out”

 

Simon again looked at Sam, but as before she wasn’t going to budge.

He had a panicked look on his face now, I don’t know what he thought we had in store for them both, but it looked as if he wanted no part of it.

 

All of a sudden there was a loud hissing noise and Simon had a look of relief on his face.

A small puddle appeared on the floor between his legs.

He had obviously been holding on for some time and had flooded his already wet nappy.

 

Sam spotted the puddle on the floor and burst out laughing.

Simon was absolutely heartbroken.

He had obviously thought that she cared about him, but she had betrayed that in no uncertain terms.

 

Simon got onto all fours and gradually onto his feet, he made or should I say waddled his way over to where I was standing.

 

He looked at me with a look of sadness and shame.

 

“Can you change my nappy please”

 

“Sorry Simon, it’s both of you or neither” I replied.

 

He pleaded firstly with me. “I want to quit” he said.

He then turned to Sam.

 

“Look you got me into this, now get us out”

 

“I didn’t ask you too, did I? You did it yourself” She replied.

 

“But I thought we were friends”

 

“Friends don’t give in; they stand by each other till the end”

 

“You fucking cow!”

Simon was desperate now he couldn’t believe Sam had turned on him, rejected his friendship and worst of all broken whatever bond they had.

 

“Right times up, what’s it going to be the pair of you?”

 

“Do your worst wanker” Came the reply from Sam.

 

 Simon looked at her in horror, he pleaded with her, then he pleaded with me.

 

“What’s it going to be Samantha? It’s up to you now”

 

Simon again pleaded with her.

She looked at Simon, smiled, then looked at me and gave me a hard stare.

 

“You touch me cunt and I’ll stab you”

 

“Fine but don’t say you weren’t warned”

 

In a flash, Tony, Kim, and Jenny shot out of the games room and grabbed the pair of them.

I helped Kim with Sam, and we pulled her up off the floor.

Tony and Jenny grabbed Simon

 

Although Sam didn’t have her full strength back, she was still hard to handle.

She tried to bite, and when she couldn’t reach us, she started spitting at both of us, intermingled with a constant flow of obscenities.

 

The four of us carried them both through to the second changing room where the changing tables had been fitted with restraints.

 

Kim and I laid Sam down and started to fasten her wrists.

We managed without too much trouble to secure them and followed that with a strap across her chest.

 

“I am gonna kill you both you fucking bastards, get your cuntin hands off me”

 

She continued to spit and swear as we were working, she caught me in the eye with one which wasn’t pleasant I can tell you.

 

Kim walked over to the gag cupboard and brought back a gag.

 

“Fucking bitch, you ain’t gonna touch me with that fucking thing”

 

I tried to repeat on Sam what I had seen last night.

Hand on head, palm on jaw and squeeze, but Sam’s jaw was clenched tight shut.

 

“Want me to give it a go” Asked Kim as she handed me the gag.

 

Kim with a more expert hand, and despite superhuman strength from Sam,

managed to prise Sam’s jaw open.

I managed to pop the dummy in and do up the strap, Sam was tossing her head back and front, left and right in an effort to stop me completing my task but

between us we managed to fit it, and Kim inflated the mouthpiece.

 

Sam was still struggling against the straps but now that the gag was in, she was now somewhat subdued.

I noticed Simon watching what was going on with Sam, he looked as though he was going to die if we were going to do the same to him.

 

He started to cry in fear not knowing what was coming next, but Tony started to calm him down without the use of a gag.

 

Kim and I started to undress Sam to change her, she struggled and kicked whilst we undid her sleeper but once we had her feet out, we secured her legs with straps at the ankles.

 

Kim slid down the plastic pants, and I unpinned the sodden nappy and removed it, I dropped it into the open nappy bucket that already had a few in it from the earlier changes.

 

I tried to calm Sam down.

 

“Samantha If you struggle you might hurt yourself, just try to calm down”

 

She looked at both of us wide eyed screaming against her gag thrashing her head from side to side.

 

“Do we need to inject her Kim?” I asked.

 

“Not yet we’ll change her and get her to her cot and see how it goes first.”

 

I grabbed a triple stack of terry nappies that had already been folded off the

table, and with Kim’s help, placed them under Sam and pinned them in place.

 

Kim removed the strap on one leg and fitted the plastic pants over her foot and re-did the strap.

She repeated the process with the other leg and pulled the pants back up her legs pulling them over the bulk of the three nappies, tucking in the material at the legs and waist making sure there were no gaps.

 

We then between us, one leg at a time unstrapped her legs and refitted her feet into her sleepers’ feet, then redid the straps again then buttoned the sleeper up.

 

Sam’s strength was slowly getting stronger with every minute now.

 

Simon was being redressed as we finished Sam.

 

He though, had on his punishment dress and frilly pants over his triple nappies.

 

Sam saw that Simon was being let down off the changing table and really kicked off again.

Pulling at her restraints and trying to scream through her gag.

 

“Had you young lady, not been so awkward and abusive you would now be on your way downstairs with Simon,” said Kim.

 

Jenny took Simon out of the room and Tony turned to Kim and me.

 

“Now Samantha, what are we going to do with you?” He said.

 

 “Are you going to calm down or are you going to carry on as you have been?” 

 

Sam tried to scream through the gag but could only grunt incoherent words out.

 

“I’ll take that as a no then”

 

Tony’s years of experience had taught him to decipher gagged words and screams, much the same way a dentist always knows what you’re saying with his hands in your mouth.

 

The three of us unstrapped Sam and picked her up.

She was far stronger than she was before, she really had some power in her arms and legs now, but we managed to carry her through to the nursery and her cot.

 

Someone had already fitted restraints to her cot in preparation of her arrival, as they had also done with Simon’s cot.

We laid her down and secured her arms, legs, and chest with the leather straps.

 

“We’ll give you some time to calm down, but when we come back, I’ll expect a marked improvement in your attitude young lady,” said Tony.

 

Tony lifted the side of the cot and secured it in place.

Sam was still struggling against the straps and screaming through the gag as we walked away.

 

“You go and get your breakfast Daniel, Kim and I will keep an eye on her”

 

“I’d rather stay if you don’t mind Tony, she is one of mine”

 

“I know, and I know your keen, but it’ll be a good half an hour before she’s calm enough to listen to anyone.

You go have something to eat, you’ll feel much better for it, and we do have a long day ahead of us today”

 

“Ok then. You reckon she’ll calm down?”

 

“I think so, if not then onto stage three,” said Kim.

 

I must have looked a little worried at that statement because Tony told me not to worry, “It’s nothing serious; you just go get your breakfast, or is it brunch now?

Come back in forty-five and we’ll see how she is”

 

I left the nursery and headed towards the stairs in search of some food.

Jane spotted me coming down from the bottom of the stairs and called me over to the reception desk where she was doing some paperwork.

 

“See you had a couple of problems this morning then Daniel”

 

“You could say that” I replied.

 

“Jane what’s stage 3?”

 

“Why you have one heading to stage three then?”

 

“Looks that way”

 

“Boy or girl?”

 

“Girl”

 

“I take it she was the instigator of the problem this morning then”

 

“Yep”

 

“Well, it’s nothing to worry about, we just need to show her that no matter what she tries were always going to win the battle of wills”

 

“How do we go about that then”

 

“Is she aggressive?”

 

“Oh, just a bit” I smiled

 

“Biting and kicking”

 

“Yep, spitting, the works”

 

“Well, we give them time to calm down.

I assume she’s restrained and gagged”

 

“Yes” I replied.

 

“Well in a while you can try firstly to remove the gag, Tony will go through it with you, I’m sure.

If that works then the restraints come off, then we move her to the baby’s room to reflect on her actions.

 

If on the other hand she still tries to bite and scream we then repeat last night’s injection to relax her, and during her next nappy change pop in a suppository”

 

“Why the suppository?”

 

“Well, if we show the child that they have absolutely no control over what is happening to them, they tend to calm down a lot faster, and there is nothing

better for that, than to have a child poop a nappy and have no control over it at all.

 

A couple of hours lying in a dirty wet nappy normally has the effect were

looking for.

They become more controllable and have time to reflect on what’s happened and why.

All the time were talking to them, reassuring them, checking on them.

Trying to relax them.

 

It’s the first step for really addressing the aggressive tendencies we get from a few of the kids.

 

Look, you go and have a bite to eat, and I’ll catch up with you later and we’ll chat some more after you’ve eaten”

 

I headed off down the corridor towards the kitchen and spotted an unusually open door to the baby’s room.

 

I stopped outside and peaked in.

 

Simon was in one of the cages at the end of the room sitting quietly.

He had calmed down now and was surveying his surroundings.

I left him to it and carried on to the kitchen and clicked open the door.

 

Mrs Flagstaff and her ladies were busily preparing lunch.

 

“Your breakfast is in the hotplate in the staff canteen Daniel, and there is a pot of coffee on the table, you look like you could do with one young man” said Mrs Flagstaff.

 

“Your right there, starving and gasping, many thanks” I replied and headed

toward the room at the back of the kitchen.

 

I woofed down the meal which was a mixture of scrambled egg, sausage, bacon, and fried bread, and followed that with a couple of cups of fresh coffee.

 

I thanked Mrs Flagstaff and made my way back down the corridor towards the stairs.

 

I looked in on Simon as I walked past, and he was trying to reach a box outside the cage that was just too far for him to reach.

 

All was quiet in the building, but I noticed Suzie out of the corner of my eye, walking down the corridor with a boy of about fourteen, who had quite obviously been in trouble.

 

He was dressed in the white punishment dress and an obvious, now customary three layers of punishment terry nappies and frilly pants, but he also had a gag in his mouth, and his hands were restrained in white leather mittens attached to a belt around his waist.

 

“Morning Daniel” said Suzie.

 

“Morning” I replied

 

“Problems?” I asked.

 

“Yes, you could say that this is David, say hello to Daniel David”

 

David grunted a sort of ineligible hello through the gag.

 

“David tried to take a bite out of me this morning, and he’s been a little horror so he’s on punishment.”

 

“So, I see”

 

“Say goodbye to Daniel, David”

David attempted a muffled goodbye and Suzie Shepard’d him into the baby’s room.

 

I looked at my watch. Bugger I was late.

I ran to the stairs and bounded up them three at a time until I reached the top

landing.

 

“Don’t run, there’s no rush”

 

Tony was at the top of the stairs waiting for me.

 

“Sorry, I lost track of time”

 

“No worries, take your time, were in no hurry” Smiled Tony.

 

“Right as Samantha is your charge, I would like you to take the lead when we go in”

 

“What do you want me to do with her then?”

 

“Well, she’s calmed down a bit now and stopped struggling against the straps, she’s laying quietly.

I suggest that firstly you talk to her as you did last night, explain a few things and try to reassure her a bit.

Offer to remove the gag if she agrees to remain calm and listen.

 

If she agrees then tell her that you’re prepared to release her from the bed

Restraints, but emphasize she will still need to be punished and explain what that punishment is”

 

“Which is?” I asked.

 

“As we have done with Simon, we will re dress her and take her down to the baby’s room to join him, just re-work that magic you did last night fella”

 

Tony and I walked through to the nursery and headed for Sam’s cot.

 

She spotted us walking toward her and screwed her eyes with a total look of

abhorrence.

Tony stood back a little and I lowered the side of the cot and knelt next to her.

 

“If I remove your gag, are you going to behave?”

 

She nodded.

 

“Will you allow me to talk to you sensibly and not scream and swear?”

 

She nodded again, she still had that look in her eyes though, so I wasn’t totally convinced.

 

“You’re not doing a good job of convincing me Samantha, your nodding tells me one thing, and your eyes tell me another, if I remove your gag will you

behave?”

 

This time she nodded, and her expression changed from I’m going to kill you to, ok you win.

 

“Turn your head and face away from me so I can undo the strap sweetie”

 

She turned and I undid the strap on the gag, she turned her head back and I

deflated it and slowly pulled it out.

She tried to speak but was a little horse and could only croak some words out that I was unable to understand.

Due to all the screaming she had been doing she had dried up her mouth and throat.

 

“Would you like a drink?”

 

She again nodded.

 

Tony went to the fridge and came back with a bottle of milk.

Sam shook her head and croaked.

 

“Not a fucking bottle, will you give up with all this baby shit”

 

“It’s a bottle or nothing” Tony replied.

 “We don’t keep cups or glasses up here, so bottle or not? And please curb your language”

 

“Ok you win”

She croaked, with a clear note of sarcasm in her voice.

 

“Let me have it”

She opened her mouth to take in the rubber teat.

I held the bottle in place and started to explain what was going on and why she was here, while she sucked the milk down.

 

I told her what would happen if she behaved, what Happy summers was all about, things that we expect and things that we can achieve working together over the next six weeks.

 

Sam seemed to take it well, nodding and shaking her head when I asked a

question.

 

As she sucked on the last of the bottle, I pulled it out.

 

“Would you like me to release you now?” She smiled and nodded.

 

I stood up and reached over to undo the strap that was holding her right wrist.

As I was undoing the strap I kept my eyes firmly on Sam’s face, watching for any hint of a problem, and the next thing I knew she spat a mouthful of milk right into my face, followed by a really heavy slap cum punch in my left ear, which sent me flying.

 

“That’s for shaving me you fucking cunt, next time I’ll have a knife and stab you, you fucking bastard”

 

Tony was in like a shot, he grabbed Sam’s arm and re did the strap.

She was shouting, spitting, and screaming again. I was staggering trying to

compose myself.

 

“You ok mate?”

 

“Yea! think so, she just caught me off guard a bit”

 

“Go grab a towel and wash your face off”

 

I headed for the bathroom and splashed my face with cold water, my ear was throbbing, my god did she throw a punch for a twelve-year-old.

 

I went back in to see Tony and Kim reinserting Sam’s gag.

Kim had heard the commotion and come running to see what the problem was.

 

“You feeling better?” asked Tony

 

I nodded a yes.

 

“It’s not been a lucky start for you has it. First the bite and now this”

 

“I’ll live” I replied.

 

“Could you pop through to changing room one and pick me up a syringe from the cupboard please, and on your way back bring through a fresh set of nappies plastic pants and some latex gloves”

 

I did as I was asked, grabbed everything, and went back through to the nursery.

 

Kim and Tony had by this time part undressed Sam and were just snaking her plastic pants down her legs.

 

“Looks like we won’t need the nappies Daniel she’s not wet”

 

Tony undid the pins on her nappy and dropped the front and sides.

 

“Pass me the syringe Daniel” asked Kim.

 

Sam was kicking up a real fuss, struggling against the straps heaving her body up, down, left, and right to try to escape her bonds.

 

Kim stabbed the syringe’s needle into Sam’s exposed buttock and injected the muscle relaxant.

The both of them then stood back with me and we waited for the injection to take effect.

Tony turned to me and checked the side of my face.

 

“No Blood, your ears a bit red though”

 

“Yea she caught me a cracker, I should have been expecting it really after what you said last night and this morning”

 

Sam was still screaming through the gag, and she still had the look of hatred in her eyes, but this time directed at all three of us.

 

“What has she been given this time?” I asked Tony.

 

“It’s the same as she had last night Daniel.

The effect will last a little longer this time because she still has the remains of last night’s drug in her system”

 

As with last night, slowly the movement from Sam subsided, except her tossing her head to and frow but now all that could be heard were her muffled screams and obscenities.

 

“I think she’s ready now Kim. Give us a hand Daniel”

 

The three of us undid Sam’s restraints. I did her legs and Tony and Kim her arms.

 

Tony produced a small box from his pocket and removed what looked like a small brown pill. He then slipped a latex glove on his right hand.

 

“You two lift her legs over her head so I can get this in”

 

We did as we were instructed, fully exposing Sam’s backside to Tony and he slipped the suppository in her anus.

 

“Right, you can let her down now”

 

I could see that Sam was less than impressed with what we had just done to her, and she continued to try to scream through the gag, she was now getting more than a little stressed and had snot bubbles blowing out of her nose as she breathed.

 

“Samantha, I need you to calm down young lady, otherwise you might choke yourself”

Tony was speaking softly to her trying to calm her down.

 

“You have yourself to blame for this and we can’t undo what has been done, but if you calm down, we’ll leave you alone once we have you dressed again.

 

As Tony spoke to her, Sam wet herself.

 

A strong steady stream of pee shot out of her urethra onto the open nappy, which was still positioned beneath her.

She quietened almost straight away.

 

Tears were now streaming down her face, and she had a look of utter horror.

She had obviously been holding on for ages and the pressure on her bladder of us bending her legs over must have set her off.

I was just glad that it happened after we got her legs back down and not before.

 

“Looks like we’ll need those clean nappies after all,” said Tony.

 

The three of us cleaned Sam up, re-nappied and dressed her back into her

sleeper.

 

I re-secured her restraints and pulled up the sheet and blanket and tucked them in.

 

“You stay with her for a while Daniel, Kim and I will leave the two of you alone” And with that they left me alone with Sam.

 

Sam wouldn’t look at any of us while we were re dressing her and she wouldn’t look at me while I tried to comfort her either.

 

“Look Sam, we can help you here, everything we do here is done to help kids like you.

 

We know about your past, and we have a pretty good idea about what you’ve been up to, we know that you’re not all bad, no kid is.

But you need to let us try to help you.

 

We get many kids just like you through here every year, and we help them to better themselves, and make them feel better about themselves.

At the moment what’s happening to you doesn’t look like help I know, but I can tell you we will do everything to help you make your life better”

 

She turned and looked at me and tried to speak through the gag. But I couldn’t understand so I released the pressure on the mouthpiece.

She still couldn’t talk properly but I could just about understand what she was saying through the deflated gag.

 

“I don’t want your fucking help, I’m happy with my life as it is”

 

“But what you’re doing to yourself, and your dad isn’t good is it.

Your constantly in trouble, you’re never at school and you’re having

unprotected sex, don’t you want a better life?

 

Do you really want to end up on the scrap heap, your only twelve and you have your whole life ahead of you.

You could have someone special in there, just waiting to come out, don’t you want to find out, do you really want to waste your life?”

 

“I don’t fucking care, I just want out of here”

 

“But you must know that’s not going to happen” I replied.

 

“Why don’t you give it a try, let us show you what you can achieve, let us show you where you can help yourself, just be patient and let’s work together, you and me, let me help you find you, Sam”

 

“Why should I fucking change, I’m happy being me, I’m happy doing what I do, so why would I want to fucking change my life.

 

“Do you really like who you are? From what I’ve read, you’re being used by everyone you know, those so-called friends of yours treat you like a tart

something to shag.

Someone to get to steal for them so they can get booze and drugs”

 

“I don’t do drugs”

 

“But at this rate it won’t be long before you do, then you’re in a never-ending spiral and the spiral normally ends in your killing someone or even yourself, do you really want to end up that way?”

 

She didn’t reply, she looked away and I noticed a tear rolling down her cheek.

 

“Let us help you Sam, let’s work at it together for your sake, for your dad’s sake, he cares so much about you, he’s been so lonely since your mum died he needs a friend a real friend, just the same way as you do.

He misses his little girl he misses little Sammzy.”

 

Sam turned and faced me and burst into tears, tears of regret, tears of utter

sadness.

 

“Daddy used to call me Samzie how’d you know?”

 

Your dad told us everything, your daddy wants his little Samzie back, shall we try Sam, shall we see if she’s still in there?”

 

Sam nodded.

 

“Can I take the gag out, will you stay calm?”

 

She nodded again. So, I removed her gag.

 

“Your dad would be proud of you Sam, let’s you and I work together, starting tomorrow, we’ll start again, start afresh, a new beginning. Deal?”

 

Sam was sobbing, she nodded.

This time her eyes said help me, I want your help.

 

“I’ll bring you up some lunch soon and we can chat some more, ok?”

 

 She nodded again.

 

“Just one thing, don’t tell anyone I called you Sam, I’ll get into real trouble ok.

Sam smiled, I lifted the bars on her cot and left her there, to her thoughts.

 

I made my way into the changing room and closed the door behind me.

Tony was waiting for me.

 

“You were made for this job Daniel, I was watching and listening to you, you’re a bit of a natural at this and I can see you helping a lot of the kids over the weeks to come.”

 

I was chuffed, I was just doing what came naturally to me, as I had done for many years now, but I could see where we going and why we were all here, these kids aren’t bad they just need a push in the right direction, some guidance, a little nurturing to help them help themselves.

 

I think I was going to enjoy my six weeks at happy summers.

 

 

Next time were with Simons parents at the beginning of their own journey.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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